Today’s beast who doesn’t remember yesterday -R15 - Chapter 27

I was deeply concerned about whether I should walk to the bedroom on my own without being greedy.

But I didn’t want to fall.

I got lucky, and it’s a chance to be openly hugged by him.

Wouldn’t it be okay if I closed my eyes and became shameless for once?

“If you truly repent, make sure you take the medicine that Halbert gives you on time.”

“……..Okay.”

He must have known that I avoided it a few times under the pretext of being busy.

Halbert said he would give Edlade a so-called ‘My Lady’s Journal’ every morning. He said that he wrote down information about me and special actions that day.

It’s almost as if he said openly that someone will be watching me, and I agreed.

Because Halbert never did anything to harm Edlade.

I was being monitored, but it was not necessarily bad.

I did not oppose what Halbert was going to do, because there was nothing to hide.

Because of that, Edlade knows a lot about me.

It felt strangely good.

I slightly turned my head around.

Edlade always wore comfortable clothes inside the mansion.

He hated formal embellishments, so a white shirt and black trousers were his everyday clothes.

The warmth was transmitted through his thin shirt. It wasn’t intentional, but his firm chest touched my face when I turned my head.

He let out a short sigh. His body twitched and stiffened.

‘Oh, he really hated touching other people.’

Now that I am a stranger to Edlade, maybe he doesn’t like being hugged like this.

Again, I quickly became depressed, but when I am greedy, I have to do it right.

Wiggling, I moved to reach him a little.

“Sigh…”

He let out a low sigh.

When I glanced up, Edlade was no longer looking at me.

He stood still and slowly took his step.

‘I think he was thinking about helping me!’

The depressed feeling went away in an instant.

I thought it would be nice if the hallway was infinitely long.

Contrary to that wind, Edlade strode with long legs.

He rushed in, kicking the door of the bedroom, and put me on the bed.

Flop – Shame came over after falling into a fluffy bed.

The warmth felt by the difference of one thin shirt and the sweet scent that seemed to be on me was gone.

“…Thank you for helping.”

“I hope this doesn’t happen again.”

“Yes, it won’t.”

He politely nodded his head.

He stared at me for a long time with eyes full of annoyance.

I reflected well and said I would not do that in the future, so why is he so annoyed?

“Really.”

He let out a smirk when he gave the affirmation to believe once more.

“Uou…….”

“Lily.”

“……”

“It’s okay to call me Lily.”

I wish he could call me that.

It would be nice if we could continue to call it that way, or maybe it’s just for today.

I thought that I should call him by his first name at least once today. There really was no end to greed.

“… After all, it’s a name that can’t be called tomorrow anyway.”

“You can call me once.”

“Why should I do that?”

“Because I want to hear it once.”

“… don’t you feel sorry for yourself?”

Edlade’s expression was distorted a little strangely.

He seemed annoyed.

Did I make a ridiculous request? It was just a brief encounter, Edlade carried me from the carriage to bring me to the bedroom.

‘If that wasn’t the case, would I have made any mistakes? Did I talk in my sleep?’

I anxiously looked at his complexion, but he was waiting for my answer to what he asked me.

“I am not sorry.”

“……Why?”

“There is no reason to be pitiful.”

“A married husband loses his memory every day, and that’s not the reason?”

Usually, it’s pitiful.

Normally, that would be reason enough to feel pity for me.

But it’s me.

Because I love him.

Poor thing is him, not me.

How can I feel sorry for myself?

I’m just getting the punishment I deserve.

But I couldn’t say that.

I said with an awkward smile.

“Marrying you has allowed me to come out of an abusive family. Every day is peaceful and I am treated well. I may be a stranger to you, but you are the person who made this possible.”

“It’s okay if you forget me every day. It was an arranged marriage without love in the first place.”

I replied so that Edlade wouldn’t be offended as much as possible.

But he frowned harshly as if he felt worse.

“The fact that I’m not interested in you is a reason to feel sorry for yourself.”

“What? Never mind. It’s natural that you don’t care about me.”

“Of course.”

He nodded slowly as if I asked about something strange.

I sat down on the bed and looked up at him. Why am I doing this all of a sudden?

“I’m probably just a stranger to you every day. So I think it’s only natural that you’re not interested. As a wife, it’s difficult to be close, but as Duchess, I’m trying to help the Philemon’s. ”

“…Ha…”

“So… even if you don’t remember me, I can do my job and enjoy what I deserve, so why should I pity myself?”

It’s worth it just to see him sometimes, if not every day.

Didn’t I get a chance to protect him?

That alone is enough for me.

I couldn’t express my feelings. It wouldn’t have been a suitable answer for Edlade, who is not interested in anyone else.

I raised the corners of my lips in my heart.

“I’ll do better. There will be no harm to the family.”

Edlade ruffled his hair as if he didn’t want to hear me anymore.

He had a straight forehead and his furiously twisted eyebrows caught my eye.

He sighed as if he was exhaling his breath, and looked down at me with a gaze full of disapproval.

I couldn’t understand why he was doing this, so I just smiled and tilted my head.

“Lily.”

Then he really called my name.

I just said it once, hoping that he would call me.

My heart fluttered again to the name that flowed familiarly between his lips.

“You were the one who asked me to call, so why are you so surprised?”

“That, so… You are really going to call…”

“Still, you encouraged me well.”

Despite his displeasure, he did not leave the bedroom.

He was still looking at me with deep darkened golden eyes.

His sweet, ringing voice made my fingers clench and my heart raced.

Inside a dark bedroom.

The moonlight seeps through the window and Edlade stands a step away from the bed.

I felt like my head was spinning.

‘It’s hot.’

The heat was running through his body.

All I had to do was meet his eyes and call his name, reminding me of the man who called my name anxiously in his last life.

The hot nights with him that I remember and engraved in my soul kept disturbing my thoughts.

I slightly bit my lips and lowered my head.

Dangerous. Cunning greed was sticking out of my head again.

I clearly remember the arms that brought me all the way here, so my greed was becoming a desire.

My body faltered for a moment.

It was because Edlade leaned toward me with one knee on the bed.

‘Gasp.’

I was so shocked that I couldn’t even breathe properly.

This was completely different from the garden of the mansion or the spring flower ball.

Then it was all outdoors when Edlade came closer all of a sudden. It was for the people to see.

But now it’s indoors.

It was a bedroom where couples could easily establish a relationship.

“Eh, Edlade?”

Obviously, we never had a special conversation. Is there any reason for him to come all of a sudden like this?

Did I really say something in my sleep?

I felt like my eyes were spinning.

Slightly furrowed eyebrows and dark golden eyes gleamed in the darkness. He hated stuffiness, so he unbuttoned two of his shirts buttons and felt a little resentful at the moment.

He put one knee on the bed and leaned towards me, revealing his firm chest through the slit of his untied shirt.

Desire was already heating my lower abdomen.

‘Calm down, Edlade… It’s just that I was a little curious.’

Unable to fathom what he was thinking, Edlade slowly reached out.

I bit my lips and pressed my lips gently forward.

As if to welcome its lost master, its lost strength.

I trembled at the touch on my slightly open lips.

It was a dizzying sensation.

“Come to think of it.”

“……”

“I think we can have an intimate relationship as a couple.”

“…….”

The hand that covered my cheek was hot.

A finger stroking my lips slipped through the gaping lips.

I didn’t know he would break in like that.

I shrank the moment my tongue touched his finger.

A hot breath blew out.

The finger escaped as if it had never been, but it alone felt like it had violated my mouth. As if I had only tasted it, my tongue shrunk in my mouth as if I wanted something else.

As if fascinatingly delicious food was in front of me.

My body was overly honest.

“Can you do that with me who doesn’t remember you?”

Asked me in a low voice as if it were an exam.

What a married couple should do.

The first night was simple and he doesn’t remember me.

It couldn’t have happened.

Nevertheless, Edlade said as if he wanted me.

The voice sank so low that it sounded strange.

It was completely different from Edlade in my memory, whispering softly and kissing me.

My body trembled and I didn’t know what to answer.

Can I do it?

I love this man so much

I can do anything.

If he wants me, I am willing to open my arms.

Yet, deep in my heart, I asked myself if I am confident that I would not be hurt when I see him who will completely forget after it.

‘I’ll get hurt. Maybe I’ll cry again.’

Scary. That’s what I thought honestly.

So I hesitated.

I don’t even deserve to reject him.

I heard a laugh that seemed to have accepted that brief hesitation as a rejection.

I flinched and looked up at him.

His eyes were still cold, but his lips were curled differently than usual.

My mind stopped thinking about the worries and hesitations when I noticed a strange, familiar laugh.

I just like it, unlike him, who doesn’t know the meaning.

It may be a very small interest and curiosity for him, but I’m different.

So I laughed without realizing it.

I can’t stand the touch of it like a joke.

At that moment, Edlade’s eyes flashed.

His finger was removed from my lips.

The hand cupping my cheek slowly moved to the back of the neck.

He approached me as if he was falling and crushing my body.

“Ugh!”

It was an instant.