The World Without My Sister Who Everyone Loved - Chapter 9

Whatever is the Miss thinking?

‘I’m sleepy….’

Sienna kept feeling sleepy.

That’s odd. Were you supposed to sleep this much?

I tried to recall my childhood, but all I could remember was being suddenly dragged into the mess and panicked and scared about everything.

‘Well, they say children are supposed to sleep a lot… I guess.’

Anyway, as I was sleepy, the speed of chewing food naturally slowed down.  Sienna ate slowly with the momentum to melt a bite of an omelette and eat it.

Eventually, Mrs. Deborah surrendered.

“Would you like to stop eating it?”

“Yes please.”

The head maid ordered the servant to eat as much as the leftover and clean up afterwards.

“Wake up nicely.”

‘Milk.’

Sienna gently touched the head maid and laid on the bed she had previously touched the night before.

Even when she was sleepy, she still felt a little resistant the moment I laid on Loreina’s bed, but I didn’t show it.

“Go to sleep.”

“…..”

Sienna seemed to have fallen asleep in an instant, as she was restless without a big moon to shine through the window.

“Keep your eyes open.”

“Okay, ma’am.”

The same thing should not happen earlier, so the head maid left the room leaving the maid behind.

The maid kept her head straight at first, but…

Quietly.

Seeing the child sleeping well made the maid wonder what all this was about.

‘Oh, my God, I’m not a babysitter, and I’m protecting a child I don’t know if I carry you on my back you’ll just weigh me down.’

As I was looking at the child who was sleeping well in a soft chair, I slowly started to fall asleep just by looking on her eyelids.

…after a while,

Sienna opened her eyes.

‘And another nightmare.’

This time again, Loreina was sarcastic, asking if playing with a girl was fun.

‘I think I’ll keep having nightmares if I fall asleep in this bed.’

I noticed that the maid watching her was completely hungry and was even snoring through her small nose.

“…… ”

Sienna silenced the sound of her feet and snuck into the little bedroom.

There was an attic above which luggage was stored, so it was a room with a low floor height. The furniture included a small bed, a table, and a washbasin.

“Haa.”

It was literally a small room, but Sienna was finally comfortable.

Is it because she used this room more often than her own when she was on good terms with Loreina and so unilaterally believed that we were close?

‘Reminds me of bad memories.’

When she believed that she was deceiving others by stealing Loreina’s mana, Sienna steadily mastered various cultivations.

She practiced to bleed and bend her fingers to learn graceful handwriting, write a letter for Loreina, and even learn to braid her hair and sew a handkerchief to take on the role of Loreina’s maid.

“You don’t seem to know this subject well, right?”

 “Hey, I use it all the time!  When Loreina Young-ae becomes the grand duchess, she will ask me to make her a maid!”

“Oh my God, if you are going to be a maid of the Grand Duchess, you should at least be a lady who is more than a self-sufficient writer, right?”

It didn’t matter what people misunderstood.  Sienna returned from her outings and did her best to brush Reina’s golden hair by pouring out her joyful things.

“I wish Sienna could have come with me.” 

“Thanks to you, I rested well at home.” 

“Well, Sienna’s quiet and shy. It would have been uncomfortable if I went. Everyone.”

When you hear something that is unexpected, your heart aches as if you were stabbed by a needle.

Sienna laughed vaguely and swallowed her inside. Loreina didn’t seem to notice.

“But I’m so happy to have Sienna.”

The small disappointment melted away with just a few words.

“Would you like to sleep with me tonight, Sienna?”

“Yes, I’d love to.” 

Somehow, Sienna thought Loreina was the only one.

The only person who is willing to accept Sienna’s humble efforts, allowing her to be called an elder sister.

A grateful person who helped me not to be kicked out of this house by handing out a piece of mana.

When I was next to Loreina, I felt like I was of any help to the world.

…weird. Thank you. I’m sure you’re grateful. Sometimes I wanted to run to the lake, far outside the mansion’s fence, or farther away.

If I could do it, I wouldn’t survive through the ruins, terrible monsters infested the border….

‘…Do you want to disappear?’

It was unknown.

I thought so at the time.

‘I was naive.’

At the time, Loreina’s word “let’s sleep together” meant Siena was going to grow up in this room.

The more I thought about it, the more she didn’t notice that Loreina hated her, and thought she was great.

When Loreina comes to the mansion’s ground half a year later, what would she think when she sees Sienna, who was currently occupying the cradle of the moon, which originally should be hers?

‘…I hate to think about it.’

Sienna curled up even more on her little bed.

Then she fell asleep again sometime later.

Fortunately, I didn’t have nightmares in that familiar room.

* * *

Fortunately for Sienna, shortly afterwards, the Grand Duke launched a punitive operation with an appearance at the capital.

Ashiel returned to the academy, and Michael did not show any interest in Sienna.

It was fortunate that Michael was at least the same as he was in her memory.

‘The problem is that all other people are acting weird….’

Representatively, there was Mrs. Deborah.

In the past, Mrs. Deborah regarded Loreina as an ideal Grand Duchess, and she didn’t say much about Sienna, She didn’t dare to.

She said, “I can’t help it if Loreina Young-ae will have her by her side, but I won’t sit down if she’s acting or being presumptuous.”

She was a maid who used to give this kind of warning whenever she had the chance.

Sienna believed Mrs. Deborah would hate her again this time, I’d didn’t doubt it.

‘No, I don’t think you like me very much right now, but…’

However, it would be too blunt to say “I don’t like her.”

“Lady, you’re in here again.”

“Mrs. Deborah.”

Especially since She’s visiting me, who is stuck in the small maid’s bedroom.

“I’m…”

“Stop. I’ve heard that you’re comfortable staying in your room. I’ve already told you, right?

The head maid who raised her glasses looked much stricter than usual.

“You’d better spend less time in that room and get used to your position here.”

“That’s….”

There’s no need to get used to it because it’s not my place.

It was only a pity that I could not be honest.

“You are lacking in effort. Come on.”

“Well…  .”

Due to repeated conversations, Sienna came out of the comfortable room as as if she were a snail’s shell.

‘This is definitely weird.’

Sienna thought that Mrs. Deborah would be the antagonist and go stop her a few times and then let her do whatever she wanted.

Or take a more active step forward and suggest, ‘Since you’re not getting used to it, so we should give you a simpler room instead of the cradle of the moon.

‘I didn’t expect this to happen.’

At this point in the past, the problem was that I couldn’t compare Mrs. Deborah’s past attitude because I couldn’t remember well.

‘…maybe Mrs. Deborah is more faithful to the orders of the Grand Duke than I thought.’

There’s something uncomfortable about it, but Sienna didn’t want to dig deep.

So I memorized a magic spell once again.

‘Well, these people are acting weird right now, but whatever the reason is, it’s all going to be over when Loreina comes.’

You just have to endure up to half a year.

Before that, you might be disappointed in me and stop bothering me.

Let’s not think too deeply.

The one who thinks deeply always ends up with losses.

“Whoa.”

My mind calmed down again.

But as soon as Sienna finished her meal, Mrs. Deborah began to rush her with a disapproving face, proving that such a wish was far from being realized.

“Are you going to stay in the room doing nothing else?”

“It’s not like I’m doing nothing…”

Sienna read her with a clumsy smile. I’ve read thousands of books, but Mrs.Deborah was not in the mood to leave this time,

“You’re planning on going to sleep in that windowless bedroom again aren’t you.”

“It’s comfortable there….”

“If you’re constantly comfortable in that humble place, you’ll have to accept it as an insult to the Nacht Duchy.”

“What?”

By the time the conversation reached that point, Sienna thought this was absurd.