Why, Can’t You Eat? - Chapter 53

What would he do if he became an eunuch like this?

Damian, who had been sobbing in front of Lily’s room for a while, broke into a cold sweat as he looked at his still throbbing lower body. He somehow managed to come back with a wobbly walk, but he was so exhausted that he couldn’t even change his clothes.

Lying on the sofa as if he was about to collapse, he took off the wig he was wearing loosely and let out a sigh.

It was the first time Lily had ever been so angry, or to be exact, so emotional. He also cried a lot, but he would quietly swallow it back down on his own, so Damian also spoke frankly.

He meant it when he said he was glad she didn’t cry. He meant it when he said that he couldn’t be sure of his feelings. But if there’s one thing he hadn’t said…

“If you’re going to cry, I want you to cry in front of me.”

Seeing her reddened eyes, Damian uttered words he couldn’t bear to say, and frowned with a pained groan. If she was going to cry, he just wanted her to cry in front of him? What a pervert. He probably won’t be able to tell her for the rest of his life.

He knew it’s selfish, but it did relieve his heart. As he was thinking about whether he could just beg every time he saw Lily because there was nothing to worry about now.

“Damian.”

“Uh, Odil Hyung.”

“…What the hell is that? Where the hell did you get those clothes?”

“Was it in the warehouse? According to Eddy Hyung, it was used at a masquerade party in the past. Anyway, what’s going on?”

“That…”

There must be only one reason for Odil to come, but Damian asked why he had to come. He asked clearly as he frowned.

“Is Lily in the room?”

“Yes. She said she won’t be able to come out for a while due to some circumstances.”

“Circumstances?”

“Maybe she won’t be able to come out ever…”

“What do you mean, Damian?”

“It’s not certain. But Hyung, you know. I got caught.”

“Caught?”

“About the ring— that we didn’t say anything to her on purpose, and that we didn’t want her to find it.”

After saying that, Damian soon thought Odil might be angry with him, although the odds were extremely slim. But Odil just looked at him, a small tremor in his eyes, and he didn’t say anything.

Damian said calmly as he pulled out the pins stuck in his hair here and there.

“Looking at you, Hyung, it looks like you got caught, too. What a joke we both are. Are you in a position to call me clumsy? But you didn’t know anything about it, so what happened?”

“…I can’t seem to remember what happened yesterday.”

“Wow, was it yesterday? What else can’t you remember? What?”

“Didn’t we say that we should bury our lives during the night in our hearts?”

“Are you going to be like that? Well, even if you don’t tell me, I can guess. She woke up today and said she couldn’t use her magic. So now she can’t change her appearance, so she can’t come out. So while we were talking…”

It was Damian’s plan lure to get him to think that way, but he didn’t say that. Odil opened his mouth with a dark face.

“Did she cry or not?”

“She didn’t cry, but she was angry. She will never forgive you.”

“I see…”

“I mean. I’ve been thinking about it. It was me and Al Hyung who struggled to find the ring. So I guess that’s why I was thinking that way. We found it, so we can do whatever we want.”

That’s why he may have said so casually, ‘Let’s just not look for it since this happened’.

However.

“Every time I do what I want, she cries, and it makes it so hard to see. I think of her even when I sleep. I asked earlier. Even if she isn’t a succubus, will she still find the ring? Then she said that she wanted to find it because it was her grandmother’s keepsake.”

“…….”

“She doesn’t like us very much. It’s a good way to say that she doesn’t like us, and she probably hates us now. I’ve lived my life without paying much attention to what other people think of me, but if she gets hurt and hates me, just thinking about it is making me feel weird. I know it’s like that for Hyung, too.”

Odil, who had stood still for a while, nodded slowly. He, too, implicitly thought of himself as a ‘victim’, so he used Lily’s guilt, just as Lily took advantage of his guilt.

“Like I said at the beginning, I could pretend I didn’t know and have her next to me, but I didn’t think I could. I can understand why Al Hyung said that.”

“I, the succubus…”

“What?”

“The night side. Yesterday, it felt like the main body, but she did that to me. I don’t want Lily to find out.”

“You don’t want it? Why?”

“She said she didn’t want to leave the palace either. There may be other secrets, though.”

“Why didn’t you ask about that?”

“…….”

Perhaps it was because of the thought that he was in the same situation, Odil, who uttered something he couldn’t tell Endymion, bit his lip as if he was taken aback by Damian’s point. As he thought about yesterday, his ears began to burn.

Damian looked at him and smiled.

“I understand. Anyone who does something like that is going to go crazy.”

“…….”

“That’s why hyung was so surprised earlier. But…”

“Oh, not yesterday. No, I’m not here to talk about that. Anyway, I talked to Endymion and Ares, and…”

Odil cut Damian’s words sharply and said this, hiding his reddened face. Obviously, this was what’s important, so Damian stared at him as he blurted out his words. And Odil, who had been hesitating for a while, asked nervously.

“…For a woman who is angry and never forgives, how should I ask for forgiveness?”

“Hyung. I was a paladin candidate. It’s the first time I’ve ever held a woman’s hand. Do you think I know better than you do?”

“…I have never even danced with a woman.”

He hung out with Ares from an early age and showed interest only in swords. Moreover, since the Cygnus family already had a great successor named Ignil Cygnus, he was even less interested in outside activities.

Damian had no choice, but Odil lived that way because he wanted to. Feeling embarrassed by his own words, he lowered his head.

“Al Hyung is a complete dunce, and not to mention Reg. Then the rest…”

The two naturally thought of Endymion. As his track record with women was spectacular, so he might be able to give them a bit of direction. And as they both wanted to leave the room, Damian realized he was still wearing a maid’s suit, and he yelped.