The Star In The Midnight Rain - Chapter 14 White Butterfly

After seeing blood so many times, I should have been used to it.

But I felt dizzy, and my eyelids were getting heavier.

I could feel myself, blacking out and, just as I thought of it, I blacked out.

When I woke up, I was in a flower field.

I looked around, and it was an endless flower field. It was so beautiful and serene. I looked around and saw a person at the other end. She kinda looked like my sister, so I ran to her. Suddenly she did a gestured with her hand like she was telling me to turn around. I didn’t do so, and as I looked at her she turned into a bunch of white butterflies and, came straight at me.

I got scared, so I turned around and, ran until I was out of breath.

Ever since I remember I had a fear of butterflies, my phobia is called Lepidopterophobia. It happened when we, went to a Butterfly exhibition, the first butterfly I saw, which was when I first entered the room, made me so scared, that I almost passed out. Ever since I knew I had a phobia of butterflies.

I ran but it seemed endless. I looked back, and it was gone. Well, I thought it was, but it came right at me and I screamed and closed my eyes.

It showed me something.

I was in front of my sister holding a gun at her, and when I looked around a bunch of police officers did the same. She was sitting in the chair and, smoked while grinning. I thought the time had frozen because no one was moving, but my sister got up and told me “Watch out, it’s a long journey,” and laughed that echoed, and I was back at the field

I was panicking when a voice told me, “Love yourself more and, watch out because your future isn’t that bright as you want it.”

I was confused on what she meant, but she had given me a hint, the future.

Then suddenly all the colorful flowers turned red and, dried out, but one of them, the only one that was left was a Daffodil.

The voice again told me “The color is your fate or sign, good luck.”

I woke up gasping for breath and, saw Min-Gyu next to me.

“Bad dream?” He asked, and I nodded.

I was trying to reach out for the water, but I realized I was holding Min-Gyu’s hand. He saw and understood and, let go.

I drank water, and he was looking at me. So I gestured him to look away, and he did.

When I was done, I held his hand again, which surprised him.

“Don’t be surprised, it’s just warm,” I said.

After I asked him what had happened and, he said, “I went back upstairs, cause it was raining to check on you, but you were lying there like you were dead. After that, I brought you to the school’s hospital wing.”

He asked me “Out of curiosity, how did you hurt yourself?” then I said, “I have been diagnosed with self-harm, so I hurt myself because of PTSD.”

He nodded, and I asked, “Did you get diagnosed with any illness after your incident?”

He nodded again and said, “I have PTSD as well, and besides that, I have BPD and Schizophrenia.”

“Do you know what they are?” He asked.

“Not really,” I said.

“Well BPD, is basically when I can’t control anything about myself, and Schizophrenia is almost the same thing but I am cut off from reality,” He said.

“What about you?” He asked me.

“Well you already know self-harm, and I also have Hypnagogic,” I said.

“Hypnagogic is when you basically, have things interfering with your sleeping like sleepwalking,” I said.

He nodded and, fixed my hair.

“Well, your awake so I should go,” He said and, I nodded.

As he got up, I held his big hand.

He turned around and smiled.

“What’s Wro…” He said, but I pulled him towards me and, gave him a peck on the lip.

Then I turned my head, so he wouldn’t see my red hot face.

He said “Take care,” and left.

I smiled and, looked outside the window.

I saw the same butterfly and got scared, but it turned into a flower and, landed in my bed.

The same Daffodil.

The door swung open and, my friends ran inside and, almost crushed me.

“Hey are you okay?” and “Oh my god, that looks painful.”

“I am okay, you guys,” I said and they were giving me that are you sure look.

Then the nurse came in and, said: “Girls and boys you shouldn’t be in here, hurry up and leave.”

They said what they had to and, left.

Just then the nurse asked me what had happened.

“I remember, trying to go inside because it started raining, but I slipped and went head first,” I said.

“That must have hurt, good thing you have a friend like Min-Gyu.” said the nurse.

“Can I go?” I asked, and she said, “Yup, your fever, and everything seems okay, so you can go.”

I walked back to class and, gave the teacher my pass. I opened my books and, listened. Until I remembered the flower, it was gone when my friends, came in.

I looked around and, suddenly saw my mother face in the window, covered in blood. I couldn’t take it away, so I took my pencil and stabbed my pencil in my hand.

Go away.