The Flower Dances And The Wind Sings - Chapter 2

“Oh, my God, madam. What did I see earlier… You, you, you gave…….”
Ignoring Lianne, who was thrilled and admiring her, Ercella recalled her actions from earlier. Her heart throbbed when she saw her son’s stiffened face on her touch.
You don’t want me to even touch you?
Although her mood sank, she cannot blame Vicente. Firstly, she has to change her demeanor. Ercella didn’t want to be rejected by him again.
I have to change my habits for sure.
She needed to change to win Vicente’s heart.
As she thought about it, Ercella called Lianne, who was still at awe. She was still smiling brightly.
“Yes, Madam.”
“I haven’t asked yet.”
“What are you going to ask? I’ll answer sincerely.”
Lianne is a maid six years younger than Ercella, and she had been with her since before her marriage. She was still serving Ercella because she insisted on being next to her even after the marriage.
That is why Lianne understood Ercella’s intentions behind her words. Ercella opened her mouth with hesitation.
“That um…”
Why can’t I say it?
“Yes, please go ahead.”
“I… now…”
“Yes, Madam, I’m ready to listen.”
“I want… closer…”
I want to be a bit closer to him.
In addition, she didn’t mention the subject. As Ercella fumbled to add Vicente’s name, Lianne clapped her hands and cheered.
“Oh, with the Young Master?”
She’s quick-witted.
Ercella looked at Lianne without distaste. Anyway, it was comfortable that she understood.
“As you know, me and Vicente…”
“You don’t get along well.”
“Yes, but if we stay like this…”
“It’ll get worse.”
“Right, so…”
“Now, you want to be close?”
A ghost.
She nodded twice. Thankfully, Lianne said what she wanted to say.
“Umm-”
Lianne pretended to worry while holding one hand on his chin.
“It’s true that you have been engaging in a swordless war.”
That was too much!
“I thought that you two would never reconcile, but this day has finally come. I’m relieved.”
Lianne closed her eyes and began walking in the room like a detective. Ercella, who was in a hurry, was frustrated by it, but sat still and waited for words from her maid. It was obvious that if she interrupted her, she would delay even more.
“So, madam just realized that you’ve been a heartless mother.”
“Yes.”
“It’s quite late, but still, I’m glad you realized it.”
“…You should have told me earlier.”
There was a hint of blame in her words of resentment.
You’ve never said anything about me being a heartless mother.
But upon closer look, the fundamental problem was Ercella herself. What was Lianne fault? As she sighed, Lianne said in a calm tone,
“But Madam must have been distressed, too.”
“…….”
“The Marquis pushed for marriage so quickly, and you were at the prime of your life. Words like “The flower of society”, “The most beautiful in Grania”, were used describe you.”
Lianne continued without realizing that she was calling her “lady” instead of “Madam.”
“Madam loved meeting people, dancing, and going to parties. Everyone loved that lady. You lost all of that in an instant when you had the Young Master.… No, it’s not like I don’t understand your feelings.”
“Lianne…”
“Madam was young, too. There must have been many things you wanted to do. I’m sure you didn’t want this but he’s still your son.”
“I think you thought so.”
Ercella murmured quietly. Many people forced her to change for the sake of a mother’s virtue. Whenever she did that, she thought it was unfair, but it was reflected in Lianne’s eyes. It was a small consolation apart from her sins.
“Do you regret getting married?”
Lianne suddenly wondered if Ercella was regretting her marriage. It’s because her owner was restrained, but never once said she regretted getting married.
“I don’t regret it.”
Ercella spoke more plainly than she thought.
“I think Harsen is a good husband. Isn’t that right?”
That was something that Lianne agreed with.
“The master is blunt, but you can still feel his sincerity. And he was very popular too. Handsome, heir to the Duke, and from the 1st Knights. He was perfect as your husband. It was just a pity that the madam couldn’t enjoy her life and got married so quickly.”
“It couldn’t be helped.”
“…….”
“Because my father was sick.”
At that time, Ercella’s father, Marquis Visaride, got ill suddenly. Ercella’s sister and brother were married, so that wasn’t a concern, however Ercella was unmarried.
The Marquis had to be strong to get his daughter married to a good family, as opposed to for his son. Therefore, the Marquis chose the best family for Ercella and quickly married her off.
The Marquis of Visaride later died after Ercella gave birth to Vicente, and her brother, Caron, inherited the title at only twenty.
“I’m sorry. I talked unnecessarily.”
Seeing Ercella’s darkened expression, Lianne politely apologized. But, it wasn’t for Lianne to apologize. It’s already been a long time and Ercella also didn’t care about it anymore.
“No, it’s already past. Instead let’s talk about the future. What should I do?”
“Hmm… Maybe, I think we should start by changing the way Madam talks first?”
Ersella nodded at her perfect point. Clearly, there was a problem with her unfriendly way of speaking.
“Madam is definitely sweet and affectionate to others. She’s kind to the employees, too. But madam speaks too coldly to her son, the Young Master. If you make your tone more gentle, it will be better to improve your relationship.”
“For example?”
“Saying ‘Do it.’ or ‘What is it?’, is absolutely forbidden to talk in such an imposing manner.”
“I see.”
“You can’t do this.”
“Okay…”
“Something like, ‘Did you do it?’, ‘Of course.’, ‘What did you do~’, would be a nicer way of asking him what he did.”
Lianne pointed to her problem acutely and made a solution as well. Of course, Ercella was willing to accept Lianne’s advice.
“No matter how mature the Young Master is than his peers, he’s only 15 anyway.”
Hold on!
“15?”
Oh, my God…
Lianne, seeing Ercella’s face turning pale, said with a grim voice,
“Perhaps, Madam doesn’t even know the Young Master’s age?”
So, it’s not a dream. I’m really back?
Vicente was eighteen when she died. Lianne looked at her as if she really forgot her son’s age. However, Ercella had no time to care about that.
I can’t believe he’s 15 years old.
It was three years before Ercella’s death. Then that means that she really came back to the past; it’s not a dream.
She started getting goosebumps all over. She unconsciously thought it was a dream…
Does that mean I regressed?
Did God really listen to her earnest prayers?
Ercella calmed her surprised heart and decided to believe in God in the future. In fact, she was not religious at all, so this was even more surprising.
Yes, it was weird to think about it.
Vicente from the training grounds, looked a little younger than he did then. She just didn’t notice because they didn’t see each other often. And didn’t Lianne say Vicente just passed the apprenticeship exam? The 18-year-old Vicente has been an official knight for a while.
Then she remembered herself dying. She was fine now. She has a healthy body as she did back then. If so… Will she die again in three years?
I’ll be sick again….
Ercella closed her eyes tightly as she thought of it. She was afraid of that prickling sensation she felt in her lungs with every breath she took. She could deal with that but to wait for death helplessly… To think of death even after suffering it once, extreme fear constrained her whole body.
“Madam?”
The tension disappeared with a voice filled with worry. Ercella blinked once and looked at Lianne. She looked worried.
“You’re trembling.”
Lianne carefully grabbed Ercella’s hand. She was looking at Ercella with her eyes asking if she was okay, but ironically, Vicente came to mind.
…what are you doing?
Ercella shook her head and smiled self-deprecatingly. Now is not the time to be afraid of death.
What’s more frightening is to repeat the past again. She will remain a heartless mother to Vicente again.
It was not the time to foolishly worry whether she’ll live long or die.
Even if she was destined to die again in three years, the time in between is not entirely hers.
The rest of her time should be devoted to Vicente.
Maybe it’s really the last mercy from God. It didn’t matter how she came back or why she came back. The important thing is that she has one more chance now that she’s back. Ercella could never miss this opportunity, which might be the whim of God.
“I’m okay. Tell me more.”
Then there was only one thing that Ercella had to do.
This life must be filled with love for her only son.
“What else should I fix?”
When Ercella suddenly asked with her grim face, Lianne smiled softly.
“Oh, you’re really going to fix it?”
Her serious attitude also raised her motivation.
“You should spend more time with the Young Master.”
“Time?”
“Yes, you two always stay apart. Go look around the city, shop, and eat together outside, not at home… Oops, before that you should have a meal at home first. Madam and Young Master eat separately except for dinner with the Lord.”
It was certainly rare for the two to eat together. Perhaps Harsen, who was always indifferent, suggested having a meal together.
They ate breakfast and lunch separately, and dinner together on the day her husband was present, but if not, she even did that separately. It was also more comfortable for each other.
“Okay, good. We should eat together from tomorrow onwards.”
“Are you not having lunch and dinner tonight?”
“I wish I could, but…”
Lianne replied as if she understood everything.
“Yes, it will be difficult if madam changes suddenly. Then let’s spend some time thinking about how to treat the Young Master.”
Sometimes Lianne seemed to be able to read Ercella’s thoughts. It wasn’t excessive. Lianne was a maid who served Ercella as a close aide for more than a decade. She treated her utmost care until she died. Ercella spoke to Lianne with gratitude.
“Yes, we will need time to be together. Why don’t we walk around the garden?”
“That’s a good idea. Your garden is so beautiful. Lots of flowers must have bloomed by now.”
“Then we’ll go shopping… But do boys like shopping?”
Looking at her friends’ sons, they didn’t seem to like shopping at all. Boys usually liked playing card games or chess. Women usually went shopping with their daughters rather than sons.
Even ordinary boys don’t like shopping, but to go shopping with Vicente, the embodiment of bluntness? She couldn’t imagine it at all, so Ercella decided to exclude the idea.
“I don’t think so either.”
“I’m sure some boys like shopping. But Madam, what’s important here is spending time together, not shopping. Did you really mean to just go shopping?”
“…….”
That’s why Ercella shut up.