Substitute - Chapter 115

The three of them drank for a while. Because Kong Mingque had a breastfeeding wife and children at home, Zhao Sisi and Le Xi were too embarrassed to continue to harass.

After eight o’clock, they simply ate dinner together, and Zhao Sisi and Le Xi found a driver and left together.

While in the car, Zhao Sisi looked at Lexi, who was lying on the window, her cheeks flushed, and her thin figure, keenly aware that her mood was not too high.

She reached out and poked Lexi’s back, and asked in a low voice: “Just now? Haven’t had a drink?”

Lexi didn’t really care what she was talking about. She nodded and answered casually, “Yeah.”

Zhao Sisi laughed, patted her on the shoulder, and said briskly: “Then go to my house, then? How about a night of drinking?”

Lexi accepted the offer and went home with Zhao Sisi.

After arriving home, Zhao Sisi led Lexi directly to the underground wine store. The two ordered a bunch of barbecues and drank a mess of noble and famous wines.

When she was at Kong Mingque’s house earlier, Lexi considered that she had a baby at home, so she was very restrained from drinking. But when he came to Zhao Sisi’s house, there was no one to take care of his emotions, so Lexi drank particularly fiercely.

Zhao Sisi looked at? She looked like she was drinking water, and he hesitated for a while and said: “I? Feel like you…Did you break up?”

Lexi heard what Zhao Sisi said, turned her head to look at Zhao Sisi, her eyes were flushed red, with deep doubts in her eyes.

Zhao Sisi looked at her blushing cheeks and laughed: “You, you are very easy to guess. The last time I came to my house, the one who was desperate and I? Said that he ran away from home.”

“When I went to Mingque’s house this time, I was asking how the two of them lasted for a long time, so I think you must have broken up.”

On weekdays, Le Xi doesn’t want to discuss her own affairs with friends. But it may be that I drank too much and my psychological defense line was a little low, so I nodded and said, “Yeah.”

In fact, it wasn’t a breakup at all, because Chi Chuji had never been with her at all. At best, the two of them just cut off this twisted lover relationship.

She just… can’t go back to Chi Chuji again and hug her again.

Lexi thought so, tears came out of her eyes and hung on her slender eyelashes.

Zhao Sisi turned his head and looked at? She looked like she was crying, and she was silent for a long time. She said, “It may be offensive to say, I? Can I ask who the person you associate with is?”

Zhao Siston paused, looking at Le Xi’s face hidden in the dark, and whispered: “Is it…Chi Chuji?”

Le Xi raised her eyes and looked at Zhao Sisi with some surprise, tears rolling down like broken pearls

Zhao Sisi watched? Her reaction, her lips pressed? He said with emotion: “Ah… it really is like this. The last time you came to my house, I wondered if the person you were dating was Chi Chu. Ji… now it looks like it really is.”

Le Xi didn’t feel ashamed into anger after being pierced by the secret in his heart. On the contrary, she faintly gained a hint of pleasure in this process.

Lexi sniffed, held the wine bottle to her lips, and drank a big mouthful with her head up. It took a while before she raised her hand to wipe off the excess liquor from the corners of her lips, dumbly? “Not a relationship…”

“She and me? It’s just a… lover relationship.”

Zhao Sisi raised his eyebrows and looked at Le Xi in surprise: “It sounds like the situation is quite complicated. Tell me?”

The secret that has been pressing in my heart finally has a place to talk. Lexi regarded Zhao Sisi as a tree hole, and told her and Chi Chuji’s things: “It’s…it’s a little hard to say…”

“When I was young, I liked my mother very much. After my mother passed away in a car accident, Chi Chuji adopted me?… I transferred this feeling to Chi Chuji.”

Le Xi turned to look at? Zhao Sisi, raised her hand to wipe her tears, and laughed at herself: “I?…may have an Oedipus complex…When I was a teenager, I couldn’t tell the difference between Chi Chuji and his mother. where…”

“When I was in the third year of high school, I knew she was a SHO patient, because I was worried that she would find an alpha for treatment to get married and fall in love, but what is it? Anyway, I think she will abandon me? and leave this home, so I At once…”

Le Xi covered her face with one hand, and leaned back against the wine rack, shaking? The voice said: “Strong//raped her.”

“I induced her estrus/estrus/period, and marked her, and then relied on that she would not tear her face with me, and knelt in front of her after the end, and asked her to call the police to catch me.”

Zhao Sisi widened his eyes and looked at his gentle friend beside him, a little unbelievable.

The excessive amount of information made Zhao Sisi’s mind a little confused. She looked at Le Xi in surprise, and asked: “What then?”

Lexi curled her mouth, her expression a little sad: “She needed alpha to relieve her symptoms at that time, I? I have done this anyway, so I brazenly told her that I would be her inhibitor… “

“At that time, I felt that I was her inhibitor, she was me? The phantom that I wanted to chase, although occasionally tortured by my conscience, I was still very happy…”

Le Xi frowned and said with a little pain: “But if people do something wrong, they will always suffer retribution. My retribution will come soon.”

Le Xi turned her head and looked at with watery eyes? Zhao Sisi: “You said, me? Is it particularly disgusting?”

Zhao Sisi took a sip of wine slowly, frowned and thought for a while: “I? I think…so she didn’t call the police at the time. Did you agree to your terms?”

Le Xi nodded.

Zhao Sisi thought for a while, and said: “Then I think Sister Chu Ji can agree to such a thing, it means that she doesn’t mind your behavior…”

Speaking of this, Zhao Sisi really couldn’t say anything. He turned to look at it? Le Xi frowned and said dissatisfiedly: “How can she not call the police?”

For Lexi’s behavior, he should go to jail for seven or eight years? Right!

That’s a crime, a crime!

“Yeah, how could she not call the police…” Le Xi murmured to herself, after a long time? Answered Zhao Sisi softly: “I? At that time, I was glad that she accepted my conditions and repeated it. I asked myself, why would she forgive me?”

“At that time, I had two guesses in my heart: one is that she still feels painful to me. The second is that she needs an inhibitor, and I? I am the most suitable inhibitor for her. As for why it is the most suitable…”

Le Xi curled her lips and smiled somewhat self-deprecatingly: “Because she likes my mother-Le Yang.”

Zhao Sisi blinked, after a long time? He reacted: “What did you say?” What a complicated relationship is this!

Le Xi held the bottle and drank another big sip before she spoke in a slight drunkenness: “She is a student of my mother, I look very much like my mother… I was thinking, if I am in her Chasing on me? Phantom, is it possible that she is also chasing on me? Same Phantom…”

“I used to feel pretty good, her arms were very warm, and she had what I wanted, until one day, what I wanted changed.”

“I?…”

Le Xi licked her lips, not knowing how to express this emotion.

Zhao Sisi looked at her hesitant appearance, and took this sentence for her: “You are in love with her.”

“Yes.” Lexi admitted generously and said drunkly, “I fell in love with her. I grew up from a sad childhood, and fell in love with this older woman who has always been by my side…”

“I? Like Mingque, I tasted the sadness and happiness of admiration, I? Want to pursue her… Then… I was rejected…”

The things in front of her gradually became blurred, Le Xi lowered her head and hugged her head, with a cry in her voice: “When I realized that she had always regarded me as my mother’s substitute, I? Run away from her…”

“I’m not reconciled, I’m jealous… I was thinking, I? Don’t like her…”

“Me? Why do you want to like her, why do you want to fall in love with her… forever? Isn’t it good to be the phantom of each other? Forever? Isn’t it good to just embracing each other like this?”

“But I’m so greedy, I? Want her to love me…so…”

So after she knew that she and Chi Chuji had such a child, she hoped that the other party could keep that child, and she could not bear to say “I love you”.

She broke their final cover, she greedily wanted to walk to Chi Chuji’s side, so she was expelled away.

“I? Have I thought about marking her myself, imprisoning her, and letting her stay with me for the rest of my life? But I can’t…I can’t do such a thing…It’s not right…”

Lexi hugged herself, like a helpless beast wailing and crying.

Zhao Sisi on the side listened to her sobbing, and was silent for a long time. He said: “This is also…there is no way. As long as a person gives love, he will ask for a return.”

“You have fallen in love with her, there is nothing you can do about it.”

Le Xi covered her face with one hand, shaking her shoulder and said: “I? Rather…I would rather never…no…”

Don’t meet her, don’t make a relationship with her, don’t fall in love with her…

Because of this, it only increased grief.

Zhao Sisi reached out and put her arm around Lexi’s shoulder, let her lean in his arms, and said softly: “Don’t say that, it’s a wonderful thing to meet someone and fall in love with someone…”

“Not to mention someone like Chi Chuji.”

“Parting is uncomfortable, and it cannot be said that everything we have experienced together shouldn’t exist.”

Zhao Sisi patted Lexi on the shoulder, and after taking a sip of wine with the bottle, he slowly said, “But in love, you need to understand one thing: not every heartbeat, It will be rewarded.”

“I? Let’s make a simple analogy for you. If you like someone, it’s like the alpha’s instinct to mark Omega. It will have crazy possessiveness, wanting to occupy the other party and control everything about the other party.”

“But this possessiveness, like a’mark’, has side effects.”

“The side effect of’marking’ is the’susceptibility’ of losing oneself. And crazy possessiveness and liking are also the poison of losing oneself, losing reason and then becoming mad.”

Zhao Sisi looked up and looked at the ceiling for a long time. He said, “So if you like someone, you have to have the consciousness to face the dangerous relationship like AO. Only by restraining the instinct of’marking’ can you put an end to it. It is possible to get a’susceptibility disease’ by yourself, keep yourself and keep your sense.”

Zhao Sisi said this, looked down at Lexi in his arms, and said to her very tenderly: “Lexi, in this world, self is the most important thing. Don’t like it too full, give it to you. Don’t have too much love, so that you will not be’bound’ by what you give, and you will always be yourself.”

Just like alpha to Omega, don’t mark the opponent, don’t flood your pheromone all the time, and don’t try to control the other person. Respect the other person as an individual, so that there is the possibility of self-personality integrity.

Le Xi raised her head, looking at Zhao Sisi with water in her eyes.

Zhao Sisi patted her on the shoulder and smiled: “If you feel too painful and can’t hold on, just give up.”

“Give up, she doesn’t need you anymore, doesn’t she?”

Le Xi looked up and stared blankly? Zhao Sisi: “You also think it’s better to give up, right?”

Zhao Sisi put his hand on Lexi’s heart and spoke softly: “Because? Because you have been crying in pain. Isn’t it normal for people to temporarily give up when they are uncomfortable?”

“One tear is enough, wait someday you will see her and won’t you? Weeping, thinking that meeting is not a wrong thing, then? It would be nice to love her again.”

“Anyway, she likes your mother, maybe for your mother’s sake, for the rest of her life? Stay with you.”

Happy to hope? Zhao Sisi’s face, endured and endured, and finally couldn’t hold back tears: “You speak so badly…”

“Me? Just? Don’t be me? Mom’s stand-in…”

When she said that, Le Xi was even more sad.

Zhao Sisi started crying again when she saw her so big, and quickly hugged her in her arms, coaxing her? She said, “Oh oh oh… don’t cry or cry, if you want to start something, you didn’t use it before. Is she acting as your mother’s stand-in?”

“That was before, we were even…uh…”

Zhao Sisi held Lexi, who was crying messily in his arms, and the people who wanted to break in love were so annoying, so she didn’t care about her.

While thinking about this, she patted Lexi on the shoulder, coaxing the child and said, “Then you forget her.”

“Woo…”

Lexi didn’t answer, so she just cried. Zhao Sisi felt that she was crying too annoyingly, so he had to coax her while drinking, pour her out and fall asleep, then carry her back to the guest room.

After placing Lexi in the guest room, Zhao Sisi patted Lexi’s face and said with emotion, “Stupid boy? Why don’t you want to touch love?”

“Forever? Isn’t it good to sleep with the person you like without asking her whether she loves herself or not?”

“That’s…”

Chi Chuji.

Is it the snow-capped mountain? The lotus blooming on the top, the bright moon hanging high in the sky, why do we have to climb and touch?

Looking up forever? Isn’t that bad?

Zhao Sisi thought so, and sighed: “Too greedy!”

The author has something to say: Zhao Sisi: Love is like a wolf like a tiger, let alone touch, can’t even think about it! (But beauty is fine.)

No embarrassment to say true love, I will always sing true love.

The views presented in this article do not represent all the author’s life values.

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