They Regretted it After Their Hearts Turned to Ashes - Chapter 5

Sometimes, Luo Zhi is actually curious.

Whether you are a character with a predetermined destiny in the story, no matter what you do or do, you can never change the established trajectory.

Or he did something extremely sinful in his previous life and owed everyone, so he will be punished and repaid in this life.

Otherwise, how can a person live like this?

If nothing is wrong, why is it that everyone you meet hates him, and he wants to disappear soon?

…

“Little citrus?”

Ren Chenbai held his arm: “It doesn’t matter, right?”

Luo Zhi lowered his gaze.

He calmed down, pressed down suddenly, and looked at Ren Chen’s hand covering his arm in white.

That long and strong hand stopped him cleanly, and the shirt lined with blood and dust was even more ugly and dirty to the extreme.

…Until now, Ren Chenbai didn’t know that Luo Zhi saw what happened that day.

The day after the dim sum was thrown away, Ren Chenbai still came to visit him.

Ren Chenbai has always taken good care of Luo Zhi, brought him comic books and game cassettes, and told him about the outside world. Wen Run’s eyebrows seemed to be naturally calm and tolerant.

Ren Chenbai stretched out his hand, touched his head gently, and told him that the dim sum was delicious.

He couldn’t help but asked about the details of the stuffing. Those gentle eyes showed a little confusion and embarrassment, fell into a short silence for a few seconds, and then turned the topic away as if nothing had happened.

…

Whether it’s self-deception, or drinking poison to quench thirst, Luo Zhi instinctively didn’t want to expose Ren Chenbai.

After all, even if it is acting, this is one of the few people in the world who is willing to talk to him well.

As long as he no longer has contact with Ren Chenbai on any occasion, Luo Zhi can deceive himself by his ability, and let himself only remember the days when he was in the Ren family that seemed like a dream.

“I saw the hot search… a little worried.”

Ren Chenbai said: “Take you home to live for a while to avoid the limelight.”

Luo Zhi shook his head.

I don’t know if he caught a cold or not, but it was as if someone had stuffed a piece of pig iron in his brain at the moment.

It wasn’t a sharp stinging pain, it was a chaotic pain mixed with dizziness, nausea and loss of consciousness, and even the temples were throbbing, and a certain blood vessel hidden underneath looked like Not necessarily when it will explode.

Luo Zhi can go anywhere. He still has some money, staying in a hotel for a period of time, renting a house, or leaving the local area to relax, all are good plans.

Only it can’t be the Ren family.

He didn’t want anything more embarrassing to happen in the Ren family.

For Luo Zhi, this is a rare place where there is still warmth and kindness for him, and he does not want to cover this warmth with new memories.

“Brother Chenbai, thank you.” Luo Zhi said, “I don’t want to go.”

Only now did he realize that he might have a fever, or it might have been a heat stroke or something else. In short, his arms and body were severely weakened, and he couldn’t break Ren Chenbai’s hand no matter what.

Luo Zhi was forcibly pulled, and lowered his head slightly to one side. He found that his breath was scalding hot, his throat hurt, and his voice became hoarse.

“I would be sad to go. And I have somewhere to go.”

Luo Zhi slowed down and let his vocal cords continue to pronounce: “I’ve been in some trouble these days, but it’s not so hard that I can’t go on…”

“How can it be done then?” Ren Chenbai asked softly beside his ear.

It was Luo Zhi’s ear on the injured side. Most of the time, this half of the ear couldn’t hear things clearly, but these words suddenly penetrated into the eardrum clearly, and continued to penetrate into him with a biting cold air. in the mind.

Luo Zhi raised his head a little dazedly.

Ren Chenbai didn’t seem to expect that he would hear it. Wen Lang’s eyebrows froze for a moment, and then calmly eased: “…It’s so uncomfortable to live outside, and your health is not good. Don’t be angry, come back with me.”

His tone was very natural, as if “how can I do it?” was not a questioning of “life is not too hard to go on”, but an ordinary prefix for the following sentences.

As if in that inadvertent moment, the terrifying chill with icicles was just an illusion that Luo Zhi had burned himself into confusion.

Maybe it’s just an illusion.

If it is said to be rejected by the Luo family, it can still be traced back to the source and connected to the past. After being bombarded by the whole network, he could also find Jian Huaiyi, the pusher who was hiding in the shadows… At least Luo Zhi couldn’t think of what he did to provoke Ren Chenbai.

He has always been obedient in the Ren family, neither causing trouble nor making trouble, and is almost an invisible and transparent person.

It’s too busy, so I just accompany Ren Chenbai’s mother to bake cakes and snacks, or find a chance to get into the study and read a book in it for a day.

There is no conflict in the business of the Luo family and the Ren family. Ren Chenbai is the only heir of the Ren family, and the whole person is the standard negative control group of those rambunctious second-generation ancestors.

Ren Chenbai is the best of their generation. He is calm and decisive in the business, gentle, mature and reliable in private. Even Luo Jun cannot help being compared to him from time to time.

There is no need for such a proud person to be like Jian Huaiyi who is always worried about the stolen things and always worried that everything will be taken away again, so he always has to stay with Luo Zhi endlessly.

Luo Zhi tried to draw his arm back twice.

Ren Chenbai still held him tightly.

That strength is not strong, but it is also irresistible, at least now Luo Zhi does not have enough physical strength to resist.

Ren Chenbai lowered his head slightly, his dark eyes looked at Luo Zhi, and Luo Zhi’s shadow at the moment poured out of his eyes.

During this period of time, there were already many people nearby.

Even if nothing else, Luo Zhi’s clothes that he hasn’t had time to change are already eye-catching enough in the mall.

After all, it is also a negative typical on the cusp of the storm, and it didn’t take long for someone to recognize Luo Zhi’s face. The hostility in reality is not as daring to love, dare to hate, and rejoice in enmity like on the Internet. At least no one has rushed up to give Luo Zhi a blow. At most, they just pointed and whispered with contempt.

But it doesn’t feel good either.

Like what? It was like a thin thread that was tangled up one after another, digging into people’s skin, and then seeping into the flesh and blood little by little.

It doesn’t hurt to say that it hurts, but that kind of alienated and ridiculed eyes will be engraved in the memory that I didn’t even notice.

…

Next, when you encounter any gaze that is cast over, and any passerby who looks over, this feeling will jump out in an instant.

Ren Chenbai’s mother kept a lot of psychology books in the study. Luo Zhi flipped through a few of them. He remembered that he couldn’t focus on the surroundings at this time, so he shook his already burned head. , raised his eyes to look at the figure in front of him.

“Brother Chenbai, I’m not feeling well.” Luo Zhi said, “I want to go to the hospital.”

Luo Zhi’s voice was about to burn hoarse, and he didn’t know if he had spoken out: “Let me go first, wait until you turn back…”

Ren Chenbai let go of his hand and stepped back with his arms in his arms.

Luo Zhi was stunned for a moment, his vision was starting to be a little blurry at this moment, like a layer of light white fog, but he could still see the arm that Ren Chen was holding was none of his business.

There are already many people pointing fingers around, but Ren Chenbai obviously has no intention of dealing with him.

… When this idea appeared, Luo Zhi even laughed at himself.

He always had unrealistic fantasies about the people and things around him. Among these fantasies, the most self-righteous and brazen part is probably all about Ren Chenbai.

Luo Zhi also didn’t know his attitude towards Ren Chenbai.

Maybe it’s an older, reliable friend that I’ve relied on since I was a child, maybe it’s the best standard I want to catch up with, or maybe it’s the only remaining obsession about “home”.

He wisely didn’t raise his head, gave up checking the other’s eyes, and just walked towards the elevator step by step while holding the railing.

Ren Chenbai stood behind him, watching Luo Zhi stagger down the escalator.

Luo Zhi subconsciously groped and walked slowly, through the crowd, and disappeared outside the mall.

…

Luo Zhi walked to the parking lot.

He was so uncomfortable that he couldn’t stand, and after trying several times, he couldn’t open the door, and then he remembered that it was not unlocked. He finally found the key from his pocket, but his trembling fingers couldn’t bear the last bit of strength.

The keys fell from his fingers and slid under the car.

Luo Zhi squatted down.

Fever is also a little good.

The hot chaos swallowed all emotions, and he didn’t even have any irritability because of this series of unhappiness, but just leaned down and tried to reach for it.

The key was just a few centimeters further than his fingers could reach.

Luo Zhi tried patiently, little by little, he curled up in the shadows, his hot forehead pressed against the cold metal of the car body, the coldness of the garage hooked the coolness in his bones and shivered and fled.

A hand picked up the key for him.

Ren Chenbai wrapped his arms around Luo Zhi and let him rest on his shoulders. He fished out the bunch of keys with his right hand and handed it to Luo Zhi.

His movements and strength were so gentle that Luo Zhi almost recalled in a trance that when they were young, Ren Chenbai hugged himself, who had suffered from heat stroke outside, and fed him iced mung bean soup with white sugar little by little.

…memories and tenderness are all on point.

Ren Chenbai handed him the key and stepped back, waiting for Luo Zhi’s next step.

Luo Zhi took a little extra time to realize that the subtext of this action was “if you don’t go back with me, then find a way by yourself, I won’t care about you”.

Of course you can’t drive in this state.

In fact, you shouldn’t come to the parking lot, you should hit a car directly on the side of the road. But he really couldn’t turn his head, he just instinctively wanted to stay as far away as possible from the place just now.

Luo Zhi raised his deep eyebrows soaked in cold sweat, he bent his eyes, and smiled at Ren Chenbai.

Luo Zhi held the station steady and thanked him softly.

For some unknown reason, Ren Chenbai stood in front of him and stared blankly at him for a moment.

Luo Zhi didn’t let go of this gap. He didn’t care whether he was embarrassed or not. He pressed the key to unlock it, opened the door and used the ground to get in, and then quickly closed the door.

Luo Zhi locked the car door and window, waved at Ren Chenbai, who was stunned with anger hidden in his eyes, and put down the visor.

After doing this, he also used up the last bit of his strength.

Luo Zhi’s field of vision was completely dark, and he didn’t even have time to adjust to a more comfortable posture, and his body was quietly soft on the steering wheel.