When I Loved You - CH 154

Yiyoung knew Muyeol would oppose the idea. She shrugged. “There’s no such thing as complete recovery when it comes to a panic disorder. It all depends on me. If I take the initiative and control the situation, then I’ll be fine.”

“Then, you should consider going with me.”

“Um… no. I want to prove to myself that I can do it all on my own.”

“You’ve been doing well alone so far. What do you mean?”

“Not really.” Yiyoung shook her head. “I’ve been relying on you unconsciously. When I took a step, you were there. And when I took another, you were still there. If I get lost, I know you’ll be there to find me. It’s been like that.”

Muyeol unconsciously rubbed at his heart. It hurt him. He couldn’t even imagine a day without her. It felt as if his heart was tearing apart.

“Once I go back to work, I’ll really need to be courageous. And for that reason, I need to trust myself.” It wasn’t an excuse. Everything Yiyoung said was true. Her life as a doctor would end if she got scared at the ER. Muyeol would come to understand that eventually.

Muyeol understood what she meant, but still…

He frowned. “So when are you planning to go?”

“I don’t know, I still haven’t decided the destination,” Yiyoung said before smiling widely, “But wherever I go, I’ll be back before your stockholders’ meeting. I need to see my husband become the CEO with my very own eyes.”

That was a lie. Yiyoung was determined to train Muyeol to be stronger. She was going to have him fly to her, and until he came, she would obviously wait.

Muyeol’s face became stiff. Yiyoung hadn’t seen that expression on his face for a while now, but she knew he didn’t like what he’d just heard. But she still pretended to be oblivious and asked, “Why do you look like that?”

“Even if I asked you to go later, you wouldn’t listen to me, would you?”

“Of course,” Yiyoung admitted, “When I asked people, they suggested visiting around four to five countries in Europe. What do you think?”

“Go wherever you want to,” Muyeol refused to give any advice.

Yiyoung was surprised to see him so upset, but she wasn’t going to give up. She focused on the laptop again before waving at him. “Oh, okay. Go back to work now. I’ll continue with my research.”

Muyeol headed straight to his study, not turning back even once. As Yiyoung watched his back, she grew emotional.

The foundation of a relationship lay in love, but what made it deeper and stronger was faith; Yiyoung realized that now as she looked at him.

Muyeol seemed to believe that love and faith were distinct. But Yiyoung knew that love did not endure if there was no faith; she’d learnt it during her relationship with Muyeol as she provided and received love. However, Muyeol still didn’t seem to know it, and she wanted to let him have a chance to learn what it was like to receive love.

Yiyoung kept searching for destinations until her back hurt and she couldn’t feel her bottom anymore. Europe, Europe, Europe… And then, she was finally able to find it: a village that looked more beautiful than a piece of art. “Where is this place…”

Yiyoung quickly read the information. It was Hallstatt.

“Is this CG?” It was so mesmerizing that Yiyoung doubted it was real. The beautiful place didn’t look like it even belonged to this world. Feeling even more passionate now, Yiyoung really wanted to go there.

The village was way too gorgeous, Yiyoung didn’t know whether she would even fit in there. Nevertheless, she was so captivated by the place that she wanted to be there, badly.

She quickly looked up the available dates and made the reservation. Yiyoung held her head with both hands. “Wow… I just made the decision.”

Germany, Czech Republic, Hungary, Austria, and then the final destination… “I’m going to wait at Hallstatt.”