Vulnerable Girl - C68

Yan Ruize laughed and took my wrist. There was no longer that sinister look from before in his eyes, but rather, a thick smile. I heard Yan Ruize say, Guo Xueying, you are really stupid.

I was confused. The Yan Family was too terrifying; no one was simple. As for me, I don’t know if I was spared or not. Because just this glance alone made me think of the short message his Second Uncle sent Yan Ruize. To put it bluntly, he wanted Yan Ruize to get rid of me. The pleasure of fleeing and the fear of being found had made me forget about it completely, and now that I think about it, my whole body was covered in cold sweat. I’m afraid, but I really don’t know what Yan Ruize is trying to say.

On the surface, Yan Ruize’s words were said to show that he wanted to let me off the hook. Not only did he fancy my value, he was even willing to let me use it, otherwise, he would not continue to let me manage Nong Jia Le. But his Second Uncle’s words are definitely not simple. I definitely won’t be let off by that man, but … My mind is in a mess. Could it be that Yan Ruize wants to use me to get rid of him? Hehe, there are so many more people who are stronger than me, why would Yan Ruize show me any mercy? I can’t even think about it anymore. It’s so messy, so chaotic!

“Yan Ruize, how long can I live?” I turned pale and asked directly. The moment I asked, I cursed myself for being stupid. Wasn’t this clearly telling Yan Ruize that I knew of the possibility of death? How could Yan Ruize not connect the dots right now?

When I asked that question, I saw Yan Ruize’s cold gaze. He squinted his eyes, causing my heart to almost stop beating.

“You did see that message.” Yan Ruize softly spat out one sentence, making me instantly feel as if I had already died hundreds or thousands of times at Yan Ruize’s hands. I looked at Yan Ruize’s expressionless face in fear, and completely lost the ability to speak. Sure enough, Yan Ruize is too smart, I can’t hide anything from him.

Yan Ruize stood up from the bathtub and started to wipe his body with a towel. Every inch of muscle was perfectly displayed before my eyes. I anxiously looked at Yan Ruize’s face, hoping to see any trace of his expression, and could tell me my fate.

Yan Ruize turned around and glanced at me, and said lightly: “Don’t worry, with me here, you’ll be fine.”

My heart felt like it had suddenly been liberated, and I breathed in the air with my mouth wide open. As long as he was alive, that was good enough. As long as he was alive, there was hope.

I thought that I would receive a torrential punishment tonight, but I didn’t expect that Yan Ruize only covered my eyes and didn’t do anything after that. Just as I was about to fall asleep, I heard a faint voice say, “This is the last chance I’ll give you …”

When I woke up from my sleep, I felt that everything that happened yesterday was just a dream. I wasn’t found, wasn’t warned, and I was even happily discussing the future of farmhouse music with Da Niu and the others as I thought about where I would go to in the future. This is my last chance for you… These words inexplicably surfaced in my mind. Hehe, it was just a dream, with Yan Ruize’s personality, how could he not punish me?

But in the next moment, I knew that I was too naive, and the one sleeping beside me was the rarely seen gentle Yan Ruize. He was laughing at himself for wanting to avoid reality. It was obviously impossible, so why did he have to have fantasies? But no matter how hard I pretend, my heart’s weakness cannot deceive me. I am very afraid of Yan Ruize, I am very afraid of rich people, I am very afraid of men, I am very afraid of this society. I want to be strong, I want to be rich and powerful, I want all the men to crawl at my feet and not look at me with dirty eyes anymore. I want to be at the top of this society.

What a contradiction I am, what a contradiction I am. On one hand, I want to hide from the world, and on the other hand, I want to rush in the torrent. Is this a contradiction between humans, or is it just me? Stopping at the crossroads of confusion, turning the sails about in the sea, I can’t find my direction, I can’t find my future, I can’t see my fate. I also want to be lucky, I also want to be happy, but heaven often did not care for me.

And now I think of something I’ve just learned, something I never thought I’d remember so well. Heaven will descend upon the saints, and they will suffer their heart, their bones, starve of their skin, waste their body, do whatever they want to do, so they can’t bear it. So, can I understand my own tribulation as a test from heaven? So, can I understand that I will succeed in the end, but that I will have to go through hardships beyond the imagination of ordinary people? No matter what, since reality has brought me into this current that cannot be returned, I can only gamble everything on myself!

I tilted my head and kissed Yan Ruize’s handsome face, staring at him for a few minutes. Yan Ruize, it’s impossible even if I want to let go of you right now. Before I become strong, you have to be my protection!

As I expected, Yan Ruize woke up very quickly. When his eyes met mine, I leaned forward and kissed them. Yan Ruize, don’t let go of me, I really don’t want to be this low forever. I want to stand on the same stage as you and proudly tell you, you are no longer my only reliance, I still have myself. And now I have nothing, not even myself.

Yan Ruize pressed me down onto the bed in two moves, and took the offensive stance. In this aspect, Yan Ruize had always been in the dominant position.

Yan Ruize licked the corner of his mouth, and gave a devilish smile: “Why are you so proactive today?”

With a slight raise of my eyebrows, my fingers caressed Yan Ruize’s ears. I didn’t say anything, but only threw him a flying kiss. In the next moment, Yan Ruize began his fierce and fiery attack.

I could hear the birds outside the house, and the breeze, but I couldn’t see anything. My head was blank.

During breakfast, Yang Zi skipped over to our table while wearing a small skirt. Yan Ruize and I were still eating porridge and pickled vegetables. Yan Ruize’s expression was one of disdain, it was obvious that he disliked the pickled vegetables. In the end, he drank two bowls of rice porridge. Da Niu and the others were already busy, they still had to deal with the mess that happened last night.

Yang Zi came over and said, “Big sister, good morning. Big brother, good morning!”

“Little Yang Zi, have you eaten yet?” I asked, smiling, stroking her head.

Yang Zi sat in front of me and said, “I ate, but my brother was still sleeping like a pig on the bed. I could even hear him snoring from the door. Elder sister, you drank so much yesterday, yet you woke up so early.

“Hahaha, it has no effect on me.” I smiled and placed the bowl Yan Ruize had finished eating in the kitchen.

Yang Zi followed me into the kitchen. “Why did you come in?

Yang Zi pouted and said: “Un, I don’t want to stay with big brother. Big sister, let’s go grow some vegetables later. Yesterday, big brother rented me a plot of land. I asked grandpa to help me set up the frame. I want to plant the grape seedlings. I’ll be able to cool under the vine next time I come! “Hahaha.”

I smiled and said, “It will take a long time. Why won’t it be anything else?”

“I like grapes. Let’s go, sister.” Yang Zi tugged at the corner of my clothes, pretending to be pitiful.

I could only sigh and reject her. “Big sister wants to help big brother peel the fruit. I can’t go for the time being. Can we go together in the afternoon?”

“Ah!” Yang Zi looked very disappointed, but she still said, “Alright then, we’ll definitely be together in the afternoon, let’s call Big Sis Hongfang over then, hehe.”

The entire morning, I accompanied Yan Ruize in strolling around Green Wilderness. While strolling around, Yan Ruize would analyze with me what to do after planning out this land. I kept this in mind, because I was going to be the one to do it. I could talk about it on paper, but if I did, I would be flabbergasted. I was a novice in these things for the first time. After remembering all of Yan Ruize’s plans and suggestions, I decided that I would have to discuss them with Da Niu and the others. After all, I didn’t really understand much.

The group of men he met yesterday were all invited to rub mahjong together. Yan Ruize naturally did not disappoint the others and directly sat down at the card table. Everyone said that it wouldn’t be too big of a deal, just a relaxing thing to do. Good tea was brewing and the wind was blowing. The warm sun was not hot at all, making people feel very uncomfortable.