The Red Side is Always Blocking My Dog leash - Chapter 125
“We need to talk and be open and honest.”
Amuro said, looking straight into his eyes, with the meaning of not being able to refuse.
Mr. A was silent for a while, and gestured to his wrist: “Are you sure you want to talk like this?”
The atmosphere is a little weird, right?
Amuro didn’t take it seriously, he couldn’t see the blushing look not long ago, and he made a final decision: “Let’s talk about it like that.”
Maybe he saw the idea that he was going to run away.
A-jun’s temple hurts one after another, and his heart is like overturning the seasoning, and the five flavors are mixed.
It’s a blessing not a disaster, it’s a disaster that can’t be avoided, it seems that he is destined to have this catastrophe today.
Anyway, his old bottom has been turned over enough, and this is not bad. Otherwise, he will tell the truth directly and tell the other party that if his wish is to be fulfilled, the first step is to die first.
But Amuro Toru obviously didn’t trust the existence of the system, and he didn’t know what the latter used to persuade the other party to help.
So if he really said that, Amuro would probably just think that he was fooled by the system and lame.
Right in a sense.
“I was completely unfamiliar with you before. There are only a handful of cooperation on the mission. If you count it carefully, the total number of words spoken has not been more than a day now.”
Mr. A knew that what he was talking about before was referring to a week that he had never experienced, “The previous events just gave me an opportunity to get to know you. All I know and like are you. So it’s not cheating feelings, nor am I. An idiot who will confuse you with anyone else.”
Amuro thought about his words, he never thought that he would have a day when he didn’t know how to express his feelings, “I don’t know why you have such thoughts. You seem to have a strange… blindness towards me all this time. ?” He finally used the word.
“I’m just a person. I can’t do anything, I make mistakes, and of course I like someone. Why can’t this person be you?”
Why subconsciously deny the possibility that the other party will simply like you?
A-Jun never thought about this. He likes Toru Amuro, of course. He has liked him since he was a graphic character. He knows very well how good he is. Why would such a good person like him?
He killed countless people. Although he saved the other party and the other party’s friends, it was only for himself.
His essence is indifference, human life has little meaning to him, and he has no way to become the person he wants to be.
Even if Qiu Zeyao is righteous, selfless, dedicated, and sacrificed in the eyes of others, in fact, everything he does is just because he should. He knows that he can become a real villain at any time and commit countless crimes. any psychological burden.
Such a person who is the opposite of Jianggu Ling, the other party will fall in love with him, but he is only confused by the sweet skin he puts on.
He felt a dull tearing sensation as he was about to say, “Listen.”
For the first time, he uttered a command-like sentence to Amuro Toru, which was the beginning of his later confession.
“The person you like is not me, it’s just a created image, the real me doesn’t care about justice at all, and I’ve never been a kind person, I don’t care about those…
Anyone, how or when they die, I don’t have any – positive or negative – mood swings, someone is in danger in front of me, and I will save him, not because I am who I am, but Yes, I need to be such a person. “
Amuro was noncommittal, and asked along the way, “Then why do you need to be such a person?”
“Because…” He stopped abruptly, and then said, “I forgot. But it doesn’t matter. The point is, what you know about me is only what I deliberately showed you. For… mission, I killed a lot of people, and I will continue to do so in the future. Will kill more, I’ve been Montes, Ghost, but you’re not Bourbon, nor Amuro.”
Innate disregard for life, or anti-social personality, this kind of person can play with and disregard other people’s lives at will. In his eyes, ordinary people are like ants, like lambs to be slaughtered. He can do this, but he doesn’t do it. It’s just like a time bomb that could be triggered at any time.
If it was Toru Amuro, maybe they could really get along happily. But if it’s just Amuro Toru, it’s impossible for Mr. A to like it.
Mr. A has a natural affection for noble, sacrificial and just good people.
And he himself has a bit of an inferiority complex, which is caused by his native environment. When he was young, he must have had a same-sex leader with this trait. The biggest possibility is his father, who is his role model. He appreciates, Admire and constantly imitate this person.
So when he realized that he could not have the same qualities, he began to hate himself and feel inferior.
Even if he has no memory of the past, everything in the past still affects him.
He concealed this sense of inferiority very well, and Amuro had a sudden feeling at this moment.
The problem is found, the next thing to do is to solve the problem. But the problems that have formed over the years cannot be solved in a few words. What’s more, Amuro Toru is not a psychologist.
He thought for a moment and asked the first question: “Do you think you can fool me?”
Then he threw his hands at Jun A who said nothing: “Look, you don’t think I will be deceived.”
“There is a certain deviation in people’s cognition of self, the difference is only the size of the deviation. You find that you are indifferent in nature and lack reverence for life. But this does not conflict with you being a good person in every sense. You can’t look at a person without looking at him. What, but to see what he does. What did you do?”
“Murder, smuggling, violent crime.”
“That’s what the organization asks you to do, what else? You’ve saved a lot of people, helped a lot of people, worked hard, looked after colleagues, and always stood on the front lines of the most dangerous. Seriously, your moral bottom line Much taller than the average person, and doing more noble things than most people.”
Amuro said, “I don’t know how you came to the conclusion that I’m not a good person, because of something that hasn’t happened yet? Because you have the possibility of committing crimes, you are born with criminal genes, and have anti-social tendencies?”
A Jun opened his mouth, he felt that what the other party said was wrong. But for a while, I couldn’t find a point to refute, and even following the logic of the other party, it was inexplicably reasonable.
Finally, he said: “Even if it’s because of an organization, a crime is a crime.”
If a person is a piece of white paper, doing good is to decorate the paper with colorful brushes, and doing evil is to burn a hole in the paper with fire, no matter how much paint is used, there is no way to fill the gap.
It’s a stain that can never be wiped away.
Toru Amuro nodded, agreeing with his thought, and said, “I am the same. If you say that, then I am not a good person.”
Mr. A: …
“It’s not the same…” He pursed his lower lip, “I don’t know how they told you, but I complete the task in order to realize my wish, and it’s okay not to join the organization. But I still join for convenience, the essence is It’s all selfish.”
Amuro Toru felt a little headache, this kind of situation might be called stubbornness, but in fact it was just a bullshit.
It’s not that everyone is a saint, everyone has their own selfishness, and there is no good person in the true sense, otherwise a person would not be a human being.
He sighed: “You are too harsh on yourself. It seems that you must be devoted to him and completely abandon yourself to be considered a good person. But you are very broad when you measure others.”
Mr. A stopped talking.
Amuro Toru didn’t expect that a few words would make the other party realize that he had lost his way, and this topic was over, too much.
He finally concluded: “It’s my business whether I like you or not. I think you are very good. I don’t accept any refutation, not even you.”
Mr. A: …
He was angry, “Are you an idiot!”
This confession not only failed to convince the other party. On the contrary, he was almost surrounded by An Shitou himself, so he couldn’t let him die in peace, he had to leave a regret, right?
Finally said that…
He lowered his head, his black hair blocked his eyes, and the corners of his taut lips trembled slightly. He blinked his sour eyes hard, holding back the tears.
so nasty…
Amuro pretended not to hear his sniffling, and replied seriously, “Everyone in love is a fool.”
“Uh…” Mr. A took a deep breath, “It’s over, can you let me go, today’s daily life is still waiting for me to go back and clear it up.”
“No…” Amuro said with a smile, “Since you mentioned the mission, let’s just talk about it.”
“Organization’s mission?”
“No, their mission.” Amuro broke his fluke ruthlessly.
“According to my experience, the time limit for this task will be over in only three months. Do you have any plans for the future?”
Mr. A: “…”
The intention is to leave this world (in every sense).
“If not, would you like to listen to my thoughts?” Toru Amuro stopped for a while and did not wait for a reply, then he took it all by default and continued, “Although you are from both sides of Rum and Boss, but in the end you are single. I am weak. Because you have no intention of forming a party, and they will not allow you to do it, it is very troublesome for one person to do anything. So I can do much more than you, and these four months have also proved that That’s it, right?”
Damn it, it’s obvious that all the abnormality is caused by you, but in the end you clean up the mess you made, and you still dislike him for not doing well?
Mr. A glared at him, gritted his teeth and said, “Yes.”
Anshitou was a little puzzled, but he didn’t delve into it. He smiled and said, “In this case, you can leave the organization.”
“I give, I ask Zhu Fu Jingguang… Forget it…” He shook his head helplessly, “I told them before that I had an informant in the organization, who helped me a lot and saved Jing.”
Mr. A opened his eyes wide, and he rubbed his hair stiffly. Warm and dry fingers passed through his hair and rubbed his fingertips against his sensitive auricles, causing him to subconsciously shrink his neck. The other party’s soft and clear voice sounded at close range: “So you don’t have to do what you hate, I will design a fake death without any flaws, you get out of here and change into something else, An Yankui is fine, and then you can do whatever you like, the latest Comics published, games released in Paradise, as long as it doesn’t affect the body.”
The blond youth’s eyebrows and eyes are curved, and the sea-like eyes are warm and bright as if the rising sun was born.
“For the next three months, leave everything to me.”
“After the end, you need to sign an assistant application form, but it’s up to you to fulfill your obligations. It’s a bit hard to take care of Haro and Xiaokui alone.
So hopefully you can help out, the three bedroom house sale I’m on the lookout for.
That might be a little odd though, so there are plenty of options for two bedrooms too. Of course, you may not want to see me, and I think this can be resolved by a sincere pursuit. Well, An Yankui’s name could no longer be used at that time. “
Amuro was getting closer and closer, and finally almost touched the tip of his nose, holding his head with both hands to fix it, his gray-purple eyes looked deep into the gray, and his voice carried a warm smile, ” If you have a new name, let me think about it… What do you think of the surname Jianggu?”