The Golden Watch Of Hypnosis - Chapter 58
Hi.
It’s me, and if you haven’t realized up until now why this chapter is titled hiatusplease hear from my very mouth that the title is entirely correct and this is not another chapter written in first-person.
First of all, let me clarify the entire situation a bit here: I am not about to drop this story, and I can say with utmost belief that I never will, otherwise even I will start to disgust myself because I’ll betray the readers that stuck to my story since the very beginning.
This story for a week or two but not more than two will be put on a hiatus, and not because of simple boredom or ‘burnout’.
Let me clearly explain the entire reason I’m putting this story on a hiatus by writing the entire reason, without hiding the truth or even masking it due to the fear of backlash to my readers.
I am not bored, nor am I burnt. I’m simply mentally incapable of writing even a single word more about this story at this time.
Let me say the reason
Beforehand, I’ve always most of the time stated that indirectly or not I’m depressed and I take pills for them, and yes, it’s related but not that much.
My depression didn’t increase nor did it weaken, I just woke up to a very insightful reality.
You see my dear readers, the entire reason I’ve been writing this story was and still is for my own entertainment and enjoyment.
The entire time, I’ve been writing this to blow off and weaken my depression by using this story as a medium to make me cheer up and feel like life is worth waking up to, which clearlyisn’t yet.
When you tell yourself that you’re fine, that nothing has changed, it’s less stressful and less of a torment to believe yourself, rather than to mentally look sideways at yourself, as if saying “You should know better.” If you choose the latter, before you know it, your heart will have turned into a heavy lead, one you could not go on carrying for a length of time. And you won’t feel fine until you have confessed or apologized.
I don’t want to look in the mirror one day and see someone I don’t recognize, or someone I would hate to look at on a daily basis.
I am very sorry to be a disappointment to some. I feel guilty that I am. Please believe me when I say I am more disappointed in me than you are disappointed in me.
It didn’t work.
It sadly didn’t.
The thing is, I was planning on making this the run-of-the-mill hypnosis fuck-the-pussy-and-experiment type of story but with a bit of character development and solid backstory as you can see from the first twenty or so chapters with Sakura, Misaki, Tenshi and to a lesser extent the side characters.
I didn’t plan on making this story this way so dark and depressing. And no, I’m not talking about the according to some reviewers **** every few chapters or so, I’m talking that I planned and included certain very depressing physiology here.
You know what, it’s not even that, I don’t know why but the entire novel is so fucking depressing to me now that I’ve reread it, and that isn’t all, I planned to make it even more depressing and ‘realistic’ to which wasn’t my plan at first at all!
I didn’t plan to make this story become depressing or realistic just for the sake of depressing and realistic, it was just because of the whims of my mind that I decided to make them that way.
And believe me, I intended for the **** and bloody murders to occur, but I certainly didn’t want or plan for NTR to happen before I started to seriously invest in this story.
There, I’ve said it! In the middle of writing, I was planning to make this story ‘realistic’, because who’s love doesn’t disappear after waking up?!
I’m fucking stupid, I know! But there were solid reasons and explanations for the NTR, which upon reading, you wouldn’t have felt angst or rage just plain sadness to why this happened in first place.
Just as I was about to write it in the plot draft, I began to think and introspecting upon why and who I was pleasing to do this for me? I certainly didn’t want a girl to fall out of love with the mc, regardless of the fact that the girl was a side heroine and wouldn’t impact the mc in anyway except making him more uncomfortable with his harem members. The readers? They certainly won’t and I would forever be boycotted among the community of readers.
I wanted this story to be pure, and fun for the sake of being fun for ME, I wrote this for my fucking self and I started to dislike the way it would go on in the future.
There were also a lot of plot holes and fucking retarded shit I wrote in this story, for example without even thinking, I forcefully integrated cultivation into this story, which up until now I still regret to my dear bones due to how fucking ‘holey and difficult’ the world now is to write. Another one is Kanae’s boyfriend, which sounded good to me at first and realistic but was in no way in co-ordination with my plan, BECAUSE I’M DEPRESSED AND I IN NO WAY WANTED ANY HEARTBREAK TO OCCUR IN THIS NOVEL I WROTE FOR MY FUCKING OWN JOY!
Believe me, I’m not that depressed I just want to kill myself, and writing this distracted me from that delusion of peacefully dying and blinking out of the world without any pain.
Now I’m in a state where I’m rewriting the future plot of this novel, which I will be in no way able to do so without any lengthy break from writing the story or stepping out and focusing on another, more happy story.
Yes.
You’re hearing that right.
I plan to write another story I won’t drop this by the way to once again restart my plan, and that is to make me less depressed and angry at meagerly shit situations in life.
Before the one star bombings and ‘I hate you, die author’ comments happen which I clearly don’t think will happen due to the fact that I have 2.5k collections, but at most thirty readers that actually read this like a maniac I am going to repeat this once again.
I, Gyihhuhu took no donations, no money, no nothing from my readers and instead gave you my free time time I could’ve spent doing homework and studying and wrote thousands upon thousands of words, didn’t spam my novel like other ‘shameless’ authors who I have utter disgust for – without expecting anything but few virtual clicks and a few red stones.
Do I sound condensing or douchy in general due to the fact that I put an emphasis on the fact that I took nothing from you guys? Because I do, and holy fuck am I sorry.
Anyways, once again I’m repeating I am NOT dropping this but putting it on a hiatus because, I simply love writing this shit regardless of the fuckfest I made it out to be, it’s just that I’m not in a mentally capable situation to do.
Again, I’m going to be writing another story, which’s general plot line and synopsis will be given in the end of this ‘chapter’, but for now, I’ll be giving my thanks and sorries to the people that have been supporting me since I’ve started this.
1. Gyihhuhu. (Goddammit, this guy is a true hero, makes me cry every goddamm time he confesses his love for me and my story every few comments.)
2. Dark_Savvy (Who is the fucking second reader I’ve ever had, applause for him ma dudes!)
3. Tyrant1103. (I don’t remember if he reads this anymore, since he hasn’t commented in the last few chapters.)
4. IvyXanth. (I remember her waaaaay back from a ‘deleted story’)
5. Dragos_Voda (He is the biggest stone donator, plus the first reader for me.)
6. yvi (Thank you for generally commenting on every few chapters)
7. Reganin (Don’t know if I spelled his name correct, but thanks for commenting in every chapter since a ten or so ago.)
8. A1kay. (4th biggest donator and 3rd if you don’t count me, thanks dude.)
9. Mahakaal (5th biggest, thanks dude)
10. MahakaalShiva. (6th and maybe the ALT acc of the dude before, but lol anyways.)
11. H4voc. (7th, thanks dude for the service)
12. Lu_Wang (I remember you from a while back in the first few chappies.)
13. STUN (I never saw you comment, sorry but yeah, thanks!)
14. Hest
15. Not_A_Heretic
16. Sleepeh
17. Leinley
18. Cape Of Darkness
19. One edge (Thanks for the comments fellow commie kek)
20. Godleveldemon(I don’t think he’s commented in the last few chapters, but thanks for commenting and sharing the same interest on psychology as me!)
21. Cleeeeaaan (Who frequently donates stones)
22. Sloksingh (Why, thanks for all of the ‘T’ and ‘TY’ comments you’ve made, you’ve reallllly annoyed me kek)
23. Goham. (who’s missing and reads Perfect Male God now)
24. Shoaib_khan.(Thanks for loving Misaki kek.)
25. Dark delusion, aka Supreme elder of the loli sect and warden of the prison made specially for pedophiles who is also a daycare worker
26. OEREBRO (Who was for a brief moment, my editor.)
27. NEPUKO(Who’s name I only remembered just now; I totally didn’t check the comment made by him and added it right now, totally…)
28. And alllllllllll of the rest that’ve read this and liked it, and the same goes for the people that have dropped and one star bombed it, because I learned what mistakes I’ve made by reading them.
Are you guys still reading this? Good, and thanks.
Below, I’ll state and explain the idea of my next novel a novel that’ll be what I PLANNED to write ie: no cultivation, no NTR(the same goes for golden too though), no extra bullshit called psychology and allot more happy and healthy Protagonist.
The idea is basically inspired by Yomeiro Choice(go read it if you haven’t) , a fucking great harem novel that’s basic idea is: a normal high schooler is thrust upon a hellscape of discord when he finds out that his children from the future has come up and interferes in his life and then, they force him to marry their mothers: his cousin, a tsundere childhood friend and a loli.
I’ll be doing and bettering the same idea: a high schooler, sure but a from a rich family; a lot of kids from his future wives, but there’s a twist, he has to make their mothers fall in love with him first, and it’ll have comedy kek.
My new novel will be titled My Colorful Brides. (which is a fucking ripoff lmao, besides, it’ll be up in a day or two due to the fact that I’m still writing the first chapter)
“Believe in something, even if it means sacrificing half of everything. ” Purple dude called Thanos.
I’m going to the same, I might lose half of my readers but heck, check out for my new novel, thanks!
Fun fact – Slowly, sleeping pills tone down the body capacities, by unwinding the muscles and artificially calming a person to rest. In principle, a sleeping pill overdose would essentially close down the whole body, including the sensory system, respiratory framework, and the cardiovascular frameworks – all of which would in the long run lead to death.
A sleeping pill overdose, on account of the sedating and soporific characteristics of those solutions, can execute a person without pain or anguish, which is additionally the motivation behind exceptionally common in suicide cases – one of which is the passing of Marilyn Monroe. Be that as it may, as police examiners and the individuals who really survived a suicide attempt can verify, a sleeping pill overdose does not generally work.
Current sleeping pill overdose circumstances can in any case cause significant harm since present-day medication quite often delivers an impact on the focal sensory system. Typical measurements just posture exceptionally negligible dangers yet symptoms can in any case be normal in the wake of utilizing extensive amounts of the medication.
The most genuine reaction would be the finished shutdown of the neural pathways and receptors that control a percentage of the body’s frameworks. Somebody who survives a sleeping pill overdose may get himself totally incapacitated, with practically no power over his substantial capacities – left just to live as a vegetable.
Sleeping pill overdose is likewise an extremely noteworthy issue in the domain of brain science. A great many people would expect that a person who ends life by means of a sleeping pill overdose to have an intense mental issue. Much of the time, physical anxiety or a maladjustment can be related to suicides.
Mentally sick people who survived their own particular suicide attempt utilizing sleeping pills are as a part of risk of painful memories, which can happen because of the absence of oxygen in the cerebrum. Other suicide survivors have displayed distrustful hallucinating inclinations or were found to have mental issues preceding the suicide attempt.
Don’t do what I did, don’t take sleeping pills.
HAHAHAHAHA
I’m joking, kek. And who said I can’t be evil hahahaha!!
Tune in for my story tomorrow and search for My Colorful Brides.
Bye.
