The Emperor who loves me dearly - Chapter 59

“Why did you get up?” a man’s shadow came from behind, his tall figure can be seen. The bathroom has a large bathtub, almost resembling a swimming pool only it comes with a heater, however, the fair lady chose to shower instead.

Although her body is covered in bruises, her eyes with no hint of sparkle and her heart chopped and shattered, she is still beautiful.

Broken can be beautiful too…she guessed.

The man bore his eyes on her body, shamelessly looking at his masterpiece. Although his heart aches every time he sees her getting hurt because of him, he knew that ‘love’ meant doing a painful thing to another. The rulers of Theavarian empire always say that “Love hurts” “Love is painful”

Love…in their kingdom is equivalent to emotional pain.

What really is love?

They do not believe in such thing, as a kid what he saw in his parents were brutal, even more harsh than what he is doing, his mother died from the hands of his father after all.

Amor Gevaar….love disease.

He created the cure, yet why is he still hesitating to spread it all over his empire? Why is there a voice commanding him not to?

But won’t it help the people so that they will not get hurt anymore? No more sorrow and agony.

Just neutral. No feelings, no emotions, no love.

The woman’s wet long hair drips small drops of water as she walks closer, her eyes gazing at him intently but now with visible sadness, she literally took his breath away.

His heart clenched at the sight of Celestia, he wanted to hug her tight not just her body but the whole of her, mind, body, soul and heart. However his knowledge and brain is suppressing him, his rational thinking says, ‘Do not give her too much of your attention, she will suffocate and right there, she’ll slip in your own hands’

‘No…she can’t leave me’

‘Then don’t show any emotions, do not show you care so you won’t end up in great pain’ another voice from his head ushered.

But why is he still feeling his heart crumbling?

The demons Logan has to fight with is in his own self, contradicting every move he wanted to take.

He can’t take the risk of losing her, not now, not ever.

“Hey, are you okay?” the woman strokes his face lightly waking him from his deep thoughts, her hands still cold from the shower yet her voice filled with worry.

Logan held Celestia’s hand, looking at her blank eyes.

Where did the brightness of her eyes go?

“I’m fine…why did you leave?”

Leave…

Why did his mother leave?

Why did Astrid chose to leave him before?

“I had a nightmare” Celestia’s voice soft yet empty.

“What did you dreamed of?” he asked, he always implores her what did she dreamed of because he never had one.

The woman smiled bitterly, ‘I dreamed of you lying close to a woman, we have the same color of hair but her blue eyes were twinkling as the two of you looks at each other with smiling faces’

“You did not give me enough money and that I had to sell my body to other men!” she lied again and went to her usual line as his mistress.

In the two months they spent together, Logan deemed her as a money-obsessed person, little did he know, the money she begged to have is the same money she needed to hospitalized Eden.

Celestia knew she’s better than that but can you blame her for being weak again? For losing hope?

Can you blame Celestia for having Logan and the twins as her only weakness?

Put her on car racing, she will win in a snap,

Bring her into a fighting arena, she will show no mercy.

Give her a person to shoot, she will not blink an eye.

She’s a queen but when it comes to Logan, she’s a servant bowing down to her knees, begging for a small space to fit in his unyielding heart.

“Am I not giving you enough? Just tell me and I will triple it” Logan replied, his hands touching her naturally red lips.

Love? It’s all about money and power, nothing special.

Celestia shakes her head, three months kept ringing in her head. She only has three months to be with him.

“Okay, just tell me if you need more, I’ll go back to sleep” the man replied, his voice is cold as he turns his back on Celestia, heading towards the bedroom.

Should she tell her true feelings? Will that change anything? Can she take another gamble?

She heaved a sigh, her hands trembling as she stops Logan from walking away by hugging him from behind.

She will let go of Adam and start accepting Logan.

Adam doesn’t exist in that world, Logan is.

Adam isn’t broken, Logan is.

“I-I lied, I dreamt about you and your wife, you two look happy and perfect together, I’m scared you won’t remember me again” her voice shaking as her hands clutch on his toned chest.

She can still make him change, three months, all she needed is that time.

She will give her best shot.

‘Please, just before Astrid comes back’

She hugs him tighter, getting his fur robe wet.

Just before the real wife comes back, please let her dream more.