Why we meet so late - Chapter 747
That’s how it happened.
Kugen is dead. Before he died, he fell into a coma and didn’t leave a word. Xiaoshun knelt on the ground and pulled his hair hard. He wanted to beat himself and scold himself. No, he wants to kill himself and pay for kugen’s life!
But clove stopped him. Clove tears: “Xiaoshun, what are you doing? What for? My uncle is dead. Are you going to die, too? ” Clove doesn’t blame Xiaoshun. She blames herself. She’s sorry for her aunt, for her cousins. She has no face to go to her uncle’s again. Clove looked for a knife, she looked at the aunt in a few cousins help, panting and sad to come, plop, kneel down in front of the aunt, take out a knife, please aunt a knife to kill themselves. My aunt didn’t kill her.
She slapped lilac twice“ Get out of here. Get out of here. You don’t want your uncle for a man? I’ve never seen a shy girl like you
My cousins had already packed up lilac’s clothes, threw them to her and told her to go away. Lilacs are not allowed to attend kugen’s funeral. From beginning to end, my aunt did not look at Xiaoshun.
Xiaoshun grabbed lilac’s hand and said, in this case, let’s go. Xiaoshun killed people, and the city’s public security also came down, but Xiaoshun was convicted of self-defense and not guilty. This can not let clove’s aunt accept. What’s the matter with Xiaoshun? Life is still the same. Isn’t the bitter root dead in vain? Kugen is a human life, a good man!
Xiaoshun can no longer stay in the village because of the pressure of public opinion. In the middle of the night, he touched kugen’s grave and knocked his head twenty times. While knocking, Xiaoshun said: “Uncle kugen, I’m sorry for you. But I really like cloves. I will take good care of lilac. Every Spring Festival, I will send money to my aunt. I’ll kill you. I’ll be a cow and a horse for you all my life
Xiaoshun didn’t break his promise. I’ve always wondered where my nephew came from when he didn’t have relatives in his hometown? Originally, his nephew is lilac’s nephew, is lilac cousin’s child. Shun Bo gave them all his life savings.
Xiaoshun finds lilac who lives in the broken temple and asks lilac to follow him far away. But clove refused. Xiaoshun has killed two people. One is her animal father, the other is her uncle and adoptive father. In love in reason, clove can’t and small Shun together, give him a baby, this life is impossible.
Clove shakes her head and drives uncle shun away.
Her heart was as cold as ashes, and she felt that all the disasters originated from her own, and that she had provoked Xiaoshun. If you don’t know Xiaoshun, how can you cause so many things? In this life, she and Xiaoshun are predestined.
But Xiaoshun refused to go. If you go, lilac will be more helpless. Yes, he killed kugen, but it was a mistake. He didn’t want to kill kugen“ Clove, clove, listen to me, listen to me… ”
But where would lilac listen?
She turned coldly, obstinately, heartlessly. This turn, is a lifetime of unforgivable and wasted years. Xiaoshun waited for clove for three months in front of the broken temple. Every day is suffering, waiting, yearning, wanting to talk, and deep love. Every day, Xiaoshun gives lilac food, flowers and some gadgets, but every time, lilac coldly returns them from the window. She would rather dig wild vegetables and eat grass roots than Shun Bo’s things.
One day, Xiaoshun was ill, his abdomen was swollen and painful, and he rolled on the bed with pain. It was on this day that he didn’t come to see lilac. When I come back at dusk, I find that the front of the broken temple is empty and lilac people are not there“ Clove, clove… “Xiaoshun ran three miles at a stretch, and when he caught someone, he asked, where is clove? But no one knows where clove has gone“ Dingxiang, Dingxiang, where are you? Xiaoshun miss you very much. Xiaoshun really miss you… “Shunbo fell on the roadside and cried.
He did not give up, but also insisted on looking, from autumn to winter, from winter to summer, he looked like a beggar, ragged, crazy, but clove like missing, more people said, clove is probably dead, as long as it is alive, there is always news. This is the last thing Xiaoshun wants to hear. Some people said to him, maybe lilac went to the city, went to big cities, such as Xicheng, and became a female worker in a factory, right? In a word, if you can’t find it in the countryside, the people must be in the city. Why don’t you have the brain to go to the city to find it?
Shun Bo listened. He walked on his legs and came to Xicheng step by step. Xicheng is so big that Xiaoshun is confused. He sleeps by the Yangtze River at night and continues to search during the day. His source of livelihood is begging in front of a church. Sleeping by the river, I accidentally saved a man. This man is Luo Kang. Luo Kang has the habit of swimming in winter. But that day the spirit is not good, swimming, feel powerless, want to come up from the river, but the feet have no strength. Luokang cries for help, Xiaoshun hears. Xiaoshun pulled luokang out of the water and went ashore. Luo Kang wants to express his gratitude and take Xiaoshun back to his home. At that time, before the beginning of the ten-year catastrophe, capitalists like Luo Kang were in the stage of joint venture between the company and the government, and they had a good life and status. He told the servant to prepare a big meal for Shun Bo. He changed a new suit for Shunbo and left his hair. Shunbo, who described himself as a beggar, regained his youthful appearance.
Luo Kang recognized Shun Bo’s foreign accent and asked him about his origin. Shun Bo was honest and said everything. Luo Kang is more than 20 years older than Shunbo, and he is short of a loyal and reliable follower. Seeing that Shunbo has no father or mother, he wanders outside alone, just to find a girl with a wandering appearance. He is infatuated and does not regret. He thinks Shunbo has a good character. Luo Kang left Shunbo. At first, Shun Bo didn’t want to“ The girl doesn’t want to see you. You can’t find it. You’d better wait
Shun Bo thought that he couldn’t go back to his hometown. When he went back, he was drowned by spittle. Cloves are nowhere to be found. So, moru will stay with Luo Kang, save money and inquire. I didn’t expect that the Emperor didn’t disappoint those who wanted to, and really let Shun Bo find it. To say that, it’s not hard to find a place without breaking iron shoes. Shun Bo followed Luo Kang’s mother, old lady Luo, to a remote nunnery in the suburb, and accidentally saw lilac. At that time, Mrs. Luo is still building. She went to the nunnery in order to meet a former little sister, who suffered a lot. After several widows, she was disheartened and became a monk because she was lonely and childless. She doesn’t go to the bustling temple, but only likes the lonely nunnery. She wants to spend the rest of her life here quietly. This is the one who took in the lilac. It is also under the old Ni’s initiative that Ding Xiang’s hair is shaved and his hair is branded.
It was drizzling that day. When Mrs. Luo went to Houan to visit old nun, Shunbo felt bored and wandered in the mountains alone. The silence in the forest reminds Shunbo of lilac. He has been an entourage with Luo Kang for three years. Three years later, clove is still silent. After a while, it rained heavily. Shun Bo wanted to return to the temple, so he walked faster. Suddenly, turning around, he saw a woman in coir raincoat on a path. The woman was thin, with a hat on her head and bent down to find something in the soil. Shun Bo immediately froze. He was so stunned that he didn’t dare move for a moment. Just for fear of disturbing her.
So much, so much! A woman in a coir raincoat and a hat is just like a clove!
Shun Bo didn’t dare blink. He thought he was dreaming. I’m afraid that when I wake up, the woman will disappear“ Clove He finally choked and opened his mouth.
The woman was stunned.
This makes Shun Bo even more excited. He was trembling with excitement.
“Lilac!” Shun Bo called again.
Women are calm. She turned slowly and looked at Shun Bo. In the torrential rain, I don’t know whether it’s tears or rain on lilac’s face. Shun Bo strode forward, but he didn’t stand firm. After all, his feet were muddy. He fell to the ground and fell a dog.
“Ah…” the woman exclaimed and wanted to help Shun Bo. But her body didn’t move after all. Shun Bo got up, looked at clove, prayed: “clove, it’s you, it’s really you… Do you know, I’ve had a hard time finding you…” Shun Bo wanted to hold clove’s hand tightly, for fear that if he didn’t pay attention, clove would fly away.
But he didn’t hold her hand after all. Clove slowly took off the hat and showed her blue and white scalp, showing the ring marks on her scalp“ Benefactor, the name of little nun is Huining. He has been practicing in the mountains for several years. Now he is already clean. Regardless of the world, his name is wrong. ”
what? Become a monk? Become a nun?
Shun Bo has thought that maybe clove is really a monk. But he had another possibility. Unexpectedly, clove really became a monk. If I didn’t accompany Mrs. Luo to send incense today, I don’t know when I met her?
“No, you are lilac, lilac. You look at me, look at me, I’m Xiaoshun, the one who played with you… “Shunbo was anxious and wanted to hold lilac’s hand again, but he was empty.
“Amitabha…” clove’s mouth read another verse, closed her eyes, turned around and put on a hat.
Shun Bo is in a hurry.
“Clove… Don’t ignore me… Clove…” clove walked in front, Shun Bo followed behind. But it’s strange that no matter how fast Shun Bo goes, he just can’t keep up with lilac. After a while, clove went into the kitchen of the nunnery hall, poured the wild taro into a big iron pot, and burned it with firewood.
Clove fire, Shun Bo stood outside the door, has been staring at clove.
He didn’t want to go, and he didn’t want to go. If possible, just look at clove, look at their life is no regrets! Clove, his clove, finally found, found!
Although suffering, although suffering, although suffering, but his heart, his chest, or full of happiness excited! What he fears most is that clove is no longer alive. But although clove into Buddhism, but after all still live well in the world, he is really very happy! For the rest, he wanted to give time to arrange the answers.