The Whole World Is My Crematorium - Chapter 61

The situation did not allow Xiao Yu case to think about others. In the memory, he cannot control his words and deeds, the memory cannot be changed, he can only say the same words and do the same things as the self in the memory. It was as if [All] who had disappeared for a long time had come back, and this feeling of being bound and suffocated was what he hated the most in his life.

Luckily it’s just a memory. Memories have no power, and he is never afraid of them, nor will he sink into them.

Xiao Yu’s case felt like a bystander, looking at another Xiao Yu’s case without any hesitation – the Xiao Yu’s case who still had expectations for Li Xianting and everything.

A series of inquiries in Xiao Yu’s case did not get an answer from Li Xianting, not even a perfunctory sentence of “How could Shizun not want you”. He asked about Xiao Yu’s case: “Why doesn’t Ayu want to recognize Xiao Du’s brother?”

Xiao Yukan pursed his lips and said, “He is the lord of Xing Tianzong, he doesn’t sound like a good person. If he recognizes the wrong person and I’m not his younger brother, then my ashes will be lifted up by him. “

Li Xianting laughed: “No.”

He didn’t think much about the Xiao Yu case at that time, but now he listened to it again, he only felt that Li Xianting’s “no” seemed to have a deep meaning – is it that Xiao Du will not admit the wrong person, or will he not lift his ashes?

Xiao Yu case bowed his head in silence. At that time, he was only seventeen years old, and he had not yet been sent to Xiao Du by Li Xianting, and he still had a vague sense of innocence when facing Li Xianting. Although [both] told him that Li Xianting was not trustworthy, but… but Li Xianting is his master, the master who raised him and taught him magic. When he was a child, he was bullied by his younger brother, and it was the master who held him in his arms and wiped his tears for him. How he can do it doesn’t matter at all.

Xiao Yukan raised his head, looked at Li Xianting with burning eyes, and said, “If Shizun must ask me to go, I will listen to Shizun’s words.”

Li Xianting smiled lightly, “Ayu is really good.”

“But I want a word from Master,” Xiao Yu said, “If Xiao Du treats me badly, will Master take me back?”

Li Xianting stretched out his hand to pull back the scattered hair on his temples for Xiao Yu’s case, his eyes were as gentle as water, “Yes.”

…

The sound of the piano sounded again, and the surrounding scene changed rapidly, Xiao Yu’s case could only see a large phantom. When the surroundings were calm again, he found himself carrying a bamboo hat and holding a fishing rod, sitting on the rocks by the stream. There was a straw basket at his feet, and a dozen live shrimps were jumping around in the straw basket.

Xiao Yu’s case came to mind. This was the day he left the division to go to Xing Tianzong.

The fishing rod swayed, Xiao Yu’s case waited patiently for a while, and was about to close the rod when a stone slammed into the water, causing bursts of spray. The river prawns under the water were disturbed and swam far away.

Xiao Yu didn’t look back, and said regretfully, “Junior brother scared my shrimp away.”

Mu Yingyang had a cold and handsome face, “Are you really going to punish Tianzong?”

Xiao Yu case slowly put away the fishing rod, “Hmm.”

Mu Ying sneered, and said coolly: “Yes, Xing Tianzong is located in the north, rich and talented, how can it be compared with the Xufu. You have a brother like Xiao Du, how can you still see me and me? Master.”

Xiao Yu’s case just pretended he didn’t hear Mu Yingyang’s yin and yang’s strange anger, picked up the draft basket, and said, “I’m going back.”

Mu Yingyang clenched his fists tightly, and when Xiao Yu’s case passed by him, he seemed to grab Xiao Yu’s arm involuntarily. “Xiao Yu’s case, the dog is not too poor. You are not as good as a dog if you want to leave because of a brother who suddenly appeared?”

Xiao Yu’s eyes narrowed suddenly, and his hand quietly came to the irrelevant Fengyue pinned to his waist. For a moment, Mu Yingyang thought that Xiao Yu’s case was going to attack him, and the strength of his hand increased a little bit.

He guessed right, Xiao Yu’s case really wanted to attack him, but his behavior was restricted by [all] again, the only thing he could do was to close his eyes and suppress his anger.

Going to Xing Tianzong is not all bad, at least he doesn’t have to endure Mu Yingyang anymore.

Xiao Yu’s case was endured again. He went to Shizun with the river shrimp, and wanted to ask Shizun to make him his favorite fried fresh shrimp cake for the last time before he went to Xing Tianzong.

He knocked on the master’s door, and the door opened quickly. It was not his master who opened the door, but a graceful woman he had never seen before.

“I am the guardian of Xing Tianzong,” the woman said. “On the order of the Lord, I will take the son to Xingtianzong to recognize his relatives.”

Xiao Yu’s case was stunned, “Where’s my master?”

“You mean Li Xianting? He went down the mountain for a long walk in the morning.”

Xiao Yu’s face changed, and he walked past the woman and walked into the house. In the past, Master Yunyou would take him and Mu Yingyang with him, and occasionally he would go down the mountain alone to greet them in advance. Master will not leave without saying goodbye, especially knowing that he is going to leave soon.

The master was not in the house, nor did he leave any letters. He went to look outside the house again, the study, the dining room… He searched the entire Xufu, but still did not see Li Xianting.

The woman waited impatiently and urged him to pack up and go with her. He said, “Does Master not know that I am leaving today?”

“How is it possible,” the woman sneered, “he asked the Lord to pick you up today.”

Xiao Yu’s chest was tight and he said softly, “Really?”

Xiao Yu’s case is gone. He threw all the prawns he had fished for half a day back into the stream, packed up two pieces of clothes he often wore, and said to the woman, “Let’s go.”

When he left the division, he suddenly heard someone calling him: “—Senior brother!”

He paused, but he didn’t look back.

…

The scene changes again. He had already arrived at Xing Tianzong, and was sitting with Xiao Du at a table of delicious food. A thin young man stood in front of them, tremblingly took out a jade pendant from his arms, and said, “I-I’m here to find my brother.”

Xiao Du asked him, “Do you have anything to say?”

“Can I go back to the teacher’s door?”

“No,” Xiao Du said, “you are still useful.”

…

He was still in Xing Tianzong, and Xiao Du pinched his cheek fiercely. Xiao Du’s eyes were gloomy, and he firmly imprisoned him in his hands, and said coldly: “So no matter how much I try to do for you, it’s all in vain. I understand, Ayu. But you know, as long as I want it things, never missed.”

“Because I like Ayu and want to spoil Ayu forever.”

Jiuyinluo was forcibly pushed into his body, unscrupulously harassing him in his golden elixir. He finally couldn’t bear it any longer and did something he had planned for a long time.

Xiao Du vomited a mouthful of blood and fell in front of him. He looked down at Xiao Du condescendingly, and watched the light in his pupils fade little by little.

“Ayu, I can’t protect you from now on.”

“Brother is gone.”

…

He woke up on the bed of Biluozhai in Yunjiange, Gu Louyin was sitting beside him, blue silk and white clothes, with a deep shadow in his eyes.

The night before Xiao Yu’s case was identified by Lu Yueyao as the murderer who poisoned Lin Wulian. He was able to sleep because he believed in Gu Louyin, and Gu Louyin also believed in him. He thought Gu Louyin would help him wash away. injustice.

“You’re not guarding your senior brother, why are you here with me?” Xiao Yu said, “Could it be that you found the murderer who attacked your senior brother? So fast?!”

Gu Louyin said softly, “I need your blood. Senior brother has been poisoned, and only the femme fatale can save him. And in your blood, there are a lot of femme fatales.”

“One cup at a time, three times a day, for… one month.”

Xiao Yukan smiled, “Why don’t you just kill me and let me bleed, it’s not more convenient.”

“You can’t die.” Gu Louyin’s voice was hoarse and repeated these four words, “You can’t die.”

Xiao Yu’s case looked into Gu Louyin’s eyes, and a sense of disobedience suddenly rose in his heart.

Gu, Lou, Yin… Black-haired, Gu Louyin wearing Yunjinge’s school uniform…?

No, this is not Gu Louyin, the current Gu Louyin is not like this, all this is an attempt to destroy the memories of his mind. He remembered that he and Gu Louyin came to Yunjian Pavilion to steal Qingyan, and they encountered Xuanlezong’s piano sound formation on the way, and both fell into memory. At first, he was able to keep his sanity and sobriety, but as the old events kept repeating, he seemed to have relived the first half of his involuntary life. If it wasn’t for Gu Louyin’s sudden appearance, he would almost have been trapped in his memories. Xuan Lezong’s formation should not be underestimated, he was careless.

Later, Xiao Yukan saw the picture of himself bleeding for ten days, and saw that he was slender and skinny, and he couldn’t find any clothes that fit. He stabilized his mind and kept reminding himself that he was not in this world. He has been thinking about Gu Louyin in this world and comparing it with the Gu Louyin in his memory, so that his mind will not be bewitched by the sound of the piano.

If the role of the piano really is to push the unbearable memories to the front, then it is almost over. He is open-minded by nature, and there are only a few people or things that can make him sad and disappointed. He wants to see what else the sound of the piano can make him see.

The last bloodletting of Xiao Yu’s case, the blood fell into the bowl, and the dazzling bright red kept magnifying in front of his eyes, and the surrounding things seemed to be covered with a red mist. When the fog dissipated, he left Dongguan Mountain and stood in a quiet courtyard.

Xiao Yu case frowned. He had no impression of this yard, and it seemed that the scenery was in Yunjian Pavilion.

There is a sweet-scented osmanthus tree in the courtyard. It is autumn. The sweet-scented sweet-scented osmanthus blooms brilliantly and the fragrance is overflowing. A young man dressed in white stepped into the hospital, carrying a long sword that looked about the same height as him.

This is Gu Louyin at the age of six. How could Gu Louyin as a child appear in his memory? Could it be that he has left his memory and came to Gu Louyin’s memory?

Xiao Yukan followed the little boy and watched him knock on the door, “Mother, it’s me.”

There was no response from the door. Xiao Gu Louyin waited for a long time, and seemed a little disappointed. He wanted to leave, but he was really reluctant. After hesitating again and again, he stood on tiptoe and tried to push the door.

The door slowly opened, and when he saw the scene inside, Xiao Yu couldn’t help but ran forward, trying to block Xiao Gu Louyin’s eyes.

His hand passed through Xiao Gu Louyin’s face. The little boy stayed where he was, eyes wide open, watching the embroidered shoes on his mother’s feet swaying gently in front of his eyes.

Mrs. Gu committed suicide, and the first to discover her body was her only child.

…

In the next memory, the little boy grew up.

This is in a room. There is a screen in the house, and on the bed behind the screen lies the dying Lin Wulian. Gu Hang sat on the side of the bed, his face was extremely gloomy.

Han Kuo on the side said: “I made a presumptive proposition to ask the pavilion master to leave the customs, and hope the pavilion owner forgives my sins.”

“You did nothing wrong.” Gu Hang said solemnly, “You just said that to save Wu Lian, can human blood be used as medicine?”

“Yes. If there is no femme fatale, you can only use that person’s blood to detoxify.”

“Father,” Gu Louyin’s tone was a little eager, “Xiao Yu’s case is not the one who poisoned senior brother. He has kindness in Yunjian Pavilion, how can Yunjian Pavilion repay his kindness and revenge?”

Gu Hang turned a deaf ear and asked Han Kuo, “How long will it take?”

“January.”

“Is there a faster way?”

Han Kuo hesitated for a moment, then said: “Back to the pavilion master, besides using blood as medicine, indeed… there is another faster way.”

“Say.”

“Cut your heart out and take the Gu.”

Gu Hang glanced at Gu Louyin and said lightly, “Then let’s cut it.”

Gu Louyin’s jade face completely lost its blood. He looked at the two elders in disbelief, as if he knew them for the first time in his life.

Han Kuo seemed unbearable and said, “Pavilion Master, Xiao Yu’s case is the savior of the young pavilion master. We should use his blood first. If we can’t find a femme fatale, then… not too late.”

“No.” Gu Louyin’s voice trembled slightly, “Whether it’s blood or life, it’s his own. You can’t…”

Gu Hang interrupted coldly: “I can.”

Gu Louyin was stunned.

“Tomorrow I want to see his blood, or the Gu from his heart.” Gu Hang couldn’t help saying, “You choose.”

…

Xiao Yucheng couldn’t help but smile. It was so, it was so. He had learned a few things from other people’s words in the past, and he never thought that he would be able to witness it again with his own eyes.

Gu Hang asked Gu Lou to recite the choice, and Gu Lou recited the choice, so he didn’t need to see what happened next.

The scene changed, this Gu Louyin’s memory, Xiao Yu’s case also remembered. Not only will you remember it, but it will last a lifetime.

This was a spring day two years ago. He was wearing the wedding dress that Gu Louyin personally selected for him and jumped off the cliff on the East View. It can be said that that day was the happiest day of his first half of his life. He was ecstatic about his hard-won freedom, and he couldn’t wait to run to his new life without ever looking back. He didn’t know the reaction of others when they saw him “seeking death”, nor did he know that his happiest memory became a nightmare that Gu Louyin could never get out of.

He saw Gu Louyin just like when he saw the corpse of his mother hanged himself, he stayed on the spot motionless, and was stabbed in the chest by a sword from a disciple of Yunjiange. He saw blood soaking Gu Louyin’s wedding clothes, and saw him push Lin Wulian and Lu Yueyao away, and ran to the cliff desperately, only to be held back by more disciples. He struggled to take two steps, and finally supported the ground with frost and slowly knelt down.

Xiao Yu’s case looked away, he didn’t want to see Gu Louyin, who was desperate – he didn’t like it.

The noise gradually dissipated, and the figures began to blur. Xiao Yu’s case thought they were going to the next memory, but what unfolded in front of him was the scene just now – he was galloping in the woods in his wedding dress, Gu Louyin watched him jump off the cliff and was injured and captured…

Time and time again, this memory kept repeating, as if it would never end, trapping Gu Louyin in it, causing him to suffer the pain of scorching his heart and bones forever, and he could not stop for a moment.

I don’t know how many reincarnations it has gone through, Xiao Yu’s case is already burning with anxiety. Could it be that Gu Louyin really wants to be trapped in this memory for the rest of his life? Is this what Gu Hang specially prepared for Gu Louyin, Gu Louyin’s real…heart demon.

Xiao Yu’s case couldn’t bear it any longer, knowing that this was in his memory and knowing that Gu Louyin couldn’t hear anything, he still shouted his name: “Gu Louyin!”

Gu Louyin, who was besieged by the disciples of Yunjian Pavilion, flashed a ray of clarity in his eyes, and he pulled out the frost and cold suddenly, and the powerful sword qi sent all the fellow disciples surrounding him flying.

Xiao Yu’s case was a little at ease. It seemed that Gu Louyin was about to break through, and they should be able to leave here soon.

After solving the disciples of Yunjian Pavilion, Gu Louyin flew to the cliff without any hesitation, and firmly embraced the “Xiao Yu case” that was about to fall off the cliff.

They were wearing the same red dress, the blue silk was entangled in the wind, and they were equally embarrassed, but they were still a breathtakingly beautiful pair.

“Caught you.” Gu Louyin held the “Xiao Yu case” and trembled.

…

The sound of the piano stopped abruptly, and the memory faded like a tide. Xiao Yukan opened his eyes again, he was still in the secret passage of Yunjian Pavilion, Gu Louyin knelt on one knee only a few steps away from him, panting slightly, looking down at his hands, Xiao Yukan Can’t see his expression.

Xiao Yukan walked behind Gu Louyin and put his hand on his shoulder.

“It’s alright,” Xiao Yukan said softly, “Gu Louyin, it’s alright.”