So You’re Secretly Jealous Again - Chapter 44

Shu Jinshi said these two words calmly and powerfully.

The same is true of her eyes, which have been locked on Xu Fengyi’s body, without the slightest erratic.

It’s not like it came out of the blue, it’s thought carefully.

Driven by these two words, Xu Fengyi felt that there was a transparent silk thread in the air tying her heart, and lifted it up.

Shu Jinshi’s answer turned out to be like this, she really didn’t expect it at all.

Because Shu Jinshi said before that she didn’t want to fall in love, Xu Fengyi thought that Shu Jinshi would say something like “you better not like me”, and even thought about how to answer that time.

Who knows the result?

After her heart was beating wildly, Xu Fengyi cleared her throat, glanced at her, and asked softly, “But didn’t you say before that you don’t like falling in love at all?”

Shu Jinshi looked at her with a smile, noncommittal.

After a while, she continued: “I think it’s time for me to grow up, people can’t always live in the concept of the past.”

“It is true that I was really afraid of someone liking me before, because there were several people who showed me the kind of like that I didn’t need, such as threatening me with life, etc. This kind of like only made me terrified.”

“But not everyone in the world is that kind of person, so I thought about it, if I am liked by normal people, then, whether I like each other or not, I will not be afraid.”

“If you like me, but I don’t like you, then I will try to make it clear to you and tell you not to have illusions about me, I just want and want to be friends with you, and I won’t block you because of this. You. As an adult, you still have to solve problems in an adult way, don’t be reckless. But if you like me, and I like you, then I don’t have to worry about anything, and I don’t have to be afraid. Isn’t this happy? thing?”

What Shu Jinshi said was very interesting.

After she said this, it not only relieved the previous embarrassment, but also prevented Xu Fengyi from discovering that she actually had some different feelings for her now, so that she would not run away in a hurry.

The most important thing is that she left a way for herself to let Xu Fengyi understand that if she wants to fall in love in the future, or like herself, she doesn’t have to struggle and escape.

Yes, if before today, Shu Jinshi still had doubts about her feelings, then after today, she has completely determined what her true feelings look like.

She felt that she should have already understood which category her feelings for Xu Fengyi should be classified into.

Xu Fengyi was the only person who would make her worry when she bumped into it, and the only person who could mobilize her many subtle emotions.

All signs showed that Xu Fengyi in her world was completely different from everyone around her.

Even compared to her best friends, it’s completely different.

After that, Shu Jinshi didn’t wait for Xu Fengyi to answer, and pointed to the meat in the iron plate with a small smile: “Eat it now, or it will get cold later.”

“Ah… oh.” Xu Fengyi came back to her senses and picked up a bunch of roasted five flowers.

Then, during the next barbecue time, Shu Jinshi continued to chat and laugh with Xu Fengyi, chatting all over the world, from this movie to that music, as if nothing had happened.

However, Xu Fengyi had a feeling that someone had set off a huge wave in his heart, and he couldn’t calm down at all.

This uncontrollable strange emotion even accompanied her into the night.

That night, after Xu Fengyi had eaten the barbecue and went back to wash up, he went to bed before eleven o’clock.

Originally, she thought that after experiencing so many strange things today, she must be very tired, and she would fall asleep very quickly, and even slept so darkly that the thunder couldn’t wake up, but the truth is…

After she lay down, she soon fell into insomnia.

Simply caught off guard.

Her body and limbs were obviously tired, but she just tossed and turned on the bed for a long time and couldn’t fall asleep.

The body is sleepy, but the brain is still very active, and I can’t suppress those thoughts at all.

How could such a weird thing happen? She really hasn’t met. Before it was released, even when the pressure was the greatest, as long as she was tired enough, she could still fall asleep.

Out of desperation, she took out her phone and checked the time several times in the middle. Seeing the time span from eleven thirty in the night to twelve, and then from twelve to one, her brain still seemed to be manipulated. Like a spell, I can’t fall asleep.

The words that Shu Jin said while eating barbecue have been replayed in her mind all the time, every word is so clear and powerful that it cannot be ignored.

So, the meaning of Shu Jinshi’s words is that she is not sure if she will like her in the future?

Rounding it up, it’s roughly equivalent to saying that even if she doesn’t like her now, at least it’s not contradictory, right?

For a moment, Xu Fengyi felt as if his heart was suddenly suspended, and just now, he slammed again and slowly returned to the original rhythm.

She didn’t know what she was thinking, but she only knew that she played Shu Jinshi’s words over and over again in her mind, without getting tired.

Shu Jinshi said it right, he is indeed afraid of falling in love now.

It’s not even just love, she doesn’t want to spend any more energy to meet new friends now.

Especially after Chen Siqi happened, it really suppressed her again.

She doesn’t know if it will be better in the future, anyway, if it is now, it will not be better for a while.

Because she will never know whether others will treat her sincerely. That sincerity, is it real, or pretended.

Therefore, it is more difficult for her to trust a person in a short period of time, even if she thinks that person is not bad.

However, as Shu Jinshi said, it is difficult for people to control their hearts.

Even if you keep hypnotizing yourself and telling yourself that you don’t like anyone at all, it doesn’t mean you can do it.

Just like…

Suddenly, Xu Fengyi remembered how Shu Jinshi looked when he covered his ears.

And also, the appearance of the other party helping him to warm his hands.

Even if she didn’t want to admit it, she could still feel that her heart was covered with a thin layer of honey, sweet.

And, when thinking about this, the corners of her lips are also rising.

The more she thought about it, the faster her heart beat, as if it would jump out soon, Xu Fengyi felt that she was crazy.

Turning over and changing his posture, Xu Fengyi sighed, opened his eyes from the darkness, looked at the ceiling, and said silently: “Don’t think about it, don’t think about it, go to sleep…”

However, no matter how much she hypnotized, it was in vain.

What’s worse is that Xu Fengyi feels that she can’t sleep anymore.

Crazy, she thought, maybe, really crazy.

…

In the blink of an eye, the rest day was over and Monday came.

When Xu Fengyi woke up in the morning, it was exactly half past seven.

Her current biological clock is absolutely perfect, she doesn’t need to set an alarm clock at all, and she can wake up on her own.

After a long yawn, Xu Fengyi stretched out her arms in the warm bed, but she couldn’t get rid of the chaos in her mind, she always felt that even her thoughts were stuck.

Winter is like a season of strange spells, and every time this happens, all animals, including humans, become sleepy and lethargic.

If only every day in winter was a holiday.

On days like this, shouldn’t you sleep until you wake up naturally, play a few rounds of games while wrapped in a quilt, and finally watch TV on the sofa with your hands in hot water?

Thinking about it, Xu Fengyi almost fell asleep again.

It wasn’t until she touched her head in confusion that she felt a few rough bumps on the scalp with her fingertips. After thinking about what it was for a long time, she opened her eyes.

That’s scab.

When someone pulled his hair before, he said that the injury was not serious, but there was still a little blood in the end.

Bleeding means there is a wound. No matter how small the wound is, after coagulation, there will be a little scab, which will scorch the hand.

After touching for a while, Xu Fengyi hurriedly put down his hands in order to prevent himself from digging, lying flat on the bed, looking at the snow-white ceiling and blinking slowly.

In a trance, the events of Saturday’s experience played out in her mind again.

This was the first time since that day that she allowed herself to think about the details of the time.

After a while, she pushed the sleeve on her lower arm, staring at the few bruises printed on her skin, watching quietly. It feels like it’s almost gone, but the traces are still vaguely there.

Obviously this happened not long ago, but it always feels as if several years have passed.

After burying all her emotions in her heart, Xu Fengyi lifted the quilt and sat on the edge of the bed to wake up. Immediately, she tucked her feet into the plush slippers, went to the bathroom to wash up, changed her clothes, and put on her make-up comb. Started.

As in the past, draw eyebrows and eyeliner, and apply lipstick.

As soon as she was packaged, she looked the same as before in the company, as if nothing had happened in the past two days.

After pinching her hair into a slightly curved air volume, Xu Fengyi opened the bedroom door and walked out.

Shu Jinshi went to a neighboring city last night and is not here now, so that the house seems a little empty.

It is strange to say that Xu Fengyi used to live by himself every day, regardless of whether to open or close the door. There was no other living thing in the house except himself. It would not be an exaggeration to describe it as a dead silence.

As a result, she has only lived here for a long time, and she feels that the house is extraordinarily empty when she is alone.

Is it because the house is relatively large?

Going downstairs and turning into the kitchen, Xu Fengyi stretched out her arms, took out the whole wheat toast from the top of the refrigerator, opened it, took out a few slices and ate it. Put on a pair of apricot velvet leather shoes, and walked towards the garage.

After arriving at the floor of the company, Xu Fengyi greeted everyone along the way as soon as he stepped out of the elevator.

Some people compliment her on how beautiful her clothes are today, some people compliment her on how good-looking the color of her lipstick looks today, and some people compliment her on her curly hair today, which is very nice.

Xu Fengyi smiled and thanked him one by one, then turned into his office.

No one knows what happened to her these two days.

She wasn’t going to say it either.

Some things are not suitable for talking to people after becoming an adult.

After chatting, no one really cares about her, but it will make people feel “so stupid, if it were me, I would definitely not be fooled like this”. Even if it becomes the latest gossip after everyone’s tea and dinner, and then spreads ten, ten to a hundred, old people to new people, and finally everyone will know: that Xu Fengyi almost went into MLM.

Even, everyone may pass on a change and become: Hey, the power of money is really powerful, isn’t it bad to work down-to-earth.

However, Shu Jinshi would not think of her that way.

Not only did Shu Jinshi not scold her for being stupid, but she kept comforting her, saying that it was not her fault that things would turn out like that.

When he thought of Shu Jin, Xu Fengyi thought of how the other party warmed his hands again.

Looking down at the ground, Xu Fengyi laughed again.

After putting down the bag at his workstation and turning on the computer, Xu Fengyi glanced at the time.

At present, there are still twenty minutes before the official work.

If I had known earlier, I would have stopped eating bread and went to have a serious breakfast.

After thinking for a moment with both hands on the back of the chair, Xu Fengyi turned around and took a cup of hot water back.

On the way back, Xu Fengyi heard a clean and loud voice.

“My man and I have decided to get married. Remember to come and have a wedding wine then.”

Xu Fengyi followed the voice, her eyes locked on Lin Hui, a small and thin colleague with Qi Liuhai’s BoBo head.

Lin Hui came to the company before her, and has been working here for more than three years. She usually seems to be a very motivated person.

Because she is too aggressive, she is the last scroll king who leaves the company for 300 days out of 365 days a year. Xu Fengyi has automatically divided her into the ranks of career powerhouses who do not need marriage.

So much so that she couldn’t believe that Lin Hui was going to get married.

Xu Fengyi didn’t even know when she was in love.

Well, Lin Hui is a woman who never talks about her personal affairs in the company.

After Xu Fengyi was surprised, she walked over with a smile: “Congratulations! But, when did you fall in love, how come I don’t know?”

Lin Hui smiled lightly: “We’ve been talking about it for more than half a year.”

Xu Fengyi nodded in disbelief and said, “Awesome, to be honest, I really can’t see that you are also a person who is in love.”

Lin Hui played with a pen: “Really? Why?”

Xu Fengyi shrugged: “I don’t know, maybe it’s the aura?”

People are really strange. Even though Lin Hui was born a small one, he was far superior to himself in his aura.

Often when we go out to dinner together, some people think she is some kind of little boss.

However, no one ever thought that Xu Fengyi was a small boss.

Lin Hui smiled brightly: “I really didn’t deliberately look for someone, but anyway, if I meet someone, then I’ll stay. I’m not the kind of person who is very stubborn.”

Xu Fengyi laughed: “As expected of you, cool.”

Lin Hui suddenly changed the conversation and looked at Xu Fengyi: “By the way, do you have a partner now?”

Xu Fengyi shook her head.

Lin Hui laughed: “It seems that I think too much.”

Xu Fengyi was puzzled: “Why are you thinking too much?”

Lin Hui raised her eyebrows: “There was a time before, like a month or two ago? I saw someone driving to the company to pick you up. She was a very beautiful woman.”

After Xu Fengyi searched carefully in his head for a while, he finally understood.

What she said should be Shu Jinshi.

At that time, they hadn’t lived together yet. At that time, the other party invited her to dinner and drove over to pick her up once. It was the time to eat hot pot.

Xu Fengyi never expected that Lin Hui would see that scene.

Lin Hui continued, “Don’t you like girls? I thought you were a couple because you looked so well-matched.”

Yeah? A good match? Xu Fengyi was stunned for a second.

But one thing to say, they are just living together now.

Xu Fengyi smiled honestly: “We are not the kind of relationship you think…”

Lin Hui was slightly startled: “Okay, but you guys look really well matched.”

“Really? Xu Fengyi suddenly became curious, “Why do you think so. “

Lin Hui: “I think it’s possible. Although it was a long way off at the time, I feel like she was very considerate to you.”

Xu Fengyi murmured in a low voice, “She is indeed a considerate person.”

Lin Hui didn’t hear clearly: “Huh?”

“No, nothing, I mean…” Xu Fengyi raised her glass, “I’m going to work first!”

Lin Hui smiled: “Okay, let’s go.”

After Xu Fengyi returned to her computer with the cup and sat down, she stared at the interface that asked her to enter the password for a while.

Does Lin Hui really feel that way? When she and Shu Jin looked like a couple?

Xu Fengyi pursed her lips, her thoughts were in a mess.

At this moment, the time jumped to the moment of official work.

Too late to think about anything more, Xu Fengyi moved her index finger, put the cup with hot water aside, put her hand on the keyboard, typed a series of numbers neatly, tapped the Enter key with a slap, and entered. Go to the main page and officially start a new week of work tasks.

After logging into the company’s QQ account and receiving a lot of messy documents and various messages and tasks, Xu Fengyi was almost unable to laugh, let alone think about other things.

This day is destined to be another busy day.

Five o’clock in the afternoon.

After Shu Jinshi returned to the company from the neighboring city to deal with some things, he went downstairs and got into the car, and asked Lao Luo to drive the car home.

It’s rare to get off work on time. If it was in the past, she would have asked Lu Yuan or Zheng Ziyi to come out to the bar to order a drink and chat.

Or go for a game of bowling or billiards and relax.

But it’s strange recently, she doesn’t really want to wander outside anymore, she just wants to go back and stay home.

After the driver Lao Luo stopped the car at a zebra crossing, Shu Jinshi looked at the green light, raised his hand again, rolled up his sleeves and looked at the time.

It looks like it’s around five twenty now.

If Xu Fengyi’s company usually leaves work at 5:30 in the afternoon, I don’t know if she is busy today or if she will come back earlier.

Just when Shu Jin was thinking about these things, Lao Luo started the car again, and the scenery outside the window continued to retreat again.

It’s like a picture scroll that can’t be unfolded.

More than ten minutes later, the car passed by a place called “Wudaowan Vegetable Market”.

Lao Luo glanced at it and sighed: “This market is really big. I was there last time. There are a lot of things in it, and it’s fresh. It’s really good.”

After finishing, he continued to drive forward intently.

Unexpectedly, at this time, Shu Jinshi shouted: “Stop.”

“Okay.” The driver nodded.

Shu Jinshi lowered the car window and looked over there: “Is the quality of the vegetables sold in this market good?”

The driver was stunned for a second. It was the first time in his heart that he saw people use the word quality to describe food, and he almost didn’t react: “Yes, Mr. Shu, the food here is very fresh. My wife and I came here once. Since then, my wife has been obsessed with this place.”

Shu Jinshi nodded.

She remembered what Xu Fengyi said before about the spicy potato and taro chicken. That is, Xu Fengyi wanted to eat it, but there was no one for sale here.

Lao Luo looked at the food court and then at her: “Mr. Shu, have you been interested in cooking recently?”

Shu Jinshi pulled the corner of his lower lip: “No.”

To be honest, she is really not interested in all the ingredients that are not prepared.

As we all know, although Shu Jinshi can cook, he can only cook it. The taste will not be very good, anyway, it is just enough to eat people.

For example, buy frozen dumplings with various meat fillings and cook them, buy all kinds of semi-finished soups and cook them back, put the frozen food in the microwave, and put the toast in the oven. A ding.

For stir-frying, she usually buys the kind of pre-cooked pre-cooked vegetables in the supermarket with ginger, onion, and garlic seasonings. The recipe said how long it would take to fry, so she kept frying for as long with a spatula, but she didn’t dare to add salt.

After all, it can be eaten if it is bland, and it can only be thrown away if it is salty.

That is to say, when faced with the vast majority of ingredients, she doesn’t even know how to cut them.

“but.”

“I want to make it for one person.” Shu Jinshi looked at the vegetable market, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and his face was full of soft love.

“Who?” Lao Luo was curious.

Shu Jinshi: “It’s the lady who lives with me now.”

Old Luo Ming said, “Miss Xu Fengyi?”

“Yes.” Shu Jinshi nodded.

Lao Luo lowered his head and thought for a while, and suddenly realized that he seemed to have learned something important: “President Shu, you and her… she… shouldn’t it be your girlfriend?”

Also, I should have thought of it long ago, can the relationship be simple between two adults living together?

However, Shu Jinshi shook his head: “We are just living together in a simple relationship. She is not my girlfriend.”

“Oh,” Lao Luo hurriedly nodded, “Okay.”

That’s right, Mr. Shu’s mother has been soloing for so long, so he is probably an ordinary roommate.

Who would have thought, Shu Jinshi looked forward again and said slowly, “However, it will be unclear whether it will be in the future.”

When Lao Luo heard this, his face was wrinkled with a smile: “Then, Mr. Shu, do you want her to be?”

Shu Jinshi didn’t answer immediately, but just stared at the passers-by outside the car window with a light expression.

For a moment, she nodded. Um.