The Female Lead Is A Lesbian - Volume 1 Chapter 16 I'm Broken
Zoey was still seething as Rose continued to speak, “I’ll put glue and paint in my backpack. Of course it will ruined my books so I when discover it I’ll start crying like a baby and everyone will feel sympathy for me. Cecilia will then suggest we search desks and bags and put the paint and glue in her desk. Oh, I also took a couple of the other students homework assignments and wallets so, Mona, you can plant those in her bag.”
Cecilia and Mona looked at each other with a look of slight fear, and their foreheads starting to sweat while they pursed their lips. Rose looked at them curiously and demanded loudly “What, if you’ve got something to say, SAY IT!”
Mona spoke timidly, “U-um w-we don’t know i-if s-she is gonna s-show up today.” Rose glared at Mona, she thought Mona was trying to make a fool of her. This made Mona shut up immediately.
Cecilia decided to try to save Mona and said, “W-well w-what s-she means is that s.l.u.t could’ve gotten smarter and will never return or better yet she killed herself. So what if we do your plan on her faggot friend so, even if she does start showing up at school she’ll lose the only person who stands up for her and we can mess with her non-stop.”
Cecilia took a peek at Rose, who still had a pissed look. She breathed a sigh of relief as a Rose’s expression softened into a smile. Rose grinned and said cheerfully, “Hmm, you’re right. You just made my plan more brilliant. So let’s do it, that faggot Noah Su isn’t gonna know what hit him.”
Cecilia and Mona nodded and laughed haughtily. They, then hurried after Rose who started to saunter out of the locker room. Zoey stood up and hung her head. Blood started to drip from her clenched hand onto the floor. She felt like raining hell down onto those three.
Then she closed her eyes and took a breath in and slowly took a deep breath out. She felt her rage slowly decrease and said coldly to herself, “*Hah* Alright, calm down. They may be evil but, if I do something so direct now it will only get me an even more ruined reputation and expelled. Also, think on the bright side now that I heard their little plan to frame up my little Noah.So since I was calm and listened patiently, I can make sure it absolutely backfires and make sure those bitches take a big hit.”
Zoey then grinned evilly and chuckled quietly. She then remembered digging her nails into palm and looked at her hand. Her nails were wedged deeply into her palm making her hand curled and drip blood.
Zoey took a deep breath and pryed her nails out of her palm. She hissed in pain and whispered, “*Hiss* Ah, great now I’ll have to pay a visit to that nurse.” While Zoey held her hand when she suddenly remembered something and raced towards her bag.
She started going through her bag and at the very bottom she found some disinfectant, surgical thread, and bandages. Zoey had remembered that before her reincarnation she would be beaten up at school and would end up with many injuries. So she started to carrying medical supplies around in her bag.
Zoey poured some of the disinfectant on her wound continuing to hiss in pain. She then gently banaged her hand and started to put on her clothes. She put on a her regular pair of underwear that was a pure white. Then she put on her jeans, shirt, hoodie, a new pair of socks, and her white sneakers. She pulled the sleeves of her hoodie up a bit so they covered her palms.
She then braided her hair into a fishtail braid though it slightly hurt her hand, put her backpack onto her shoulders and headed to her class. She walked fairly slow as she was on no rush, since she was early. As she walked she saw as several people whispered, talk behind their hands, snickered, and pointed.
[Miss Zoey why are those people looking at you like that and pointing at you?]
Zoey had gotten use to Sky’s sudden appearance in her head and sighed inside her head. “*Sigh* Well, Rose spread lies about how Erica was Donny’s first wife.She also told how my mother seduced her ‘father’ Donny because she was a gold digger and how she tried to ruin Erica and Donny’s marriage. Then she got pregnant with me and Zack otherwise known as, the bastard children. She then told everyone a sob story of how me, Zack, mom, Alan Long, Sunny Long, Lilly Long, Iris Mei, Yumi Mei, and Patrick Mei moved in a bullied her and her mother blah, blah, blah. Then her father Donny ‘had enough’ of my mother and ‘kicked her out’. Now everyone sees me as the whore’s daughter and a total piece of human garbage.”
[Sky is confused about a few things.
First, why did everyone believe Rose?
Second, why did no one ask for your side?
Third, though I believe your mother would never do that in her life. Hypothetically even if she did ANY of those things why would people judge and assume who you are because of her actions. You are two seperate people after all.]
Zoey started to walk to her classroom classroom a little faster, as she was anxious to catch Rose and her posse in the act of framing Noah. She sighed again in her head, “*Sigh* My little boy you are too pure and sweet. I wish I didn’t have to ruin that with the harsh reality of the world but, it is necessary. Well this answers both your first and second questions. Rose was a pretty, sweet, and innocent girl with decent acting skills. Also Donny and mom’s marriage was extremely private and anyone who dared to speak about it would be killed by the Changs or Yangs.”
“So, the fact that Rose an innocent, hurt, bullied girl was speaking against me a pudgy, weird, nerdy, bastard; combined with the fact there was no proof that Donny had married my mom at all. All Rose had to was bat her eyelashes and shed a tear and everyone came running to her side like they have no minds of their own *ugh*.”
Zoey felt disgusted as she explained to Sky. She sighed as she started speed walking to her classroom her anger fueling her. “As for the answer to your third question, sometimes, well really most of the time people especially, stuck up teens whose brains haven’t fully developed and probably won’t because of the booze and drugs they take; are stupid and idiotic. People always judged others for things they didn’t know or things they can’t help. If a woman married a murderer; they would always assume that the wife was at fault for not realizing it but, its been proven that most killers hide in plain sight. Also let’s say that a murderer had a child, that child will grow up judged and persecuted by a.d.u.l.ts and children alike.”
“Which will result in one of these happening. One, the child will commit suicide after the constant badgering of everyone who knows their identity. Two, the child will grow isolated, distant, cold and soon become a murderer or serial killer just like their parent. Three, the child tries to get away from their past and live a normal life. I however am a person and can be stupid myself so I made you to give me all information an unbiased opinion and to tell me when I’m being stupid. Even though I’m a *ha* genius, I’m hot blooded and well- I’m broken. Everything I saw as kid made just want to HURT EVERYTHING, BREAK EVERYTHING. *Sniff* Once I was in the army I got what I thought I wanted. But, when I was done, I would look in the mirror and see a MONSTER, A FREAK, AN ABSOLUTE ABOMINATION. Just what those scientists wanted me to be.”
“I would go to sleep and have dreams of the people I killed, their screams, the blood, the mayhem. Then I would dream of my big sister who was in the laboratory with me. She was dead after the torture, I broke of the chair they tied me too and killed the scientists who tortured her. Then, suddenly big sister would stand up covered in blood, point to me and say ‘You think some kind of hero, GO DIE YOU F.U.C.K.I.N.G MONSTER’. I would wake up in tears and throughout the day I would see ghosts covered in blood just staring at me and sometimes I would just hear gunfire or more screams.”
“I thought I maybe had PTSD but, I knew that I deserved it by being a murderer of other people who just followed orders to fight us and for being able to crush an entire truck with my bare hands yet still am so weak that I can’t keep my F.U.C.K.I.N.G mind together. Then, I met Annie who loved me and actually gave a damn about me. Everytime someone out asked me out I could see it in their eyes that they really didn’t love me but, I just wanted feel something other than misery. Then I would fall in love with them and be in a state of ecstasy and heaven then I would be dumped and calling myself dumb cause I knew it was never meant to last. But, I saw something different in Annie’s eyes. It was passion and love, something I haven’t felt in a LONG time. Just having her around made some of the ghosts disappear and not a lot of nightmares.”
“Finally when I brought her to bed I had sweet dreams and saw no more ghosts. She was- no she IS my goddess, my everything but, *sniff hic hic* I couldn’t protect her because I was weak. But, now I have more people who give a damn about me. Though it might not be the me they’ve always known but, me nonetheless. So I’m gonna make sure them and Annie get the happy ending they all deserve.”
Zoey wiped the small tears that had formed in her eyes and was now full on jogging to the classroom.
[Momma you deserve happiness too. But, you are being stupid right now. Yes, you might be broken and weak but, that’s makes up AT LEAST half of the human race. You can’t keep making excuses for why you deserve to be broken. You need to want to be fixed and I can’t make you and I would try but, I don’t have a physical body. So, you know that you deserve happiness, love, and joy and when you’re ready to get fixed I’ll always be here cheering you on to keep going.]
Zoey chuckled and replied, “Thank you Sky.” Zoey then saw her classroom number and came to a screeching halt. She slowly approached the slightly open door and peered in. She had made it just in time to see Cecilia getting ready to pour the paint and glue in Rose’s bag.
Zoey smirked and asked Sky, “Sky I need a video camera, nothing too fancy or high-tec.”
A small black handheld camera with a black strap appeared into her hand. Zoey’s smirk grew even wider as she held it in front of her face and pointed it through the gap in the door. She maliciously chuckled to herself, “This is gonna be fun *Hehehehe*.”
