The Charming Cannon Fodder - Chapter 83

But under such a perfect face, what seemed to be the soul was broken into pieces.

Psychiatry?

Song Shunan suddenly felt that he didn’t understand Ying Rusheng enough, but it was clear that except for the four years he was absent, she had been by his side, and he had watched her grow up.

This year, Song Shunan was 29 years old and Ying Rusheng was 20 years old. He loved her deeply, but suddenly realized that he didn’t know her enough.

Four years forward, Song Shunan was 25 years old and Ying Rusheng was 16 years old. He fell in love with her, but suddenly discovered that there was someone else she loved. He almost lost control and injured her because of ravenous jealousy. Since then, he tried his best to restrain himself and wanted to guard her gentle and well-behaved, because he was afraid that everything she had would be destroyed and torn apart by him. He hoped that the love for her would go hand in hand, not torn apart by force. .

11 years later, Song Shunan was 14 years old and Ying Rusheng was 5 years old. When he first saw her, his only impression was that she was very well-behaved and quiet. This impression continued for him for a full fifteen years. Even four years ago, he thought she had suffered because of her gentle words, but he had never seen it through, but this impression was broken and reorganized in the year he was about to stand.

But how could it be?

Was it because of Wen Yanfan, or was she injured during the four years he was absent?

Endless emotions poured into his heart, even if he thought of Wen Yanfan’s turbulent jealousy, compared to her peace, the jealousy in his heart could be suppressed fiercely.

He sat down by the bed, gently picked her up, and rubbed the side of her face very lightly and slowly, intertwined with ambiguous possessiveness and pitiful affection.

After all, Song Shunan was cultivated as the heir of the Song family since he was a child. Even if he told Ying Rusheng that he respected her choice when he confessed, he would indeed respect her choice, but it was also his way of retreating to advance. She let go of her guard, and on the basis of not hurting her, he never really gave up the idea of ​​marrying her. The only difference between him and Song Yushen is that what he wants is her willingness from beginning to end, while Song Yushen only needs her first willingness.

But in the final analysis, if she really wants to marry Song Yushen, even if intellectually, he respects her choice, emotionally, it is difficult to guarantee that on her wedding day, he could not help taking her away from the wedding.

But at this moment, he felt more pity than possession. Perceiving the temperature of her body and the light breathing, the mood that was stirred into a ball seemed to be relieved, but he thought more and more of the psychiatry mentioned by the doctor.

Does his Shengsheng really need to see a psychiatric department?

Ying Rusheng has been in a half-dream and half-awake state. Her consciousness is cloudy and sober. She remembered the past soberly, but couldn’t tell where she was at the moment.

Perhaps it is the reason why people living in the **** darkness always yearn for sunshine and redemption, even if there is no painful memory in the first two lives, Ying Rusheng has desperately tried to find a suitable partner. So she loved Sheng Hanze and Wen Yan Fan.

It’s just a pity that Sheng Hanze gave her the deepest pain when she wanted to stretch out her hand carefully, and Wen Yanfan suddenly passed away when she approached.

And in the life that was repeated endlessly later, perhaps she no longer needed this kind of sunshine and salvation, or perhaps other, in short, she didn’t have any desires anymore.

But it is undeniable that in her life deep in mud, although Wen Yanfan appeared very late, even though she was hard to be touched at that time, after all, he was the first to give her warmth and never took it back. Different people.

So when she remembered everything in the past that day, she was already a little bit out of control. This loss of control was not only due to gentle words, but also from the large and worthless memories, but she forcibly endured it and calmed her mind with rest, because she I was used to not exposing my scars in front of people, but this forced calm was finally torn apart when I knew the cause of Wen Yanfan’s death.

Similarly, at this moment, it was not just Wen Yanfan, there were countless pasts, but it was undeniable that Wen Yanfan and his death were the pain that touched her the most.

However, this pain seemed to disappear with the advancement of time.

When it was late at night, Song Yushen and Song Peinian both went crazy looking for Ying Rusheng, and she woke up safely in Song Shunan’s arms.

“I woke up.” Instead of a question, Song Shunan asked with concern, “Is there any physical discomfort?”

Ying Rusheng suddenly seemed to be at the banquet before, but at the moment he was in a strange room, but Song Shunan beside him made her relax, which proved that everything was still normal.

She withdrew from his arms, her lips were already holding a habitual smile, “Big brother don’t worry about me, I’m fine, I was a little dizzy before, thank you big brother for bringing me back.”

She picked up the phone to check the time, it was very late.

She told him, “It’s a bit late, and I haven’t returned yet. I’m afraid my mother is worried. I want to call my mother first.

After Song Shunan nodded lightly, she dialed Su Yanyan’s phone, and gently explained to Su Yanyan.

After waking up, Ying Rusheng seemed to be no different from the past, gentle and caring. Even at such a moment, I did not forget to explain to Su Yanyan first. In the end, it was even because there were countless calls and messages from Song Yushen and Song Peinian on the phone. Responded to Song Yushen and Song Peinian thoughtfully.

But Song Shunan thought of the look she curled up in the corner and raised her eyes, but her heart was cold. She also knew that she didn’t want to mention the reason for her pain. She was too depressed, “Sheng Sheng.”

He called.

She looked up at him and asked him what was wrong.

Facing such a pair of calm and gentle eyes, Song Shunan thought of the doctor’s words, but suddenly did not know where to start or where to ask.

In the end, he chose to think about it after she finished dinner.

She is really well-behaved and quiet. This kind of well-behaved and quiet is not only reflected in her behavior, but also in her actions. She was eating dinner, but he kept looking at her cryptically, and halfway he answered the phone. It was the assistant who called to deal with the matter that he had taken Ying Rusheng directly away at today’s banquet.

In the eyes of the world, they are brothers and sisters, and in the eyes of some people, they are brothers and sisters, and even in her eyes, she treats him as a brother instead of a man who loves her.

So even if she only considers her reputation, we must not let the things of today spread.

On the phone, Lin Nan said, “Mr. Song, everything has been handled.”

He had never thought that Mr. Song was so stubborn, he took Miss Song directly under the eyes of everyone, and until now, the two of them are still looking for Miss Song.

Song Shunan responded, and said again, “There are also Song Yushen and Peinian. You are optimistic about it. Don’t let them find out for now.”

“I see.” Lin Nan said.

After that, Song Shunan turned back to the living room, Ying Rusheng had stopped his chopsticks.

“Have you eaten?” he asked.

Ying Rusheng said, “Yes.”

Song Shunan looked at Ying Rusheng, “If you have finished eating, Brother will ask you some questions, okay?”

Since realizing that he loves her, unless necessary, he seldom puts himself in the position of her elder brother. He doesn’t want her to treat him as the elder brother anymore, nor does he want her to think he is too much older than her. But at this moment, he once again placed himself in this position.

“Good.” Ying Rusheng vaguely guessed what Song Shunan would want to ask.

Seeing it as if it should be, Song Shunan habitually wants to rub her head. This is a habit he has accumulated over the past ten years. It is the pampering when he still treats her as a younger sister, even afterwards. He fell in love with her and failed to get rid of this habit.

But at the moment he raised his hand halfway, suddenly remembering that she didn’t want him to get close to her because she wanted to avoid him. Only this time, he stroked her head again against her will. There was no ambiguity in it, but pure comfort, the comfort of the brother to the sister.

“Big brother admits that his feelings for you have changed, but no matter before or now, I hope my Shengsheng can live well. Just now you told me in the room that you are just uncomfortable today, but Shengsheng, brother doesn’t Believe.”

He paused slightly, considering his words, “I know that my Shengsheng is gentle and kind, and I don’t want to burden anyone, nor do I want my negative emotions to affect others, so I hide my unhappy emotions. For so many years, the eldest brother has not been able to take good care of you and stay by your side. You may have been so strong on this road that you don’t need your elder brother’s company.

But Shengsheng, your hiding like this is not to let it pass, you just bury it deeper. Once it is turned over, it will still sting you and make you feel unhappy. Brother doesn’t want you to be like this. The pain continues over and over again, hoping you can get rid of the past and become happy, so even at this moment, can your eldest brother be the person you talk to and rely on? “

Song Shunan’s tone was extremely gentle and soothing, like bewitching and tender.

If Ying Rusheng is an innocent and romantic girl, she will definitely indulge in it, even a young girl who is covered with scars and desperately trying to hide herself will be deceived and tell everything.

But she is neither, she can no longer be impressed, so she half-truth, “Can you give me some time, brother? I want to stroke myself first.”

The emotion that was stirred up has calmed down, and now she wants to know Song Yushen’s explanation.

“Okay, big brother waits for you to tell me.” Song Shunan had expected Ying Rusheng not to speak so easily, but he didn’t force her, or even mentioned what the doctor was talking about.

Ying Rusheng smiled, “Thank you, brother.”

Song Shunan also smiled, “How many times have you said that you don’t need to thank your elder brother.” He asked her, “Now do you want to rest here or should we go back to Song’s house?”

The two brothers and sisters seemed to have returned to the initial state of getting along, but Song Shunan’s eyes towards Ying Rusheng occasionally showed undisguised affection.

Ying Rusheng looked away a little, “Go home.”

“Then Shengsheng will rest for a while. I will tidy up and let Lin Nan come and pick us up.” Song Shunan drank a lot of alcohol at the banquet today and couldn’t drive by himself. Compared with the driver, he was more assured of his right-hand assistant Lin Nan.

“Let me help Big Brother clean up.” Ying Rusheng suggested.

Song Shunan smiled and said, “There is not much, just sit down.”

Under Song Shunan’s forced request, Ying Rusheng failed to help him pack his things. Although Song Shunan is the heir of the Song family, he is not indifferent to everything. He cleaned up the living room and kitchen, and then went upstairs to change a suit to accompany Ying Rusheng.

The two did not wait long before Lin Nan called.

Ying Rusheng sat on the sofa and stood up when he heard Song Shunan and Lin Nan say it out. But today’s prolonged confusion of thoughts has affected her body, so he held her in Song Shunan. On the wrist, she was about to tell her that when she waited a little while, she could not stand firmly, so she would fall down.

When Song Shunan saw Ying Rusheng fall down, his first reaction was to catch her, so he tightened her wrist even more, fearing that she would knock on the coffee table in front of the sofa, and then pulled her in his direction.

But the consequence of pulling like this is that she sat in his arms, and even the side of her face slipped over his lips, and the skirt of her clothes slipped a little.

Neither of them expected such a situation.

When Lin Nan came in, what he saw was Ying Rusheng sitting in Song Shunan’s arms disheveled.

Mr. Song, who has always been rigorous, not only didn’t wear a suit jacket, he didn’t tie his tie, and his cuffs were loose. Looking back at Ms. Song, he found that Ms. Song was not only disorganized, but also blank in her eyes.

It’s like a crime scene after being forced.

President Song hasn’t moved recently. He thought Song would always give up Miss Song. He didn’t expect…

Is President Song so wild? Are you really jealous of Professor Song so jealous that you directly force Miss Song?

Lin Nan has been with Song Shunan for so many years and has seen strong winds and waves. At this moment, he couldn’t help but be shocked. The sentence “Ms. Song, Miss Song, can go.” He also got stuck in his mouth and apologized, “Excuse me President Song, Miss Song.”

Then he will quit.

Originally a little dazed, Ying Rusheng:…

Why is Song Shunan’s assistant so shy?

Song Shunan felt the tenderness in his arms, and was also startled for a moment. They had hardly been so close when she was sober, and even when she was not sober, they had been so close four years ago.

It’s been too long.

He looked down at Ying Rusheng who was astonished by Lin Nan’s reaction in his arms, and his eyes were filled with small smiles. He forcibly resisted the idea of ​​getting close to her, but his hands couldn’t help but the virtual ring was on her waist, controlling her back, “Come in.”

This was actually spoken to Lin Nan.

Lin Nan was going to withdraw, but Song Shunan spoke like this, so he could only bite the bullet and come in. Fortunately, when he walked in, Miss Song had already gotten up from Mr. Song.

After Ying Rusheng stabilized his body, he got up from Song Shunan.

As she got up, her long hair slid through the palm of his hand touching her back, as if she was about to leave her in his arms. He couldn’t help holding her hair vainly, but in the end he couldn’t hold it. Staying, Song Shunan’s deep eyes passed a deep darkness that seemed to be nothing.

It was also at this moment that the hairpin slipped from her hair.

He could have caught it, but he didn’t answer it, so he looked at the hairpin with a gloomy look towards the coffee table.

He remembered very clearly that it was given to her by Song Yushen. He was not generous enough to protect the gift Song Yushen gave her, and even wanted to destroy it early in the morning.

Ying Rusheng stood up and looked at Song Shunan, “I’m sorry, big brother, I didn’t stand firm just now, did big brother hurt?”

She fell straight down, and Song Shunan was under her.

Song Shunan had withdrawn his hand when Ying Rusheng turned around, “I’m fine.”

When his voice fell, there was a crisp cracking sound.

The hosta hits the sharper edge of the coffee table, and it breaks naturally.

The eyes of the three people turned there. The torn apart hosta fell around the coffee table.

Ying Rusheng frowned slightly, then squatted down to pick up the pieces, “Big brother, wait a moment, I will pick up the pieces.”

Ying Rusheng’s move to pick up hairpin fragments stabbed Song Shunan in the eye, and he held her, “The broken jade can easily hurt your hand, so I’ll be fine.”

His movements were quick, and before Ying Rusheng even reacted, he had picked up the broken hosta. He took a silk scarf on the coffee table and wrapped the hosta and gave it to her, seemingly inadvertently asked, “Sheng Sheng likes this hairpin?”

Ying Rusheng took the hairpin fragment, “I don’t like it, it’s just that its existence is a bit important, but it’s not a big deal. Brother, don’t worry about it.”

Perhaps it should be said that this hairpin should be somewhat important to Song Yushen, because he always likes to hold her to caress her head and the hairpin on her head after giving the hairpin to her.

She had just taken away the silk scarf wrapped around the hosta in Song Shunan’s palm, but found that there was a deep blood mark on the pad of Song Shunan’s index finger, and it even kept bleeding. She looked at the hosta in the silk scarf, and there were blood stains on the broken hosta.

She put away the hosta, “Big brother, you are hurt.”

Hearing Ying Rusheng’s explanation, Song Shunan suddenly felt that the hairpin was less obtrusive. He looked at his finger in surprise, “It doesn’t hurt much. I didn’t notice it just now. It should be fine.”

He casually took a tissue to cover the wound.

Ying Rusheng frowned slightly, and took his hand covering the wound with a tissue, “Is there a medicine kit and band-aids here? My brother has a deep wound on his hand. Let’s deal with the band-aid.”

Song Shunan thought for a while, “It seems to be on the desk in the study room on the first floor.”

“Brother wait a moment.” Ying Rusheng turned and left.

After the wrist was empty, the girl left. Song Shunan gently watched the girl go and come back soon, holding his hand and lowering his head to help him deal with the wound with broken jade.

Ying Rusheng originally wanted Lin Nan to help Song Shunan treat the wound because she knew Song Shunan’s heart, but when she came back Lin Nan didn’t know where she was going. By the time she had already started to help Song Shunan treat the wound, Lin Nan slipped out.

Looking around from the beginning to the end, Lin Nan, who was deliberately dismissed by Song Shunan just now, didn’t want to complain about the small actions that Song Shunan deliberately let the hairpin shatter, and intentionally injured himself. After he returned, he tried to minimize his presence and watched quietly, but Song Shunan seemed to notice his gaze and glanced over.

Lin Nan hurriedly lowered his head when he didn’t exist, and he never thought he could see the scene where Song always used such a naive behavior to attract Miss Song’s attention.

It’s no wonder that as smart as Miss Song, he didn’t see Mr. Song’s little actions. After all, who would have thought that Mr. Song, who was always calm and wise, would be so naive? If he hadn’t seen it with his own eyes, he wouldn’t believe it either.

Song Shunan didn’t know what Lin Nan was thinking. In fact, he suddenly felt that his behavior was naive. He could even be jealous of a hairpin, and even cared about her picking up a broken hairpin, and finally even deliberately Scratched her hand to draw her attention away from the hosta. But this kind of jealousy is not his control.

“Okay, big brother pay attention to some wounds.” Ying Rusheng dealt with it quickly.

Song Shunan closed his eyes to cover the rolling emotions under his eyes, and smiled lightly when Ying Rusheng raised his head, “Lao Shengsheng.” He picked up the suit jacket with his other hand, “Let’s go. .”

“Well, I’ll put the medicine box away and we will leave.” Ying Rusheng answered.

When going out, Ying Rusheng walked in front, Song Shunan walked behind her and looked at her figure. His deep eyes and the dark night were fused together, as long as it didn’t hurt her and couldn’t control the jealous emotions. Don’t control it.

**

It was late at night when the two returned to Song’s house, and Su Yanyan had rested comfortably because Ying Rusheng had reported peace. The two also went back to the room.

Song Yushen and Song Peinian, who received news from Ying Rusheng, were still outside.

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