The Badboy Is My Bully - Chapter 16：16

☆ A S H E R ‘ S  POV ☆

I stared at her happily for she gave me another chance to make things right. I really wanted to jump up and down with excitement but I didn’t want to make a fool out of my self in front of her so I settled for smiling like a creep.

I know I screwed up with her, I treated her like she was beneath me and wasn’t worthy of anyone. If only I could take all of those horrible words back, but the damage was already done and I couldn’t do anything about it.

She looked at me with those beautiful green eyes of hers, I really wanted to kiss those soft pouty lips but refrained myself from doing so, I didn’t want to scare her in moving to fast. Lily was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen and I might have lied to her about wanting to be just friends.

I never wanted to be just friends with Lil, I wanted so much more. I wanted her to be mine and only mine. I always had the biggest crush on her from the first day I saw her but mom let all of my hopes in being with her down. She forbid me to stay away from her and I took out the anger on Lil. I just couldn’t stop my feelings for her even though I would bully her to make her feel like shit.

I would call her bad names and make my friends call her them as well. They listened to me when I called her disgusting and ugly. But all that crap wasn’t true I just didn’t want other guys to see her in any romantic way because she was only mine to be with. If  I couldn’t have her then no one else could.

But I fucked up badly and I don’t think she will ever see me in that way. She did moan when you touched her I thought a little happy. And boy did I want to touch her again. She was so responsive I wonder how she will be when I finally make love to her.  Was she that responsive to the other guys she slept with just by thinking about it made me angry.

I wanted to be the only guy she ever slept with. But then I kept seeing different guys coming out of her dorm room when I  went to have one night stands with the girls there. I got really mad once and had a huge fight with one of them. I just kept thinking of his disgusting fingers on my girl touching her in the way only I should.

I know you’re thinking I’m a hypocrite because I slept with many girls but think about it, I’m a guy who gets sexually frustrated every time I see Lily. What else should I do when they come willing to me but the only girl I really want to make love to looks at me with hatred which I  caused.

I can’t keep bullying her and pushing her away when I want her. I hate having to treat her that way when all I wanted to do was protect her. I just couldn’t handle not speaking to her like a normal human being those couple of days.

I felt really guilty when I was fucking Shelly in that bathroom when I knew she was in there but I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me when I saw that guy coming out of her dormroom the other night.

But little does she know that when I was balls deep in Shelly all I could think about was her, her legs wrapped around me and her I was thrusting in. All the girls I have ever slept with I thought of Lily, I would picture them as her.

Shelly was my on and off girlfriend that I didn’t want to be with but my parents forced us together. Something about having a contract with her parents that I didn’t care about. I never was interested in Shelly,the only person who will ever hold my interest was the girl who was sitting next to me that I couldn’t take my eyes off of.

But I can’t let anyone see us as friends or more at school. My parents will find out because I know they told that Bitch Shelly to keep an eye out on me and I’m pretty sure she isn’t the only one doing so. My fucking parents have links everywhere. That project just came at the right time so they wouldn’t get suspicious if we hang out. I must really thank Mr Ramroach later.

“You know even though we are friends now doesn’t mean you can stare at me like a creep.” She said breaking me out of my trance

“So I can’t stare at you?” I asked smirking

“You’re annoying Asher”  God hearing my name out of her mouth gave me a boner

She got up dusting her self before limping away from me. I got up as well laughing at her childishness.

“Wait lil you’re going the wrong way” I informed her

“I knew that!” She mumbled embarrassed

I laughed at her face and raised my eyebrow at her

“Can we go back now I’m fucking cold” she yelled in frustration. Someone’s moody.

“Sure follow me”  I gestured her to follow

“And lil ,you have a fucking sexy body” I said smirking and stayed a couple feet away from her so she won’t hit me. It was true though my girl had the most sexiest body I have ever seen, she had curves in all the right places.

“Shut up Asher!” She yelled and I could picture her blushing and looking innocent.