The Rebirth Of A White Robe Man: I’ll Follow You This Time Bl - Chapter 334
“… I wasn’t lying to you…”
Shao Cheng softly whispers in an emotionless voice with his sapphire eyes becoming a bit clear, the darkness and emptiness within it are slowly receding.
Although, in the corner of his eyes, the figure of the previous life Ren Yuan was looking at him with extremely sad eyes filled with longing and loneliness.
Even if the circumstances weren’t something he didn’t like, but, it was honestly hard to ignore the appearance of the person that had given him an overwhelming love and care.
Particularly, for the rest of the man’s remaining life, everything he did was for the sake of Shao Cheng’s desire and wish.
“…I just didn’t think… I would have the chance to see him again…”
Yes… even if I knew that it was fake, an illusion to destroy my mind and let me will succumb to the temptation, I simply couldn’t resist completely even if my reason told me not to.
Different from usual, Shao Cheng is more open on his emotion as he showed a small desolate smile.
It might be because his mentality has been coerced and pressured all these days while he was constantly being shown all the mistakes, blunders, and errors he had done in his previous life.
“Brother Yuan, you know… he is already not in this world. So, it’s a bit nice to see him again… even if it’s in a different form.”
Even if that is you in the previous life, but, I understand that it won’t be the same anymore.
The person I had treated as my greatest enemy…
The person I had tried to kill with all my heart…
And also the person that had given me the greatest love and care…
Obviously, Shao Cheng knows that such an experience won’t be repeated again in this life. Everything would be new, their relationship had already started completely different from the previous life.
“Brother Yuan, you know what kind of person I have been before. Although I have changed a bit, but, I know how cold and indifferent my heart is.”
Shao Cheng turned his gaze to the shadow of the previous life Ren Yuan, which started to become hazier the more he spoke, and the clearer his mind became.
“I admit that I am a cruel and heartless person. Brother Yuan, did you know? Until the last moment, I have never shown any goodwill toward him. Not once have I been nice, and I have never considered him as someone that is part of my life.”
I only understood everything when I died and became a spirit. And it was also during that time when my impression and emotions of you started to change…
“You could say that I was even far nicer and kinder to a stranger than toward him.”
Because I had always seen him as the greatest enemy that I needed to get rid of.
Shao Cheng’s expression slowly returned to its usual coldness and indifferentness as he revealed how he treated the previous life, Ren Yuan, to the ignorant young Ren Yuan before him.
“That might be the entire reason why he left the greatest impression of all the people I met in my entire life. So, Brother Yuan, you don’t need to worry, you have always been the most special.”
Although I was touched by the ‘You’ in that life’s determination and resolution, but at the end of it all, it was in this life that I have grown to like you.
The previous life might have been the catalyst that laid the foundation of Shao Cheng’s unusual feelings, however, it was in this life that he honestly started liking the man.
Especially when in this life, Shao Cheng has connected all the information he had missed in the previous life.
Although he doesn’t have the full answer and details of what genuinely occurred during his drowning moment after transmigrating, it was almost a fact that Ren Yuan was the one who really saved him in the previous life.
It wasn’t Huang Ya, the person he treated as his younger sister and benefactor for saving his life.
“In this world… Brother Yuan is the one I like the most…The most special person in my heart.”
I have grown to like you, isn’t it ironic how it was completely the opposite of how I felt in the previous life?
Somehow, Shao Cheng directly and openly spoke his feelings without the usual hesitation, anxiousness, and fear. It might be because of his ambiguous words a while ago, wanting to reveal how he really felt inside to stop all the uncomfortable emotions inside him
Or, it might be because Shao Cheng’s mentality has really been stressed and weakened to the point that he doesn’t even have the energy to think more deeply about those complicated emotions and thoughts.
Especially what the consequences of his actions are.
“My most special friend…”
Of course, there is also the almost subconscious act of trying to hide what he really thought inside.
So, it led Shao Cheng to utter those words out without even thinking about how extremely contradicting the words he had spoken just a moment ago.
And Ren Yuan, who once again became confused because of the more open and direct words of the young man than before, doesn’t know what expression to show in his face.
Although the color of his face turned in various colors despite how skilled he was in controlling the emotion in his face.
This time, the young man’s openness, and frankness left him stunned while his mind tried to reason and give various explanations about what kind of ‘like’ the young man had spoken about.
And when the ‘Special Friend’ was also mentioned next, it was another chaos and confusion in Ren Yuan’s mind, completely unable to tell what was really going on, even his usual confidence had already long been thrown away.
“… It’s nice to see you again… even if you aren’t the real person.”
While Shao Cheng remained ignorant about how much chaos his words had been to Ren Yuan, he finally turned his attention to the slowly fading shadow of the man, who gave him all his heart.
“But, it’s time to end it.”
Especially when the image of Ren Yuan laying weak in the bed with his last breath flash in Shao Cheng’s mind.
“We… already said our farewells a long time ago.”
Now, we have a new life, a new future ahead of us.
Although I won’t be able to forget such an unforgettable life, but, there is no need to completely let such a past control my actions and thoughts in this life.
“I shouldn’t be saying this to you but… I’m grateful… for letting me have the chance to see him again one last time. It made me become more determined to treasure and treat the people that I cared about for the remainder of my life.”
Shao Cheng slowly raised his hand with the purple aura swiftly accumulating as he reached over the alert woman that had taken a few steps backward.