The Aftermath of Having Slept with the Villain - Chapter 292: Her Deskmate (49)

World Eight. Her Deskmate (49)

Xue Xue was startled.

Su Xiangnan had raised an arm to cover his face at some point.

Although she couldn’t see his expression, Xue Xue could feel his emotions.

It couldn’t be summarized with just the simple word “depressed”.

Like a plant that has lost sunlight and nutrients, Su Xiangnan was withering at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Xue Xue tightened her grip on his hand, hoping to transfer her strength to him, even if it was insignificant.

“I knew this day would come, and I’ve been mentally preparing myself for it.” His voice was muffled, and his colorless lips trembled. Every word he spoke seemed to be squeezed out from between his teeth. “But when this day truly arrived, I realized…”

There’s no such thing as being prepared.

Su Xiangnan didn’t say this sentence, but Xue Xue could guess it.

In front of birth, old age, sickness and death, human beings appear small and powerless.

“My mother… finally left me a letter.”

Letter? Xue Xue understood what this meant.

Su Lin was prepared for her own death.

“She wants me to live a good life in the future, and says it would be best if I could forget about everything in the past. She doesn’t want me to blame others or fate for being unfair. She made this decision to make peace with herself, it has nothing to do with anyone else.” Su Xiangnan’s pace of speech became faster and his voice softer, to the point where it was unclear if he was talking to Xue Xue or mumbling to himself. “Because I have become an independent adult who can stand on my own, she can finally leave with peace of mind… Ha.”

A low laughter expressed just how hurt and helpless the person left behind felt.

However, time cannot be turned back, and the ending written cannot be changed.

“Su Xiangnan, aunt…your mother…this may be a relief for her.”

These words were hurtful, but seeing Su Xiangnan’s dejected appearance, Xue Xue realized that perhaps opening up and talking about it was the best thing for him.

“Don’t think that she abandoned you. Think about it from another angle. Auntie is just accompanying you in a different way.”

“Is that so?” The sharp tone made Xue Xue froze for a moment. “Actually, this is just an excuse, right? Just an excuse to comfort me.”

After saying that, Su Xiangnan put down his arm and turned his head sharply to look at Xue Xue.

The pitch-black pupils oozed out a trace of coldness.

“My mother has always felt that she was dragging me down, but wasn’t it me who was dragging her down too?” Su Xiangnan’s tone was harsh. Except for the first time they met, this kind of Su Xiangnan had already left a faint impression in Xue Xue’s memory. “You know it too, right? If it weren’t for me, maybe she wouldn’t have had hopes of entering the Lin family’s door. Later, we were driven away… If it weren’t for dragging along a burden, maybe she would already have a new family, a new life.”

“It’s all because of me that slowed her down and keeping her trapped in the shadow of Lin Youfeng for a lifetime, unable to escape.”

This seemed to be the first time Su Xiangnan had mentioned Lin Youfeng.

His nominal biological father, a man who only briefly showed him fatherly love in his childhood but refused to acknowledge him.

The appearance of this name made Xue Xue understand how much damage Su Lin’s death had caused Su Xiangnan.

“That’s not the case.” She spoke out, interrupting Su Xiangnan’s self-loathing. “Your parents’ affairs are your parents’ business, and it has nothing to do with you.”

“When Auntie gave birth to you, it was her decision, a decision she made willingly without being forced.” Noticing that Su Xiangnan wanted to move, Xue Xue gripped him harder. “You can’t dismiss this just because of what happened later, Su Xiangnan.”

“Life is a dynamic development, and a small change of thought in the process can lead to a completely different outcome, but what you experience and feel at every moment is also real and indelible.”

“Didn’t Auntie always tell you that she doesn’t regret giving birth to you?”

“Indeed, without you, she might have another life, but is this life necessarily a good one?” Su Xiangnan’s expression was blank, seemingly absent-minded, yet Xue Xue knew that he was listening to her. “You are Su Xiangnan, not Su Lin, you can have your own thoughts and feelings, but that doesn’t represent Su Lin’s, understand?”

Su Xiangnan did not answer.

Xue Xue knew that he understood, but he just needed some time to accept the reality.

Although she wasn’t sure if it would be prudent to bring up this matter now, Xue Xue’s mind had already been shaken.

She felt that Su Xiangnan should perhaps divert his attention, and at the same time break the shackles placed on him by his birth parents in a more decisive way.

“I want to tell you something,” Xue Xue gently adjusted Su Xiangnan’s crooked mask. “It’s something that I discussed with Sister Chen. Maybe now is not a good time… but I think we should give you a little more time to think about it.”

Facing Su Xiangnan’s scattered gaze, Xue Xue smiled slightly.

“For now, just listen to me.”

As Xue Xue expected, Su Xiangnan did not agree with her and Chen Rong’s approach.

At the same time, although the boy did not protest violently, he looked at her with a very disappointed look, as if he was questioning how Xue Xue could have such an idea.

It was human nature.

On the way from the hospital to accompanying Su Xiangnan home, the two of them did not talk with each other.

“Su Xiangnan, I know you’re suffering.”

Just as Su Xiangnan inserted the key into the door hole, held the handle and was preparing to turn it, Xue Xue finally opened her mouth.

She stared at the boy who had his whole face hidden under the brim of the cap, and said to him in a very calm tone: “However, no matter how difficult life may be, we must endure it in order not to let down the wishes and…last wishes of those who love us.”

Upon hearing these words, Su Xiangnan’s body became stiff.

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