Surviving as a Maid - Chapter 2

Translator: Amy

Surprisingly, maid work fit my aptitude.

Wow, why did I spend my four years at college? I have debated so many times where to apply for a job, but this was it? I found out what my aptitude is at a place you can’t even reach even if you tried with an airplane?? I did look into a part time job as a server at restaurants and hotels, but didn’t think I could handle all that and school, but now that this was the only way to survive, it was not a bad job.

In my minimal common sense, the maid and the housemaid tended to be in different classes, and they knew that their work were different. As a result of going through Ahsee’s belongings, I came to a conclusion that she is a housemaid and not a noble for sure.

Perhaps the Queen, the King was so coldhearted to, didn’t have the right to utilize good maids. I am not sure if they don’t send the Queen any maids or if the Queen has to maids herself so she didn’t use them and there is no way to really tell… I’ve learned from interacting with the other maids that none of them are from a wealthy family and that none of us could tell if we are maids or housemaids.

That’s because I am doing a maid’s and a housemaid’s job at the same time.

Everyday, what I do changes. One day it is to protect the Queen’s distance by waiting, another is laundry, another is cleaning parts of the palace. The kitchen seemed to use professionals, and maids like Mina and ‘Ahsee’ are sent to do the dirty work with a distinction. I am not too pretty, but my hands are white and plump like a rich lady’s. Thank you God. In place of a face that wouldn’t change too much even if I sent money on it, I’ve got nice hands that doesn’t need much care.

Time passed by quickly day by day and the newborn prince was already about two weeks old.

In the meantime, I didn’t find anything like the Goddess’ Trust or the Shadow of the Demon King who threatened mankind, and it was unlikely that I would find a magic book left by a legendary sage or a treasure left by the Founding King. The world was peaceful and I was insignificant.

And if you want more of my personal opinion, the King is a bitch.

“He probably wouldn’t come today either, hm?”

I asked Anna as I was drying the dishes with a cloth. Anna was often excluded from harsh work and is considered the prettiest one out of all of us.

“Even if he does… Would he even stay for 3 minutes?”

“But still”

“I would rather not have him come. If he does, it’s an emergency.”

Without love, the child is born and raised. In a non-fairytale world, wouldn’t there be less children who are born without love. But the baby prince is born without love because the King needed a heir to his throne, and now the baby does not even have a name. The King’s actions are full of shit. The baby has been around for about two weeks, and he doesn’t have a name other than prince.

“Something feels suspicious.”

Jesse, drying off the knives and fork with a towel, spoke.

“What is?”

“That monster.”

The King’s lover, the beloved of almost every man in the world, has been nicknamed as a monster or a sly fox by the ladies of the Queen’s Palace. The nickname everyone concluded of was a monster.

While I was dumbfounded in the transition from cooking my ramen to helping with a birth scene, the image of Jurgel in my head already became blurry. How did she look like again? I do recall her having a young pretty look.

“Gay devil.”

“What?”

“Nothing. Just that the plate is heavy.”

In the novel, Jurgel was born under the stars to receive love. If there was an angel who shone love and fascination, it would be Jurgel. Almost all men fell in love when they saw Jugel. So did the childhood friend of the king, the escort knight, and the fine prince of another country who she refused. Even her younger brother suffered persecution and repaid the resentment of his sister, kidnapped Jurgel and eventually threw herself under his feet and begged for love. There was a time when I fell back at my hopeless dreams that the Queen wouldn’t die and take revenge of her son’s birth. There was a day like that.

“Would it be okay?”

Jesse spoke again. It seemed as if there were gray clouds above our head.

“It’s not like we told on anyone…”

While the King came like the wind and disappeared like a paycheck, Jurgel was different. After about a week of the prince being born, she kept repeating the word daddy to the baby according to Sav who heard it from the guards at the palace. Just yesterday, the Queen had returned to the palace.

Thanks to the fact that the King’s lover visited the Queen without a promise and without a messenger, the female servants were silently upset. Especially if that person is Jurgel. Because no one was taught how to handle that situation. Because of this unexpected situation, everyone is in panic.

Maybe it was Pepe who did, but someone went to grab the maid in charge. Even though none of us did anything wrong, we still felt guilty of something and Jurgel was just walking back and forth on her own.

“Even if we didn’t tattletale, would the King think that.”

“But we didn’t really say anything.”

“We didn’t even talk to them.”

It’s hard to bring sense into a man in love.

“Guys, something happened!”

Pepe busted running in. I am pretty sure Pepe was the one that went to look for the maid in charge yesterday. There was a bunch of people still left because dinner just ended. Everyone who was cleaning the dishes and preparing for tomorrows’ meals turned to look at Pepe.

“The King brought the soldiers…”

What. What kind of a jackass brings soldiers to see a wife who just gave birth.

Did he come to take away the prince? From what I remember, the Queen gave up the baby easily. The King didn’t even need to bring all these soldiers?

The anxiety in the kitchen was already high. We had nowhere to go hide and didn’t even know a reason to hide. Everyone looked at the entrance where Pepe came in and leaned against each other for support. Shortly after, there were sounds of iron clashing followed by screams of men and women. I was nervous on when the soldiers were going to break in here but the loud foot stomps didn’t seem like they were going around everywhere. People slowly let go of each other and looked around at each other.

Ah. I remembered. Those are the soldiers who came to arrest the Queen. To be precise they  were soldiers who came to arrest the maids, but the maids were so uninterested in the Queen that it was no use at all.

Everyone started to calm down and crowded in front of the door and windows. People here were used to situations like these. Pepe, Anna, Jesse, and I all walked towards the door as well. The kitchen in the palace was underground and because Pepe left the door wide open when she ran in, we were able to look at the legs of soldiers and of the maids the soldiers were dragging.

“What will happen to them?”

“It would probably the same as before.”

“What was before?”

“They would either get kicked out or sent to another palace.”

“Nothing is changing huh.”

“Yeah basically?

The King was not at all interested in the Queen, but once in a while he flipped over the Queen’s palace. The Queen didn’t have any power or strength, but in fear that she inadvertently threatened beloved Jurgel, the King made sure to come by once in a while and stabbed her with rose thorns to cut away her power.

What is human’s loyalty made of? I think it may be high pay, generous welfare, people working together, or long-term service. I’m not sure how much the Queen’s maids make, but you never know who is going to be replaced and you never know how long you will work there. In a place, like that building loyalty would be hard. We are human as well and do feel bad for the Queen, but it is hard for us to give up something to be loyal to her. In a different place, one can probably talk about how they feel bad for the Queen and what a jackass Jurgel is.

After a while, Mina, who was assigned to do the sewing work today, glanced over and walked over to us, laid on the staircase and put her hand over her chin. Jesse asked.

“Did you hear what this was about?”

“Yes. It is because she was rude to that fox.”

“Rude?!”

Because I was in charge of cleaning the hallways yesterday, I saw Jurgel come by to wonder around. There wasn’t any action of rudeness. It wasn’t like the maids poured cold water over Jurgel nor did they insult him by yelling ‘Male prostitute fuck off!’

“No one did anything yesterday?”

Anna, who was serving the Queen yesterday, disagreed. Good thing that the soldiers came in today. If they came in yesterday, Anna would also have been dragged away.

“So it is that. No one did anything rude.”

“What! Were we suppose to greet someone who was just standing there in silence?”

Pepe complained out loud. Then I imagined for a second maids greeting male concubine who came by unnoticed with high pitched voiced, welcoming him and asking if he needs any help. This is something that is very unusual, but I guess that is what the King was expecting.

And so that is what I did.

Epilogue—————

Serving is all about having a good balance, but it was very hard for me. Very very hard…

 

 

When I was working a part time job at a taxi call center to earn some cash, I learned it like that. Even if they don’t see you, put a smile on your face, have a elated voice, in a loud clear voice, and with the statement,

“Hello, Jurgel~! How could I help you~?”

I love you, customer. How could I help you. At the taxi call center, there were a lot of drunken customer and because of that when I said I love you customer, some asked if I truly meant it. I felt burdened whenever that happened. Now that my customer has changed to Jurgel, a similar yet different burden followed. Then I was conflicted, now I’m scared of dying. So then I desperately smiled. If Jurgel spoke one wrong word, I am dead.

Today, I felt the Anna, Mina, and other maids that I am close to look at me like I was crazy. I can feel it all. Even those who looked scared out of their minds about Jurgel’s situation a few moments ago now looked at me as if I was busking in a handstand, naked, in front of a whole crowd at Exit 9 of Hongdae Station. The maid in charge stared as if she was going to do something with her authority.

That’s not to say that the intention is not there at all, but that’s not necessarily the intention. I know why Jurgel is here at the castle roaming around.

“Well… what is your name?”

“It is Ahsee, Mr. Jurgel.”

In ‘Escape,’ Jurgel was born to only be loved, not to be hated or be hateful to others. He was probably ignorant or indifferent to others other than his loved one. The evidence for that is that he did not hate the King who made love with a different woman and had a baby. This would typically be seen as cheating, but he was okay with it and he did not hate the King for it. I was surprised by that. How could he not doubt someone’s love when you see a baby with your lover and someone’s else’s face on it.

“I would like to see the baby prince.”

Jurgel was around the Queen’s palace these past few days because he wanted to see the baby prince. There wasn’t anyone who could easily go up to Jurgel and talk to him nor did Jurgel know who to ask to go see the baby prince. That is why no one in the Queen’s palace talked to Jurgel and why the King got angry. I’m sure that the way I spoke is probably against the court manners.

“Mistress, ma’am. Jurgel came by because he wanted to meet the baby.”

On top of the wavy stairs stood the mistress like the goddess of judgement. Confidently, I bent my knees and bowed towards the mistress and repeated my words. After a few seconds, she bowed towards Jurgel and I, with a face that warned that she could pull out a knife from anywhere.

“I will go tell the Queen.”

The Queen has not fully recovered from giving birth, so it was difficult for her to move around. The mistress left Jurgel, the guest, and walked inside to the Queen’s room while I stood there with a bright smile for Jurgel. I am suppose to handle this situation, but how would I know. I feel like there is a waiting room around or something!

Since the maids here change so often, and looking at how the Queen can’t use good housemaids, not just me, but no one else probably knows either. The education of the ladies of the Queen’s Palace remained at the level of making the appearance in the work that was needed immediately. Almost all of them were also trainees without professional training. And that is why my plump clean white hands fall along with my face that looks like I have a job to serve others. On top of that, when the Queen was giving birth, there was no guest around either.

After a while, the mistress came back and bowed towards Jurgel, and then she proceeded to guide him to the baby prince’s room. I debated if I should follow or stay behind. When I was standing between two choices, the mistress looked back and me and nodded at me.

Uh hopefully that nod doesn’t mean she will cut my throat? Since I know she is the one to put a blanket over the Queen after she passes away from her illness, I become small in front of her. How many years is that. Her time is also time of patience and suffering.

I followed right behind Jurgel into the baby prince’s room. Jurgel is someone who has been praised by others and is a kind and a good person, but at the palace he is not looked upon and that is why while I was walking behind him my brain felt like it was going to burst from the complete silence around us.

Anyways even someone who I don’t know if he is a current or ex boyfriend or whatever he is comes to see the baby prince, while the real father only comes by once in the beginning. If I was the mom, I would tell the baby softly in his ears every night that your father was not by you at all after he visited you once after birth and that he did not even name you. The King might have taken the prince from the Queen because of someone like me. But the Queen is not like that.

The Queen’s bedroom was at the highest point of the building and the baby prince’s room was far away from the Queen’s bedroom. The mistress opened up the huge doors to the room and Jurgel went in alone.

A light wind was blowing. In the middle of the room, the baby prince was lying on the cradle, and a nanny and a young maid stood next to it as if they have been contacted earlier. The baby prince was asleep quietly, resembling the Queen, and the calm and peaceful smell passed with the breeze.

“Hi, baby.”

That day Jurgel held the child of his beloved man.

This scene was a little different than I remembered. He seemed happy, and the baby prince, who woke up from a sweet sleep, suddenly slept and grabbed Jurgel’s finger, wielding an incredibly small hand. The little prince murmured something and went back to bed, but Jurgel couldn’t put the baby down for a while. The room even felt different from outside of the room, and Jurgel, who embraced the child, was shining gently like a saint who forgives and loves sins and muddiness around the world. The image of Jurgel singing a slow song to the baby prince, like the statue of the Virgin, looked even sacred. Seems like the world is all about how one looks.

The queen would eventually lose the baby that looks like her.

Even if you read the book and see some things differently, the King is still a son of a bitch and Jurgel still shines. It’s like how the sky is still blue, summer is still hot, and like how winter is still cold. It falls under something that will not change for me.

I peaked at the mistress’s face. She was staring at Jurgel like she wanted to take the baby from him at any second. I should stay silent. I wanted to step back. If she realized that I was right next to her, I felt like she was going to start screaming at me saying “You! You are guilty of daring to speak friendly to such a person like Jurgel!” I am not guilty. If I was guilty of something it would be that I wanted to live. I have to survive in the Queen’s palace. I cannot go anywhere else. I have to survive here.

Thin and long. In this smooth world, this is my life goal.

Actually, even in reality outside this book, this is my life goal.

Epilogue———————————————————–

Main character’s resume – pamphlet passing out part time job, hotel servicewoman part time job,  Taxi call center TM, librarian, questionnaire, etc.

A good-looking man arrived. The main character Jurgel and the King have already been casted, not those two, but a different handsome man arrived.

“Did you see? A handsome man is here.”

I was on morning cleaning duty. I was yawning, rubbing my eyes and sweeping through the garden, yawning so well that I was scared that this was really my aptitude. I’ve seen an advertisement slogans that showed that some beauty stops time and space, but I’ve never seen a handsome man who has slowed down my time in real life. My time and space sucked towards the good-looking man.

I quickly cleaned up the big areas and went to find my other maid friends to spill the tea.

“What? Where? Where??”

“Who is it? It isn’t that monster is it?”

Slowly, my friends stopped their work. They all urgently cleaned up after their work and gathered to go look at the beautiful man I was talking about. We all walked close towards the Queen’s room and hid. Maybe it was because he was a stranger and a man, the Queen’s door was wide open and the beautiful man walked out.

“Well, isn’t that just Sir Alex?”

“Ahsee, you got us.”

My friends all started to mutter away. This is my first time seeing him, but I guess it is someone that I know. I am confident though. I don’t break down for this small thing.

“But a good looking man is a good looking man.”

He is a beauty. His brown hair fluffed around he is universally beautiful.

“Yeah… He is beautiful.”

“Really good-looking…”

“Ahsee you talked about him as if he is a new beautiful man.”

He did not look like the Queen. The queen was also a modest type, not a beauty type. The queen only has a younger brother who later becomes Jurgel’s scrubber, and the younger brother’s name was not what they called him, so who is he?”

“Even if you look again, he is new and a good-looking!”

I have to keep thinking. Someone that everyone knows and ‘Ahsee’ knows too. It wasn’t a problem that I couldn’t remember maid work because everyone else was doing it, but to forget someone is something that will not be easily overlooked. I can’t safely pass this problem unless I pretend to have amnesia or something.

Alex ‘Sir’ they said so he must be a knight. When he came out the Queen’s room, he started a conversation with the mistress, who was standing next to the door. When Jurgel was here last time, that mistress said Jurgel has to make an appointment before too. She dared to say that to Jurgel. She is someone who does something when it needs to be done. But after that day, her stare towards me is cold. I am not a spy or a traitor. I am just a soul who wants to live a thin and long life.

“But since Sir Alex is back, that means we have more work to do.”

“So what. It’s not like he needed a lot to take care of.”

This beautiful sir was a resident here? I said with my hands in front of my chest.

“I wish I was his personal maid.”

He is good looking, but since all the work around here seemed to fit my aptitude, I wanted to focus on one thing instead and wanted to think about my life and future. And just when I would think that my life is over, I wish I could recover from that handsome face of his.

“You are already that fox’s personal maid.”

I felt like I heard someone nail a nail in a sponge. It has been about a week since Jurgel first came here. Following the mistress’s demand, Jurgel noticed us before he came every time and I was the person in charge every time it happened. I wanted to believe that it was just my mood, but if Ellie said this, it probably isn’t just my mood or atmosphere.”

“It’s probably because of the atmosphere.”

“Hmm”

If I wanted to live a thin and long life, I cannot stand out. But right now Sir Alex was more of my concern. If he is not here because he is related to the Queen, I’m not sure what kind of relationship he has. I chose to ask a bit in a hurry. After my body was written all over with ‘Ahsee,’ all the questions I’ve held in started to flow.

“But why is he here now?”

Ever since my maid friends realized the identify of this beautiful man, they have lost all interest. Since they have left in a hurry, they slowly started going back to finish their unfinished work. Since everyone was back to normal mood, Jesse answered briefly.

“He probably came back completely cured. I mean how would he do his work if he is completely well.”

At the end of that sentence, we all went back to our own works.

‘Ahsee.’

The mistress called me while I took the broom I hid behind the stairs in a hurry and started sweeping again. I was nervous to know if Jurgel has contacted her again, but it didn’t seem like this was about that.

“There will be an empty room on the east end of the 4th floor. Clean the room right now. Make it sparkle.”

Without asking, I picked up that it would be for Sir Alex. I took the broom and the cleaning tools for the room and went up to the room explained by the mistress. If the Queen’s room is considered the center, Sir Alex’s room is east of prince’s room.

As soon as I opened the door, I could spell the dust. I was not trying to be sensitive, but I had to cough naturally and the dampness of the room seemed to be have been trapped for a long time. Even if the owner empties the room, shouldn’t you clean it every day? Looking at Emma, ​​it seemed like that, but the reality of the Queen’s Palace is likely to be abolition of tasks that are less important right now.

I put down the cleaning supplies near the doors and started with opening the windows. I opened the curtain, which has been closed for a long time, and the sun that began to rise came into the room long.

Alex Mohitter. I remember this name. Before I got frustrated at the Queen’s silence, I was an avid reader of the “Escape.” Like, right until her baby got taken from her. Alex Mohitter was an escort knight brought by the queen from her parents and was a person who she leaned on like her brother because of his quiet and serious personality.

It was until he finds the lost Jurgel in the now lost Garden of the Queen’s Palace. Born to be loved by all, Jurgel surrendered the queen’s escort knight who had been upright and serious that day without intention. The queen has never showed her true expressions around people since that day.

When the Queen was pregnant, he was hurt with a camel incident and had to go away for a little while to heal is what I remember reading. That must be now. Since then, he has been unable to abandon his love for Jurgel and is troubled and troubled. The back part was mainly about the queen, so I don’t remember much since I skimmed through those parts.

This was the reason why the main characters who reincarnate or insist are writing down what happens on the timeline after the current time. I thought of writing down something I knew at the beginning, but I only saw the queen from around this time, so I can hardly remember what happened since then.

Sir Alex’s situation will be no different. In order to shine the love of Jurgel and the King, he must give up all the precious things he has. We are just cubic or synthetic metal for shining diamond necklaces.

Still, the description of the part where Sir Alex was looking for the lost Jurgel was pretty beautiful and exciting. So I got flustered at the thought that Jurgel’s sub-man finally appeared, but that wasn’t his role.

But I am jealous. With just his face, he was able to capture so many others. I want to experience such a life.

Where is my change?

When is my change?

What is my chance?

Epilogue———————————-

The Queen’s knight is gay.

 

 

The weather is nice and the beautiful man is here again.

Time has flew by quickly and it’s been a month since I’ve been here, and now I’m a professional maid and maid. Still, we can’t distinguish between the professional maid’s work and the maid’s work, and we don’t understand or respond to the in-depth version of the work, but it’s been possible for me to have a look to copy what others do and today’s the day we finally rotate our work. We are classified as using a maid, who do the dirty work, or using a lesser body as a professional maid. In the business rotation system, the queen’s palace frequently turns people with pretty faces or clean hands toward the professional maid, but I continue to turn to one of them because of the Jurgel, and after a long time I have finally been given the job of the queen’s maid. I feel like I have become a secret worker in the palace.

On this sunny day, about a month after the birth of the child, the Queen sat in a reception room holding the baby prince, and looking down at the knight kneeling down on under the stairs to show his respect. The baby prince, said to be a calm baby, was asleep in the Queen’s arms. The Queen’s face did not look like someone who had just given birth, but someone who was depressed.

If we were in Korea or if I was close to her, I would give her a printout of the a list of hospitals that offer counseling for postpartum depression, but this is not Korea nor am I close to her. Since they have a strict structure, if I said anything they could kill me, but everyone who around her also looked depressed.

“Did you say the King sent you?”

“Yes my lady. Shin Mio Zodiac, I will risk my life and protect your baby as long as there is honor.

Ohh. This is a scene of the oath of the knight. Sir Mio, kneeling on one knee, held the sword horizontally in front of her chest and said it plainly. The oath of a handsome man in a dark blue knight’s uniform was a beautiful sight that I would want to capture in a camera…

The problem was that the Queen was depressed and that knight also looked pretty gloomy. He was good looking but looked like he had a whole backstory in his past. Personally, I do like guys with mysterious, dark backgrounds, but not for this situation. That knight would also stay at this palace, like Sir Alex, but if he is with the depressed Queen I feel like the gloomy atmosphere will just spread out more. Depression is contagious.

Of course, it isn’t like I don’t know the reason for that depression.

The queen looked down at him without a word even after the oath of Sir Mio, and Sir Mio once again knelt down on one knee like it’s his first time and waited for the queen’s reply. Technically, he is the baby prince’s knight so he didn’t need the Queen’s permission, but he still honored the Queen. Good thought. Even if the queen shows no objection to him, his life in the queen’s palace can turn out to be a piece of shit.

The queen, who had the face of a person sinking in real-time and sinking in real time, slowly bowed her head to see the prince sleeping with an innocent face, then lifted her head and looked around, making eye contact with me. Ah.. I was one of those students who casually looked down when a teacher was about to ask a question. I guess my skill has subsided.

The Queen, looking at me, silently raised her baby prince she was holding. Me? ME? Are you talking about me? I wanted to use my fingers to double check that she was talking about me, but at that moment I saw the mistress eyeball me. Ah. I should just shut up and hold the baby prince.

Slowly, I held the baby, but the baby was lighter and softer than I thought. I was scared because it couldn’t hold its own head. Since I am still single and because I don’t have any niece or nephew or anyone around me have a baby, I have not handled a baby and the only thing I remember about one is my cousin from long long ago when they could not stop crying. As I couldn’t even breathe since I wasn’t sure if I was holding the baby right, the Queen spoke to me.

“Go deliver the baby for him to hug.”

Wow. She is bold. I am not sure if she had much affectionate towards the baby, but she is giving her own baby to a knight who seems like he has never held a baby before to him to hold. That risk is high but admirable. I would never do such thing.

However, I lived on orders and died on orders, so I did what I asked. The mistress eyed me to quickly move and so I carefully walked behind and around the Queen to bring the baby to the arms of the knight who was kneeling.

Since I had to get the baby back, I kneeled next to the knight and scared stared at the baby’s face.

The face of the baby prince was less than the length of his fingers, and the knight was big and firm. Even if not as much as a foreign actor who carried his daughter like a hot dog, the baby prince wrapped in white robes and held in his arms looked like freshly tofu. His eyes, which embraced the prince carefully, became a little darker, and the other hand touched the cheeks of the baby prince and touched the air nearby to fix the reinforcement.

“Since you are to protect the baby, I hope you have no feeling of rejection towards holding the baby.”

The Queen said monotonously, watching Sir Mio hand over the baby prince to me. When I held the baby prince again, I carefully climbed to the stage where the queen sat, but I was a little impatient because the queen didn’t even look at me and looked like someone who lost interest in her child. Thankfully, the nanny, who was standing behind, quickly caught up and brought the baby prince into her arms casually.

“Susa. Please prepare a room opposite the baby to Sir Mio. Seems like I’ll be safer since both Sir Alex and Sir Mio are right beside me.”

The mistress bowed and accepted the Queen’s order. The Queen, looking tired, lifted her thin hands to touch her forehead, and stood up from her stop. She turned around and started walking only to stop a few steps in to suddenly ask Sir Mio.

“Are you coming right away?”

“I will come back after I report this to the King and pack a few of my belongings.”

Now standing, Sir Mio spoke with a hand over his chest. The greetings and examples of the articles were as old as I thought while reading the book. The Queen, looking at the knight who bowed before her, said in a dry tone.

“Please thank the King for sending a knight before a name.”

Wow. She has a character. I thought she was a kind and pure person since she hasn’t said anything about Jurgel stopping by to see the baby, but she does know how to kick a knight in the face.

And with that, the Queen left. Sir Mio looked continued looking at her with his dark, gloomy eyes. Maybe it is because people who are depressed and not happy have something in common, I thought that while they differed, the Queen and Sir Mio resembled each other a lot. The maids followed the Queen out. I had to follow too, but I looked back once to look at him again. He was still looking at the back of the Queen. If you look closely, with such dark, gloomy eyes.

That is how Mio Zodiac, the prince’s knight, one who loves Jurgel and because of that pours hatred of the Queen in the prince’s ears, came into the Queen’s palace.

Epilogue——————————————————————–

The baby prince’s knight is also gay.

Since the new guy characters are mostly gay, they are no help to the Queen at all.

Two man who love the same man now lives in the east and west of one building floor and so there are two man who love Jurgel next to the Queen. There is a man, and there is a concubine and another concubine. The situation where two men and a man who loves the same man live in one place is astral, but the Queen seems okay, probably because she does not know about Sir Mio’s feelings.

Sir Mio came to the Queen’s Palace the next day, so yesterday. Jurgel came to see the baby prince again. The calm baby prince is so calm and collected that no matter whose hands he was in, a maid or someone else, he just played along. Now it has become a routine for Jurgel to sing to the baby prince while he swayed the baby. The baby prince fell asleep well with Jurgel’s lullabies.

To be honest, there were times where the scene when Jurgel was singing to the baby prince was gorgeous. He is a beautiful man. Occasionally, the sun appeared to shine for him, the flowers bloomed to praise him, and the wind seemed to blow to carry his scent. Born to be loved, Jurgel even seemed to welcome and bless the whole world.

Even when I read the novel, he shined in my eyes. I wonder how much he shined in the eyes of Sir Mio, who was already in love in Jurgel.

Mom, what crime did I commit in my past life that I cannot just stare at this beautiful scene with my two bare eyes.

Now the baby prince’s knight, Sir Mio, has not looked away from Jurgel ever since he got here. Jurgel’s face, Jurgel’s hair, Jurgel’s shoulders, Jurgel’s back, Jurgel’s shadow…

Even as a person watching, I was sighing at how strongly Sir Mio was looking at Jurgel, Jurgel did not really seem to care much about it. Maybe because he has an overly insensitive nerve to notice Sir Mio’s gaze, or maybe he has been loved for a long time and became accustomed to such a gaze and became indifferent.

Sir Mio’s eyes were dark and dark green. I kept looking, and I noticed the green color that was fleeting, but it was a dark green eye that would have been difficult to detect if I had passed by. If I looked into that eye under bright sunlight, I wondered if it would look different, or if the melancholy sensation of the heart towards Jurgel made his eyes darker. Probably no way to know.

That was yesterday. I dragged my chair and sat in front of the window, looking up at the night sky. Compared to Seoul, the sky was so black and full of stars, I sighed.

Criminals don’t have ‘I am a criminal’ written all over their face, but when I look at Sir Mio’s face, I also get depressed and curious. How to say this, it feels like he is in debt of like 12 million dollars and looks like he was offered to have that paid off and get paid, so he is just forcing himself to work since he has maybe 4 younger siblings to take care of, kind of vibe. He does not have a face of someone who will go whisper to the baby that ‘the Queen does not love you,’ but what is it about love that changes people so much.

While I was pondering, Mina came back.

“You are here? Good job today.”

“Why are you sitting like that?”

“Just wanted to see the stars.”

Mina changed and  pulled out the pins that was holding her hair all day. She pulled a chair next to me and sat down.

“Why are you suddenly depressed?”

Yeah, why am I so depressed. Sir Mio is just a character in this novel, so why does he matter with me. I have no life here and I just want to go back home.

“Well, I think love is pretty difficult.”

“Oh~ You are for Sir Mio too?”

“Why bring Sir Mio up suddenly?”

“Everyone is interested in a handsome guy who suddenly appears.”

Unlike me, who was alone in the workplace today yesterday, Mina was in a place to hang out with other ladies. Lucky. I wonder how much stories of Sir Mio they gossiped about.

“And you have no interest?”

“I still am with someone? Maybe?”

“Why do you add that maybe?”

“I think the rules here are absurd. One pass for three months??”

“Well… it’s only until we finish training.”

Although it is a royal palace, I wondered if it was really okay for them to abuse their power like that, but then again the palace doesn’t really abuse their workers. Currently, most of the ladies belonging to the Queen’s Palace were trainees, and they were only allowed to go out once every three months unless there was anything special, until they became full-time ladies.

“I have to wait another month before I can go out… do you think Gerald will be waiting for me?”

Will Gerald be waiting for Mina?
Is my ramen waiting for me?

No one knows that. I shared the shawl I was covering with Mina lying on the windowsill. The sky was high, the stars were high, and the moon was bright.

“Right, Ahsee. The mistress asked me to tell you to go to the nanny tomorrow.”

“Me? Why? I am assigned for the laundry room tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow, the nanny was originally Sev, but she rolled up on the stairs earlier and broke her leg. So, the mistress is going to put Sev on jobs where she doesn’t have to walk for a while.”

“Oh my how did she fall. She didn’t get hurt too much?”

Yeah. Pepe pushed her. Nice.”

Mina raised her thumb. I thought Mina and Sev were close. I thought Sev and Pepe were too.

“Uh did Pepe push Mina because she did something wrong?”

“Nope? Oh~ You probably don’t know because you weren’t there earlier.”

“What is it?”

Mina, lying on her sill with her arms down on the window sill, changed her thigh and looked up at me. Mina’s eyes were bright greenish green like new leaves in spring even on a faintly lit night. If I looked at Sir Mio’s eyes after the gloomy shade disappeared, under the bright sun, would his eyes look like Mina’s?

“Sev flirted with the guy that Pepe was seeing.”

“Oh wow.”

“Pepe went out today. When she came back around lunch, she went straight to Sev!”

“How cool of Pepe~”

Compared to thin Sev, Pepe is cute and small, but for Pepe to push her like that it seemed cool. And from what Mina is saying, it doesn’t seem like Sev is seriously injured.

“Probably shouldn’t let Pepe and Sev be in the same area for a while.”

“Yeah. Even the mistress thought that.”

It is quite difficult to hire new people in the palace. I heard that the job position is constantly changing and that if you do something wrong, you may get hurt or die, so most prefer to not work here. Even though it wasn’t a small accident that the maid pushed another maid to hurt her, the mistress could not afford to lose another person.

“Pepe’s boyfriend seemed pretty nice.”

“Even then he cheated.”

“I know. Oh~ I hope Gerald is okay?”

I don’t understand why there isn’t just a happy ending when a person loves a person and that person loves them back. Jurgel and the King’s love is probably a happy ending. But for Sir Mio and Sir Alex who hold forbidden love, would they be satisfied and happy if they met someone else? I wish one person’s name was stamped on a person’s body to determine the love and faith for them. Then, there wouldn’t be love between people without faith.

“Ah… I want some alcohol.”

Beer, I want some beer. I like it mild. I don’t really like the sparkles but I just wanted a cold beer running down my throat.

“Oh yeah? Should we still some from the kitchen?”

“And what if we get caught?”

“If we steal something cheap, we can just say cut our pay for it!”

“Oh respect, Mina.”

“I will be back. Let’s call more people like Ellie and Jesse.”

Quickly, Mina got up, tied up her hair quickly, and put on a shawl. We know where the drinks are since we work in the kitchen as well.

“Bring some snacks too~”

“Tell others to bring the hidden snacks too!”

I was distressed by this world. The sea and the moon did not rise, and no one came to the rescue. I stand alone at the sea without knowing which side the lighthouse is on. In what direction should I row, or am I in the right direction? I am afraid so I can’t row, and now I’m hoping I won’t be wrecked, just floating there.

But the storm did not stop.

Epilogue———————————————————–

I was surprised by today’s best LOLLLLL. I took a screenshot to look back at it occasionally. HAHA

Thank you for pointing out my typo! I tried to make sure, but I still made mistakes L

I know most male characters are ‘in love with Jurgel,’ but there are some that the main character can target and some that she can’t. Even if someone has a goalie that doesn’t mean one cannot shoot! Lollllll.