To Help You Understand - Chapter 16

It wasn’t that Winter Blooming didn’t want children. He was rather a man with a big attachment to his family.

Statistically, mixed-race members of the Carnic clan, who inherited only one of the silver hair and gray eyes, were only able to conceive with opposite sex of the blood of the same Carnic clan.

It was the same when he asked Hayel to reinvestigate the case. The Carnic clan, who had both silver hair and gray eyes, had children no matter who they met, not a single child was born between those with grey eyes and the bloodless opposite sex of the Carnic clan.

The Carnic clan had previously lived in the far north of other continents. He only guessed that this might have happened because it was very closed geographically and had lived without meeting outsiders for a long time.

It’s been quite a long time since strangers settled in LaCrown, so even if there was discrimination, it has been mixed into many families.
However, if the world were to choose a woman who never had the blood of the Canic clan, it was definitely his wife, Violet.

The pure-blooded princess of the LaCrown.

In other words, she must have been safe from this dirty blood, as there would be no humble stranger existing in her veins.

The clear evidence was that in the past three years, no children were born without a single contraceptive.

With the story of divorce coming out, Winter was even more unwilling to inform his wife about this.

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Lulu rushed into the bedroom and spoke as Violet repeatedly brushed with a nervous face.

“Oh, my little lady! Please do something with the Lord. He’s been sitting like that from 6 o’clock and making everyone nervous, it’s really crazy”

“Why is he suddenly doing things that he doesn’t do?”

Violet also asked while brushing, saying she didn’t know what to do, opening the door of the dress room, which was attached to the small bedroom.

“Would you like to change and go out?”

“I think I’m going to get mad, so I’ll just go out.”

“Bless you, little lady…….”

The staff were exhausted just by being attached to the hotel all the time. Since yesterday, they have been sitting in the drawing room of Violet’s room doing nothing and waiting with a crumpled expression, so everyone felt as if their blood was running dry.

Lulu hurriedly brought a silk gown over to her.

Violet put on the gown and left the bedroom and sat opposite Winter.

Violet, who saw Winter inhaling the tea’s scent with a bent finger on the handle, bending her index finger along him and said.

“You shouldn’t hang your finger on the hook like that.”

“Then what’s this handle for?”

Then, Violet grabbed the outside of the handle with her natural hand gesture.

“Don’t hold it up like this, but hold it like this.”

“Did I tell you? The nobles have a knack for picking easy things out and making them difficult.”

“I’ve never heard of it before.”

It was a relief that Violet told him. While Winter was practicing with an expression that he didn’t understand, Lulu brought a meal. Violet opened her mouth after Lulu left.

“What’s going on here?”

“You told me to talk to you all the time. I just wanted to hear what you wanted to talk about. I want to hear it even if it’s very late.”

“Why are you coming out so crooked when you’re asking me to do it now?”

“If we hadn’t changed our bodies, we wouldn’t have had a chance to talk in the first place.”

“I was going to take a break anyway.”

“There’s a thing called timing in the world.”

Winter clicked his tongue. Then he poured sugar into the tea, stirred it with a teaspoon, and asked.

“What’s the use of changing bodies?”

“I won’t tell you. I need a weapon, too.”

Violet talked as if nothing was wrong and took a sip of tea. Then she put down her glass and asked.

“Why do you hate children?”

“Later. I’ll tell you when your mind for divorce disappears.”

“I think I’ll ever get a divorce even if I have a child.”

When Violet came out negative all the time, Winter said something that he had been holding back.

“I don’t think I’d have a baby if I slept like this in the first place.”

This time, Violet’s face was frowned.

“What do you mean? Is there a problem?”

“I don’t know what your family taught you, but you can’t take off your clothes, you can’t make noise, don’t even touch it. Do you think that makes sense? Did they cheat on an innocent girl?”

“What’s that……”

Violet only looked at Winter as she was so stunned that she couldn’t speak.

“I don’t think the Blooming family is much different?”

“My family didn’t teach me much about sleeping in the first place.”

“Are you insulting the Lawrence family?”

“Oh, is that so? I’m sorry about that.”

‘Goddamn, if she wasn’t pretty…….’

If he had known about the Lawrence family’s sex education in advance, Winter wouldn’t have even tried this marriage in the first place. Not only did she not take off all her clothes in bed, but he couldn’t touch her legs as much as he liked, let alone her chest or buttocks.

But the eyes that look up at him in bed, those blue diamond-like eyes that he wanted to look straight at from the moment he first saw her at the wedding hall, and the amazing pink lips that were a little open. Looking at his wife’s clear, transparent, and yet strong face, the patience that Winter thought he had completely disappeared from his life came back.

He thought it was not so bad to marry her, even though her title was lost, her wealth was lost, she couldn’t have children, and sleeping with her was like torture.

Winter couldn’t stand the injustice when her face was filled with disapproval.

“Don’t act like a sexual devotee if you can’t do that. I’ll try my best to keep my body out of touch this month anyway. From my point of view, it’s no longer a sexual desire.”

“Let’s talk about this next time.”

“I will, but I really want you to do it next time.”

Violet didn’t understand why Winter was so upset, but she nodded. She opened her mouth again.

“Actually, I’ve been curious about something. I wanted to ask you.”

“Yeah, we’re finally having some conversation now.”

However, Violet, who said she wanted to know something, remained silent for a long time. Winter said as if he was frustrated.

“Why, how hard is it for you to say?”

“What I’m curious about is.”

Her faded voice touched Winter. Violet looked at the teacup and opened her mouth again.

“So I’m like that to you, right? You bought it at a high price, but you can’t use it.”

“……What?”

A mis-purchase. When you brought it home, it didn’t fit your house, so it looks like an antique in the warehouse. You get angry every time you see it, but it’s a waste of money to throw it away, so you can’t throw it away.

“Even I don’t think I can throw it away easily. So I always felt sorry for you. Then what will I be? What should I really do when I’m useless and still can’t be abandoned……”

Violet was in a funny and pathetic situation.

She spent most of her time in her room and bedroom on the fifth floor for three years.

She became a 24 million Lakhne mis-purchased item stuck in the corner and lived as if it were still, dead, or as an ornament. But sometimes, when a person finds it, he gets angry and kicks it with his foot.

Such three years.

So that was the most important thing she wanted to say to her husband.

What meaning do I have to live with in the future?

What do you want me to do when you brought me wrong?

And after three years of not being able to ask such a question, all she wants now is to give up quickly and be thrown away because she’s tired.

“So what I’m curious about is, when will you abandon me? I hope you find your love, too. When will that be?”

There was silence at the end of her calm voice. Only the sound of the summer wind filled the space for a while. A long time later, Winter asked.

“Are you done talking?”

“To a certain extent.”

“It’s sarcastic.”

“…….”

Winter didn’t understand Violet’s words at all. He was desperate. He gave the most efficient love he could give.

He couldn’t understand a bit why he had to hear this from his wife.

“……I’m going back.”

He tried to hide his grim expression.

Winter had to break the rigid stereotype at the age of twenty-seven years old because he thought what his wife needed might not be money. He spoke in a low voice.

“I have no intention of abandoning you, and you must not leave me. I don’t know what the problem is, but if you feel that way, I’ll try to find a solution.”

“What are you trying to do?”

When asked by her still uncooperative question, Winter said with his hands wrapped around his face to see if he was troubled.

“If I knew that, would I have come all the way here? I can only solve it with money. I’ve been like that all my life.”

“How much money do you have that you always settle everything with money?”

When she said something she didn’t know, Winter lowered his hand, which he had held around his face, and looked at his wife as if he was full of energy.

“You’re not interested in me at all.”

“It’s not true.”

“Don’t be ridiculous—what’s left of me if you take my fortune away.”

Winter grumbled and grabbed Violet’s hand and dragged her to the window.

The high-rise windows clearly showed parts of the royal castle and even the island at the mouth of the Leckl River. Winter grabbed Violet’s hand with his big hand, put his finger under her index finger, and drew a horizontal line in the center of the window.

“From here to here.”

“Yes.”

“It’s mine.”

Violet paused and turned her head to see Winter. At that moment, the faces of the two were close, and Violet stepped back surprised.

Looking at her empty eyes earlier, and seeing her eyes filled with embarrassment now made Winter feel a little better.

He grabbed Violet’s hand tightly as she tried to get out of his hand. Violet thought Winter’s gray eyes staring at her were like a sharp beast.

“You’re telling me that you’re going to pay me back if you wanted to get a divorce last time, and I’m asking you to get a divorce, and yes, where’s the fool you’re walking around with?”

“…….”

“I can’t speak as noble as you. If you didn’t know, you didn’t know anything about me either. Yes, I’ll try to understand you if you want, so get used to me too. Don’t make me crazy.”
He managed to let go of Violet’s hand from his grasp. Then he turned around and left the room.

Violet somehow was so exhausted that she collapsed on her seat.

Fortunately or unfortunately, Violet was completely free from the depression of pulling her whole body into chaos because of her embarrassment.

However, she couldn’t understand her husband’s reaction.

Why is it so upsetting for him to abandon her who is of no use.