The Two Proud Sky Dragons’ Shura Fields - Chapter 73
Yue Xiuzhi clearly remembered that he had never seen this bottle before, but he felt a strong sense of familiarity.
The feelings of practitioners are generally not groundless, they may indicate the future, or they may hint at the past.
Due to the strong sense of familiarity, Yue Xiuzhi could not restrain himself from grabbing the small bottle the moment he saw it, and asked, “What is this?”
Pei Ming was still distracted, but suddenly Yue Xiuzhi’s hand reached into his neck and grabbed the bottle, he was slightly startled.
Then he reacted, looked at the bottle held by Yue Xiuzhi, and smiled slightly: “Sorry, I shouldn’t still be wearing it.”
This is Rong Jin’s ashes.
He put Rong Jin into the altar with his own hands, and finally put the ashes into the bottle with his own hands, and hung it around his neck for more than six hundred years.
If he hadn’t come to another world by accident and didn’t know the truth, this bottle would have been with him forever, or the end of time in this world.
When he knew that Yue Xiuzhi was Rong Jin, so Rong Jin was not dead, he shouldn’t be concerned about it.
But he had no intention of taking the bottle down at the time.
Because no matter whether Rong Jin is still alive or not, he died for him, and here are his ashes—these are all facts.
But even if he didn’t intend to take the bottle off at that time, he should have taken it off when Yue Xiuzhi came.
It’s just that he had been worrying about Yue Xiuzhi’s injury all the time, and suddenly understood his own mind, so he forgot about the bottle after going back and forth.
“…What is this?” Yue Xiuzhi continued to ask.
He felt that Pei Ming’s attitude at this time was very strange, coupled with his own sudden sense of guilt facing the bottle, he had some bad premonitions for no reason.
Pei Ming was silent for a while, but still told him the truth: “This is Rong Jin’s ashes.”
He suddenly felt that it would be better for Yue Xiuzhi to see it.
He raised his head and looked up at Yue Xiuzhi, with some inexplicable emotions in his phoenix eyes: “Do you know how happy I was when I passed the thunder disaster and walked out of the hall.”
“I can’t wait to go to the place where I sent someone to hide you before, and I can’t wait to tell you that I won! From now on, no one will harm you in the world, and from now on, I can protect you for the rest of my life.”
“But I haven’t reached that place, and I found you halfway… That was when I was the most timid and cowardly. I pray that I was wrong. I didn’t even dare to approach you.”
“But I still recognize you…even if you have white hair, even if your face is wrinkled, even if you are like a bone.”
The handsome **** told about his despair, but his expression was very calm, and even his tone was gentle and gentle: “This is like a joke. I became the devil emperor for you, but you died for me to become the devil emperor …died the moment I just won.”
“I sent you to the altar with my own hands, and held the ashes with my own hands, and put them in this bottle.”
“From then on, I forced myself not to think about you, but I was still reluctant to take this bottle off.”
Yue Xiuzhi never spoke. After Pei Ming finished speaking, the palace fell into a deadly silence.
His brain was having a hard time digesting that fact.
At this time, in fact, “seeing his own ashes” is a very informative and extremely weird and frightening thing. At this time, he also feels that it doesn’t matter too much.
For some reason, what has been pounding his brain and heart at this moment is actually a kind of intense guilt that seems to be torturing his soul.
He finally understood who was the real executioner and who was the real victim between him and Pei Ming.
In the past, his attitude towards Pei Ming was that he knew that Pei Ming was ignorant of the whole process. Pei Ming was not wrong, but he was forced to hurt himself.
But he also thought that Pei Ming had retaliated against him so ruthlessly, so the relationship between him and Pei Ming could be considered even to some extent.
Even he knew that he had actually cheated Pei Ming’s life. But he didn’t know until now what a shallow and self-righteous idea this is.
He was far from fully aware of his mistakes and the harm he had caused Pei Ming.
The harm he caused Pei Ming was irreversible and extremely cruel.
In the past, reason told him that although he acted as someone else to help Pei Ming, this could not redeem his fault, because these so-called “helps” were fundamentally “deceptions”.
But occasionally he couldn’t help but think, in fact, he still helped Pei Ming, and he didn’t owe Pei Ming too much.
However, now, seeing the bottle that Pei Ming wore around his neck for more than 600 years, and hearing Pei Ming’s calm but weeping words, that layer of self-righteous barriers was finally torn down.
How many **** and **** scars are contained in the short, fluffy sentence of “deceived Pei Ming’s life”?
How mournful should Pei Ming be when Rong Jin died, and how desperate should he be when Mingyue died?
Who can answer for Pei Ming, when he knows that these people are not dead yet, and these are actually just tasks that he has cultivated more and more, should he be happy that these close friends and loved ones are still alive, or should he be happy for the ones he once had? Mourning despair and anger?
Who can answer for him, when he knows that these so-called close friends and loved ones are the same person who tortured him for several years and whom he hates to the bone, how should he feel?
The more you practice, you think you are fair and objective, but in fact you are just a selfish ghost escaping from reality.
Suddenly, he thought about it, and suddenly burst into tears.
Uncontrollable tears fell from the corners of his eyes and splashed on the robe that Pei Ming just put on.
Pei Ming, who was half squatting and looking up at him, panicked for a moment.
He frantically wiped Yue Xiuzhi’s tears with his cuff, and the regret in his heart flooded his heart like a flood that broke a bank.
“Don’t cry… It’s all my fault. I’m not good. I mentioned this on purpose to make you feel sorry for me.” He didn’t wipe away Yue Xiuzhi’s tears, his tone was distressed and regretful.
Now he really wants to rush to the quarter of an hour and strangle himself who said these words to Yue Xiuzhi.
He thought at that time, since Yue Xiuzhi had seen the ashes, then he took the opportunity to complain, make Yue Xiuzhi feel a little guilty, and feel sorry for him, which is also a good way to attack his heart.
He made good calculations at that time, but he forgot how harsh Yue Xiuzhi was to himself.
When a bad thing happens, he will only keep looking for reasons from himself, keep blaming himself, and always regard himself as a saint who is omnipotent and has no desires or desires.
Seeing that Yue Xiuzhi couldn’t wipe away the tears that Yue Xiuzhi had been shedding, Pei Ming couldn’t help standing up, took Yue Xiuzhi who was sitting on the bed into his arms, patted him on the back, and couldn’t help but comfort him.
“Don’t cry, I’m at a big loss now. I wanted you to feel sorry for me, so you better give me a hug. Who knows that you are crying so sad now, and you want me to hug you.” Omniscient and omnipotent, in charge of reincarnation At this time, the gods who comforted the sweetheart were extremely clumsy.
What Pei Ming said was incoherent, Yue Xiuzhi knew that he wanted to comfort himself, worried and wanted to smile, but in the end he could only collapse completely.
“I’m sorry…Pei Ming, I’m sorry…” He cried until his voice became hoarse, and his eyes were even more swollen.
Pei Ming searched for something that would make Yue Xiuzhi happy: “Remember when I was ‘Jun Hua Chen’, you also told me about these things that happened between us?”
“That’s when I said to you, ‘I think he wouldn’t blame you if he knew’.”
“Actually, what I really want to tell you at that time is, don’t be too demanding on yourself. Anyone who is in your situation will not be able to do better than you.”
“If you didn’t do these things, you are worthy of me, but both spirit and demon realms will die because of this. You are worthy of me alone, but you are sorry for hundreds of millions of people. In this world, many times, there is no way to have the best of both worlds. “
“It’s okay, Xiuzhi, I don’t blame you, I know, you don’t feel better than me. It’s not your fault, it’s fate that put you in such a situation, you feel sorry for me, but who can forgive you?”
He patted Yue Xiuzhi’s back, pretending to be brisk and said: “If you continue to cry now, I will really blame you. It used to be fine, but now it makes me feel so distressed that I am going crazy.”
This was probably the most insignificant and hopeless moment in Yue Xiuzhi’s life. He raised his head, with his red and swollen eyes and tears all over his face, and said to Pei Ming with a half-crying smile, “You already know…you You know why I want to do ‘Yue Xiuzhi’ and ‘Rong Jin’, ‘Ming Yue’ and ‘Shi Ze’ again. You know why I want to hurt you and treat you well…”
Otherwise, Pei Ming wouldn’t have said, “If you didn’t do these things, you’d be worthy of me, but both spirit and demon worlds would perish because of this.”
“Pei Ming, you shouldn’t like me.” He said seriously, “You know, I don’t want to hurt you, but I have no choice but to treat you well.”
Pei Ming continued to pat Yue Xiuzhi on the back, and said to him: “Yes, I know everything, I know the system, I know your mission, and I know you don’t belong to this world.”
“But so what?” Pei Ming said.
“I admit that my feelings for you now largely stem from my feelings for Ming Yue, Shi Ze and Rong Jin.”
“However, the root cause of my falling in love with you is only you.”
“I used to think that I loved Mingyue, but now I realize that my friendship with Rong Jin is not pure friendship. I also like Rong Jin, but I don’t know it myself.”
“In my life, only you are the most special existence. I hate ‘Yue Xiuzhi’ to the bone, because I used to care; I was attracted by Rong Jin, but was blinded by ordinary concepts; I fell in love with Ming in just one day Yue, because among so many identities of yours, only Mingyue can make me fall in love openly.”
“But I’ve actually fallen, a long time ago.” He lowered his eyes, staring at Yue Xiuzhi’s eyes, “From the beginning to the end, there was only you.”
“But…” Yue Xiuzhi’s heart knot was half loosened, but still not completely loosened.
He felt that he was extremely ridiculous and shameful now. Mingming didn’t want Pei Ming to fall in love with him, but now she hoped to find an excuse to forgive herself from the reason why Pei Ming fell in love with her.
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