The Gold is Yours, You Are Mine - Chapter 118
From that day on, she kept a distance from Jian Changnian.
Xie Shi’an’s kindness to a person is to moisten things silently, and alienating a person is also to moisten things silently.
We usually train together as usual, but in private, Jane often wants to go to her to play, and she always excuses that she is not free, she has to go to class, do homework, shoot commercials, and go to the TV station to record programs and so on.
She went to ask her questions about her studies, and Xie Shi’an no longer stayed up all night to teach her by hand as before, but gave her all his notes and review materials.
“These are all the knowledge points that I have summed up and often tested before. I have also written all the questions that are easy to make mistakes. You can memorize them according to your notes. It shouldn’t be a big problem to do more sets of real questions.”
Xie Shi’an said, and handed her another business card.
“This is the contact information of the teacher who tutored me before. Although the place where the class is held is a bit far away, the teaching is quite good. A class is not expensive. You can try it when you are free.”
Whether it’s her attitude, her actions, or these rhetoric, they are all beyond reproach, and there is no trace of fault.
But it just happened to be like this, Jian Changnian became more and more sad, and that question has been lingering in her heart, haunting her like a nightmare, lingering.
Since she asked Lu Xiaoting and other teammates who witnessed Gao Jian’s confession to her that night to help hide it from Xie Shi’an, Jian Changnian suddenly discovered that there was a secret between herself and her, and she would never be the same as before. , Crying is crying, laughing is laughing, just say what is in your heart, so frank.
Holding the thick stack of books, Jian Changnian turned her head and took two steps, but she still turned around and asked a question tentatively.
“Tomorrow’s New Year’s Eve, do you… want to go home with me to celebrate the New Year?”
“No, I’m going to write a thesis. It’s inconvenient if I don’t have internet when I go back. Say hello to grandma for me.”
Even she herself felt that this reason was a bit far-fetched, but Jian Changnian still left without saying anything.
This was the first time that the two of them didn’t come back together for the New Year. Grandma went to pick her up at the station in the town, and when she saw her getting off the car alone, she was taken aback for a moment.
“What about Shi’an, didn’t you come back with you?”
Jian Changnian smiled.
“No, she still has a job in Beijing, so she won’t be coming back.”
Back home, grandma was still talking about things while tidying up her things and making the bed.
“What job is so important, it can’t be over the New Year. If you take such a few days off throughout the year, you should let people come back for a reunion dinner anyway.”
Jian Changnian knew that grandma loved Xie Shi’an, and treated her like a half-granddaughter, so she had no choice but to comfort her for fear of making people sad.
“Although Shi’an didn’t come back, I still asked me to bring you something. This is a shoulder and neck massager. Don’t you have old shoulder pain? Just press it and it will make you feel much more relaxed.”
“And this, memory pillow, good for sleep, this is eye patch, this is tea, and the down jacket I bought for you.”
Seeing that she had taken out so many things, grandma smiled on her face and blamed Xie Shi’an for wasting money indiscriminately.
“What are you doing with that money? Usually, you can’t finish wearing the clothes you send back. Why didn’t you persuade her when she bought it, this child.”
“Then how can I persuade her to live?”
Jian Changnian agreed with a smile, remembering that when Xie Shi’an came back together in the past years, the house was always lively and lively, her eyes became hot, and she almost shed tears, while her grandma was packing her things, she quickly turned her back and wiped away the tears.
Although Xie Shi’an didn’t come back this year, fortunately Zhou Mu went back to the old house with his parents for the New Year.
Jian Changnian still has someone to talk with.
On New Year’s Eve.
The two of them sat under the grape trellis to watch the moon and watch the new year.
Zhou Mu looked at her drinking one cup after another, with a sad face, and the word “frustrated” hung on the corners of her brows and eyes.
“Hey, did you quarrel with Shi’an?”
Jian Changnian was startled, and her words stumbled.
“No, no…”
“Then why doesn’t she come back for the New Year? You look like a ghost again. Those who didn’t know thought you were broken in love.”
This sentence made Jian Changnian stunned for a moment.
“Mu Mu, tell me, what does it mean to like someone?”
Zhou Mu is also looking at the moon.
“Whoever you are thinking about now is whoever you like.”
Jian Changnian smiled wryly, poured himself another glass of wine, raised his head and drank it down, trying to forget about Xie Shi’an’s image in his head.
Zhou Mu looked at her, suddenly bewildered.
“Wait a minute, don’t you like—”
Jian Changnian covered her mouth.
“Keep your voice down, grandma is asleep!”
Zhou Mu nodded again and again, and then she let go of him, sat back dejectedly, and poured herself a full glass of wine.
“It’s unbelievable, even myself… By the time I realized it, it was too late. I don’t know when I fell in love with her. Maybe it was the first time I met her, or when I was playing with her. When I went to sleep at her house, when I jumped into the pond to save her, when I stood on the podium with her, there were too many, too many…”
“You said just now that whoever you are thinking about now is who you like, but I can think of every moment about liking.”
“It’s all her.”
The more Jian Chang read, the redder her eye circles became, and she shed tears as she spoke.
Seeing her like this, Zhou Mu felt sour in his heart.
“What about Shi’an, does she know?”
In fact, Xie Shi’an’s not coming back with her this year is enough to explain the problem, she is such a smart and rational person.
“She…she should be aware of it, otherwise she wouldn’t alienate me.”
Seeing her drinking one cup after another, Zhou Mu couldn’t stand it any longer, and simply snatched the cup away.
“Then you plan to keep suffering yourself like this?! After so many years, you have to let her know anyway! Whether she likes you or not is her business!”
Jian Changnian remembered her silence when she mentioned Qiao Yuchu when she went home during the Chinese New Year last year.
After so many years, if she had really forgotten her a long time ago, she wouldn’t have stopped dating.
After all, as one of the mutual friends, she had witnessed with her own eyes how tragic Xie Shi’an’s love was.
“If I don’t say it, she is silently alienating me. If I say it, maybe I don’t even have to be friends.”
“Chang Nian…”
Zhou Mu sighed, for so many years, except for the car accident with her grandmother, this was the second time she saw Jian Changnian crying like this, her eyes were also red.
“You…you promise me not to tell her about it.”
Jian Changnian was so drunk, her eyes were full of water, she still raised her glass, and watched her drink the glass of wine, agreed, then smiled again, and gave up.
Zhou Mu helped him up.
“Come on, stop drinking, go back to sleep, I know you are sad, but don’t show it in front of grandma, lest she will be even more sad when she finds out.”
Jian Changnian nodded, and hugged her as if drawing strength from her.
Zhou Mu also heaved a long sigh, hugged her back, patted her on the back, and comforted her.
“Be strong, the person I like is still in jail, at least you can still see each other, don’t be too **** yourself, just tell me if you are unhappy.”
Only then did Jian Changnian bend her lips again, tears streaming down her cheeks, and let go of her.
“Well, it’s getting late, you should go back and rest earlier.”
“Good night, ah, by the way, happy new year.”
“Happy New Year.”
That night, Jian Changnian, who confessed all his concerns, finally had a good night’s sleep.
Xie Shi’an stayed at the training base alone to celebrate the New Year. The TV in the room was on, and the Spring Festival Gala was playing. There were thousands of lights outside the window, but only her lonely figure was reflected on the glass.
Xie Shi’an sat on the sofa with his knees hugged, and waited until the early morning, but he didn’t wait for her to say, “Happy New Year.”
On New Year’s Eve of that year, the world champion, who had always been reticent and only had brand forwarding on Weibo/blog, posted a rare post.
Only short four words.
Happy New Year.
After the new year, Xie Shi’an moved out and didn’t say hello to Jian Changnian. When she came back, the dormitory was empty, and she couldn’t help but feel sad for a few days when she found out.
But life has to go on, especially since the start of the Olympic Games is less than half a year away. Because of successive losses in the World Championships and Tangyu Cup, the South Korean team has promoted Park Min-heon as the head coach, hoping to get a place in the Rio Olympics .
Cui Huixi also passed the suspension time. Although she couldn’t get the official quota for the competition, she was added to the squad as a substitute.
The entire national team is facing a big enemy.
Xie Shi’an came to train every day, and played with her as usual on the court. Relying on their excellent skills and previous tacit understanding, the two of them performed well in the training game. Never been half as close as before.
Jian Changnian cried several times behind his back, and his eyes were swollen like walnuts every day when he woke up, and he stayed up until the most important game before the Olympics—the Sudirman Cup team competition.
This is not only a test of their training results during this period of time, but also a big training before the Olympic Games. Wan Jing attaches great importance to it and dragged them to Shanghai to adapt to the venue a week in advance.
Now it’s all right, from seeing each other on the training ground to getting along day and night.
Jian Changnian faces Xie Shi’an every day, not only to play ball with her, but also to force a smile, to restrain the throbbing and sadness in his heart, and the whole person is under such great pressure that he suffers from insomnia.
Zhou Mu happened to be studying in Shanghai. After learning about this, he gave her an idea.
“How do you compete like this? It’s just right. I have a brother who gave me two tickets to the concert. This Friday, you go out with me to play and relax.”
Jian Changnian just wanted to open his mouth, how could he be in the mood to go to the concert now, Zhou Mu said again: “It’s my birthday, don’t refuse.”
“Okay, then reluctantly accompany the birthday star.”
Zhou Mu scolded with a smile: “Why accompany me, I will accompany you, okay?”
At the end, the phone hung up, she looked at the name of another person in the address book, bit her lip, and dialed out anyway.
“I don’t care. It’s my birthday on Friday. You must come, otherwise I will spend it alone.”
Xie Shi’an was silent for a while.
“Why don’t you look for Chang Nian?”
“I’m looking for it, but she said no, I thought you like Jay Chou and are my only second friend, so I came to you now.”
When she heard that Jian Chang couldn’t read, Xie Shi’an didn’t know whether he should be sad or relieved.
“Okay, see you on Friday.”
“Then I’ll flash the ticket to you tomorrow, please pay attention to collect it, and see you at the venue on Friday.”
Zhou Mu’s voice became cheerful all of a sudden, Xie Shi’an responded and hung up the phone.
The next day, I really received the tickets from her in a flash.
On Friday night, as soon as Xie Shi’an finished his training, he went back to take a shower and changed his clothes. After checking that it was getting late, he took a taxi and went straight to the stadium.
She got out of the car, looked at the long queue at the entrance, and called Zhou Mu.
“Hi, are you here?”
“I still have to wait for a while. The work on the crew’s side is not over yet, so I’ll go there as soon as it’s over.”
Zhou Mu started to run around with the crew to accumulate shooting experience since his sophomore year, and he is also a very busy person.
Xie Shi’an hung up the phone.
“Okay, then I’ll go in first.”
The lights in the theater were dim. Although the concert hadn’t officially started, it was already warming up, and the music was deafening.
Xie Shi’an had no choice but to turn on the phone, and with the help of the faint fluorescent light on the screen, he walked through the crowd, looking for his seat.
Holding the ticket, she looked through the rows, and there were just two vacancies left in the middle of the third row. Xie Shi’an breathed a sigh of relief, and walked over quickly. Before she could sit down, she heard a familiar voice.
“Hi, is this A319?”
Xie Shi’an raised his head. In the darkness, the two of them met each other’s eyes, with surprise and shock on their faces.
It took Xie Shi’an a long time to find his voice.
“You… A319?”
“Yes, what about you?”
Xie Shi’an lowered his head to confirm the ticket in his hand.
“A320.”
“…”
Both of them fell into silence, and the air froze.
Jian Changnian gritted her teeth in her heart.
Zhou Mu, didn’t you agree to watch the concert together? How did you become Xie Shi’an, and what the **** kind of position did you arrange!
Seeing that she was not leaving, the people behind Xie Shi’an pushed her hard.
“No, what are you doing, don’t get in the way, the concert is about to start.”
Xie Shi’an lost his footing in a hurry and fell forward, Jian Changnian quickly grabbed her shoulders and held her in his arms.
“Why are you so fierce, why do you speak so well!”
The boy wanted to say something else, but seeing that she was tall and speaking in a moderate voice, he touched his nose and walked away from them in a despondent manner.
“Shi’an, are you okay?”
“fine.”
Xie Shi’an broke away from her arms, the concert had already started, she bit her lip, seemed a little embarrassed.
Jian Changnian glanced at her and sat down.
“It’s a pity to miss a favorite concert.”
She finally sat beside her, and Jian Changnian’s lips curved into a smile, looked at the stage, and handed her the popcorn bucket.
Xie Shi’an took one from her hand.
Neither of them spoke again.
Flashing neon lights.
Deafening music live.
Fans waving cheering sticks to the rhythm.
The people on the stage held the guitar and sang softly.
/Once upon a time there was someone who loved you for a long time
But the wind gradually
Blow the distance so far /[1]
…
The eyes of the people under the stage were slightly wet.
Everyone was watching the idol, only Jian Changnian was watching her, watching her sing along with the music, watching her cry, watching her laugh, watching her excitedly waving the light stick.
These years have flowed like a revolving lantern, and with her, every word and every thing you do is very clear.
Jian Changnian suddenly realized that there was a secret pain and throbbing in her heart. The youth sung in the song, those losses, frustrations, secret loves, and regrets, were all going through her.
It doesn’t get any more empathetic than that.
At the end of the concert, a song “Confession Balloon” pushed the atmosphere to the climax.
The whole audience waved light sticks and sang together. In the warm atmosphere, a boy in the front row knelt down to propose marriage. The camera moved over. When the lyrics sang “I do”, the girl put on a ring, and the two of them kissed together.
Accompanied by this music that symbolizes happiness, when the camera moved over, many couples were kissing.
There are boys and boys, and girls and girls. If you don’t kiss, you will be heckled by the audience.
No one can not be infected by such an atmosphere, the concert is a place that can make people feel happy.
Xie Shi’an also had a smile in his eyes, and he turned around and said.
“I have liked him for so many years, and this is the first time I have come to watch his concert live!”
The music was a bit loud, and Jian Chang couldn’t hear clearly, so she bent slightly and moved closer to her.
“What did you say?”
Xie Shi’an turned his head away, but in the middle of speaking, he suddenly fell silent: “I said I like it…”
The corner of her lips grazed her chin.
At that moment, Jian Changnian’s eyes were as bright as the starry sky above her head. She looked at Xie Shi’an’s eyes, her eyebrows, her straight nose, and her thin, cherry-colored lips.
The breathing is intertwined, and the eyes are entangled.
There were screams all around.
“Kiss one! Kiss one!”
Jian Changnian swallowed, and leaned closer bit by bit like a ghost.
Xie Shi’an’s chest was heaving up and down, his body was stiff, he grasped the arm of the chair tightly, and even forgot to close his eyes.
until-
Someone recognized them on the big screen.
“That profile really looks like Xie Shi’an.”
“The one next to her looks like Jian Changnian, doesn’t she?”
“No way? Got it for real?!”
A cool hand grabbed her wrist.
The ambiguous atmosphere came to an abrupt end.
More and more people stood up and cast inquiring gazes here. Xie Shi’an dragged her to stand up and ran towards the exit.
“Walk.”
Jian Changnian followed behind her, step by step, Xie Shi’an turned her head frequently, and ran out of the stadium, only to let her go when she saw no one was following her, and leaned against the wall panting.
“Fortunately, I didn’t catch up.”
Her face was reddish, thin sweat leaked from her forehead, and the hair on her sideburns was messed up. Jian Changnian raised her hand to push it behind her ear.
“You… just…”
Xie Shi’an turned his head to avoid her eyes.
“Let’s go back and talk about it.”
It was early in the morning after the concert ended, and the streets of Shanghai were very difficult to hail a taxi. Jian Changnian hailed for a long time but failed.
Xie Shi’an stopped a few taxis, but they were all full.
Another hour passed, and the two looked at each other in blank dismay.
Xie Shi’an hesitated: “Did you…bring your ID card?”
Jian Changnian didn’t realize it: “Huh?”
“Then why don’t you sleep on the street?”
Jian Changnian: “…”
***
“Hello, two standard rooms.”
Xie Shi’an handed over two ID cards and bank cards.
There was a slightly apologetic look on the staff’s face.
“I’m sorry, ma’am, the standard rooms have been booked, and now only couple double rooms are left.”
“…”
The air is slightly stagnant.
Xie Shi’an glanced at Jian Changnian who was waiting on the sofa beside him: “Can’t we coordinate a bit more? It doesn’t matter even if the room is a bit off.”
The staff pushed the card back to her.
“Ma’am, we really can’t do anything about it. Why don’t you go to another hotel, but I think the situation in all the nearby hotels tonight should be similar.”
Xie Shi’an gritted his teeth.
“Forget it, the big bed room is the big bed room.”
The double bed room for couples, as the name suggests, has a big round bed, very red and pink, very couples, and very interesting.
The moment I opened the room, the silence was Cambridge tonight. [2]
“I’m going to the bathroom.”
Jian Chang Nian hid in the bathroom with a sullen face as an excuse to urinate, took out his mobile phone and bombarded Zhou Mu wildly.
At two o’clock in the morning, Zhou Mu was awakened from sleepiness.
“Hey?”
Jian Changnian hid behind the door, lowered her voice, and cursed.
“Sleeping! Sleeping! Sleeping! Doesn’t your conscience hurt?! It’s fine to lie to me, why even her… What kind of broken position did you arrange?! Do you know where I am now? Hotel! Or Big bed room! I’ve been unlucky for eight lifetimes…”
After a brief silence, Zhou Mu laughed and twitched on the bed.
“I really have something to do today, the ticket is quite expensive, so I can’t waste it, hey, it’s hard to share the same bed, this is an opportunity for you to settle down, get back together, and pierce that layer of window paper, Chun Xiao A moment is worth a thousand gold, I won’t tell you anymore, hang up.”
“spring…”
Chun, you big-headed ghost! !
Just as Jian Changnian prepared a basketful of swear words and was about to blurt out, there was a knock on the door.
“Are you okay? I need a shower.”