Up to You - C205

Lin Shupei had said that she had never believed in fate, so she had decided to keep on living. She could accept whatever fate would do to her, because she had no other goal in her world other than survival.

Suddenly, a bird that came from who knows where landed on a withered tree. It paused for a moment before flapping its wings and flying away. The yard was once again quiet. The night was still, and there was a sense of desolation.

For example, for Lin Shupei.

She looked at the crescent moon in the sky and lifted her collar to cover almost half of her face. “Good night,” she said.

Then he wrapped himself in his coat and went in.

I was left alone in the yard with the cold wind blowing, and I didn’t even know where I was sleeping.

He could only follow them in.

She was probably used to being by herself. Sometimes, she would forget that there was someone beside her who had never experienced the secular world. Even when she was telling a story just now, it seemed like she was just recalling it.

She was sleeping on the same bed that Jing Yu was lying on during the day. There was only such a small bed in such a large room.

I limped over to the bed and looked at the woman in the dark, sleeping with her, and if I woke up in the middle of the night, I wouldn’t open my eyes and think I was lying next to a ghost girl.

I shivered.

With her back facing me, Lin Shupei moved her body closer to the bed, freeing up more than half of it for me to get out. She was simply too skinny, even though she was wrapped in a large windbreaker and couldn’t see much, but as she laid on the bed, she didn’t even collapse in the slightest.

Legends said that it was as light as a feather.

I lay down in my clothes, too, and we sat back to back.

This place had been abandoned for a long time, so it was almost impossible to get electricity on. The only light in the room was from the flickering candles in the window. The faint light from the candles in the dark room was exceptionally bright.

Not long after he lay down, a gust of wind blew through the gap in the window and extinguished the candle.

The room was dark, and I wanted to curl up in it, but I didn’t dare open my eyes.

The room was empty and big. Without the candlelight, I couldn’t see anything. The wind was blowing against the windows and there was always a sound coming from inside the room. My palms were sweating and I couldn’t sleep.

“Do you have a fire engine? I want to light the candle.”

I cautiously asked. After waiting for a while, Lin Shupei ignored me.

Her breathing was light and I turned to look at her. If it weren’t for the slight rise in my shoulders, I wouldn’t have felt like I was lying next to someone.

I had just turned my back to the night in the room when I felt a chill crawl up my spine and I could not help but shake my hand and shake her shoulder.

“Lin Shupei, hello …”

I was convinced that she wasn’t asleep, that she just didn’t want to talk to me. Because they are all the same kind of people, to sleep carefully, always on guard.

She was finally fed up with me, so she threw a irritable sentence at me.

“There’s a fire stone on the table. Go get it.”

I sat up carefully and turned to look at the empty room. I couldn’t see anything but black, not to mention where the table was.

If she were to ask Lin Shupei again, she would definitely get angry.

But if the candles were not lit, the room would be as cold as a ghost, and no one would be able to bear it.

I tiptoed out of bed and couldn’t help taking a deep breath. The cool air grew colder in my stomach for a moment, and I trembled as I followed the faint light to the window and opened it, trying to let the moonlight in to light it up.

It turned out to be overcast and the moon was nowhere to be seen.

Frustrated, I put my hand in the darkness and walked slowly to the table.

Clang!

I accidentally knocked against the table. It was so painful that I sucked in a breath of cold air. The person on the bed seemed to have finally made a move as well. She flipped over but didn’t say anything.

It was not easy to get hold of those two stones, but he was troubled.

I’ve never gone camping, and I’ve never been to the village before, so how could I possibly use such a thing?!

“Um …” Lin Shupei… ” I came to her for help, but I was also brazen enough to approach her.

“Lu Weian, you still think of yourself as a young miss who has lived like a prince?”

The welcoming curse broke the tranquility of the night, and Lin Shupei’s voice reached her ears, carrying a thick dislike.

“I really don’t know what’s the use of Mu Huainan nurturing you like this.”

This sentence slightly hurt my self-esteem and I couldn’t help but retort.

“Because he loves me and doesn’t want me to do anything. Even if it’s a tsunami, he can still help me deal with it, so there’s no need for me to worry.”

I said, “That’s why I’m different from you. I’m proud because I love you. You’re alone.”

After I finished speaking, I also felt a little regretful. After thinking about it, I felt that those words were too hurtful. However, there was nothing I could do about it. After all, she was the one who hurt me first.

How could I bear with such a stubborn temper?

Lin Shupei coldly snorted. “He loves you, why didn’t you just lie down in his arms and befriend him, why did you come over to my place?”

I was so choked up by her that I couldn’t speak.

“I admit that Mu Huainan treats you well and have never heard of it before, but that does not mean that he would change his nature for you. I think the reason you’re with me today is because you’re part of what he got out of it. ”

“You don’t have the capital to be complacent here,” she said at last.

I clenched my fists and walked out without looking back.

There were only a few bits of starlight in the courtyard. I sat under the dead tree in the courtyard, feeling extremely wronged.

But without him around, I don’t seem to have the urge to cry.

I just sat there in the yard all night, sleeping against the tree trunk about four or five o’clock, but I slept very lightly and was awakened by the wind.

He sneezed heavily.

Looking up, today is still cloudy, the weather is not too good, no phone or watch, I don’t know what time it is, in the courtyard at the end of March, there are already catkins flying, falling on the brick roof, looking as if they were covered in a layer of dust.

I stood up, my pillow falling a bit. My neck was in so much pain that I couldn’t move it. I turned around and saw Lin Shupei sitting in the corridor behind me.

I asked, walking over to her.

“Have you had breakfast?”

She looked at the hall door and I stepped inside.

There was a bed in the other room besides where I had slept last night. She didn’t tell me, so I squeezed in with her last night.

“There’s room to live in here too. Why didn’t you tell me last night?” I picked up a piece of baked sweet potato from the table and limped out as I ate.

She leant against the dark red colonnade and gave me a wistful look.

“You’re not afraid?”

After all, when we slept together last night, I was so frightened that I was trying to light a candle.

“How long will you be here?”

The pain in my neck is still terrible, and if I’m going to do this tonight, I’m going to die.

She didn’t look at me, just looked out into the yard.

“The story is almost over.”

She’s three years older than Mu Huainan, which means that she’s almost forty years old this year. It’s just that her face is already completely covered with scars, and there are no signs of time at all, as if she had stopped at the moment when she turned into such a state, unable to move any further.

“I used to live in this room with Ol ‘Three.”

I was a little taken aback by her sudden words.

“Third Bro?”

“The old man who ranked in the top three after the second mission that year?”

I nodded, remembering.

“We lived together, and he soon found out that I was a woman.”

“Then… Is he going to tell on you? ”

Lin Shupei shook her head: “I don’t know, but I can’t take this risk.”

She looked into the distance and let out a long sigh.

“After that, he died because of the rat poison.”

Startled, I couldn’t help wondering if she had done it.

I didn’t ask, but she knew what I was thinking.

He nodded.

“I did it, yes.”

“He originally said that he could help me escape, go abroad, stay away from He Fang and live a normal life.”

“Then why didn’t you run away?”

“First, no one can escape anymore. Secondly, the belief in my heart at that time, has already lived to the point where I want to live and sit in the same position as Owner An Fang. ”

Ambition grows with desire, no doubt.

“After Ol ‘Three died, only I was left in that room, surrounded by the guards. There was no way to escape until that day when Mu Huainan returned to this courtyard.”

“Didn’t he get adopted as a son? Why did he come back?”

“He said it’s because of his illness and Mu Huainan’s congenital heart disease. In those days, he was always uncomfortable, so the Old Owner sent him to the Jing’an Garden to recuperate.”

As she spoke, she patted the pillar behind her. The courtyard had withered away, but this sandalwood was still superior and had not been corroded. The sound was still crisp and raw.

When she thought about Mu Huainan, her eyebrows unconsciously relaxed.

“I saw him in this corridor when I came out to get some fresh air, and I saw him sitting alone in this corridor. It was autumn, and he was looking at the yard, and behind him, leaves were falling. I looked at him and felt sorry for his frail body.”

“But I didn’t think so when he turned around. He was only a teenager at the time, and his eyes were fixed on me as if he wanted to dig me out.”

Lin Shupei said as he shook his head, “Before that, I had almost no interactions with him, and had never looked at him this way. But the more I thought about it, the more unconvinced I became.

“When we met in the corridor that day, he gave me a lazy look and then continued to stare blankly back. He was just like that, seemingly uninterested in anything.”

When he thought back to Mu Huainan, Lin Shupei’s thoughts did not seem to be easy to control, and she immediately ran far away.

“That was in the fall. He always had a rattan chair sitting in the courtyard, and sometimes he would change it to a thick wool hall. He was very sick, so it is impossible to tell how amazing he is.”

I didn’t interrupt her. I just looked into her eyes, which were filled with memories that had never been there before. I couldn’t help but feel a little sorry for her.

She had probably fallen in love first, which was why she lost so badly.

“I was always trying to find fault with him, either by breaking the leg of his chair or by scalding a hole in his wool blanket, and I thought at the time that he must have known I had done it, but could not come up with any evidence to punish me, so I could only get angry.”

“I was so childish that he didn’t feel good, so he ran out into the yard and stood with his hands on his hips next to his rattan chair and told him in an arrogant tone. Sooner or later I’ll throw him out and keep him safe. ”

I couldn’t wait to ask, “What was his reaction?”

“He’s still as indifferent as ever. He can’t wait to look at me, and his words are also perfunctory. He asked me what my name is.”

“Then what’s your reaction?”

“I can only tell him my name. There’s no helping it, his eyes are pressing down on me and I can’t move at all.”

I smiled and nodded, understanding.

“Until one day, when he got tired of staying in this courtyard, he got up from his rattan chair and walked towards me, who was standing in the corridor. He directly asked me if I wanted to go out and play.”

“You’ve never gone out of Jing’an Garden?” I didn’t think of it.

“Of course, Old Owner wouldn’t let me leave, at most I could only walk around in the courtyard. I had already long since suffocated to death, hearing him ask me that, I couldn’t wait to reply, but in my heart, I still didn’t believe him.”

“Afraid he’ll frame you?”

Lin Shupei nodded.

“Yeah, at that time I only thought of him as an ordinary opponent, but who would have known that he was actually so powerful that he couldn’t even be bothered to frame someone.”