The Journey of Flower - Chapter 94

– Why does the emotion matter?
They haven’t arrived Mount Mao yet, but from far away they could hear the sound of bell ringing loudly for a long time from the Wan Fu Main Palace. All disciples are holding the military array, look like they are facing the enemy, the atmosphere is very chilly tension.

Did they come late? Hua Qian Gu saw Yun Yin was standing tall in the middle of the main square, so she breathes out in relief.

A woman in red kneeling on the ground burst into tears, she should be Qing Lian. A man who is standing next to her with concentrated looks did not say a word, he should be Qing Huai. Surrounded ground full pot-holes, trees and rocks are destroyed, as if the wind swept through, it seems they just had a hard fight.

Afraid of scaring the other disciples, Hua Qian Gu wears a white veil hat that Dong Fang gave to her to cover her face then descent down from the clouds, without any obstruction landing straight in the center.

Yun Yin staring straight at her, with his excited eyes wide open, lips trembling, almost standing unsteady.

“Sect…..?”

Hua Qian Gu took two step forward hold his hand, gently pinch, and then shook her head.

Yun Yin was somewhat slow, but could only nodded with his mind at loss, looked at her veils and then looked at Dong Fang Yu Qing, his heart is stirring up in myriad.

——She has come back? Did she finally come back? Dong Fang Yu Qing finally brought her back? !

He was holding Hua Qian Gu’s hands tightly, at that moment could not help but fuzzy tears in his eyes.

“Those two?” Dong Fang Yu Qing pointing to Qing Lian who was at the field from time to time burst into tears, and sometimes looked up at the sky laughing like crazy.

“They are my sect uncle and auntie, I join the sect too late had never seen them, but my Shi Fu used to mentioned about them. He said that fifty years ago they have committed a huge crime were banished to the savage wilderness, and now come back to find Shi Fu for revenge. I told them Shi Fu has passed away, they did not believe me and said that Shi Fu had the immortal body, he could not die. They was deranged in madness made a big scene, and also said Shi Fu was hiding because he was afraid of them. They said they would destroy the whole Mount Mao did not believe that Shi Fu still would not come out.”

“Did any disciple get injured?”

“No, both of them are too powerful and after all they are still our elders. I did not want to add any unnecessary casualties, only set up a magic array trapped, did not have any direct clash. But the sect auntie Qing Lian used screening magic to search for Shi Fu everywhere from Mount Mao and even all the way to the six realms, but still did not a little bit of Shi Fu’s breath. Therefore, finally believed that Shi Fu was really disappeared from this world, then she suddenly appeared in the presence state of madness.”

He looked at her from the side, at that moment did not know what he should do. But know that since they returned from the savage wilderness, knowing that Dong Fang Yu Qing was unable to break off his relationship, maybe Hua Qian Gu also has returned. His heart could not help but was excited, did not expect that not too long saw Dong Fang Yu Qing really brought her. But why, why did she be covered her face, also did not speak, was she afraid of other disciples know, so the news she came back from the savage wilderness leaks out?

Hua Qian Gu through the white gaze looked at Qing Lian, her eyes could not help showing a trace of pity. Stepped forward two steps, but found that Yun Yin still tightly grabbed her hand.

She look back at him, so Yun Yin slowly release, as if his hands were empty, could not find her trace, see her again was just only a dream.

“They are very powerful … … careful … …”

Hua Qing Gu nodded, she stands before Qing Lian and Qing Huai, a huge light overflow, the three wrapped inside, the outside are vague as if through the curtains can not see clearly.

“Honorable God.” Qing Huai saw her open his mouth faintly, he is slim, with decadent face expression, still maintained a young appearance, but the body can not feel the slightest bit of immortal bones, looks like just the same as ordinary people.

Hua Qian Gu was scared: “Are you?”

She turned around to see Qing Lian, with her hair down was sitting on pile up rocks, like a flower that is rapidly withered, her mouth kept muttering: “Why you die, why? You should have die in my hands! How can you die just like that!”

She gently frowned: “Actually that time were you guys.”

At that time her eyes were blind, but she recognized the sound. The two of them at that time in the savage wilderness, who in among the group seize her, that the woman who wanted to eat her heart and lungs, and the man with the stone.

Later on they learned that she was the demon god, although they both were allowed to follow to come back, but they were so careful and always avoided her, so never seen.

Although she is far from being hatred toward both of them, but just recalled her sadness and humiliation period at that time, so could not help but heart burst of desolate. Thinking of that time when her naked body was seen in front of this man, slightly embarrassing do not want to think about it.

“How could both of you acted without permission, exposed everybody whereabouts.”

Qing Huai was just motionless, his eyes confused and desperately staring at the woman who looks as if crazy.

“Please Honorable God forgive us, we have some personal grudge, could not wait, so decided to act on our own without asking for permission.” He was finally able to return, in his heart is always grateful for Hua Qian Gu, thinking about that time in order to survive had made those non-human behavior, so felt slightly guilty.

“Let’s go back, Qing Xu is gone, there is no need for revenge.”

Suddenly, the red figure rushed up and clenched her tightly: “How did he die! How did he die! How could he die! He was always in a good term with everybody who would kill him! Who could killed him! How just only a minor Chun Qiu Bu Bai could kill him! You all lie to me! You all all lie to me! “

“Qing Lian….” Qing Huai felt distressed wanted to help her up, but her was rudely pushed away by her.

Hua Qian Gu looked straight at her eyes, slowly started to explain: “He is really was killed by Chun Qiu Bu Bai and his disciple Yun Yi, in order to snatch the Shuan Tian Lan holy artifact, the whole Mount Mao was completely slaughter. At that year, I came to Mount Mao wanted to become the sect disciple seeking to learn a skill, but the whole mountain was full of bodies and I witnessed with my own eyes when the priest Qing Xu passed away, Yun Yin did not lie to you. If in your heart still considered yourself as Mount Mao’s disciple, then stop doing such a thing again, go back with me.”

Qing Lian’s eyes full of bloodshot staring at her: “Were you the last one to see him? What did he say? Did he mention me?”

Hua Qian Gu frowned, slowly shook her head.

Qing Lian grab her hard shaking, her long nails deep into her flesh: “I do not believe! I do not believe! How could he not mention me! He loves me so much! So much in love with me! You lie to me! You all lie to me!”

Hua Qian Gu looked at her desperately closed her eyes, tears rolling down, as if in the moment he has become so old, a black hair slowly turns gray, pale, white. A gust of wind blowing, unexpectedly dropping down. For a moment, the whole sky is full of her silver hair flying and intertwined everywhere.

“Qing Lian!” Qing Huai staggered back two steps, surprised to see in a flash she has lost almost all of her hair, a little sign of wrinkles has spread in the face.

Qing Lian is sitting on the ground emotionless, like a soulless doll, eyes dull, her mouth kept talking to herself, as if she is having a conversation with someone.

“I was weak always got sick, can only lie in bed every day, through the window to see everyone practicing sword. You and second sect brother every day always came to see me and played with me, gave me a variety of delicious food. Second brother only silly watching me laugh, always obedient me. And you who know a lot of things, tell me the story, explain me the logic. You taught me the skill to Twist the flowers, taught me to solve the Nne chain. You told me Qing Lian ah go out more would improve your sickness, then you carried me climbing all over the peaks to visit places. I wait for you to learn the flying swords, and then kept pestering you to take me to fly, you said the wind was too strong, carefully put me in the clouds. I smashing things whenever I lose my temper, scolded you, hit you, but you had always been smiling to amuse me to make me happy, never angry. I hate everything that could reflect my figure back, you were holding a bronze mirror said to me, how beautiful I am, how nice I am, learn to face myself, love and cherish myself. You everywhere looking for medicine for me, gently helped me washed my hair, binded my hair, encouraged me to have confidence, no matter what I look like you would always love me. You were so good to me! You spoiled me, you spoiled me!

When we went down the mountain to catch the ghosts demon, at Wang Wu Mountain that terrible couples laughed at my appearance, I wanted you to help me revenge, but you refused it, second brother wanted to kill them, but also was blocked by you. I cried said that you did not love me, but you said you could die for me, but not because of me and hurt others’ lives. I said that if one day you had to choose between me and people in the world, my death or someone else’s death, you still did not want to hurt other for me? You say you will choose the world people, but will die with me.

I was moved, and also relieved, love you even more obsessed with you like crazy. But I did not understand, I always remembered the part that you would die with me. But I forgot you choose the world people, I was in your heart is more important than your own, but you put yourself after people in the world, after Mount Mao. I was still foolishly convinced that your love for me, like second brother loves had for me, could override everything, including dignity, including justice, including a person’s principles, including the rest of the world’s life and death. Until later, I knew that I was wrong, outrageously wrong … … you said I was under the name of love did the unrighteous things. But I just want to love you, to love you with more beautiful appearance, and only hope that you can love me more ….

You banished me the savage wilderness, but your eyes told me that you were more in pain hard to bear than me, but why were you willing to do so? Why were you willing to part with me? A full fifty years! I never gave up hope for a day! I knew you love me! You just punished me, like when I was a child did something wrong you refused to give me candy. So I always waited for the day, I redeem all my sinned, you thought I could not endure it anymore, you would come to bring me back! “

Qing Lian looked at the sky, at the same time screaming and broke down in tear.

“I’ve been waiting for you for fifty years! Why didn’t you come to get me! Why not forgive me! Have you forgotten me? I knew I was wrong, when I was leaving I kept saying that I hate you actually all of those words were not true! I knew I was wrong! I finally come out to find you, how can you leave me alone and die first? You did say, you would die with me … … “

“Qing Lian!”

Qing Huai stepped forward to hold her in his arms, saw her tears are still rolling endlessly, indeed it from the internal force of the broken heart.

“I … … was just only a little woman who did not know anything, just want to be in beautiful gesture being love by you, you did not understand my love, why you so selfish to me, I also did not understand what your so called the broader mind, your so called compassionate love, your so called great love. But for so many years, I have never changed, whether you still love me, remember me or not, will not wait for me on the road to the Yellow Spring (the underworld of Chinese mythology). Although it is a little too late, but I also want you to know, I can also die for you …”

Qing Lian slowly close her eyes, hands weaken falling down. Qing Huai clinging to her, his body trembled violently with pain.

Hua Qian Gu felt dizzy, every words from Qing Lian as if in her heart hit a huge hole. Slightly on the move, standing behind Qing Huai, pay attention standing on guard.

Qing Huai desolate smile: “Don’t worry, I will not go with her. The three of us grew up together, I was awkward, clumsy in speaking, had no perception, or talent. I like Shi Mei (Junior sect sister), also envy Shi Xiong (senior sect brothers). I did not hope one day she will put me in her heart, I just wanted the two of them happy, no matter what they ask me to do, I will go through fire and water for them. But Shi Mei always thought I was burden and meddlesome, bothering them to talk about love, left them alone.This time, I will not go to obstruct them anymore. They can die for each other, I can also carry on this memory, for them continue to live in loneliness. Even in this life, in their mind, I was never important to them … … “

Hua Qian Gu bites her lower lip, just feel like a heartache about to explode.

“I beg for forgiveness from the Honorable God, I will not go back with you, I want to stay at Mount Mao, at the peak of Mount Mao quietly meditate inside the cave for the rest of my life, also to redeemed these years of murders.”

Hua Qian Gu nodded to agree, Qing Huai holds Qing Lian up, in a gust of wind, both of them were disappeared.

Is it the result of love, end up with death, walk away, scattered, and part away.

Hua Qian Gu staggered walking toward Dong Fang and Yun Yin.

——Between people in the world and me who would you pick?

—— I choose the world, but I will die with you.

Perhaps in this world only priest Qing Xu who really know how to love all the living life? Everything let nature takes its course, despite the time has flown, himself became old, even if he was betrayed and killed, for him death was indifferent penetrating, not the slightest bit of complain in his heart. As those unfortunately people have already gone, during all these years, had he ever missed her, had he ever thought to bring Qing Lian back , no one would never know about this … …

And her, from the beginning until now just wanted to be like Qing Huai, keep her feeling in secret and quietly protected that person is all she asked for.

Inside her heart felt like being tearing apart, her feet were unstable and floated like she was in the clouds. She hurriedly covered her mouth, a mouthful of blood gushed out, splashed on her white silk, looking down throw her fingers, she was shocking

horrible to see it.

Dong Fang and Yun Yin reacted at the same time stepped forward catches her in time before she kneels on the ground, supported her up, then walked to the back hall.

She stagnant out the blood she tried to restrain for too long, Hua Qian Gu’s body trembling non-stop, while coughing, also tries so hard to cover her mouth.

Dong Fang let her sit down at the table, quickly pointed a few acupuncture points at her back, snapped: “Don’t hold back, spit it out, takes a deep breath, loosen it up, your heart felt too deeply hurt.”

Yun Yin saw her took the veil of from her face, bursted in dizziness, back off two steps, leaning on the wall feeling difficult to breath.

Hua Qian Gu’s face is also trying to maintain a smile: “I’m fine, you do not … do not worry.” And quickly comfort Yun Yin, “Don’t be afraid, just scars … …”

“Gu Tou!” Dong Fang suddenly raised a fan to slapped her face.

Three people were shocked, the room a little bit strangely quiet.

Hua Qian Hu’s eyes staring at Dong Fang, clutching her own face, slowly bowed her head down.

Yun Yin was unimaginable looks at Dong Fang, surprised to see Dong Fang took a deep sigh and Hua Qiang Gu gently entrenched into his arms.

Hua Qian Gu finally could not hold back but cry out loud, the sky suddenly rang a huge thunder, the surrounding houses were shaking.

“All right, cry out everything would be fine.” Dong Fang patted her shoulder, breathe a sigh of relief.

Hua Qian Gu tightly buried in his arms, body trembling violently, a whole year of intolerance of silence pain and grievances, and finally completely break down.

“He doesn’t want me anymore? He doesn’t want me anymore?”

It was such an enchantment finally uncovered, she has been forcefully pretending to be strong and fearless, and finally broke out at this moment. And everything, just because of he, but also soon choose a new disciple. Finally, the slightest threat of implication was finally heartlessly cut off, from then on, he has no connection to her.

No matter how much bitterness, she has always enduring to live on, but with such a simple message, almost cut off all her thoughts of survival. She almost does not know why she has to tried so hard to insist to keep going, keep on living.

Yun Yin looked at her face full of scars left from the Jiu Qing water, could not help but started tearing. He is incompetent, Mount Mao is incompetence, again and again, even their own sect leader could not protect, could not save!

Dong Fang patted her shoulder: “Gu Tou, forget him!”

“Unable to forget, can not forget … …”

Is it really can not forget? Or don’t want to forget? She felt herself was really funny, she loves him even if the pain deep down into the core of her heart still doesn’t want to let go, doesn’t want to forget him, how could she forget the past memory they spend together?

Has no regrets, no regrets, she could not do as Qing Huai without any regretting. She does not need him to love her, but she wants to be around him, want to be his disciple.

Just only the word “want”, it was already destined her love would be painful, once this word “want” broken, the only remaining left behind was the string of pain.

She is not a god is not a saint, she is just a child, she did not know where she was wrong, do not know how to make up. As long as Shi Fi could forgive her, she is willing to do anything. Her love is as selfish and insignificant as Qing Lian. She had no regrets, even if it could started all over again to become his disciple her choice was still indifference. If said at that time when he received her as his disciple had brought her so much excitement and happiness, and now how many liver and guts cut to pieces (idiom- broken hearted.)

At the end she was still selfish, no way to be selfishly extravagant expect him to love her, but selfish hope she would always be his only disciple. So long for grievances and unwilling, and finally like flood pouring out.

Still has no tears, but she exhausted the strength of her whole body from crying in the catharsis, so long repressing her emotional depression had slowly spread out, she felt the heart that was restrain and tight for a long time now began to beat and breathing again.

Dong Fang Yu Qing watched her crying until fall asleep, then hold her on the bed.

Yun Yin was biting his teeth and asked, “What was happening to her face and her voice? Was it the punishment from Bai Zi Hua?”

“No, it shouldn’t be, Bai Zi Hua has long been aware of that matter, and no need to poured out the Jue Qing water on her to reassure. If he even could do such a thing to her, then he is not a person. “

“Who is it then?”

“I asked Gu Tou, she didn’t want to say it. Bu from her face expression, she thought it was Bai Zi Hua, so always avoided to talk about this subject. I was afraid she would be upset, so did not ask anymore, but not to worry I will find it out. Let me know who ruined her face and throat … … ” Dong Fang Yu Qing’s fist clenched, the fierce light in his eyes makes Yun Yin could not help, but a little bit cold.

“How did you find the way to go into the savage wilderness? In Yi Xiu He pavillion, everything is about the price, you … … ”

After the Xiao Hun nails punishment, Mount Mao ordered Mount Chang Liu to turned over the person, Mo Yan made up the story that the person was rescued by Sha Qian Mu as an excuse to delay us. But at that time Sha Qian Mu was seriously injured and in the highly toxic, everywhere we could not find him. Until when Sha Qian Mu once again lead the troops to demand for person, Bai Zi Hua finally came out made announcement to the world that Hua Qian Gu was expelled to the savage wilderness.

Since then the immortal realm and Demon realm even more irreconcilable. Sha Qian Mu was changed drastically, became a better ruler, reunification the two devil and demon realms. Demon god has been born, the world would be constantly in chaos and disaster, and now the power of demons and ghosts are greatly increased. Completely enough to compete with immortal realm, war between immortals and demons had happened countless time, immortal had profound potential, particular could only has power of defense. Just looking forward to the day of the glorious Five-Star date, on that day to remove the demon god Nan Wu Yue, to suppress the world’s violent, ambition, despair, battle, any evil spirits that die in vain. Otherwise the six realms will eventually fall into the hands of demons.

Sha Qian Mu was disregarded his own injuries, leading his soldiers to attack Chang Liu mountains. And really as he said before, in a year, every day catched Chang Liu’s disciples peeled off their skin and killed them after, and then abandoned the bodies at the sea, up until today has been cruelly killed more than 300 people, only to force Bai Zi Hua to bring Hua Qian Gu back from the savage wilderness.

Chang Liu sect has around eight thousand disciples, some death, some fled away, after several wars, and now are down to only three thousand people. Before it was the number one and the most prosperous sect in the immortal realm, never imagined because of a small Hua Qian Gu, almost destroyed the foundation of the sect that has established in millennium.

Bai Zi Hua also due to such circumstances, once again re-appointed as Chang Liu’ sect leader. However, Sha Qian Mu and him, unless he dead he would not bring Hua Qian Gu back, and the other one unless he dead would not willing to stop. Slaughter is still going on, even if Mo Yan is powerful, but there is no way to protect every disciple thoroughly. The whole Chang Liu mountain shrouded in the shadow of Sha Qian Mu living in fear and alarmed all day long.

And Sha Qian Mu regardless of his injury again and again forced himself to practice the magic all days, fierceful and brutal, his devil magic from days after days has became stronger. He did not listen to anyone, seems as if has changed into a different person. Dong Fang Yu Qing originally wanted to tell him about Hua Qian Gu’s rescuing, stop him from killing more people, but think of his temper. Once he sees Hua Qian Gu’s face, if he knows that she was in the savage wilderness had suffered so much. He is fear that he is not just one day to kill one person, maybe would slaughter the whole Chang Liu sect at one.

Since Bai Zi Hua on behalf of Hua Qian Gu received the remaining Xiao Hun nails punishment, his strength is weak, immortal energy has not much left, maybe even with Lou Shu Yi and Yun Yin combine could not beat him, Mount Chang Liu’s matter is rely on Mo Yan and Sheng Xiao Mo struggling to maintain.This time, suddenly said what received the Jade emperor’s granddaughter as a disciple, maybe also was forced by the internal and external situation.

Bai Zi Hua had never expected that, Chang Liu because of Hua Qian Gu was destroyed in his hands…..

Dong Fang light sighed, comforted Yun Yin, let him command the crowd, must not leak out today matter. Although Qing Lian and Qing Huai’s matter at that time was secretly conducted, not many people know that they were exiled to the savage wilderness. However, if let Bai Zi Hua knows about this, he was able to be deceived. By that time want to save Xiao Yue, it is even more difficult. His time is limited, must help Gu Tou to complete the matter, settle everything, so that his heart could rest assure to leave.

In the evening, Dong Fang brought some food over to Hua Qian Gu’s room, but found that she was awake and gone. He could not help but shook his head and bitter smile, now she has the power of demon god has become so powerful, that he can not see her.

On the table left a letter: I go to Chang Liu to check on Tang Bao and Xiao Yue, rest assured, I will not be exposed, I will be back soon.

How can he not worry, to her current strength, do not say sneak into Chang Liu, as long as she is steady and calm, even face of with Mo Yan, she still should also be able to get away. Just as Bai Zi Hua there, how could she be calm and steady?

Thinking of this point making his heart feels nervous, eyes closed tries to calm himself down, fingers gently tap on the table. She said she wanted to go see Tang Bao and Xiao Yue, but the person who she really wanted to see is Bai Zi Hua…..

Never mind, she is not completely give up, as long as she does not see with her own eyes, how could she really ables to put it down.