So You’re Secretly Jealous Again - Chapter 42

“If you just want to have such a person by your side, there’s no need to stick to whether this person is a love interest or not.”

“In other words, even if I’m not your lover, at the end of the day, I’m going to be a partner anyway, right? Isn’t the purpose to help each other in life in the future? In fact, we have to rely on each other, right?”

“So, if you trust me, you can rely on me with confidence.”

Shu Jinshi’s tone was neither light nor heavy, calm and gentle.

So is what she said.

There is no hype, and there is no boundless false space. It is ordinary, but it is the most convincing.

The feeling of her whole person is that she is caring, reliable, and meticulous.

Xu Fengyi put her cheeks in her arms, listening to her explain things rationally, she had an illusion in a trance, feeling that she was now well cared for in a soft world and very safe.

With her fingers slightly curled, Xu Fengyi squeezed the coat fabric on her shoulders and neck, her brows furrowed again. Finally, this time, she no longer held back, just like a child, crying without any scruples in her arms.

I cried so hard that my cheeks were wrinkled, and I let the tears flow freely, and my whole body was hot and trembling.

As for Shu Jinshi, she just quietly stroked her hair, looking at the river surface that was gradually darkening with time, without saying a word.

After an unknown amount of time, Xu Fengyi finally stopped crying and slowly left from Shu Jinshi’s arms.

“Here.” Seeing that she finally stopped talking, Shu Jinshi curled his lips slightly and handed her two or three tissues.

“Thank you.” Xu Fengyi paused for a second, reached out to take it, and held it in front of him.

The paper towel is soft and white, with a light blue orchid printed on it, which is very fragrant.

Before her emotional breakdown was too severe, she patronized and cried there, without paying attention to the appearance of the tissue.

Now that I look closely, I realize that this tissue looks very familiar.

Xu Fengyi always felt that he seemed to have seen it somewhere, but he couldn’t remember it all of a sudden.

After racking her brains for rounds and rounds of thinking, Xu Fengyi suddenly realized, blinked her eyes, and looked at Shu Jinshi momentarily: “This is a tissue from the Porridge Shop? Jinshi, did you also go to Porridge for dinner today? “

Not expecting the other party to ask such a question at all, Shu Jinshi’s palms became cold and sweaty.

Xu Fengyi unfolded the paper towel and brought it to her: “Porridge’s paper towel looks like this, and even the fragrance is exactly the same! Because I like this fragrance very much, so I paid special attention, and I haven’t purchased it from other places yet. I saw it.”

Shu Jinshi:  …

This works too. How could anyone pay attention to these weird details? incredible

Afterwards, Shu Jinshi put his hands on his back, closed his eyes and made up a lie calmly: “I also went to Porridge Book to eat before, and when I left, I wiped my mouth and put the rest in my bag. “

“So it is.” Xu Fengyi understood.

Shu Jinshi glanced at her and urged: “Okay, hurry up and wipe it, your face is full of tears now, and your eyelashes are smudged.”

“Oh…” Xu Fengyi hurriedly lowered her head and greeted with a tissue to her face.

She really cried so much today that she was feeling dizzy now. His cheeks and eyes were warm, as if he had just been steamed, which was uncomfortable.

The skin on my face also became extra tight after the tears dried up.

After blowing her nose and throwing the tissue into the trash can next to her, Xu Fengyi let out a long breath and pursed her lips when she looked at Shu Jin.

“What’s wrong?” Shu Jinshi asked.

After being asked by the other party, Xu Fengyi shuddered and said, “It’s a little… cold.”

It is six o’clock in the afternoon.

It seems that it is not too late, but in winter, the days are short and the nights are long. At present, the sky has already turned dark, and the surrounding street lamps have been lit up row by row with an attitude that can push the night back one inch is an inch.

At the same time, the wind by the river gradually changed from soft to wild, which was gradually overwhelming.

Just now, she was crying, and her whole body was hot, but she didn’t feel much. Now that she stopped crying, she no longer focused on her emotions, and her heart was instantly cold and her heart was flying.

“It’s really cold, then let’s go, it’ll be better if we leave here.” Shu Jinshi saw that she could speak normally like this, and she finally relaxed while holding the heart tightly, and the corners of her lips were dyed with a soft layer of softness. smile.

“Okay.” Xu Fengyi nodded.

Then the two walked side by side, turned from the riverside together, crossed the road, and walked to a sidewalk where they came.

The temperature at night is much lower than that in the daytime, but the riverside is much colder.

After leaving there now, the cold is cold, but at least there is no longer a feeling of being surrounded and suppressed by ice blades from all directions.

Under the dim street lamp, Xu Fengyi let out a cloud of white air, squeezed his left hand with his left hand, and rubbed his right hand with his left hand many times, and then jumped again in order to warm himself up quickly.

With a hop, the small silver zipper loop on the side of the boot jiggles.

“Is it cold?”

At this time, Shu Jinshi’s voice came from the side.

Xu Fengyi turned her attention away from the light in front of her, looked at her, and lightly nodded her chin: “Especially the hands and ears, it feels like they’re almost frozen.”

Shu Jinshi stopped immediately: “Then don’t go, stop.”

“Huh?” Xu Fengyi was very confused, she took back the steps she just took, and stepped back to the same level as her, standing extremely straight.

Shu Jinshi smiled: “Where is the military posture?”

Xu Fengyi was stunned, realizing that she was a little tense, and immediately relaxed her posture.

Immediately, Shu Jinshi stood in front of her.

She was originally tall, but when she put on high heels, she became even taller. The moment she walked over, it blocked some of the light cast by the street lamps.

Xu Fengyi didn’t know what she was going to do, and her face was full of curiosity.

It wasn’t until a few seconds later that her ears became hot.

It was Shu Jinshi who raised his hand and covered her ears.

Her palm was very warm, so warm that Xu Fengyi was like a person who had just been rescued from the ice cave, and her whole body froze.

The moment the other party put his hands on his ears, Xu Fengyi felt that his heart stopped.

Even, the whole world stopped.

In this brief second, she could not hear the wind, the whistling of the vehicles, or the chattering, laughing and whispering of the surrounding pedestrians.

Only the sound of the other party’s breathing could be heard.

You can only see the other’s beautiful eyes.

After a while, her heart started beating slowly again.

Her ears really became much warmer.

“Is this better?” Shu Jinshi said.

Xu Fengyi woke up like a dream, and his brain got stuck for a moment, and then nodded like a chicken pecking at the rice: “Okay, it’s better.”

Shu Jinshi smiled lightly, put down his hand, and spread his palm up in front of her: “Hand, give it to me.”

Xu Fengyi’s index finger hooked imperceptibly, and then she raised her hand hanging on both sides of her body and placed it lightly in Shu Jinshi’s palm.

“It’s really cool, why don’t you put it in your pocket?” Shu Jinshi held her hand and asked, raising his eyelids.

When her hand was clenched tightly by the other party, when her icy fingertips were wrapped in a gentle warmth, Xu Fengyi’s heart sank, and she pursed her lips and looked at her: “The clothes I’m wearing today… The design is very shallow and hard to put.”

Shu Jinshi tilted his head and glanced at the clothes on her that were nothing but good-looking, and shook his head.

Taking a step forward, Shu Jinshi pulled her hand up to her lips, her eyelashes drooped, and gently breathed two warm breaths into her hand, rubbing it carefully and carefully.

Like a very gentle and caring parent.

Finally, her fingertips gradually became warmer.

The blood seems to have become unobstructed, no longer like it was frozen into a ball like before, whether it is straightened or pinched, it is very stiff.

“Is it better?” Shu Jinshi raised his eyes and asked.

Xu Fengyi was stunned for two seconds, then nodded hurriedly: “Okay!”

Shu Jinshi laughed.

Xu Fengyi looked at the gentle smile that stretched out on her face, her heart froze, she cleared her throat, and put her eyes on the ground: “Thank you.”

“It’s okay.” Shu Jinshi returned to her side.

But she didn’t let go of Xu Fengyi’s right hand, but squeezed her right hand and stuffed it into her coat pocket: “If the pocket is too shallow, just put it in my pocket. I’m warmer here.”

After finishing speaking, Shu Jinshi opened his legs and continued to walk forward with Xu Fengyi.

Xu Fengyi didn’t care what to say, and hurriedly followed in her footsteps.

The pockets of Shu Jinshi’s clothes were so large that it was more than enough to fit two hands.

At first, when I put it in my hand, it was actually a little cold, and I could clearly feel the coolness of the inner lining.

But soon, the coolness gradually disappeared and became warmer.

I don’t know if it’s Shu Jinshi’s hand warmer, or the fabric in the pocket is easy to warm.

Gradually, another unknown warmth spread layer by layer into Xu Fengyi’s heart, as well as the meridians and blood vessels.

After looking at the road that kept retreating for a while, Xu Fengyi turned his gaze back to Shu Jinshi’s pocket where their hands were stuffed, and the corners of his lips rose unconsciously.

Is she being cared for?

How long has she not experienced this feeling of being cared for like a child?

When was the last time you experienced this feeling?

It should be before her father cheated, before her mother was addicted to drinking.

“Go buy a pair of gloves later. If you have gloves, even if your clothes don’t have pockets, don’t be afraid. You still need to pay attention to keeping warm in winter.” At this moment, Shu Jinshi suddenly made a sound, interrupting Xu Fengyi’s thoughts.

“Ah, alright!” Xu Fengyi nodded hurriedly after regaining her senses, “I wanted to buy it too, but I chose a particularly good-looking one on the Internet, but after waiting for a long time, I found that it hadn’t arrived. I opened the backstage and took a look. I just found out that I threw it in the shopping cart and it didn’t close, and I didn’t check out after a long time, so I was so pissed.”

When Shu Jinshi heard the words, he shook his head speechlessly: “Why are you so stupid.”

Xu Fengyi frowned and defended herself: “Where am I stupid? I’m not stupid!”

Shu Jinshi raised his eyebrows: “Are you sure?”

Xu Fengyi nodded: “I’m so smart, it’s just that my brain often short-circuits. It’s like that, like an iPhone in winter, it will automatically shut down when it gets cold!”

This metaphor is really, really good.

Shu Jinshi shook his head again: “Fool.”

However, having said that, the corners of her lips could not help but rise slightly.

Xu Fengyi gave her a sideways glance with puffed cheeks, and shook her head pretending to be annoyed: “I won’t talk to you anymore, I won’t pay attention to you!”

Shu Jinshi turned his head, looked at her for a while, and said with a smile, “Is it really ignored?”

Xu Fengyi remained unmoved, looking at the sky, the ground, the trees, the flowers, the house and the pedestrians, but she didn’t look at her.

In this way, the two kept this state and walked 100 meters.

Then, when he reached a certain intersection, Shu Jinshi made a “hiss” and raised his hand to point somewhere: “Wow, I met a beautiful woman.”

“The legs are too long, are you a model?”

“It’s so beautiful to wear, I feel like I can go directly to the pictorial.”

Xu Fengyi couldn’t hold back when she heard that there was a beautiful woman.

The next second, she hurriedly turned her head: “Where is it? Where is the beauty?”

Shu Jinshi smiled: “Miss Xu didn’t say anything just now, don’t talk to me anymore, don’t talk to me anymore?”

Xu Fengyi reacted instantly.

Where is the beauty! Shu Jinshi just lied to her!

In an instant, Xu Fengyi turned his gaze towards the people around him: “Shu Jinshi, you are playing with me!”

Shu Jinshi continued to smile, posing as if Jiang was still old and hot: “So what? Compared with me, you are still a little more tender.”

“You are so annoying!” Xu Fengyi raised her hand and gently tapped her shoulder, dumbfounded.

Shu Jinshi turned his head to look at her, and the corners of his lips curled slightly: “Since I hate it so much, why are you smiling.”

Xu Fengyi was stunned for a moment before realizing that she was indeed smiling.

Xu Fengyi quickly retracted the hand that was in Shu Jinshi’s pocket, and held her face with her left hand.

Then she glanced at Shu Jinshi again, and with a “hum”, she stepped forward and walked forward: “I don’t have it! Let’s go, the mall is right in front of me, I’m going to buy gloves!”

At this moment, Shu Jinshi stopped a little.

With her hands in the pockets of her coat, she stood there with a straight back and looked at the slender and charming figure in front of her for a while, and the corners of her eyes and brows were unconsciously stained with a light and gentle smile.

Later, Shu Jinshi also raised his foot and followed.

However, Xu Fengyi stopped as soon as he walked to the entrance of the mall.

“What’s the matter, don’t go in?” Shu Jinshi walked to her side, looked inside, and then looked at her again.

Xu Fengyi moved her hands gently in front of her, and finally cleared her throat, looking at Shu Jin: “It’s too bright inside, I’m sorry to go in.”

Shu Jinshi tilted his head, not knowing why: “Why?”

Xu Fengyi shook her head: “Not good.”

“I’m swollen easily. I’ve been crying for so long, it must be ugly now.”

Shu Jinshi understood.

Xu Fengyi in front of him was indeed swollen a little…

How should I put it, that eyelid is like a failed double eyelid surgery.

Shu Jinshi laughed: “It’s simple.”

After finishing speaking, Shu Jinshi took Xu Fengyi into the shopping mall.

During the whole process, Xu Fengyi kept his head down, daring not to be seen.

She didn’t look up until the two walked into a store.

However, before she could see what was around her, someone put a hat on her head.

When his vision dimmed, Xu Fengyi stretched out his hand to hold his hat: “This is…”

Shu Jinshi folded his arms and looked at her: “fisherman hat. I specially picked a big one for you, so that you only need to lower the brim of your hat, and others won’t see your eyes.”

Xu Fengyi’s eyes lit up and hurriedly walked to a mirror.

Only then did she discover this photo, and sure enough.

After wearing this hat, if you can’t raise your head, others won’t be able to see her eyes.

The only downside is that after the brim is pressed down, your vision will be blocked.

But that doesn’t matter, it’s still more important not to be seen.

“Really?” Shu Jinshi stood beside her.

“Yes.” Xu Fengyi breathed a sigh of relief, and turned to smile, “Great, this way, I can go to eat and drink wantonly later, I’m almost hungry and stupid.”

Shu Jinshi smiled and continued to walk to the shelf next to him, holding a scarf and looking at it: “Finally know you’re hungry?”

In fact, she was already hungry.

Xu Fengyi touched her stomach: “Yeah…Actually, I felt very hungry just now. Suddenly I really wanted to eat spicy potatoes, fat intestines and taro chicken.”

When Shu Jinshi heard the words, he took out his mobile phone and pinched it in his palm, and pointed to a shelf next to him: “Then look at the gloves first, and I’ll see where the thing you mentioned is nearby.”

“Well, okay.” Xu Fengyi nodded with a smile, then walked to the shelf Shu Jinshi said and looked at the gloves.

There are quite a lot of gloves in this store, and the styles are also rich, covering a variety of styles, fresh and simple, sweet and cool, soft and cute, everything.

After a selection, Xu Fengyi picked up a pair of pink plush gloves with ropes.

Although this is relatively thick and bulky, it looks like it is very inconvenient, and it is true that the hands will not be able to move after wearing it, but it is better than it has a rope, which can be hung around the neck, and the gloves can be used as coat pockets.

When you don’t need your hands, just stick your hands inside. When you need to use your hands, you can take them out again.

After picking out the gloves, Xu Fengyi took them together with the hat to the cashier to settle the bill, took off the tag, and put the things to use.

Then, Xu Fengyi turned her head to look at Shu Jinshi, only to find that Shu Jinshi looked serious.

“What’s wrong?” Xu Fengyi asked.

Shu Jinshi raised his head: “I’ve searched the app, but I didn’t see the thing you said. There are spicy chicken with fat sausages, chicken with taro, chicken with spicy taro, chicken with spicy taro, and fat sausages with potatoes. Chicken, taro chicken with fat intestines, but there is no potato chicken with fat intestines and taro.”

“Okay…” Xu Fengyi sighed, “Yes, there shouldn’t be any here. I only have it in my hometown. My hometown prefers to put everything, so I eat it like that.”

Shu Jinshi put down the phone: “Then… out of the ones I found, do you want to choose one to try?”

Xu Fengyi pondered for a few seconds, then shook his head: “Not yet. Actually, I just want to eat the taste from our hometown. But think about it carefully… Actually, that taste is impossible to eat here.”

Shu Jinshi nodded: “Okay, what do you want to eat?”

After thinking about it for a while, Xu Fengyi straightened the gloves, and then stopped: “Yes, barbecue, I want to eat barbecue!”

Shu Jinshi nodded: “Okay, which one?”

Xu Fengyi laughed: “I know there is a home that is delicious, so I’ll take you there. Although that place may be a bit shabby for you, it tastes really good. How good is it, even if it doesn’t come out on the menu? Dianping is still full all the time, and many people come here every day.”

“Okay.” When Shu Jinshi heard her say that, she was really curious.

Afterwards, the two left the mall again, crossed a small square and a street, and turned into a small alley.

The alley is narrow and deep, but it is a magical place.

It’s so lively outside, full of traffic and feasting, it’s exactly like a big city.

After entering here, all the impetuousness and hustle and bustle brought by prosperity seem to be isolated, giving people a very comfortable feeling.

The street lights are all over the bluestone slabs, and the atmosphere is extremely peaceful.

While walking, Xu Fengyi suddenly turned her head, looked at Shu Jin, and said softly, “Thank you.”

“Why do you suddenly say thank you? What’s there to thank?” Shu Jinshi didn’t stop, looking straight ahead.

Xu Fengyi pursed her lips: “It’s been a long time since no one has treated me so well. Not only will they come to find me when I am in danger, but they will also accompany me to blow the cold wind with me when I am hungry, and warm my hands and ears, so thank you. “

After Shu Jinshi heard her words, he also slowed down, then turned to look at Xu Fengyi.

Under the street lamp, Xu Fengyi lowered his head slightly, his eyes locked on the ground.

Because the hat was covered too deep and the brim was too low, her cheeks were always hidden in the dark shadow, making it difficult to see her expression.

For a moment, Shu Jinshi raised his eyebrows and smiled: “Is this good for you?”

Xu Fengyi thought for a moment, then nodded: “Yes.”

In the end, she added: “To be honest, my mother was never so kind to me. The winter that year when she and Dad parted ways was also very cold. When I went shopping with her, I just complained that it was cold. , she scolds my maidservant for life.”

“If you say that you can’t bear such a little hardship, you know that you are destined to be a waste of talent in the future.”

“So, I think you are really, really good to me.”

Shu Jinshi frowned when she heard her talk about the past in a calm and gentle manner.

She feels a little sentimental lately.

Is empathy stronger?

She is obviously a person who is not moved, but also feels hypocritical when watching talent show contestants cry and sell miserably, but now Xu Fengyi is just casually mentioning something from the past, but she feels that her throat is tight and extremely uncomfortable.

Not knowing what to say, Shu Jinshi raised his hand and patted her shoulder lightly.

Xu Fengyi sighed, then turned her head to look at her: “Hey, then again, why are you being so nice to me?”

Shu Jinshi was stopped by her questioning.

Afterwards, Xu Fengyi smiled and tilted her head: “That is, I have a question, you are so good to me, aren’t you afraid…”

“What are you not afraid of?” Shu Jinshi waited for a while without seeing her and continued to speak, and finally couldn’t help turning his head and looking at her.

“Just,” Xu Fengyi squeezed her chin and continued to tease in a relaxed tone, “Aren’t you afraid that I like you? Haha!”

Shu Jinshi’s heart tightened and he stopped.

Then, Shu Jinshi turned his head and looked at her.

Under the street lamp, Xu Fengyi, who had soft cheeks, smiled especially brightly.

This face is the most beautiful of all the girls Shu Jinshi has ever seen in his life.

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The author has something to say:

Even people who are not good-looking in the first place can still have a good-looking smile. Smile is a feeling, refuse to come to me to talk to me about swollen eyes and still think it looks good because of how thick the filter is, you don’t need to be so tricky and mean.