Why, Can’t You Eat? - Chapter 50

What to do with this? What should I do? Really… I don’t know what to do.

“Why isn’t it working?”

It was already bright outside. I bit my lip nervously and used magic again, but there was still no response. I took a deep breath and reached out towards the mirror. Thunk, my fingers touched the mirror and left a blurry stain. It’s not working either.

I’m really going crazy. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and cried.

“How am I supposed to get out like this?”

I don’t know what happened yesterday. There were times when I thought it would be better not to be able to remember the morning after, but it was very frustrating when it turned out like this.

The conversation I had with Grandmother in my dream made my head hurt. I couldn’t sleep any longer and stayed up all night tossing and turning. As soon as the sun rose, I got out of bed and suddenly I realized that my reflection in the mirror was Lilith’s.

Without realizing it, I almost screamed. That’s because I didn’t turn to this form unless it was time to absorb energy. I was more worried because I had done something without being able to remember it.

But the bigger problem was this— that I couldn’t use magic.

And, I couldn’t change my appearance.

“Why…”

It was the first time I couldn’t use my magic like this while I was in the form of a succubus. I checked the mark under the navel just in case, but it was the same. It was really impossible to go out.

My long hair could just be tied up, but I was a span taller and my body shape was very different. I can forcefully bind my chest and wear my maid uniform, but…

“This face is too pretty.”

It’s depressing enough that I’m also wondering if it was my voice. I took a deep breath, rubbing my pale cheeks. No matter how similar it looked, it’s not this.

If I keep my head down and walk quickly, people won’t notice people, but if I bump into the knights for nothing, that would give me a headache. And above all, if Regulus was coming today… I really hated even thinking about it.

I thought of the worst case imaginable, and I felt as if I had swallowed a bitter pill. My worries are over. Let’s not go out. No, I don’t want to go out at all.

Odil had asked me to tell him in advance when I wanted to rest. But what do I do in this situation.

I didn’t want to show this form to other people. It was better to wait, hoping that it was a temporary phenomenon, rather than go out and wander around to explain the situation.

I couldn’t sleep, but I went back to bed. Grandmother said to see me next time. That meant I could go back there again.

I closed my eyes and called out to Grandmother.

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Endymion was staring at Odil tenaciously. Odil tried to ignore the gaze and dealt with the overdue task, but in the end, he frowned at the persistent gaze and spoke in a low, cracked voice.

“…Do you have anything to say?”

“Odil, it seems like you have something to say.”

“You’re the one who’s been staring at me since a while ago, haven’t you? As soon as the meeting was over, you kept following me.”

“If it’s work, don’t worry. Because Cillien is taking care of it.”

You’re really driving me crazy. Odil sighed and put down the quill.

When he opened his eyes, there was nothing left except for the dark traces on the bed. Odil was stunned by his vague memories.

It was a shame, of course, that he had acted uncharacteristically under Lily’s magic, but also because of a promise he had made to her not to tell anyone.

“Can you keep it a secret that you found out?”

“You didn’t meet me today.”

Although his memories were jumbled, it was an obvious threat. If he wouldn’t keep the secret, she would tell Lily about all of this.

Odil, who thought that it would be better if he kept his mouth shut rather than adding the problem for no reason, said firmly to Endymion, who was smiling coldly.

“I have nothing to say. Don’t waste your time, go and focus on your work.”

Endymion sighed. Odil didn’t seem to remember he was there.

The reason he brushed up on Odil was because he felt a different sense of reluctance than usual. He guessed that something must have happened between Odil and Lilith. If nothing really happened, Odil would have told him every single thing she said, from start to end.

It was when Endymion tried to recall what happened yesterday in a bitter silence.

“Odil Hyung, I have a question for you…? What, Eddy Hyung is here too?”

Damian, who opened the door without knocking, tilted his head.

“What the. Did you guys fight?”

“It’s not like that.”

“No. Just by looking at you, there seems to be something going on.”

“It’s not like that.”

“…No, why do you both say the same thing? It’s creepy. I don’t really want to pry. More than that, Odil Hyung. Is today her day off? I was standing there and the door was locked.”

Odil and Endymion’s lips hardened at the same time, Damian trembled at the shuddering feeling on his body. Damian realized that it wasn’t something that had already been said just by looking at their reaction, and said in a calm voice.

“Should I go?”

“…….”

They knew where he was going without having to ask. Endymion looked at Damian. Unsurprisingly, his eyes were trembling a little.

“Not go?”

“…….”

This time, Odil looked at Damian. His straight forehead was wrinkled wildly.

“No, just tell me, c’mon!”

However, their lips were still tightly shut, and in the end, Damian shouted without hiding his annoyance. Nervously flicking his hair, he bluntly snapped.

“I’ll go and see the situation, so make sure to apologize to her later.”

“…Apologize?”

“Yes. She’s not the kind of person who just won’t come out without saying anything. Hyungs, aren’t you guys like this because you did something wrong? Or there’s something wrong with the two of you. If someone makes a mistake, you need to be able to say you’re sorry.”

Damian scolded Odil and Endymion with a stern voice. There was something more complicated than a mistake actually, but they were both speechless. Endymion clapped without realizing it.

“Damian. You are an adult now, aren’t you?”

“Eh?”

“I never thought those words would come out of your mouth.”

Damian, whose ears were red, pouted his lips. It wasn’t that Endymion’s reaction didn’t make sense. That’s because if it was him in the past, he would never have said something like this. He continued grumbling.

“Anyway, I’ll be back, so I don’t know what’s going on. This is all for you both. There’s only a long grudge awaiting you if you won’t do something.”

“…I suppose.”

“You are slower than I thought. A long grudge awaits, my grudge.”

Endymion remembered what Lilith had said yesterday and smiled bitterly.

He was really woven tight up to his neck. It was the first time he felt s*men and something else come out with each orgasm. The affair, which started in the middle of the day, continued until the moon came up, and he passed out several times.

Although it was a pleasure like no other, he never wanted to go through that again. Damian, who was watching Endymion’s face turn pale, asked with a grin.

“Don’t tell me, already?”

“What do you mean?”

“What, what? After you, Hyung…”

Thud—

It was before the mischievous words were finished. The reaction came from Odil, not Endymion. Endymion, who looked like he didn’t know what was going on, and Damian, who looked at Odil, who had turned red to the tip of his ear and his hands slipped and hit the desk, laughed kindly.

“Sorry. Let’s bury each of our nights in our hearts. Then Odil Hyung. Lend me your pass.”

“…Pass?”

“Yes. Because I can’t even go to the Wind Palace with mine.”

“Damian, wait a minute. Did you mean to go see the situation directly?”

“Of course?”

“Are you going to go to a place where only handmaids can enter?”

“Am I not allowed? Then should I go through the window?”

“Miss Lily’s room is on the third floor, what kind of talent do you have?”

At Damian’s carefree words, Endymion sighed and looked him up and down. He has a boyish face, it’s okay to cover and hide, but his arms, chest, waist, and legs. No matter how small Damian’s physique was, it was comparable to the knights. What would he put on?

It was when Endymion was seriously thinking about it.

“How do you know about that, Hyung?”

“What?”

“No, how do you know that her room is on the third floor?”

He raised his head at the blunt voice. How do you know? He knew only because he had been there. When he went, he went through Lilith and the mirror, but not when he came back.

Fully satisfied, Lilith fell asleep right after cleaning the stained sheets, and Endymion leapt out of the window late at night, worried that Lily might just wake up as herself and be surprised to see him.

Endymion, who received Odil and Damian’s gazes at the same time, continued speaking, pretending not to know.

“I won’t stop you if you want to go, but I think you need to disguise yourself.”

“Hyung? Did you sneak in or do something?”

“No. What kind of person do you see me as?”

“Then why are you trying to change the subject like that? When did you become close enough to go all the way to her room?”

“It seems that you have something to say.”

“…Damian. If you really want to go, change your clothes. A knight’s uniform stands out.”

Endymion sighed and pointed to Damian’s outfit. You’re seriously not going to answer? If he goes and asks anyway, it would be over.

And Endymion, noticing the thought, got up and grabbed Damian’s hand and smiled.

“That’s disgusting, Hyung. Let go.”

“No, I will help you prepare. Then Odil. We’ll talk later.”

“…Haa.”

“Prepare, what preparation are you going to help with?”

“Let’s go for now.”

“Go? Where?”

“You will know when you go.”

Endymion said with a good smile. Damian shuddered, feeling goosebumps coming from the wrists held by Endymion.