Struggle Of Love - Chapter 9 My Love

What again? It’s taking me time to understand now. Why do people talk without any link to the topic?

Well, I am not egotistical. I’m just talkative and outgoing unlike my brother. As I was thinking it dawned on me. She was speaking to me for what I said earlier about us not being married. Well, shit. Now this has turned into a major fight, our first major fight. The last thing she did was give me a ghost smile.

She must have been hurt. She is a good actor. That must be the reason why my stupid facade does not affect her. She is a better actor than I am.

Soon, it was 9 A.M. I didn’t feel like going out today. But she left. She didn’t make me food. But she did make some for her sole self. She is acting too normal. She even yelled a bye while leaving to which I was too slow to respond.

It was lunch time. Why is today so restless? Time is flying very fast. Still, I didn’t feel like cooking. I skipped breakfast. But I was hungry and I didn’t want to go out so I just ate some fruits.

Now how to fix this? How do I apologize if she behaves like there’s nothing wrong? God, Hana will be the death of me.

Later at night she came back at the usual time and she made us dinner. Us, as in her and me too. Everything is too normal. Usually when we had little fights like why she can choose my clothes but I can’t choose hers, she would make me cook for two whole days.

While we were eating, she asked what I have done today. She must have figured that I didn’t go to work today.

“I sat sulking,” I told her truthfully. She acknowledged with a nod.

“Why? Your research became boring?”

“No. Sorry.” There I said it. My eyes became a little watery. This is an actual fight between us. She said it’s fine.

“Not for keeping you ignored on that girl.” I had to add.

She looked up from her plate. “I wish my idiot brother is like you too.”

I chuckled, “He is an idiot sometimes.” Haru, his name was. He is nice to hang out with.

After dinner we continued the conversation.

“So Hana, are we stuck for life yet?” I vaguely became aware of how easily a simple engagement can be broken. I should be careful and not give her ideas at the least not when I want this to turn into a real lifetime promise.

“Cook for the whole next week.” Oh, that made me happy.

“What? But why? When you cook better than me? I know you enjoyed your food better than mine.” I thought I would not have to when she cooked just before.

“Not denying the fact but that isn’t the point.”

“Okay.”

She then kissed my cheek and leaned on my shoulder. I pulled her into me as I hugged her. Well, we are fine now. I don’t know if she caught my teary eyes but she made me cry. Somehow, after spending all these months with her, I simply cannot picture a different person in her place. And that’s the end of today.