Travelling My Favorite Worlds - Chapter 44 Time To Act Like A Leader

After going through that whole stressful ordeal I had trouble moving, all the anxiety that was making my muscles tense had suddenly left, rendering me practically immobile. I say practically because well, I was still able to teleport/use the flying thunder god technique.

While I was laying there Sarutobi came in and started chuckling before sitting down where he was before, he then spoke up, “I’m both surprised and not surprised that an assassin appeared given the amount of people that you are upset with. Heh, first day assassination. Took me 2 weeks for mine. You just live breaking recods don’t you boy, it should I say, Lord fourth. Heh.”

I sigh and put my hand over my face, “Please tell me I don’t need to make speeches like that often.”

My reaction apparently prompted Sarutobi to laugh even harder as when I lifted my hand from my face I saw that he was wiping tears from his eyes. I form a finger gun form a small bit of water at the end of it and shoot him with it. It wasn’t anything hard, it was like an Airsoft. At least that’s what I tried to make it be like.

The Hokage grabbed his arm and started laughing more seeing the small amount of damage it did, so I start firing a barrage at his arm, making him laugh even harder. God damnit it’s just pissing me more now. I sit up in the chair and start rubbing my temples. After a few minutes Sarutobi started calming down and removed the robe that I had drenched with the water.

After a couple more moments he started coughing from laughing so hard, so since that upset me enough to get moving again I stood up and got ready to flash over to the group, but before I could Sarutobi grabbed my arm and managed to squeeze out that I need to go to the office tomorrow. I sigh and leave him to laugh while I push his arm off me.

After I flash over to Tsunade I see that they were making their way down a street that was very busy, when I asked her she said she was taking everyone to go about and explore for the rest of the evening. After we finished and played some more games, bought some good food, and fought off people that recognized me I teleported all of us back to my house. Once we got to the living room Darkness started freaking out from teleporting and kept muttering to herself. I went up to her and crouched down by her to make sure she’s fine. I mean most people I’ve teleported have been fine so far, but I guess darkness is a pretty normal person all things considering.

“Hey darkness, you okay? We’re back home so you don’t need to worry too much… okay?” She looks at me with her eyes filled with tears and she wraps her arms around my neck. I put and arm around her back and grab her underneath her legs so I can carry her in, well the easiest thing I could think of at the moment, the bridal carry (A/N:https://www.google.com/search?q=anime+bridal+carry&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjAvs3UpJnfAhUSaq0KHSUlDl0Q_AUIDigB&biw=1920&bih=979#imgrc=pdgiwScmo0ECfM:) and while holding her I move over to the couch so that I don’t have to suffer too much.

I smile wryly at everyone else as they all walk away, well almost everyone, Olivier stays behind and sits on the chair to the side of me. She didn’t say anything though, and Darkness just kept calming herself down (A/N: This is going to be a bit of me using some writers freedom since she doesn’t talk about her past too much and since I don’t remember seeing it in the anime. I checked the wiki and there really isn’t much mention about anything other than a bit of her family). After a few minutes of silence she squeezed my neck tighter, “I’m sorry… I, I had a bad experience with teleportation. Please… please don’t let go yet. I don’t want to be alone.”

I nod and slowly rub her back to help calm her down more. After a few minutes of comforting her while she shivers she stopped completely and I think fell asleep. I didn’t stop though since I know how this can help a person feel better. I look over at Olivier and whisper, “What do you need to say?”

She looks to Darkness and realizes why I’m whispering, so she leans closer to whisper, “How are you doing so well… I stabbed you earlier, you got stabbed in the hand, almost killed by an assassination, and you are sitting here right now comforting her. How? If this is all an act just to get me to trust you then I will not fall for it.”

I smile and chuckle a bit, but seeing Darkness grimace a bit I realize I was being a bit loud, “I think I told you before that I don’t really care too much about myself right? I mean that’s the reason you stabbed me, so I could show you my resolve or something like that right? Well you may not have, I don’t know, you could’ve just been angry for all I know. There was something I said that you may not have caught onto, I’m still alive by willpower. That doesn’t mean I have weak willpower though, and it isn’t as depressing as it sounds. It means that I won’t give up when things get tough, because no matter what I’ve gone through I’ve still kept moving.” I sigh as I rub Darkness’s back, “That’s why I called myself a hypocrite you know. I say that I’m fine with death, but I refuse to go and die. There are too many people out there that I can help. I live every day with that mindset, and every single time that I help someone without expecting anything back from them I feel genuine happiness. Can you understand what I mean?”

She knits her eyebrows together for a moment, “So you say you want to die, yet will never give up? What kind of stupid thing is that? It’s like if someone went and put themselves in the middle of nowhere, forgot how they got there, and now refuse to stay in the middle of nowhere! God I can’t even think of a proper example, that’s how stupid that sounds!”

I put my finger to my lips since she started getting loud and waking Darkness up. “You said that Esdeath felt the pain coming from me, did she feel anything else or mention it?”

Olivier shook her head, “No. In the discussion about it she simply stated that she felt your pain.”

I smile, “There’s more emotions to a person than pain. I may be a sad sack of shit, but I have more motivation and drive to keep going than most other people. It’s why I don’t let people feel bad for me, I know I can keep going. I was by no means happy with my life, I had a girlfriend that cheated on me, practically no family, and most of my friends didn’t talk to me. I was able to look to the future and hope in bleaker circumstances than now, so right now is a nice change of pace, especially since the future where I can be happy I feel isn’t far off.”

Olivier seemed to lower some of her walls as she spoke up, “I think I see what you are talking about now… I had to do the same when I was in the military. While rising in the ranks there were those that constantly tried to use their positions to act sexually towards me since I was such a beautiful woman. For a long time I regretted it, I didn’t like being an object of mens desire, I just wanted to do my part for my country. There’s a reason I was nicknamed the ice queen.” She sighs a bit, “And it’s not because I have ice powers like Esdeath. No, it was because every single man that laid a hand on me would lose one of their balls, every man who tried to talk to me about anything that wasn’t work I would ignore or chastise him. I was happy finally and managed to get many loyal troops under my command and very rarely would superiors try to act on me since I was so far away. It was because I kept myself strong. So in that way I can see what you mean.” I look at her and raise and eyebrow.

She scoffed, “If you want to know more, you have to earn it. Consider this repayment for you saving me from that ice spear as I couldn’t grab my sword in time. This is also an apology for stabbing you… I shouldn’t have since I completely misunderstood what you were saying before. I thought you were trying to have me feel bad for you, when in actuality you were telling me exactly where you get your willpower from.” She turned around and walked out towards her bedroom, probably to go and take all of her stuff off.

I lay my head back on the couch, and suddenly realize when I’m rubbing darkness’s back, she doesn’t have a single thing underneath the robe! My god this girl! I can’t last if she keeps doing things like this, like holy shit what if I was the kind of person to take advantage of girls while they sleep?

Wait, she’d enjoy that… shit, well what if I was the kind of person who… she’d like them all. Jesus christ. I shake Darkness a bit to try and wake her up, after seeing her stir awake I speak to her, “Hey Darkness, feeling better?” She blinks a few times, turns her body and sits up so that she is sitting on my lap and facing me. “Hm?”

She then leans forward and plants her lips right on mine. While that’s happening all the times that I went and kissed my ex go through my head again, how she was my first kiss, and well my only kiss. I took her to a carnival and while we were both in a double bumper cart she leaned over and kissed me since I was not the kind of person to be the first to do it. Then I remembered how when I was making cookies another time and she snatched a bit of cookie dough and ate it, since she had some on her lips I went and kissed her as vengeance. We had a lot of good times didn’t we? Sometimes I miss her a lot.

(A/N: If you think this is sudden, well it is. She’s Darkness though and get’s turned on by someone looking at her. I’ll explain her reasoning later though. Also yeah, I’m showing you guys even more of the MC’s character. I’m somewhat proud of the background I came up with for him, and I like his personality.)

Without noticing it, I started crying, Darkness who felt the tears touch her pulled away quickly and spoke, waking me from my daze, “Am I really that inexperienced and bad that I made you cry?”

I quickly put my hand to my eye and rub it, and when I pull it away I see how much my hand was glistening from the tears, so I shake my head, “It wasn’t your fault… the last person that I kissed, she, in nicer terms, didn’t treat me well at all. I was just remembering some of the times that I had with her when it was still fun.”

She looks down for a moment, then looks at me, “So, you aren’t mad at me?”

I sigh and lean back, “In all honesty? Nope. I was surprised that’s for sure. I was just taking care of you when I noticed that you weren’t kidding when you said you weren’t wearing anything and that it was thin, so I wanted to wake you up and try to see if you wanted to go to your bed to rest.”

She then went and got a deep red blush on her face, “D-did you touch me at all?” I don’t know if she’s turned on or embarrassed right now.

I sigh, “I rubbed your back while I talked to Olivier. You can ask her to confirm later.”

She then looked down dejectedly, “You know, I wanted to ask, why are you such a masochist?”

She then got off my lap and turned around from me, “IT’S A SECRET!” She then looked at me and I saw her face was bright red, and then she ran off.

Leading my summons huh. How in the fuck do I manage a country/town/village/ what the fuck am I in charge of anyway? when I can’t even help out the people that are supposed to be part of my team. God, one stabbed me, one tried to stab the others, one is a playboy, one literally does whatever the fuck he wants, and the last one seems just to exist to taunt me and take me over the edge.

God, system what do I have left that I can do right now since I am fairly bored and have some time to wind down?

‘Host is advised to rest instead of worry about anything else, especially more summons.’

That’s reasonable. Well now that I unsummoned Esdeath I have my bed to myself, hehe.

I walk to my room and see laying on it, Darkness still in the robe and her face is in a deep blush. I walk forward to go and grab her off my bed (it’s my bed. I wanted to sleep in it in comfort), but before I could, she starts tearing up again, “Please, don’t go. I don’t want to be alone tonight…”

I sigh, it’s not the first time I’ve slept with a girl, but the only time I’ve done it was with my Ex! God dammit, I am nowhere near emotionally ready for how fast Darkness is going. I like dealing with Tsunade more, even if her personality seems to change by the hour sometimes. I go and sit on my bed, “Fine, just for tonight, and please don’t try anything. I am pretty tired from today, okay?”

She sits up and nods at me before blushing, “well… don’t touch me either then… especially not when I’m vulnerable and sleeping since my kimono is thin. I hope that a perverted man like you can resist.” Is she teasing, trying to get me to act, or is she just going through things in her mind? I can’t tell sometimes.

I just chop her lightly on the forehead and say the word sleep to her as I lay down under the covers. I have to resist her for tonight, you can do it Joe. Use that willpower that you were bragging about to Esdeath.

(A/N: If you think about Joseph’s mindset he would not want to sleep with Darkness, or anyone yet for that matter. He started crying after a kiss, imagine how broken he would feel if he had slept with anyone right now?)