Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter (GL) - Chapter 89

Tang Kai went back to Lincheng and had a cold for several days. He had a fever and rushed to finish his thesis, so he went to cut his long hair.

Zhang Zinan picked her one weekend, and they had lunch in a shop next to the school. The semester is over, and many students have gone home for the Spring Festival.

As soon as she sat down, Zhang Zinan looked at Tang Kai’s short hair for a stunned, somewhat guessed in her heart, but didn’t ask for it, just smiled and said, “Will you go to my house for the New Year this year?”

Zhang Zinan and Fang Xiuqi are engaged. Although the two young people are not in a hurry to hold the wedding ceremony, there are many old gifts to be held in their families. This Spring Festival belongs to their two families.

Tang Xiao smiled and shook his head, “I want to catch up with the papers at school, but I will go to pay a New Year’s greetings.”

Tang Kai has lost a lot of weight, his cheeks are a little bit sunken, dark circles under his eyes are heavy, and his mental state looks okay.

She remembered the first time she saw Tang Kai many years ago. At that time, she and another boardmate were still gossiping on the road.

Three people, it has been a few days since school has started to see the third boardmate, I don’t know who is so sacred and cold.

When they opened the door, there was a slender figure wiping the table, hearing the sound, the watery eyes of the extremely delicate face only lightly twirled on them, nodded, and turned and went busy again.

It felt like morning dew dripping on her face, and it was cold and slowly permeating into the skin.

I have been with her for so many years, it is mostly this kind of feeling, such as cool water, occasionally hot, she is soft and strong.

She used to think, how could a person like Tang Kai be single? But in fact, she was really single for many years. There were too many men chasing her when she was undergraduate, but she didn’t expect that she chose her own in the end…

“Don’t always study, you go to our company’s annual meeting with me, right?” Zhang Zinan said with a smile, “our company still has a lot of young talents.”

Tang Chi smiled and shook his head.

Zhang Zinan wanted to speak but stopped.

After eating, they took a walk on the campus. Fang Xiuqi drove to pick up Zhang Zinan, and said goodbye to Tang Xi after a few words of greeting.

Zhang Zinan just got into the car and looked back and saw Tang Kai outside the car window.

In winter, the sky was dark early, under the gloomy sky, Tang Kai stood alone, with a thin shadow, although his smile was still shallow.

Zhang Zinan’s eyes suddenly scorched, she pushed in the car door, ran over and hugged her tightly, “No matter what, I will be by your side.”

There is no need to hold it alone.

Zhang Zinan has been taken care of by her a lot-gastroenteritis attacked in the middle of the night, Tang Kai went to the hospital with her on his back, and when he quarreled with Fang Xiuqi, Tang Kai listened to her to talk to her. When learning to be lazy, Tang Kai did her homework for her, and she did not return at night. Tang Kai helped her cover.

Four years of classmates, big and small things, Tang Kai gave her warmth and gentleness.

Zhang Zinan thought with a sour nose.

But Tang Kai never asked her anything.

At this moment, Zhang Zinan felt the same for her loneliness.

“You will get better soon…” Many inquiries could not be said, only a dry concern remained.

Zhang Zinan didn’t expect her shoulders to be wet with just these words.

Zhang Zinan was still wiping tears until the car drove a long way.

I have been a friend for many years. It was the first time she saw Tang Kai’s tears, and she really felt sorry for her.

It’s not good to meet people! Scum girl! Pit my darling baby! I don’t know the blessing in the blessing! If I knew it, I should destroy you! It’s all because of Shi Hai! His sister who didn’t know where he came from! This is a curse to siblings!

Fang Xiuqi sat next to her, watching her face become cloudy and sunny, gnashing teeth, and muttering to himself. It made him frightened and asked carefully, “What’s wrong?”

“Don’t worry about it!” Zhang Zinan glared at him irritably, took out his mobile phone, opened the circle of friends, and typed a word fiercely.

“Hey… I think so…” Fang Xiuqi glanced at a few “someone too scumbag” and the like, and his eyebrows jumped in surprise, “…not so good, right?”

Zhang Zinan snorted bitterly, and after a few seconds, he sighed again. Of course, this circle of friends can’t be sent out. From the standpoint of Tang Kai’s relatives and friends, she certainly feels distressed for Tang Kai. However, in matters of affection, except for the parties, other people, even if they kiss, cannot intervene.

Zhang Zinan deleted some words and sent a photo of her and Tang Kai, writing “I love my single friend very much, I hope you can be happy and happy. I will find someone who loves you and loves you as soon as possible.”

She blocked Tang Kai in this photo, but her speech was visible.

When Shi Ci saw this photo, it happened to be when she was most uncomfortable.

After Christmas, she didn’t know what was going on, she suddenly missed Tang Kai crazily.

It was the first day that she found the book left by Tang Kai.

Then she found a sweater by Tang Kai in the closet, light green, cotton, loose style. The shirts, trousers, and skirts that are the same as her are not a style, nor are they an age span.

Shici stood with the sweater for a long time, and remembered many pictures, how did this sweater get from Tang Kai to his own hand?

During the process, Tang Kai pulled her clothes and blushed until she finally fell into her arms with shortness of breath, biting her lips and making no sound…

It took her a lot of effort to get these pictures out of her mind. She was not willing to lose her sweater. She hid in the depths of the closet.

The speech thought it was a short-lived flashback, a phased one, as long as the attention was properly diverted, the previous scenes would not be remembered.

But the number of flashbacks is increasing.

When she went to the office, she remembered that Tang Kai was hiding on the sofa and was afraid of being discovered by the dean, and she didn’t even dare to let her kiss him.

Walking on campus in the evening, she unknowingly moved to Yixiu Building.

Driving to the city, she remembered that they went to eat once, Tang Kai ordered her spicy chicken rice, and they also ate fresh taro fairy together.

When she went to the supermarket, she remembered that Tang Kai once worked here wearing a thick bear-shaped costume…

During the day, night, early morning, awake or asleep, Tang’s smile, her expression always lingers in her mind little by little, lingering.

Shi Ci had to admit a fact-she missed her little bird, she couldn’t bear her tweeting…

This kind of longing made her extremely painful, and countless memories were drawn into prison, imprisoning her.

Then, she saw the photos posted by Zhang Zinan in the circle of friends.

Shi Ci’s heart banged violently, and this familiar face that missed her thoughts suddenly jumped out. She was taken aback for a moment, and then she couldn’t help but read it inch by inch.

Hair-cut short

Tang Kai’s hair was cut back to the length he had when he first saw it, and his speech was a bit in a trance. It was a glimpse of the cafeteria, and it was also a close look at the school road that evening.

The speeches were almost forgotten. For a long time, Tang Kai always treated her with more than politeness and lack of enthusiasm. Later, after he had a good impression of her, she was also cautious. When she first determined the relationship, she was also very upset.

During the period after they broke up unhappy, she was also a little unwilling and resentful.

She is active and passionate about the relationship between herself and Tang Kai. If necessary, she can even resign. In comparison, Tang Kai is always silent and slow, more like passive acceptance.

She actually listened to what Wenwen said to her last time. When she was tossed and awake, she also thought that in front of Tang Kai, she was too proud of her position and perfect image in her age, always taking care of her, caring for her, and not expressing her expectations and needs.

No one likes to be in a saved position all the time.

The speech felt powerless. She had also thought about it, maybe it is really because of the age difference, they are not suitable, but it is not suitable for this idea together, she is more painful and more frustrated.

It’s like seeing this group photo now and seeing Zhang Zinan’s words written by Zhang Zinan.

Do I no longer have the right to love her and love her?

That’s right, if it weren’t for meeting herself, Tang Kai might also accept men, or…she would accept men in the future. Without being with herself, she would be more likely to have a smoother road. She is always excellent. If a man of good conduct pursues her, she can bring her family warmth. Tang Kai may choose to marry and have children and have a happy family life.

For the first time, Shi Ci was a little unconfident in himself, and looked at what he could give Tang Kai.

In fact, her parents are enlightened and warm, and her own conditions are not bad. She can also give Tang Kai these worldly needs. For children, if Tang Kai wants it, there is no way out…

Thinking about doing this, I broke up.

The end is over.

The end of this love affair is different from the past. At that time with Qiaosha, they ended very early, and they were at peace with each other. In the other two paragraphs, they are also easy to get together and get away.

This time, it may take longer…

She sighed deeply, her heart confused.

Tang Kai made an appointment with the Ms. Shen who owns Leslie Cheung’s album. She holds the last hope and wants to beg the other party to sell her the album again. It is rare that the other party and her are in the same city, and the appointment went smoothly.

They met in the urban area. Ms. Shen arrived late, looking at her in her forties, her face was graceful, and she had a peaceful and stable temperament.

Tang Kai had several conversations with her on the software. She said that if she wanted Leslie Cheung’s autographed album, she had others, but there was only one “Countdown with You”, and she really couldn’t bear to cut her love.

Tang Kai said that he only wanted this one.

The two sides discussed back and forth several times, but to no avail, Tang Kai also insisted on refusing to take back the money, and the other party was helpless.

Ms. Shen took a sip of tea. She looked gentle, looked at Tang Kai a few times, and asked her, “With all due respect, Miss Tang, you have clearly said that you are not a fan of Mr. Leslie Cheung, and you have specified this album. I can Ask you the real reason?”

Tang Kai was quiet for a few seconds, then lowered her eyes and said, “Actually, it’s the person I like. She likes this album.”

Ms. Shen nodded, not surprisingly, but it was not a reason to persuade her. She agreed to meet this time because she mainly wanted to transfer the money to Tang Kai in person.

Tang Kai’s throat was suffocating, and a moist sorrow appeared on the tip of his heart. “We are separated. I wanted to buy this album and give her as a gift. Now… I want it myself, she is what I met. The best person, maybe I can’t be with her anymore, I want to…remember…”

Ms. Shen looked mild, and said, “I believe that Miss Tang is so good that many people will pursue it.”

Tang Kai couldn’t think of anything to impress her with the strange and polite attitude of the other party, she lowered her head sullenly.

Ms. Shen looked at her, her expression a bit unbearable.

Tang Kai pursed his lips, and said in a low voice, “…The person I like is of the same **** as me…”

Ms. Shen’s face changed slightly, she moved her body, adjusted her sitting posture, and pondered for a while before she slowly said, “That’s it.”

The tea on the table was still warm, the tea in front of Tang Kai did not move, and Ms. Shen just took a polite sip, no one was talking at this time, and there was little smoke.

After a while, Tang Kai was about to give up, Ms. Shen suddenly said, “Okay.”

Tang Kai raised her eyes in disbelief. Ms. Shen looked at her with a gentle gaze and a shallow smile. She seemed to have emotion, “Brother, this song can become a memorial for you. It is also fate. I think he will also Approve of my approach…”

She looked at her again and sighed slightly, “…Your surname is Tang…”

Ms. Shen gave her the album and insisted on returning the money to her.

“Bless you, Miss Tang.” Ms. Shen bent her eyes and left immediately.

Tang Kai holding the album, like a dream, could not believe it for a long time.

The album is well protected, the plastic shell on the outside is a bit worn out, the photos of Mr. Leslie Cheung inside are very complete, those quiet and deep eyes are fixed in a certain direction, giving people a feeling of remoteness and melancholy.

Tang Kai held it tightly, tears rolling down without warning, dripping on it.

She wiped it off gently, and some fresh ones fell off.

——Is this God telling her that there is still hope?

As the Spring Festival approached, the trees on both sides of the streets in the city were covered with red Chinese knots. They were flourishing, lined with slightly budding green leaves, which were particularly vivid.

It’s another year.

Speech waited for the traffic light, thinking dullly.

Boring.

She took out her mobile phone, and the picture of Tang Kai and Zhang Zinan was on the screen. She intercepted Tang Kai’s single player and set it up as a screensaver.

The corners of Tang Kai’s lips were slightly bent, and he smiled faintly. The small face is only a little bit thinner. She didn’t even look directly at the camera, her eyelashes were slightly narrowed, and the moles of tears were quiet, but she looked at it for a long time, as if she would raise her eyes and smile at her at any time.

Speaking holding his breath, he heard his heart beating violently.

At the same time, there was a urging horn from behind.

She exhaled and drove the car hurriedly.

When she drove back to the university, she couldn’t stabilize her emotions all the way, so she turned off the fire and pulled over and leaned back in the chair to rest.

Wait, here…

It was here that her car knocked Tang Kai down, and they thought they met for the first time.

The speech almost collapsed.

Everywhere, every moment, it is her.

Going crazy.

Shi Shi suddenly scolded himself.

In terms of emotions, what has she been afraid of, has she ever had such a cringing moment.

Tang Kai told herself to break up, should she agree to it?

Wait, she said that she disagreed.

then……

Oh my God!

Then she didn’t do anything?

So she let Tang Kai be cold and violent with her, she didn’t meet her and didn’t talk, and she didn’t ask questions, it just ended unclearly?

Why!

When she confessed to Tang Kai at the time, she thought that no matter what, she would be her girlfriend. How could she fail without ending?

The speech was filled with fierce tumbling emotions, and those who were restrained by her were all unwilling, wronged, and resentful.

What a shame, she was in her thirties, and she was turned into a little girl who was troubled by gains and losses, could not sleep, chewing on her worries every night by a teenage girl who was younger than her.

Damn it!

Shi Shi’s eyes became hot, and she lay on the steering wheel, breathing quickly and trembling.

“…I’m not a good love partner.”

Tang Kai once said this, and this sentence suddenly came across in his memory, as if responding to his complaint.

Shi Shi wanted to drink at this time to ease the bitterness that spread in his heart.

This is wrong. Tweeted.

“What do you like me, I have nothing…”

“You have everything I like.” Shi Ci said slowly with moist eyes.

She was sincere at the time, but she didn’t do a good job.

She couldn’t put herself in the position of “paying but not getting the corresponding return”, she couldn’t deny Tang Kai’s heart for her.

On New Year’s Eve that year, Tang Kai stood at the door waiting for her. She was waiting for her in the snow without making a phone call. She liked and cared for her in her own way.

So many times of intimacy and tenderness, her smile, hugs, and the rare act of acting made Shi Shi feel incredibly sweet.

How can you not feel it?

How can you feel that she is cruel?

She has been very upset.

She was left alone.

When she first met her, Tang Kai was lonely and alienated, living hard by herself, tough and fragile, as if no one could walk into her heart.

I was attracted to her and couldn’t control it. I molested her, sympathized with her, loved her, and said many love words and vows. When she let go of her heart and depended on her, she responded with immature behavior.

She left her alone to work and live in an unfamiliar city without mentioning or asking or paying attention. Isn’t she cold and violent towards her?

In fact, Tang Kai never asked her anything. If he didn’t mention it, Tang Kai would not ask for anything.

After waiting for a long time, she must have thought she had given up.

The speech burst into tears.

If the liquidation makes sense, you are the one more asshole.