The Best Of You - Chapter 48
Shen Nianshen stayed in the bathroom for a long time, and the water in the shower rushed down from the top of his head with a gravitational force, and the chaotic brain was slightly awake by the current.
He closed his eyes and tried not to think about the things that were upsetting.
Sun Tiantian blew her hair outside and sat on the sofa waiting for Shen Nian to come out after blowing her hair.
But after waiting a long time, the water in the bathroom kept flowing.
It took about half an hour before the sound of water finally stopped.
Shen Nianshen came out from the bathrobe and wiped her hair with a towel.
Sun Tiantian beckoned to him, “Annian, let me blow your hair.”
Before the hair dryer was pulled out, she waited for Shen Nian to blow her hair deeply.
Shen Nian walked over and put the towel on the coffee table.
Sun Tiantian was sitting on the sofa. She patted her leg and said, “You lie on my lap.”
Shen Nian froze for a moment, with a smile on the corner of her mouth, “I’m afraid you’re crushed with such thin legs.”
“Where would it be.” Sun Tiantian directly reached out and pulled him.
Shen Nianshen was really too tired, so he did not refuse, lying on Sun Tiantian’s leg.
“Just lift your legs up and lie flat.” Sun Tiantian wanted to make Shen Nian more comfortable.
Shen Nianshen gave a sigh and followed suit.
Shen Nianshen rested on Sun Tiantian’s legs, but because he was too tall and the sofa was not long enough, he needed to bend his legs slightly. He flexed one leg and straight one leg, finding the most comfortable posture.
“I blow your hair, you can rest with your eyes closed.” Sun Tiantian turned the hair dryer into the smallest gear, the wind was very gentle.
She held the hair dryer in one hand, and gently rubbed her deep hair with one hand. The soft fingers shuttled softly between his hair, and the warm wind blew into the scalp, which was extremely comfortable.
Sun Tiantian gently massaged Shen Nianshen’s scalp with soft fingertips. The gentle strength seemed to have a stable strength. Shen Nianshen had been having insomnia for many days. At last, he was finally sleepy. He closed his eyes and said nothing Think about it, after a while, you really fell asleep.
Sun Tiantian dries Shen Nian’s hair deeply and sees that he falls asleep with his eyes closed, and carefully puts the hair dryer to the side. She moves very lightly, for fear of making a little sound.
Sun Tiantian was afraid to wake up Shen Nianshen, sitting still.
She lowered her head and looked at Shen Nianshen very seriously.
He was really thin, and the dark circles under his eyes were worse than before. Even if he fell asleep, his eyebrows tightened tightly.
Sun Tiantian looked at him, but felt very distressed.
She raised her hand and gently stroked Shen Nian’s frowning brows gently, trying to spread the worries between his brows, but after a while, he still frowned, not a little relaxed.
Sun Tiantian was so distressed that she and Shen Nianshen have been together for so long. The two have been so close, but don’t know why, she always felt as if she had never really understood him, and had never really entered his heart.
He was like a mystery, as if he had hidden many, many secrets.
Sun Tiantian stared at Shen Nian for a long, long time, and closed her eyes and fell asleep until four o’clock in the morning.
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Shen Nianshen hasn’t slept well for too long, and it’s rare to have a good night’s sleep, but he fell asleep until eight in the morning.
He opened his eyes and saw Sun Tiantian leaning back against the sofa, tilting his head, and sleeping with his eyes closed. He hesitated for a few seconds, and then suddenly found himself lying on Sun Tiantian’s lap.
He actually slept all night relying on Sun Tiantian, reacted, and hurriedly sat up.
Because Sun Tiantian was sitting and couldn’t sleep well, Shen Nianshen got together, and she immediately woke up.
“You’re awake.” She raised her hands and rubbed her eyes, moving subconsciously.
Because I didn’t move all night, and my back was aching, I wanted to stand up and move around, only to find that my legs were numb.
Shen Nian squatted down and rubbed her calf, and said, “Why don’t you shout to wake me up?”
Sun Tiantian shook her head. “It’s okay.”
Shen Nian was deeply distressed.
How could it be okay, sitting motionless all night, must be back pain.
He helped Sun Tiantian rub his legs for a while, then sat on the sofa and rubbed her arms and shoulders.
“Are you better?”
Sun Tiantian smiled and looked at Shen Nianshen and nodded, “Very comfortable.”
Shen Nian saw that she was still laughing, distressed and helpless, and touched her head, “Stupid not stupid.”
…
Sun Tiantian and Shen Nianshen simply washed in the hotel, changed their clothes and checked out.
There is a breakfast shop selling soy milk fritters opposite the hotel. Shen Nian Shen led Sun Tiantian to eat.
At more than eight o’clock, it was the best time for the breakfast shop business to be filled, and Sun Tiantian and Shen Nianshen could only sit on the side of the road.
Sun Tiantian had cold hands. Shen Nianshen kept her left hand while eating.
Sun Tiantian looked at him sweetly.
Shen Nianshen ate fast, and sat beside him watching Sun Tiantian after dinner.
Looking at it, he found that something was wrong. His eyes fell on Sun Tiantian’s hair, and he was slightly surprised. After a while, he asked: “Have you burned your hair?”
Sun Tiantian looked up at him and hummed, “You just found out now.”
Shen Nian reached out and touched Sun Tiantian’s hair, especially soft.
After drinking soy milk, Sun Tiantian looked up, looked at Shen Nianshen with a smile, and asked him, “Does my new hairstyle look good?”
Shen Nianshen was a little bit fascinated. He looked at Sun Tiantian for a moment, then nodded for a while, “It looks good.”
Sun Tiantian obeyed and laughed happily.
It was a waste of effort.
After having breakfast, Shen Nianshen rode Sun Tiantian back to school on a motorcycle.
Shen Nianshen rides a motorized motorcycle, and on the way to send Sun Tiantian back to the dormitory, he has attracted the attention of many students all the way.
Sun Tiantian sat in the back, holding Shen Nianshen’s waist tightly. “Shen Nianshen, you are so handsome.”
Shen Nian smiled deeply and said nothing.
Shen Nianshen sent Sun Tiantian to the door of the dormitory.
Sun Tiantian got out of the car, took off his helmet, handed him, and asked, “Are you still full of classes today?”
Shen Nianshen said, “But you don’t need to accompany me. I didn’t sleep well last night. Go back to the dormitory and have a good rest.”
Sun Tiantian did not sleep well last night. She was a little sleepy. She nodded. “Well then, I’ll rest and call you.”
“Ok.”
Sun Tiantian and Shen Nianshen waved goodbye and returned to the dormitory. They were surrounded by roommates as soon as the door was opened.
Xie Yan put her hands on her hips, “Hurry up and explain. Didn’t come back last night. Did she go out with Shen Nian Shen …” She raised an eyebrow at Sun Tiantian and smiled ambiguous.
“Thinking a lot.” Sun Tiantian was really tired and didn’t want to explain what happened last night. She took off her jacket and went to bed to rest.
She was lying on the bed, but what emerged in her mind was Shen Nianshen’s frowning frown when she slept last night.
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For the next month, Sun Tiantian accompanied Shen Nianshen to class every day. Shen Nianshen was still busy. Except during the class time, Sun Tiantian couldn’t see him at all, and didn’t know what he was busy with.
Until one day in early March, she encountered thank you at school.
Xie Xun stared at her for a while, her eyes were strange.
Sun Tiantian touched his face subconsciously, “Is there anything on my face?”
Xie Xun stared at her for a long while, and suddenly asked, “Do you know what Shen Nianshen is doing to take out?”
Sun Tiantian’s eyes narrowed and he opened his eyes.
Seeing her expression, Xie Xun knew that she should not know, saying: “It seems to be very hard. Last night we went to the bar to play. When we returned at more than two o’clock in the middle of the night, we saw that he was still delivering food to others. It’s getting wet. ”
Sun Tiantian covered her mouth tightly, her eyes instantly turned red.
Xie Xun looked at her for a while, patted her on the shoulder, and walked forward.
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At eight in the evening, when Shen Nianshen came out of the KFC store, he found a man sitting on his motorcycle.
He was stiff all over, and was completely there.
Sun Tiantian wore a helmet and beckoned to him, “Not yet hurry up, the things I gave to others will be cold.”
Shen Nian’s **** was tight and he walked over and looked at Sun Tiantian. It took a long time to make a sound, “How do you know …”
“If I don’t come to you, do you plan to keep hiding from me?”
Shen Nian looked at her deeply and did not speak.
Sun Tiantian took the box in his hand and put it in the back box. “Come up and ride.”
Shen Nian frowned deeply. “You go back.”
“I don’t, I want to accompany you.” Sun Tiantian refused to get down on the motorcycle.
“Very hard.”
“I’m not afraid, I’ll be with you.”
Sun Tiantian refused to get out of the car, and Shen Nianshen had no choice but to take her with her.
Sun Tiantian accompanied him across the street, accompanied him from one store to another, and accompanied him up and down the stairs.
The motorcycle was galloping on the street, and Sun Tiantian hugged Shen Nianshen, his face was stuck on his back.
The night breeze blew head-on, fascinated her eyes, and her eyes were sour, and she suddenly burst into tears.
“Anin, how much money can you make in a month?”
Shen Nian took a deep look and said, “Four or five thousand.”
Coupled with his translation of scientific articles, he can have six or seven thousand a month, but it is very hard.
Sun Tiantian’s eyes were hot, and she couldn’t help choking her voice. She hugged Shen Nian’s heart tightly, and her heart was almost broken.
Shen Nianshen didn’t answer. His eyes were facing the wind and his blood was red.
…
Since Sun Tiantian knew that Shen Nianshen was working outside, and accompanied him to class during the day, he accompanied him to deliver food at night.
Sometimes when they are busy and have no time to eat, the two of them just buy something and sit on the side of the road and eat.
That night, Sun Tiantian and Shen Nianshen delivered their last meal at three in the morning.
Shen Nianshen rode Sun Tiantian back to his house.
Sun Tiantian had menstruation and her stomach hurt. She sat behind, holding Shen Nianshen tightly, and closed her eyes tightly. Xu Shi blew a cold wind, his stomach hurt, and his face was pale and pale.
Before returning home every night, Sun Tiantian sang cheerfully in the back. Today is rare and quiet, Shen Nianshen realized that she was wrong, and asked, “Tian Tian, what’s wrong with you? Is it uncomfortable? Why not speak?”
Sun Tiantian was worried that Shen Nian was worried and forced to fight, “No, I’m just a little sleepy.”
“You’ll be home soon. You go to bed first.”
“it is good.”
After arriving home, Shen Nian Shen helped Sun Tiantian get out of the car. Sun Tiantian held a smile and said, “I’m so tired today.”
Shen Nian laughed deeply and led her to the room. “I’ll give you water, face and feet. You go to the bed and lie down first.”
Sun Tiantian nodded, then turned and walked into the bedroom.
As soon as she turned, the smile on her face receded, her hands covering her stomach, her brows frowning, her face pale and scary.
She took her clothes off and went to bed, and got into the bed.
The lower abdomen was painful as if several knives were stirred in it. She was cold all over, her body shrunk into the quilt and curled into a ball.
Shen Nianshen prepared hot water for Sun Tiantian, took a towel, and returned to the bedroom with a basin.
When I went in, I found Sun Tiantian huddled in a quilt, and her head was buried inside.
He placed the washbasin on the ground, kneeled on the bed on one knee, leaned down, and tore off the quilt gently, “Tian Tian washed his face, washed it again …”
Before he finished speaking, when he uncovered the quilt, he found that Sun Tiantian was pale and shivered into a small ball.
Shen Nianshen was so scared that his face turned pale. Subconsciously he touched Sun Tiantian’s forehead. As a result of this touch, I found that my forehead was as cold as ice.
Shen Nianshen was so scared that he was freezing cold. The next second, he held Sun Tiantian tightly in his arms. “Tian Tian, Tian Tian, don’t scare me, what’s wrong with you?”
His eyes were red, and he felt that Sun Tiantian was shaking in his arms, and his tears fell in fear.
Sun Tiantian opened her eyes slightly, and saw Shen Nian crying. She froze, raised her hand and touched his face, “An Nian, what happened to you?”
Shen Nianshen shuddered, tears suddenly couldn’t stop, long-term fear and pressure suddenly burst out at this moment, the string that was tense in his heart seemed to be approaching the edge of the break, and could not hold it.
Sun Tiantian was frightened by Shen Nian Shen, and she was busy comforting him, “A Nian, don’t do this, I’m just on vacation, my stomach hurts, don’t do this …”
She looked at Shen Nianshen and cried like this, suddenly frightened, and she couldn’t help crying.
She sat up in Shen Nianshen’s stomach with the pain in her lower abdomen, and she hugged Shen Nianshen tightly.
Shen Nianshen hugged Sun Tiantian tightly. He clenched his teeth tightly and wanted to control his emotions, but there was no way. His face was buried tightly in Sun Tiantian’s neck. The hot tears couldn’t be restrained, and he was emotional. I kept saying, “I’m sorry, I’m really sorry, I didn’t take good care of you and made you suffer with me. I’m really sorry …”
Sun Tiantian was really frightened. She hurriedly said, “No, it’s not your business. Anian, don’t do this. Don’t do this. I’m scared …”
Sun Tiantian was crying anxiously, she didn’t know why Shen Nianshen suddenly did this. She didn’t even know that Shen Nianshen had always been most afraid that she would suffer with him. In Shen Nianshen’s heart, she was a star in the sky and he should not have expected it.
Too many things have happened recently, he has put all the pressure on himself, almost reaching the limit, so a little thing can become a fuse, all the depressed, pessimistic, and hopeless emotions are here All of them gathered together at one moment and were ignited by this fuse, all exploding in the bottom of my heart, almost completely destroying him.
He thought he could hold it, and he overestimated himself.
He went outside to blow the cold wind, squatted at the door, trying to calm himself.
He didn’t want to make himself so embarrassed, he suddenly didn’t know how to face Sun Tiantian.
He squatted at the door for a while, and suddenly heard the sound of opening the door from the inside. He almost conditionedly got up from the ground and pulled the door, “Don’t come out!”
Sun Tiantian paused to open the door, holding his hand on the armrest, and didn’t move.
Shen Nian’s voice was hoarse, almost begging, “Don’t look at me, leave me alone.”
Sun Tiantian choked his throat and responded to him, “OK.”
Behind the door, Shen Nianshen’s voice was very low, almost begging, “Forget what just happened, okay?”
Sun Tiantian nodded, “OK.”
Sun Tiantian let go of his hand, remained silent for a long time, and said quietly, “An, let me help you?”
Shen Nianshen stood outside, his red eyes stared deep into the alley, and there was no answer for a long time.
…
Shen Nianshen stood outside for twenty minutes, and his emotions finally stabilized. He pushed the door into the house and found Sun Tiantian squatting on the ground.
He hurried forward and hugged her. “Why don’t you come back?”
Sun Tiantian still had a pain in her stomach, but she supported her spirit. She drew deep in her neck with both hands, looked at him and said, “Wait for you.”
Shen Nian looked at her deeply, her throat dry.
Hugging Sun Tiantian back to the room, gently laying on the bed, and then pulling her under the quilt to cover her, touching her forehead, said softly, “Let’s lie down for a while, I’ll boil some **** syrup for you.”
Shen Nianshen went to the kitchen to boil **** syrup for Sun Tiantian, and after a short while he cooked it into the bedroom.
Sun Tiantian got up from the bed, Shen Nian was busy sitting next to the bed, set the pillow on the bedside, and let Sun Tiantian lean on his back.
Pass the bowl to her and whisper softly: “A little hot, drink slowly.”
Sun Tiantian took the bowl and drank slowly while blowing air. The water boiled by **** and brown sugar warmed the palace.
Drinking a bowl of hot **** sugar water, the belly is really comfortable.
Shen Nianshen took the bowl, placed it on the bed, looked at Sun Tiantian, and asked softly, “Are you comfortable?”
Sun Tiantian nodded, “Much more comfortable.”
Shen Nian touched her cheek deeply and then said, “It’s too late, go to bed.”
Sun Tiantian was still, holding Shen Nianshen, leaning his head on his arms. After a while, he looked up, looked at Shen Nianshen, and said softly, “Anian, don’t be afraid, no matter what happens, I will Be with you, I won’t leave you alone. ”
She had a firm, serious look and promise.
Shen Nian looked at her deeply, without saying a word for a long time, but finally touched Sun Tiantian’s cheek and whispered, “Sleep, it’s not early.”
That night, Shen Nianshen had been sitting against the bedside, lowering his head, watching Sun Tiantian intently, drawing the outline of his fingers gently on Sun Tiantian’s face, over and over again, as if to imprint her firmly in her heart.
…
The next day, Sun Tiantian slept until noon and woke up at about twelve.
When she woke up, Shen Nianshen was gone.
On the bed was Shen Nianshen’s down jacket, and Sun Tiantian wrapped her body around her ankles.
When I came out of the bedroom, I looked around in each room, but couldn’t find Shen Nianshen.
“Anian?” Sun Tiantian shouted, and no one responded.
She came to the door subconsciously, opened the door, looked out, and found Shen Nianshen standing outside.
He was leaning against the wall and smoking.
Sun Tiantian grinned at the corner of his mouth and smiled, “I said where you went, it turned out here.”
She trot in front of Shen Nianshen, and saw that he had a cigarette in his hand, and unhappyly pursed his mouth. “Isn’t it promised me to quit smoking, why did I smoke again?”
Shen Nian looked at her for a long while, and said dumbly, “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t smoke again if you know it’s wrong.” Sun Tiantian reached out and took over the cigarette from Shen Nianshen. “Smoking is bad for your health.”
She said, squatting down, squashing her cigarette **** on the ground, then stood up and threw it into the trash can beside her.
Shen Nian looked at her deeply, his eyes were dark and deep, and he could not see what he was thinking.
Sun Tiantian threw away his cigarette **** and ran to Shen Nianshen, plopped into his arms, happily hugged him, raised his head, and found that Shen Nianshen stared at her momentarily, her eyes bent, and asked, “What are you looking at?” ? ”
Shen Nianshen didn’t say anything, just looked at her intently.
It took a long time before he raised his hand, holding Sun Tiantian’s face in both hands, his thumb rubbing gently on her cheek.
He looked at her and didn’t speak for a long time.
I thought about it all night and stuck it in my throat, but couldn’t say anything.
After a while, finally there was a sound in my throat, with a choke I couldn’t help, “Tian Tian, staying with me, I’m really sorry, I didn’t take good care of you … always let you For my aggrieved, I don’t care about my self-esteem, I always get along with me carefully, always go out and let you follow the subway with me, ca n’t eat too good things … ”
“No.” The more she listened, the more she felt wrong, and he said busyly: “I have not been wronged, I am very happy, Shen Nianshen …”
“After listening to me, Tian Tian … after listening to me.” Shen Nianshen interrupted her and continued: “When I was with you, I really wanted to be treated like a treasure, but I found out later In fact, you have been working hard for everything, I have classes, you come to accompany me, I go to the library, even if you do n’t like to stay in the library, you have been sitting there with me, as if we were together until now, all You are with me, but I haven’t been with you to do anything you like, even Valentine’s Day has hurt you so sad … ”
“Don’t say that! Did you accompany me to do what I loved! Did you take me to ride a bike and take me to the playground, did you forget it ?!” Sun Tiantian was suddenly excited, and she felt very strong in her heart. She had red eyes and clenched Shen Nianshen’s hand, “Shen Nianshen, don’t think too much, I’m happy with you, I …”
“But I’m not happy.”
Sun Tiantian froze, tears falling off unprepared. Her lips trembled, and her heart seemed to be suddenly stabbed with a knife. She stared at Shen Nian for a long time, her voice soft and shaking uncontrollably, “… what exactly do you want to say …”
Shen Nianshen looked at Sun Tiantian, and for the first time knew that his heart was like a knife.
He had not spoken for a long time, and his throat was sore that he could barely make a sound.
The two looked at each other so quietly, the wind in the alley whistled in their ears.
After a long time, Shen Nian Shen looked at Sun Tiantian, and finally said in a dumb voice, “Tian Tian, let’s break up.”
After saying this, he looked away, his eyes flushed.
Sun Tiantian stiffened there stiffly, she looked deep at Shen Nian, her tears were completely out of control, like a broken bead, and a large amount of ground was flowing outward. She couldn’t even ask why. She really didn’t understand.
“Shen Nianshen, don’t do this …” Sun Tiantian clung to Shen Nianshen’s clothes, “Not like this …”
They are clearly good, why are they doing this.
Shen Nianshen didn’t dare to look at Sun Tiantian. He held his head up, resisted the sourness in his eyes, and whispered, “I’m really … too tired.”
Every day with Sun Tiantian, he was filled with self-blame and guilt. The more she thought about him, the more careful she was, the deeper that self-blame and guilt swallowed him.
Every time she carefully saves money for him, the hidden inferiority in his heart suddenly jumps up.
He couldn’t even see his future, he didn’t know how to go down with Sun Tiantian.
He was afraid that he would be driven out of poverty in the future, and that Sun Tiantian would suffer and suffer with him. Just as she had accompanied him to work every day before, it was okay for him to suffer, but he watched Sun Tiantian be blown by the wind and rain, and he hated why he was involved in this life.
She is a star in the sky, and she should stay in the rich area, not with him in the slums.
He gently pulled Sun Tiantian’s hand away and looked at her, “Go back to the room and change clothes. I’ll send you back to school.”
Shen Nian turned around and walked back into the room.
Sun Tiantian followed in, pounced on Shen Nianshen, hugged him tightly from behind, and cried heartbreakingly, “Shen Nianshen, I beg you! You do n’t want to be so good, I do n’t want to be apart from you, we are good, why To be separated ?! No, no! ”
She couldn’t stop crying, her face burst into tears, she held Shen Nianshen tightly, and did not dare to let go, fearing that she would never let go.
Shen Nian stood there stiffly, with red eyes and staring straight at the wall ahead. He had never before experienced so profoundly that reality was more cruel than he had imagined, and never knew that the words “helpless” were so heavy that it was almost breathless.
The author has something to say: I have n’t spoken for a long time, mainly because of the recent pressure, and I do n’t know how to express my thoughts on writing. After all, there are 1,000 Hamlets in the eyes of a thousand people, and everyone has their own opinions on articles and Different understanding of characters.
This article is really a new attempt for me, because it is really different from any of my previous articles. Maybe I now say that this is a sweet text. Some people want to send me a blade (top lid), but it may be because I know the development of subsequent stories, so it is still a very sweet and sweet text in my heart. Still on the copywriting: this is a sweet text about companionship and growth (believe me, this stage is already the worst part of the full text and will soon end)
Then answer a few questions
1. Why doesn’t the male lead refuse to accept the female lead’s help? I believe that everyone has their own understanding, so I won’t say much here.
2. Regarding male lead and female lead. Seriously, I personally feel that the current behavior of the male and female lords is totally in line with their own personal settings.
3. About abuse for abuse. Really not. The development of the plot is based on the outline and the person.
4. This stage is the worst part of the full text, everyone stands up! See the rainbow after the rain. 2k novel reading network