The Nerd Turned Out To Be The Tyrant - Chapter 85

『Hi! 

My tutor told me to write a diary every day to improve my language skills.

(I don’t think there’s much of a problem with my language skills, but the tutors probably think differently.)

But I don’t like the diary. There’s no purpose in keeping a diary. What’s the point of writing about what I ate and where I’ve been today?

I heard that people should not live looking at the past but look at the future.

(This is what my father told me. but I copied it? Copying? Taking it away? I tried it. It’s kind of cool, right?)

So I said I didn’t want to write a diary, but if I didn’t like it, I should write a letter. 

I wrote it to my father and to my mother, but as soon as I settled down, my father was taken to a public meeting, so I couldn’t deliver it to him.

My mother is worse at writing Vladin than I am. Did I tell you? My mother is also from Melthia, outside the empire.

She met my father when he was a ‘wandering’ knight.

Anyway, that’s why even if I write a letter, no one will read it. But writing to my tutor feels like I’m getting my homework checked.

That’s why I’m writing to you. We’re kind of close. (Am I the only one who thinks so?)

Oh, I wrote the header too long, so it looks like I can’t write everything I want to say.

Anyway, I’m doing well in Menelik County.

I thought this place would be similar to Rodante, but it’s a much bigger and nicer place than I thought.

There are so many people and so many shops. There are many strange objects and mysterious animals that I have never seen before.

Have you ever seen a bird’s wing made of steel? It’s said to be a fighting bird modified by Menelik’s engineers, but it sparkles when it flies, so it’s really cool. I thought you would be amazed if you saw it, so I tried to pick up a steel feather, but I failed. It was very fierce.

But where can I send this? Can I send it to my grandfather’s place?

Yohan will take care of it and deliver it well. Reply if you’re doing well too. End of my story!

– Written by Angel』

『Hi! 

It’s only half a year.

No matter how much you do, why don’t you reply? It’s no different than writing a letter to my mother.

Is it because my handwriting is hard to read? No, my tutor praised me for getting better.

Now that I think about it, I just put my mouth on it? Put? I think it might have been a sound.

Even though she was hired, he must have been worried about her job to say anything about his handwriting.

Anyway, I told you the other day that birds have wings made of steel, and that’s pretty cool.

I have to take that back. Because I saw the bird get hit by a carriage.

I thought they were most proud of the steel bird.

Why, when people are different from others, they want to show off.

So, I thought that a bird with special feathers would become an object of envy and be ‘envy’ among birds. (It’s a new word)

But ordinary birds are extremely wary of them and hate them.

It pecked its head and flapped its wings, and I even felt the expression of refusal to go away and disappear.

Do you know what really hurts? I’d rather have that steel bird with a personality that boasts that I’m cool and you guys are just ordinary birds.

The steel bird is ‘excluded’ and hated, so it’s very intimidating. As if it was natural to be rejected like that.

The bird that staggered away from the flock headed for the road. The carriage was on its way.

I thought it could have avoided it if it wanted to avoid it. It’s a bird anyway. If you fly up, it’s no big deal to avoid a carriage.

But the steel bird pushed out of the flock, just stands still and closes its eyes on the road.

Like it’s destiny. The bird couldn’t avoid the carriage. It would have been better if it hadn’t avoided it. So…

Anyway, seeing it made me feel so bad.

When I talked to the friends I made at Menelik, they said they had seen it a few times. Modified birds tend to get a little sluggish from the weight of steel instead of getting stronger, so they don’t think it’s a big deal as it happens often.

…After hearing that story, I didn’t want to be close friends with them.

I think I’ve only talked a lot about things I don’t like, but what can I do? I need somewhere to release it. (This is what my mom said) 

Anyway, please reply when you see this. I wonder how you’re doing.

So goodbye!

– Written by Angel』

『Hi! 

First of all, I’m sorry. I wrote the wrong address on the envelope, so the letter went to Lynette, not Rodante…? 

I don’t know how Yohan found the letter to Lynette, but he stopped by today and returned it to me. 

I’m writing another one because he asked to deliver it all at once if there’s anything I can deliver to you. I’m really embarrassed.

By the way, I heard about you from Yohan across the street.

I heard you study herbal medicine very hard these days?

I also told Yohan that I study hard these days, and Yohan shook his head and said, ‘Miss Lucete is more than you can imagine.’

I heard you almost live in a lab… After that tall, glasses-wearing boy named Rev suddenly disappeared.

What’s with that person that he just disappeared? He’s so funny. Without contacting you like me.

I was actually a little jealous because you seemed so close. As expected you can’t trust men. (You know who said that?) 

Anyway, forget about that kind of person! That way is much better! Ah, anyway.

If you want to change your feelings, come visit Menelik. Living in Menelik isn’t much fun, though.

Did you hear that His Majesty the Emperor is ill? Did you hear that a new prince suddenly appeared and put down the rebellion?

This is a story I heard from my father, but it seems that the Count of Menelik has something to do with the imperial family.

It was a chaotic situation in many ways, so Count Menelik went up to the capital, but my father followed him because he was a knight of Menelik.

So I’m alone with my mother, and I’m very bored because there aren’t a lot of people to play with here. 

Seriously, no wonder I grabbed Yohan and asked him to talk about Rodante. (That’s how I came to know the story about you) 

Anyway, if you see this, please reply.

-Angel, who is a little worried about you』

『Dear Angel.

Hello Angel. I received three letters at once.

First, I want to be honest with you about two things, but you can’t say anything.

First, you have really bad handwriting! I think that’s probably the reason why Angel’s mother doesn’t recognize Angel’s letter.

It took me quite a while to decipher the letter, but it was okay.

I laughed a lot after a long time. Yes, this is my second honesty. I haven’t had much to laugh about these days. 

Since Angel talked about your feelings honestly, I want to be a little more honest.

(I need to have somewhere to release it too)

After my friend disappeared, I lived like a really strange person for a while.

Did I do something wrong, or did something happen? How could he disappear overnight, the day after my birthday? 

I’m worried. I’m anxious. I felt betrayed.

I want to stop thinking about it now, but when I walk down the street, I cry because of that friend who suddenly comes to mind. I sometimes get depressed even when I hit the pillow because of an unknown resentment.

Then there was a festival in Rodante. The quiz contest was also held, where I won and got an opportunity.

Since I’m in a position to encourage citizens to participate, I promoted the quiz contest, and as I was handing out flyers, people asked me a lot.

You’re not the only one who won the prize, well, it was that kind of question.

If it was in the past, I would have been surprised and depressed by that question.

Now, when I hear about that friend, I don’t feel any special emotions. 

I guess I got used to it as much as I struggled and suffered. I threw up everything I had to throw up.

Come to think of it, he’s my childhood friend. We could grow apart or fight at any time, but I think I put too much meaning into that friend.

I gave it that meaning, so there must be something I can do to get that meaning back. Thinking about it made me feel a little better.

I was a little upset on my first birthday without him, but…everyone can have that kind of empty feeling, right? (Please say yes)

I’m grateful for the invitation to come, but unfortunately, it’s a bit difficult to do so.

I’ve been given a small job at Rodante’s estate in place of Assistant Yohan, who is frequently absent from the office.

When I started pharmacology, I thought that if I only learned advanced pharmacology, everything would be over, but the more I knew, the more I wanted to learn. I also became more aware of my shortcomings.

This winter, by the time I’m coming of age, the whole curriculum will be over, so when I become a pharmacist!

I’ll go to Menelik to play with a cool look.

Until then, Angel should be doing well too! 

Then, good bye.』

Luce’s lips twisted as she looked down at the finished letter.

“…I wonder if Angel can understand how I feel?”