White Lotus and White Moonlight - Chapter 157
What happened this morning was like a dream to Shen Yunshu.
She couldn’t remember how she left the Zhao family, but she knew that when she recovered, she was already sitting in the military office.
The place where Zhao Hanhan had hit her arm was still hot, she was holding her arm in a trance.
She never thought that she would come this far with Zhao Hanhan.
I never thought that one day, I would do something to seduce a young girl and have a relationship with me.
She felt her shamelessness, but there was joy in her heart that could not be concealed.
Like a mouse, stole the oil it wanted.
She finally understood why she was so repulsive and disgusted with Chu Chengyin and Ming Feiyue–
Because she is jealous.
She was jealous that they could talk and laugh freely with Zhao Hanhan, jealous that they were able to express their liking for Zhao Hanhan generously, jealous of them, and able to hug Zhao Hanhan without concealing any emotions.
She used to be fine, but now she has thoughts in her heart. She doesn’t even know how to face Zhao Hanhan after get off work.
After all, it was the person who had the closest contact with her in the morning, although the other person may not remember this matter.
Deep down, Shen Yunshu was also contradictory.
She hoped that Zhao Hanhan would remember, and she also hoped that she would forget.
But whether she remembered or forgotten, she couldn’t face Zhao Hanlian directly.
Even in the face of the strongest enemy, General Shen, who would not choose to retreat without a fight, retreated for the first time. After the military headquarters was off work, she did not return to Zhao’s house, but turned around at the door of Zhao’s house. After that, detour to the General’s Mansion.
She came here for the first time after the General Mansion was built. The four-storey single-family villa is neatly decorated, and it is full of military style, which is very in line with her aesthetics.
If it had been before, Shen Yunshu would have been very happy to have such a residence that belonged to him alone, without having to face each other at Zhao’s house and Zhao Hanhan, who was cold-faced all day long.
But when she finished washing and lying on the bed, she felt an unquenchable loneliness and emptiness.
These two emotions were emotions that she never had since she became an adult.
She lay on her back on the side of the bed, turned her head to the side, and looked at her open arms.
She always felt that there should be someone lying on it.
“Beep, you have a communication from your little ancestor.”
Guangnao suddenly rang, and Shen Yunshu subconsciously pressed the answer. Before the video came out, Zhao Hanlian’s voice came from Guangnao, “Shen Yunshu, where are you going? The military has to work for such a long time.” Did I take a shower, why haven’t you—”
Before she finished speaking, Shen Yunshu had already pressed the hang up button.
Zhao Hanhan shook his light brain, who suddenly became quiet, and said in doubt: “Broken?”
The Jinjiang system, which clearly saw Shen Yunshu’s light-brain movement, sued without hesitation, “It’s not broken, but Shen Yunshu shut it down for you.”
The corners of Zhao Hanhan’s lips curled up slightly, “What’s her expression?”
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People in war are not allowed to have insomnia. Even in a battlefield full of artillery fire, as long as there is a chance to rest, even if there is only five minutes, they must hurry up to sleep. Every minute and every second of energy recovery is extremely precious.
However, lying on the bed in the General’s Mansion, Shen Yunshu, who has always slept well, felt the taste of insomnia for the first time.
Closing her eyes, what appeared in her mind was the girl’s kiss, soft fingers, and warm body temperature.
It made her upset and sleepless.
Really unable to fall asleep, she simply turned on the light brain and turned over the photo passed to her by the old butler.
They are all old photos taken many years ago.
There are scenes when she is training, there are scenes when she is playing against human and mecha…one by one, recording her growth along the way.
But she was not looking at this.
What she saw was the little girl who would hide next to the training ground every time she was training; it was the girl who squatted under the auditorium and shielded herself with a railing every time she was fighting with people…
She never knew that Zhao Hanhan had been paying attention to herself so secretly.
A warm feeling slowly spread from her heart, spreading into the limbs.
She always thought that her growth was lonely and lonely, and it was these photos that told her that she was wrong.
From the past to the present, in every step she has walked, there is Zhao Hanlian’s participation.
It’s just that Zhao Hanhan never said it, so she never knew.
She was self-righteous and lonely, but she grew up accompanied by another person.
She clicked on a video, the sound in the video was very messy, and it sounded like it was in a conference hall.
The black screen gradually lit up, and the cluttered sound around it gradually decreased. In the middle of the video, a small fleshy face gradually washed away.
Shen Yunshu recognized the person in the video at a glance.
That is Zhao Hanlian, Zhao Hanlian when he was very young.
If she remembers correctly, when she first entered Zhao’s house, Zhao Hanhan seemed to be only this big.
Zhao Hanlian in the picture seems to be hiding in a very hidden corner, with his ears against the wall, listening to something quietly.
Next to her was the railing. From the gap in the railing, Shen Yunshu saw himself.
The self trained by Zhao’s father.
She heard Zhao’s father’s scolding, she heard her stubborn promise when she was young, and she heard it too. The girl could not complain in a low voice, “Why is Dad so fierce, Ashu is a girl…”
When he was young, the old housekeeper’s voice rang out of the screen, “Mr. listens to what the young lady said the most, otherwise the young lady will talk to her husband about it, so that he won’t be so good at Ms. Shen.”
“No, I don’t want to talk to him, traitor.”
The girl refused decisively, but after hearing the reprimand below, she hesitated again on her face, “Uncle Butler, why don’t you go and talk about Dad, it can’t be like this, it’s too fierce, Ashu hurts.”
The old housekeeper: “But the gentleman won’t listen to me. It is better for the lady to tell him about this matter in person.”
Zhao Hanhan pouted, “I don’t want it.”
The old butler was always inviting, “But if the lady does not come forward, there will be no one to help Miss Shen. She is a girl, and has lost her parents, and the husband is still so good to her…”
The little girl sitting on the ground overhearing, turned over and got up, leaned on the wall, and stumbled to the training ground below.
This video brought back Shen Yunshu’s memories.
When she first came to Zhao’s house, Zhao’s father gave a lot of hope because of her talent.
Father Zhao treated her as the best soldier to train. He forgot that before she arrived at Zhao’s house, she was just a little girl who grew up in an ordinary family. She had a firm will but no corresponding foundation. The intensity of his training at the beginning, It was Shen Yunshu who was gritting his teeth and supporting him.
At that time, she always thought that she would most likely die in the hands of Father Zhao before going to the battlefield.
Until that day a little girl ran into the training room.
At first, she only thought that Zhao Hanlian, who ran into the training room, was whispering to Father Zhao, but after seeing this video, she suddenly realized what happened that day.
After that day, Zhao’s father halved her training volume, not because he suddenly woke up and knew how to train a child, but because Zhao Hanhan pleaded for her in his ear.
I see.
Many things that I didn’t understand in the past are suddenly connected.
Why would Father Zhao, a rough man, forget her birthday in the first year and prepare a naive gift for her in the second year. If that gift was not prepared by Father Zhao, but picked out by a four-year-old girl? ?
Why is she a cabinet of training uniforms, one day, a few more skirts and high heels suddenly appeared, she thought it was the thoughtfulness of the old housekeeper, but now thinking of the old housekeeper’s meaningful smile, she suddenly realized that the old housekeeper How could she pick a bunch of red and green skirts for her as a teenager?
That is obviously the aesthetic that only a few-year-old girl can have.
While reminiscing about the past, she looked for what she had missed in the past ten years, which belonged to Zhao Hanhan.
The more she thought about it, the more she found that she couldn’t do without Zhao Hanhan, and the less she could persuade herself, she was just a elder sister, standing next to Zhao Hanhan as a sister.
She can’t do it.
She couldn’t watch Zhao Hanhan marry someone else, couldn’t do without Zhao Hanhan’s company around her, as long as she thought of the days without Zhao Hanhan, she felt unbearable for a day.
Obviously, I have survived this way for more than 20 years in my previous life.
Probably this is the root of human inferiority.
It is easy to change from frugality to luxury, but it is difficult to change from luxury to frugality.
People who have ever struggled in the deepest darkness, as long as they see a ray of sunlight, will find it hard to bear the days when they are used to darkness.
She rolled over and got out of bed. Even though the weather outside was too dark, Shen Yunshu decided to return to Zhao’s house immediately.
She hurried downstairs, picked up the coat of the military uniform, draped it on her body indiscriminately, and opened the door.
But the moment she opened the door, she was stunned.
Outside the General’s Mansion, the door of a black car was slowly opening.
A pair of feet with stiletto heels stretched out first.
Shen Yunshu had difficulty suppressing her feelings at this time, she walked over quickly, “Why are you here?”
Her sense of oppression was too strong, and Zhao Hanhan was blocked in the car before he could get out of the car.
She raised her head, smiling innocent and innocent.
“If the mountain doesn’t come, I will be allowed to go to the mountain?” Zhao Hanlian said: “You are fine to accompany me to sleep, and you will not be allowed to sleep less one night. You think you can escape without returning to Zhao’s house… well.”
Zhao Hanhan’s eyes widened, but he was slowly pushed into the back seat of the car.
Shen Yunshu held the back of her head and led people down little by little.
The toes in the black high heels slowly curled up.