The Journey of Flower - Chapter 129

– Unbearable Past
It’s been more than a month since Hua Qiangu stepped into Wu Wang Hall. Almost known to everybody in the universal that after she favored a new toy-boy who was from Mt Shan Sect, the whole sect has received special treatment from top to bottom, even the demons did not dare to offend them.

The fairy maidservants are free everyday, so they have more time to gossip. Suddenly from Honorable God’s chamber reduced into a cold palace, it is inevitably, to have some disappointment and resentment in their hearts. What kind of character their family master is, how could he so easily give it up to Mo Bingxian who has never heard of. Seeing Bai Zihua did not care as if the matter is not related to him at all, everyone of them almost go crazy from anxiousness, and inquired everywhere. After seeing the face of Mo Bingxian, they could not help but worried more about their master.

How could Bai Zihua not know that they are chatting behind his back everyday. About the Spring poison, he was confused at that time. When the drug effect was over, he didn’t need to think about it, he could tell it was Zhu Ran who did it. If Xiao Gu wanted to humiliate him, there are many ways for her, she doesn’t need to use Spring Poison. Although he’s been turning a blind eye to her love, but that drug was clearly caused their relationship to break apart.

—- Stop deceiving yourself. You clearly knowing that she wants you. Although it wouldn’t to the point of using despicable spring drug, her mind and purpose are actually the same. After all isn’t it still filthy?

This was what Zhu Ran want to say.

The purpose of using spring drug was not to make him give in, but to humiliate him. Let him face everything and no longer hide from it. Unless he really regarded himself as her toy-boy, otherwise they would never be able to lie on the same bed again, or has to wait until he acquiesced her desire for him. At the fit of anger, he hurt her again. But what hurt her the most was the disgust in his eyes. Bai Zihua remembered her innocent eyes and the desolate laugh when the blood was flowing from her forehead, at that moment his heart was cruelly wrenched into a ball. How could she was still able to say sorry to him so calmly, even the one that was wrong was not her. But why couldn’t do the same thing to her? Originally he had feelings of guilt came in thought but when she sent Zixun Qianxia to deliver the antidote making his anger shot up to the sky.

Refused to give in. But after a few days have passed, he didn’t forget his original intention wanted to turn everything back. It’s not easy to make a little progress, helping Xiao Gu to restore some human feelings, how could he give up? While he was thinking about how to ease the tension between them, he heard that she took in a lot of boy-toys. Hosting banquet every night, with joyous music and behaving beyond belief extremely inappropriate. Later on, she took a fancy on Mo Bingxian, she has ordered to search for paintings and weird things in entire Six Realms just to please him. It is inevitable for him to get angry again after hearing this.

He understood Xiao Gu’s pure persistence. Knowing that she wouldn’t be lustful or does anything ridiculous at the moment of impulse. However, he didn’t expect that person was Mo Bingxian. His heart suddenly no longer has confidence.

Listening to the far away melodious sounds of the qin coming from Prajna Hall, and watching them repeatedly holding hands flew through the sky. It made his chest was stuck in a panic.

Suddenly he found himself unable to do anything. Everyday here, he felt like a concubine who lost emperor favour, staying in a cold palace and waiting for the emperor to come and dot on again. How ridiculous!

Therefore, he made a decision and went to the Prajna Hall when Hua Qiangu was meditate.

Mo Bingxian was resting in the water pavilion,and a guqin next to him. On a white jade table, there are books, tea, fruits, and unfinished chess game. He’s here, but Mo Bingxian still remained in the same position, leaning against a gorgeous red sandalwood chair and it took him a long time to finally open his eyes slowly.

Bai Zihua looked at the purple fox fur on him, he assumed it must be covered up by Hua Qiangu before she left. His heart suddenly felt tighten. He knew that there was impossible for Xiao Gu to have something with him, or nothing has happened between them yet, but when he thought about she slept in the same bed with another man every night, heads rubbing together, causing his irrepressible anger sprang up again.

Mo Bingxian was extremely interesting to see Bai Zihua’s face changing as if he was thinking of something. At first, he thought that Hua Qiangu was crazy in love with Bai Zihua so she did whatever it takes to keep him by her side but she was also reluctant to use force on him. As a result. Mo Yan came to ask for him help. Now it doesn’t seem as the case.

“High Immortal, long time no see.” Mo Bingxian slowly sitting up straight and pouring Bai Zihua a cup of tea.

“He sent you here?”

Mo Bingxian nodded.

“I said I can solve it, please go back immediately.”

“Solve it? How are you going to solve it? She is now an omnipotent demon god, even if you are her lover, you can’t change anything.”

“I won’t give up on her.” He is her teacher, her only relative in the world. As present she has become the chief criminal, if even him gives up on her, there is no turning back for Xiao Gu.

“I don’t know what happened before, but now she’s doing all kinds of evil things, anybody has the right to punish her. You always attach great importance to the righteousness of the world, you naturally should know what to do and what not to do. The Immortal Realm has been preparing for so long in secret, and now everything is ready except for one key element, the Six Realms will soon be filled with smoke. I’m sure I can help the Immortal Realm win the war. You’re just a mere human now, you can’t help anything, instead it’s too dangerous for you to stay here. The person who should leave is you.”

Bai Zihua naturally knew the winning he referred to is to seize the power of demons gods through intercourse. Others may not be able to do so, but if relies on Mo Bingxian’s ability, Xiao Gu could be dead.

“Don’t touch her!”

His voice is still the same like the sound of the cold ice that lasted thousands of years but in his tone carried some threat and gunpowder smells. Mo Bingxian frowned, and heavily put down the tea pot: “Do You think I really want to? I’m not the kind of person who can sacrifice for anything. This matter clearly was your fault, you should be the one to do it. That’s fine if you want to boast yourself of being noble and unwilling to sacrifice yourself to make up for it, what qualifications do you have to stop me?”

Bai Zihua felt annoyed: “A dignified Mo Bingxian, how could use this kind of despicable tricks?”

Mo Bingxian laughed out loud: “It’s rare to have a woman who can stand my tender care, I naturally is happy to have a chance to enjoy it. Not to mention, she tastes really good.” He squinted his eyes as though he was recalling the romantic scene between the two at night.

Bai Zihua struggled to control himself, at the moment of furious he swept his sleeve causing the Guqin fell from the table and dropped heavily on the ground. Mo Bingxian picked it up from the ground, and looking at Bai Zihua’s departure back figure in disbelief. Was that person really Bai Zihua whom he had known? Was it for Hua Qiangu? What happened between them?

After Bai Zihua was gone, Zhu Ran came and seemed lost in thought.

“I know what you are curious about, but I advise you do not pry about the memory of Honorable God. Knowing too much is not for you.”

Mo Bingxian not only can disintegrate the other’s power, but also can see other’s mind. It’s easy to find the opponent’s weakness, so there’s always no disadvantage.

“I really don’t understand you two. It seems that the relationship between the two of you is so bad. But the heart always think of each other.

Zhu Ran coldly snorted: “I don’t understand what you are talking about.”

Mo Bingxian uttered a snorting laughed: “She said you were always with her when she was at her worst. For her you are more important than the Six Realms.”

Zhu Ran was shocked and dumbfounded. He didn’t expect… and unnaturally allowed himself a wry smile. His face was covered with scars, all the expressions look very false. But Mo Bingxian knew the sadness in his eyes is true.

“We both are too similar, but she is more pitiful than me. The reason I am looking for you is want to have someone to accompany her well. Bai Zihua couldn’t do it, maybe only you can. Do your best to make her happy, she doesn’t have much time.”

Zhu Ran turned and left. His back view was somewhat cold and lonely.

Mo Bingxian frowned. No one wouldn’t be afraid when see the scar on Zhu Ran’s face which symbolize his ambition. He’s too ambitious, naturally he will not be willing to submit to others. Now the whole Six Realm are in his hands, but he’s still not satisfied. And now he want to borrow his hands and the Immortal Realm to eliminate Hua Qiangu? He needs to send a message back to Mo Yan and let them know they need to be more careful about him. Otherwise, mantis stalking the cicada, unaware of the oriole behind* Who knows if it will fall in his hand in the end.

*idiom- to pursue a narrow gain while neglecting a greater danger.

Although he has repeatedly warned himself not to have any interest in her past, after they have been together for quite some time, he felt as if being sucked in by her, always inadvertently want to know more about her.

In the middle of the night when Hua Qiangu returned, she saw Mo Bingxian was sitting quietly in the room while holding the qin. Although Bai Zihua is always alone, looking from afar, one could never sense his loneliness.

“What’s wrong?” There’s a hint of Bai Zihua’s smell in the air. Has he been here? She suddenly felt breathless.

“Nothing.” Mo Bingxian casually playing with the strings.

“How come here fall off a piece? Tomorrow I’ll find a new one for you.”

“No, I like this qin, a friend gave me a long time ago.”

“Friend?” The word “friend” to him always means more loneliness.

“She likes listen to me played qin. Before she died,I wanted to go see her and played the qin for her, but she refused to see me.”

“She’s dead?”

“When people are old, they will die naturally.”

“She’s a mortal?”

Mo Bingxian nodded.

Hua Qiangu has understood: “Why didn’t you teach her immortal cultivation?” So that they could be together forever.

“Becoming an immortal, so what? I still can’t get close to her. What’s more, she has her own life and choices, she shouldn’t change herself just to accompany me.”

Hua Qiangu nodded. Watching his loved one is dying of old age as the day goes on, wanted to hold her in his arms and comfort her but he could not do it, he must feel so desperate.

He remembered she said to him before she admired him for always a sense of freedom in him, he only smiled faintly. People without ties are lonely, you don’t understand.

While she was distracted, Mo Bingxian suddenly took her into his arms, and placed his hand on her chest. Before she could even reacted, his hand already moved away, and took something out from her bosom.

“Why do you always carry this stone in your bosom?” He looked a bit childish as he tossed the stone up and down in his hand with curiosity.

Hua Qiangu’s vacant eyes immediately became deep. As she was about to open her mouth, Mo Binxian smiled and said: “Don’t tell me you want to tell me another story?”

Hua Qiangu also smile, reaching out her hand and took the stone back from him. She held it in her hand and rub it gently: “Although, now it looks like it’s just an ordinary stone, in fact, this was the beginning of everything- Nu Wa stone.”

“This is the Nu Wa stone?”Mo Bingxian narrowed his eyes. Why there are traces of recent refinements on the Nu Wa stone? What is Hua Qiangu to do with it?

“Yeah, it’s Nu Wa stone. One of its fragments once hallucinated the human form. Its fragment once transformed as a human form, and later he died for me. But I was unreconciled, I only wanted to save him and did not expect my action would end up let the demon god reborn, causing everything became what it is now. But I know he hasn’t disappeared yet. Sometimes I hear him calling me, comforting me. I know he’s still in the stone, always with me.”

Is it another painful past? Mo Bingxian stayed silent for a long time: “ I know an ancient technique that can recollect the dispersed object spirit. But I don’t know if it will work for Nuwa Stone. Not to mention, even if you could bring back his soul and refine that object once again, he may not be the same old friend you had, but turn into another person.”

Hua Qiangu looked at him with excitement: She suddenly jumped forward and grabbed his arms tightly: “Really?”

Mo Bingxian overlooked at the smiling face that suddenly blooms like a flower, the radiant was bit dazzling to the eyes. Is that what she was like in the past, very happy and full of vitality? Feeling like a sunlight penetrate into him like a sunlight, taking every blood vessel in his body and transparent it into river cheerfully.

Not accustomed to his own heart being moved, he put aside his embarrassment and stop looking at her.

“Maybe, we can give it a try. I certainly can’t do it alone, but with the addition of the power of the demon god may be possible.”

“Okay, when can we start?” Hua Qiangu was so excited almost don’t know what to say next. If, if everything has a chance to recover, the mistake can be remedied……

“When the earth spiritual energy is more, the greater the probability of success is. But you have to be clear, this will consume a lot of your demon god power.”

“No problem, as long as I can save him.”

Mo Bingxian didn’t expect that she would believe him so easily, or to say she is too confident in her strengths?

“What, what about Tangbao? She’s a spiritual insect from Yi Xiu Ge Pavilion, and cultivated into a human form. But because of saving me, her soul has been scattered. Do you have a way to save her? It doesn’t matter how much of demon power you need to consume from me!” Her speech was a little sloppy from excitement.

Is it only for the sake of saving her? Mo Bingxian’s heart was shocked. Sometimes, guilt is more capable of destroying a person more than direct harm. How much pain and regret did she have in her heart?

“There’s nothing I can do about this, but she is the insect from Yi Xiu Ge Pavillion. Why don’t you ask the lord of Yi Xiu Ge?”

“He….he is also dead.”

Seeing a glimpse of despair in her wide-open eyes, as if recalling the most painful thing, making his heart could not help but feeling tight.

“Don’t give up. You know that the universe is eternal and everything is imperishable. If it what you really love, you won’t fuss about it, even if it’s not the original form. You would take good care of it. Going through heaven and earth reincarnation cycle, someday all the things you think are gone and vanished will come back again.

Hua Qiangu felt warmth in her heart, and all of a sudden there was an impulse to shed tears.

Yes, come back. She wants everything to come back, perfectly come back. Even if she will not be there to see that day.

Mo Bingxian suddenly bend down and picked up a shining transparent flower on the ground and handed it to her. Hua Qiangu turned to look at the flowers that paved the way when she came. It’s been a long time since that happened. Before wherever she went before, it would leave flower marks because the power of demons god was too strong. At the beginning she did not know how to control it, leaked out everywhere. But now….she has no ability to control it anymore.

Mo Bingxian’s brows are tangled deeply. Although every night he used some dirty tricks, based on Hua Qiangu’s ability, it is not likely to fade away so fast. What is wrong with her? She has already become the supreme leader of the Six Realms, but why does she always of a dying person?

Seeing Hua Qiangu was staring in dazz at the flower in his hand, lately he’s always felt a little titsy when looked at her blank eyes. He could not help but reached out and embrace her in the arms. There was a slight struggle in the eyes, undoubtedly it was so powerful but why does he always thinks she’s like a porcelain? Just a tiny touch it would break right away. She’s clearly the disaster of the Six Realms. A calamity with hands full of blood, but why does he always feel contempt and heartache at the same time? Is it because of her bright clear innocent eyes? How could he be easily lured into confusion?

Finally, he made up his mind, placed his hand behind her head and pulled her more tightly into his embrace.

Hua Qiangu shuddered. Mo Bingxian’s strength has always been very powerful. The closer you get to him, body will become uncomfortable, and all the strength seemed to be torn by something, sucking out. Even so, the heart felt somewhat extremely comfortable, can’t bear to part from the smell of his body. Therefore, she couldn’t help wanting to get close to him. But this time….she quickly reacted to what had happened, and pushed him away.

“Don’t look at….” Don’t look at her painful past. It’s so shameful.

Mo Bingxian was stunned. He looked at her with half mouth opened, and his face was full of disbelief.

That child…is that child her? The past Hua Qiangu? He saw she was so scared when met the ghosts, traveled alone in order to look for a teacher. With all of her efforts worked very hard for Bai Zihua. Laughing happily in front of her friends and had fun playing with Tang Bao. For Bai Zihua, her heart broken again and again…. He finally understood why her eyes are sometimes look very cold, sometimes blank, and sometime desolated. Now he knew why even Zhu Ran pity her, and why Mo Yan asked him for help. He also understood why Bai Zihua would rather suffer humiliation to be by her side than leave her.

Duan Nian sword, Soul-broken nail, water from Unfeeling pool …when he saw her was blind and mute and got bullied in the savage of wilderness his heart ached. Although Zhu Ran helped her with a motive, at that time he was the only one took care of her and gave her a new hope. No wonder she indulges him so much. All people in the world slander her, hurt her, deceive her. It turned out this demon god was actually was forced to her step by step.

He asked himself, all his life he has seen the fickleness of the world, although it would not to extent of blaming God and others, more or less, he could not help but feel cold-hearted about this world. He could not imagine if he has to go through such suffering like Hua Qiangu, what would he become?

He still doesn’t understand why is she obstinately persist in going about things the wrong way? All of these just for Bai Zihua?

His inner compassion was completely replaced by anger. Anger at Bai Zihua, anger at the Immortal Realm, anger at himself.

Hua Qiangu saw his expression, she gently shook her head and weakly slumped in a chair: “It’s funny, the Six Realms are in chaos because of me, the common people are living in misery because of me. Blood flowed into rivers and seas, skeletons piled up like a mountain. But the only person I personally killed was Luo Shyi.”

“I…..” Mo Bingxian felt somewhat confused and apologetic at the same time. Actually he was able not to let Hua Qiangu detect him, but at the moment he saw the glimpse of her past, it moved him deeply and lost his soul.

Suddenly there was a strong impulse wanted to kill Bai Zihua. He hates himself for coming so late after all these years. Today Hua Qiangu is no longer a simple child with a cheerful smile but just a beautiful walking dead.

And himself, unexpectedly wanted to join hands with those people who pushed her step by step into what she is now, destroyed her to the bones. How cruel—– Hua Qiangu slowly stood up, if Mo Bingxian did not know anything, she probably still going to continue this play with him, give each other warm, and comfort. But now, it’s no longer possible. She doesn’t want to stand bare in front of people.

“Xiao Gu!” Mo Bingxian took her hand.

When she heard him called her the same way as Bai Zihua, she could not help but stiff for a moment.

“Things have come to this point, can’t you let it go now?”

With vacant looks on her face Hua Qiangu sighed lightly: “In my world, there has never been anything that can compare with him.” In the end, she did not look back, pulled her hand away and walked out slowly.

Mo Bingxian’s face was full of disappointment.