The Healing Sunshine - Chapter 13 Part 1

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Your perspective of the past can change sometimes, depending on who is by your side now.

Chapter 13.1 Hidden in the Depths of the Heart (1)

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As several things had happened one after the other after she passed her sixteenth birthday, she had not had the time to go to get her resident identity card. It was only when her college entrance examinations were almost upon her that she remembered this. She still had enough time to get it in time for the registration for college entrance exams, but it was too late to be able to have the identity card for her application to Peking University’s foreign small languages program. As a result, she had no choice but to make a trip back home and ask for her hukou booklet from Grandfather.

Ever since all those things happened, she had already decreased her frequency of going home.

J Chengyang seemed to understand all that she was thinking. On Friday night, he personally drove her back to the military compound. However, to avoid arousing suspicion and creating issues, he also went home to visit his brother, sister-in-law, and Nuannuan. The two arranged that in two hours, at eight o’clock, they would meet up again at the former primary school campus.

When J Yi walked out at the agreed time, she happened to be in time to see Nuannuan also stepping out, holding on to J Chengyang’s arm and reluctant to see him go. She hastily turned away.

Catching sight of her backside, Nuannuan called, “Xixi.”

J Yi turned back, a feigned expression of surprise on her face.

“How long has it been since you last saw my little uncle.” Nuannuan’s eyes were curved into a smile. “Hurry. Come and say a few words.”

” Little Uncle J.” J Yi felt a little discomfited. “Have you been busy lately?”

J Chengyang gave her an insipid glance. “A little busy. You guys are having your college entrance exams soon. You’ll need to make every minute count and study more.” In a solemn manner, he said a few more sentences, though most were directed toward Nuannuan.

In the end, Nuannuan could not handle him anymore and kept shoving J Chengyang away, saying, “Hurry up and go, hurry up and go. I wanted you to talk to Xixi for a bit. How did it become a mini meeting to criticize me?”

J Yi could not hold back a giggle. She watched as pulled out his black car remote key from his pocket. In the night’s darkness, the car made a sound in response when he unlocked it. Then, he sat into the vehicle and drove away.

Nuannuan knew that J Yi no longer went back often to stay in her grandfather’s home. Seeing that the time was already past eight o’clock, she urged her to hurry back to the school. “It’s dark already. I’ll go find you tomorrow and listen to you tell me about the whole situation with applying to foreign small language studies. Hurry and go now.”

J Yi nodded, and with her schoolbag on her bag on her back, she slipped into the blackness that curtained the night. She could be considered to have escaped.

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Her body felt a little limp. After walking for a short while, she turned around to look for Nuannuan. Confirming that Nuannuan had already gone back over to the building doors, she finally strode into the little park beside the building. If she cut through here, with the darkness, absolutely no one would see her. Once she passed several covered walkways, she would be at the old location of the nursery school, and then beside the nursery school was the primary school she had once attended.

J Chengyang had parked his car at the old shuttle bus stop and then walked over here. By chance, she had also just finished cutting through the park.

On that paved road where there were no people, only streetlamps, the two walked towards each other, both coming to a stop at the same time in front of the primary school’s little iron gate. She was not certain why, but with each step that she had taken towards this spot, it had been as if she was walking towards a dream that was within sight but beyond reach.

As she gazed upon his outline beneath the streetlamp’s glow, at this man who was already considered to have obtained success in his life, her heart carrying in it the simple, pure feeling of tender attachment to him and the feeling of love, but a love that she dared not even wishfully hope that she could have as her own, she was suddenly afraid that he would know about all of this.

“There’s no one in this primary school anymore?” J Chengyang stretched a hand forward to push that small metal gate.

“Yup. Supposedly, the parents all thought the teachers in the compound aren’t good enough, and all the students were sent to schools outside. So, it seems that’s why the school was closed.” J Yi had also only learned of this when she heard the people in her family chatting about it.

The primary school’s gate never used to be locked, and now that it was abandoned, it was still the same.

This particular school was exceptionally small. On the left was a 400-metre track that circled around a basketball court, several table-tennis tables, and a set of uneven bars and parallel bars. In the very centre was a sports field, where a bare flagpole stood, and on the right was a row of green wooden doors, which were the classrooms.

Tiny classrooms.

“When I was here, they still hadn’t opened these primary and middle schools for military children,” J Chengyang recollected. “Maybe it was because back then, there was still no demand for them from anyone. There was only the nursery school. And now, they’re all closed. It seems that the only ones who got to enjoy this type of benefit are the children of the ’80s.”

She mused on this, finding it rather amusing. “So when you were a kid, you went to school outside of the compound? How nice.”

“For boys, it was pretty good,” J Chengyang told her. “But girls, when they are young, are still more suited for simple environments.”

All the while as J Chengyang walked, his eyes took in this primary school that she had once studied in.

The walls surrounding the compound’s primary school were only as tall as a grown adult and actually were merely simple metal fencing. In the past when he had walked by, with only a casual glance, he had been be able to see children having physical education class inside. If it happened to be earlier in the day, he would even be able to witness several dozen kids standing on the sports field, loudly singing the national anthem.

At the time, he had not felt there was anything unusual or different.

Now that he thought about it, perhaps J Yi had been in there before. She was so petite she definitely would have been standing in the front row.

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Passing through that row of silver poplar trees that stood before the classrooms,their leaves already densely green, J Yi hopped up the steps in front of those classrooms. “Here, every grade had one class, and every class had eight or nine people. During schoolwide flag-raising ceremonies, there were still only less than sixty people.”

Walking over to the fourth classroom, J Yi discovered that its windows were all papered over with newspaper.

She stood in front of the classroom door, feeling at the space between it and the doorframe up above. Only this classroom that she had once studied had this crack. As her fingers gently slid over it, memories of those carefree days of her childhood were suddenly evoked in her mind. As Nuannuan’s mother had said, back when she was a little child and Grandfather had brought her to her primary school entrance examination, she had been too young and too anxious, such that when the primary school’s principal asked her what was China’s capital city, she had only stood there stupidly, so overcome with nervousness that her mind was blank.

Luckily, her Xinjiang dance later won the principal over, and he had agreed to admit her into the school. Back then, she had been so oblivious, not at all like kids nowadays who could skillfully go on the internet at only a few years old. Grandfather had laughed and said, “It’s all right, it’s all right.” But now When she went home just now, Grandfather had not even spoken a word to her.

Nuannuan’s mother had quite hit the nail on the head with what she had said: people’s tempers change when they get old.

If the relationship between people would never change and could remain as it had been when it was most beautiful, how good that would be.

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“Want to go in?” J Chengyang’s voice seemed to come from somewhere beyond the heavens and yanked her back to reality.

With glistening eyes, she looked at him somewhat expectantly.

J Chengyang lowered his head and, from his pocket, slowly fished out a red, cross-emblazoned Swiss army knife. Then, with the knife in his palm, he began to select which tool to use, viewing the act of openly picking a lock as a trivial, light matter, lighter than even a feather. Breathing ever so quietly, J Yi anxiously scanned all around, for fear that the soldiers patrolling the compound would see such a scene.

He seemed to have found the tool that he wanted. In less than three seconds, there was the sound of movement from the copper lock.

Putting away the Swiss army knife, J Chengyang put his hand against the door and slowly pushed it open.

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As the door swung open, moonlight gradually penetrated into the pitch-black classroom.

J Yi stood on the steps outside the classroom’s doorway, watching this deep-green, wooden door that had a large crack in it and staring at this extremely dark classroom, dazed for a moment. A light sound of click was heard. Beside her, a flame appeared, fluttering by J Chengyang’s fingers and illuminating the classroom.

“Quick. Put it out.” Grabbing hold of his arm, J Yi dropped her voice and said, “There are no streetlamps on the school grounds. It’s all dark in here. If we make some light from a flame in here and the patrol soldiers see it, there’ll be trouble.”

The youngest son of the J family had brought the eldest granddaughter of the J family to break into a classroom in the primary school

If they were caught, it truly would be utterly humiliating.

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After taking one second to process this, J Chengyang released his thumb’s hold.

The lighter instantly went out.

Because he had held down the ignition button for several dozen seconds, the lighter was already somewhat hot, and he gave it a little jostle in his palm before tossing it back into his pants pocket again.

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J Yi had already stepped into the classroom. It was simply too dark, though, so she had no choice but to tear off the newspaper that covered the windows.

Alas, the tearing part was done too easily, so she actually forgot that this place had been closed up for more than half a year and dust had accumulated everywhere. Choking, J Chengyang’s brows drew together, and he pulled her over to himself to avoid the dust that had stirred up.

J Yi was coughing as well and drew back with him until they were by the door, where excitedly, she pointed at the second seat in the first row. “I used to sit there.” Seeming as if she was still not reconciled with that, she complained, “I couldn’t even sleep if I wanted to, because I was right under the teacher’s nose. Since I was a kid, I’ve always sat in the first row. I’ve never gotten to sit in the back rows.”

J Chengyang surveyed that table-and-chair pair beneath the moonlight and smiled. “Why? Because your teachers liked you the most?”

“Yeah right It’s because I was the shortest and wouldn’t be able to see the blackboard if I sat at the back.”

J Chengyang laughed, too. Exactly the same answer as what he had imagined.

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As all these things of her past fell on his ears, it was like someone was turning for him page after page of her childhood photo album that was tinted with an aged, yellowed colour, that type of old, dated colour that belonged solely to time.

He continued to study this classroom, offhandedly asking her, “Do you have a lot of photos from when you were a kid?”

He remembered that every year, Nuannuan would get her photograph taken when it was nearing her birthday as a way, from a young age, to record her entire growing-up process.

“Not a lot. I don’t like taking pictures.” Smiling, J Yi stepped away from J Chengyang’ side and up onto the podium. To her surprise, she discovered that there was still chalk in the wooden chalkholder ledge of the blackboard. “It seems I only have my baby picture that was taken when I was a hundred days old, and also a few from when I was three, four years old. In all of them, I’m wearing a little childsize military uniform and even a military cap, so I look especially like a boy.”

“What about when you had dance performances on stage?” J Chengyang remembered that first time that he brought her to dance. He had forgotten to take her photograph that time. “No one ever took pictures of you?”

“I think there was But only a group photo.” She picked up a piece of chalk from out of the chalkholder and offhandedly drew a pie stroke [stroke that slants downwards to the left]. “It was in that year that you took me there. I danced one duet, and then afterwards never danced again.”

As she spoke, she moved to make that heng stroke [horizontal stroke written from left to right]. But, she stopped abruptly.

Behind her, J Chengyang’s eyes were also showing from beneath the brim of his cap, and in the darkness, all of him was still, looking at that one stroke that she had written.

J Yi had frozen dazedly.

Oh God, what am I writing?

It was too much of a habit.

It had actually already completely developed into a habit, that she only needed to pick up a pen and then she would begin writing his name on the paper, like it was an innate habit. There were times she and Nuannuan would go together to buy pens, and out of habit, she would write the character “J” to test the ink cartridge. Every time, Nuannuan would laugh at her and say that, sure enough, what J Yi felt for her was true love, that she would actually not write her own “J” and instead write the “J” for J Nuannuan.

Only J Yi knew ever so clearlywhat she wrote was his surname.

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The piece of chalk halted on the blackboard for several seconds.

Biting down lightly on her lip, she feigned nonchalance and tossed the little chalk piece she was holding to the ground by her feet.

Oh please, please dont have seen that stroke from earlier. Please don’t have If he saw it

In a corner of her heart, this thought madly grew and began to spread, tangling itself tightly around her entire heart.

Nervousness and hopeful anticipationthese two emotions entwined together and caused her heart to grow heavy. Too many feelings had been infused inside there, and it was so difficult to control its beating rhythm.

“It’s almost nine,” J Chengyang’s voice told her from behind her.

“Mm-hmm.” She inexplicably did not dare turn around, feeling absurdly discomfited out of fear of being found out.

In the end, it was J Chengyang who came closer to her, stepping up onto the podium with one stride.

He, too, selected a yellow piece of chalk from the dust, playing with it in his palm and seemingly wanting to write something as well. In the glow of the moon, amidst the swirling dust, she watched him, her heart leaping crazily. But she dared not carry on speaking and only fixed her eyes on the third button of his button-up shirt, lightly exhaling a breath.

She felt that all the blood in her body was coursing wildly, unable to stop.

There was the sound of chalk being brought to the blackboard.

J Chengyang did not utter a word. Continuing from the stroke she had just made, he wrote out his own surname. And then, the tip of the chalk shifted, and with a few strokes, he added another character beside it. As J Chengyang rolled that nub of yellow chalk between his fingers, he tilted his head down to look at her, gazing at her slightly-parted bangs that lay on her forehead. He seemed to sigh very lightly. That light sigh carried feelings in it that he wanted to conceal, feelings that seemed very light, yet also very strong.

“Did you want to write these two characters?”

Two?

She lifted her head.

In the moonlight, on the blackboard, there truly were two characters, their strokes strong and powerful.

They were “J” and “J.”

Left: J (J Chengyangs surname). Right:J (J Yis surname)

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I will provide a more detailed note on the pie and heng strokes in the next update.

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