Winner Takes All - Chapter 53
For the next few days, Li Shuo didn’t go out. Wen Xiaohui would come for an hour or two every day, and watched him eat his food before leaving safely. The people who usually whispered at this time were extra careful.
Except for having to pretend to be indifferent when talking with his mother on the phone, Li Shuo was a little decadent most of the time. He is a very good-looking person. Fortunately, only Wen Xiaohui saw him now.
These days, there is always a sense of inauthenticity in the mist in the clouds, sometimes I feel that everything I heard that day is a dream, and sometimes I feel that everything with Zhao Jinxin is a dream in itself, because reality should not be so dramatic, nor should it be Ugly. In any case, it is difficult for him to accept that he will be so sinking. He knows rationally that he should leave the failed past freely, but cannot do it emotionally. The despair that sees that he is out of control but is helpless and unable to save is the most inspiring He is in pain.
This time, it doesn’t help to explain the truth to yourself.
On Monday morning, Li Shuo received a call from his assistant asking him why he hadn’t arrived at the company yet.
At that time, Li Shuo was not awake, and he suddenly felt queasy when he heard this question.
The assistant paused: “General Manager Li, wouldn’t you still sleep?”
Li Shuo suddenly remembered that today he was going to Ennan to study the quarterly report. As early as when he was back in Yangcheng, the assistant reminded him, but now he was very empty and he didn’t remember anything.
Li Shuo rubbed his eyes: “I’m sorry, I … I drank too much.” He just made up a poor excuse. He wished he had drank too much, and when he awoke, he woke up, unlike now. In this way, the dripping wine is unstained, and people cannot get drunk.
“Wow,” the assistant said with emotion, “General Li, I have been with you for four years. You have never been delayed in your work, wouldn’t it be a love affair?”
The assistant was just a casual ridicule, but Li Shuo’s heart was tense, as if he had taken off the shame in public, and he shuddered.
Seeing Li Shuo not talking, the assistant realized that he had said something wrong, and said busyly: “General Li, I’m kidding. If you are uncomfortable, just rest at home. We will report to you after we have finished the study.”
Li Shuo knew that he was scaring the little assistant. He was easy-going and got along with his subordinates like friends. Today ’s anomaly—whether it is forgetting important business affairs or not being able to make jokes, is enough to surprise everyone around him. He blocked his eyes with the back of his hand, and said tiredly, “Well, send a summary to my mailbox. Call me if you have any questions.”
“Yes.”
Hanging up the phone, Li Shuo slowly put down his hand, picked up the remote control on the bedside table, and opened the curtains.
As the curtains receded to the sides, the dazzling sunlight diffused into the bedroom, and the area affected by that golden color became wider and wider, until it sprinkled on him, and he narrowed his eyes unbearably, but felt A long absence of warmth.
If sunlight can really kill bacteria, it’s better to kill him. He was lying in the sun like that, holding a ridiculous piety.
It wasn’t until the sun dazzled his brain that he got up from the bed and walked into the bedroom.
A mirrored beard face, puffiness on the upper eyelid, and bruising on the lower eyelid, in just a few days, he could see the cheekbones faintly, and Li Shuo, who was proud of the spring breeze on weekdays, was two.
He looked at the mirror without blinking, the more angry he became.
Why did you make yourself this virtue …
He took off the pajamas on his body, went into the shower naked, and opened the faucet without hesitation. Now it is the early autumn season, the temperature of the water is very cold, he was irritated and shivered, and his skin appeared instantly. Sliced goosebumps, but also very happy.
After bathing, he shaved in front of the mirror, but he didn’t know whether it was difficult to concentrate, or his eyes were dry and swollen. He cut through the skin with a single knife, and the blood flowed down the chin in an instant. Soaked in blood.
He threw the razor in desperation, and supported the washstand weakly with both hands, unable to lift his head for a long time.
Inexplicably, Zhao Jinxin’s phrase “I haven’t played enough” sounded inexplicably.
Not enough to play yet.
Not enough to play yet.
What was Zhao Jinxin’s expression at the time? Mocking? Proud? What expression is Shao Qun? Despicable? Undervalued? All he knew was that he was standing outside the door, his face seemed to be burning next second.
His cultivation is not enough, and his mind is not wide enough, so that he cannot be relieved until now.
He held on to the marble table tightly, because his phalanxes turned blue and white because of too much force.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang.
Li Shuo was shocked and raised his head. He thought it was Wen Xiaohui, and quickly took off the blood on his chin and put on a bathrobe to open the door.
The moment the door opened, he froze.
What appeared in sight was not Wen Xiaohui, who brought a bunch of big bags and a beautiful smile every day, but Zhao Jinxin, who was expressionless.
Li Shuo felt that the blood was frozen in an instant, and then the small blood vessels burst and burst in the body one by one, and the body kept experiencing irritations. He lowered his head subconsciously, not wanting to let Zhao Jinxin see his embarrassment. His hand was fisted behind his back, and Shen said, “Come here for something? Just give me the keys to my house.”
Zhao Jinxin reached out to him: “Your chin …”
Li Shuo’s eyes changed, and he suddenly opened his.
The sound of a “snap” sounded like slap in the face of someone who didn’t know, where they touched, bones bumped, skin rubbed, and aching pain, both of them froze.
Li Shuo knew that he had overreacted, but he couldn’t restrain the resistance in his body, and said coldly, “Just shave it, give me the key.”
Zhao Jinxin lowered his eyes, took a step forward and wanted to come in.
Li Shuo did not let him go. He blocked the door: “Your things have been packed.” He bent down, lifted a bag from the door, and threw it to Zhao Jinxin’s feet. If Zhao Jinxin didn’t come, he was going to throw it away. He reached out and repeated, “Key.”
“I’m here to send you the materials. You didn’t come here today. I worry about you …” Zhao Jinxin shook the materials in her hands.
“I just overslept.” Li Shuo took the information and exaggerated: “Key.”
Zhao Jinxin stared at Li Shuo’s eyes and said softly, “I didn’t take it.”
“Then throw it.” Li Shuo will close.
Zhao Jinxin held up the door, raised his head, stared directly at Li Shuo, solemnly said, “Li Shuo, I’m sorry.”
Li Shuo’s heart trembled, and his anger rushed to his brain. He stiffly resisted, “I don’t accept it, get out.” He said that he would close the door again. But the hand that was against the door didn’t know how hard it was. Li Shuo pushed hard and didn’t push it up. He narrowed his eyes, “What do you mean.”
Zhao Jinxin pursed his lips, looked into his eyes deeply, and whispered, “I don’t want this.”
“Of course you don’t want to do this, after all, you haven’t played enough.” Maybe it is a habit, and repeatedly cut open the wound, it is not a big deal.
“No.” Zhao Jinxin said clearly, “I have no intention of hurting you.”
How ridiculous this is, but Li Shuo couldn’t laugh: “Then how did you plan? When not playing enough, confess to me and say that you want to have a serious relationship, wait for you to play enough, and find a decent reason “Break up, everything is according to your mind, is this your plan?” Li Shuo trembled and bite the back molars, “Why should I be teased by you like this? Is it because I like you?” That “like The word “Li Shuo” was almost chopped down and swallowed hard, and then spit it out with the blood.
“Like” is obviously one of the most beautiful words in the world, but now it is abomination.
“Like” He Gu, to be ruined like this.
Zhao Jinxin’s eyelashes trembled slightly: “I really like you …”
“You don’t deserve to say these two words.” These two words are like a curse to Li Shuo now. “Do you think I don’t know what you are thinking? You are still young, like me today, and maybe tomorrow Like others, so you want to openrelationship. “He smiled coldly.” But, me, no, think, do you hear me clearly? I don’t want to. Everything you do makes me feel sick, just like your cousin, You are truly a family. ”
Zhao Jinxin’s brows frowned, and he looked at Li Shuo sadly: “Uncle Li, I’m sorry …”
“Let go,” Li Shuo said blankly.
“… thank you for my birthday.”
“Let go!” Li Shuo pushed him hard, and slammed on the door.
Across the door, Li Shuo could still feel the breath belonging to Zhao Jinxin. He gasped in a big breath to curb the almost indignant anger. He squatted on the ground with his head in his hands, fists in his hands, and slammed hard. A few skulls.
After a long delay, Li Shuo got up from the ground and returned to the bathroom. His beard had not been shaved, and the wounds had leaked a little bit of blood. His eyes became red, and the whole person looked crappy and decadent. Dogs.
Yes, in this game, he lost ashamed and lost.
Li Shuo yelled angrily and long at his embarrassed self in the mirror, and that roar made his chest tremble, and the roar echoed in his mind, which had the effect of deafening and trembling, as if waking up roughly. He had somehow cringed in the dark self.
This waste in the mirror is not his Li Shuo! No one wants to change him!
He grabbed the razor, carefully hung off the messy stubble, washed away the dried blood, dried the disheveled hair, and then returned to the bedroom, picked up his clothes, put on the key and wallet, and went out.
He needs to bask in the sun, touch the crowd, and sweep away all the dark and bleak air around him.
After all, it’s just a broken heart.
It’s just a broken heart.
Li Shuo called Wen Xiaohui and asked him to have a meal. Wen Xiaohui heard that he was out of the house and was overjoyed and rushed to the restaurant as fast as possible.
Wen Xiaohui was surprised when he saw him: “Brother Li, you have figured so many days!”
Li Shuo smiled slightly: “Although the food you sent is delicious, I don’t want to take out anymore.”
“Hahaha, otherwise I will do it for you.”
“Let me go.”
Wen Xiaohui looked at Li Shuo blinkingly, smiling.
Li Shuo touched his chin: “Well, I got it when I shave. It’s okay, and my face is not very good, right?”
“But it’s still handsome.” Wen Xiaohui blinked at him. “I’m relieved to see you getting better.”
Li Shuo smiled: “I will be fine.”
Wen Xiaohui didn’t change his character, and constantly adjusted the atmosphere while eating. The two talked and laughed.
After dinner, Li Shuo proposed to go shopping.
“Walk around, what are you going to buy? I’m close to a professional buyer, and I promise to make you look blind.”
“Let’s just take a look, it’s mostly for you.”
“Buy me?” Wen Xiaohui pointed to himself. “Why buy me?”
“I want to spend money.” Li Shuo rubbed his hair, “I want to pay you money.”
Wen Xiaohui hugged his arm and called out affectionately, “Dad.”
Li Shuo haha laughed. He knew that Wen Xiaohui couldn’t be short of money. Even if it wasn’t his high income, he still had Luo Yang to support him, but his emotions needed some proper venting.
The two settled their bills and went straight to the mall. Li Shuo quietly watched Wen Xiaohui try on clothes, choose matching, tangled between different colors, mumbled that the pants were not the right type, and that pair of shoes was not suitable for padding. He is also so fun when shopping with his mother, he will never be impatient, as long as the other person has a satisfied smile on his face.
Although the flattering big boy does not belong to him, he can still get the feeling of being “needed” from him-that’s exactly what he needs now.
After shopping for a few hours, Luo Ye’s phone came three times. Wen Xiaohui couldn’t hold it anymore, so he had to go back.
Li Shuo brought him a shopping bag and sent him to the car.
Wen Xiaohui smiled brightly: “Brother Li, thank you.”
“Are you happy today?” Li Shuo looked at him gently.
“happy!”
“That’s good, go back.” Li Shuo closed the door for him.
Wen Xiaohui lowered the window and flew a kiss at him: “Brother Li, you are so good.”
Li Shuo gave him a thumbs up: “Be careful on the road.”
Wen Xiaohui’s car drove away. Li Shuo stood by the street and watched the car until it disappeared.
Alone, I really feel bad … Li Shuo decided to visit Sanya in a few days. After the inspection, he returned to the United States, where he has his home.
He got in the car, hesitated for a moment, took out his mobile phone, and dialed a phone: “Hey, Xiaoqi, I’m Li Shuo, are you free today …”
Li Shuo returned home, trimmed the room a bit, and then sat on the sofa in a daze.
He actually regretted making the phone call, but if he refused, wouldn’t it be a joke.
He just wanted to find someone to accompany him, not to prove anything.
Li Shuo, what do you want to prove?
The doorbell rang, Li Shuo awoke and walked over to open the door.
A sunny and handsome boy stood at the door. He was not tall, thin and fashionable. “Hi, brother, it’s been a long time.”
Li Shuo laughed: “It’s been a long time since I came in.”
The boy ’s name is Xiao Qi. Li Shuo did n’t know his name. They met at the bar. They did it several times. After meeting Li Chengxiu, they never contacted him again. Phone call, and the other party answered.
“Brother, you don’t look well. Are you sick?”
Li Shuo shook his head: “I’ve been too busy lately, and I haven’t had a good rest. It’s okay.”
“Oh, you’re all thin.” Xiao Qi stretched his waist and looked around. “Your family is so big. I’ve been here once? I don’t remember anything.”
“Come here,” Li Shuo said, “did you eat?”
“No.” Xiao Qi pulled Li Shuo’s arm and coquettishly, “Brother, do you do it for me?”
“Okay, what do you want to eat?”
“It’s free.”
“There aren’t many ingredients in the house, so I’ll make whatever I want.” Li Shuo smiled. “Go watch TV.”
“Hey.”
Li Shuo opened the refrigerator and only Wen Xiaohui bought some dishes for the salad. Otherwise, it was leftovers. He was not good at leftovers, but he had nothing to do, so he cooked two bowls of noodles.
Xiao Qi didn’t pick, he was very happy to eat, and also told Li Shuo about his internship experience. After a while, he talked about the boss’s best, and later said that his male colleague’s buttocks were upturned. This big house needs a little human voice.
After dinner, the two watched a movie together, watching and watching, Xiao Qi sat on Li Shuo and kissed him holding his face.
Li Shuo held his thin waist and responded skillfully, but Xinhu was calm and dead.
After kissing for a while, Xiao Qi frowned slightly. “Brother, what’s wrong?”
It’s easy to tell if there is passion in kissing.
Li Shuo smiled: “Nothing.” He hugged Xiao Qi’s waist, pressed the boy against the sofa, kissed his cheek and neck, and gently removed his clothes.
Xiao Qi worked hard-teasing him, obviously a little emotional.
The two rolled from the sofa to the wool rug. Every step of the foreplay seemed to follow the rules, but Li Shuo had an indescribable resistance in his mind, and he resisted this resistance, and he forced himself into the eyes. These two contradictions Now, he can no longer concentrate, but fights against the idea in his mind that is against his will, and in the end, he doesn’t even know what his true will is!
“Brother …” Xiao Qi whispered.
Li Shuo returned to God and looked at him with some alarm.
Xiao Qi said awkwardly: “If you are not thinking, don’t … just barely.”
Li Shuo realized that he hadn’t responded yet, and his mind was chaotic and could not restrain Zhao Jinxin’s face, which made him sicken.
He stood up and said in a deep voice, “Xiao Qi, I’m sorry …”
“It’s okay.” Xiao Qi also got up and touched his face. “You’re in a bad mood. Did something happen?”
Li Shuo shook his head: “Sorry.”
“… broken out?” Xiao Qi raised an eyebrow.
Li Shuo froze and did not speak.
“Ah.” Xiaoqi hugged his head and kissed his forehead. “I’m so glad you can find me today, but we don’t have to do it, you are in a bad mood, I can chat with you . ”
Li Shuo looked at the hearty boy with shame, and said softly mechanically, “Sorry …”
“It’s okay, it’s broken, it’s natural.” Xiao Qi climbed up from the carpet and dragged Li Shuo, “Come here, let’s keep watching the movie, oh, I’m hungry again, I’ll order takeaway , Want to eat skewers, and a dozen beers, and live tonight. ”
Li Shuo smiled, relieved a lot: “Okay.”
Li Shuo ordered takeaway, and the two of them ate, watched and talked, except for making love. They also had some common languages, such as football, music, and a few bottles of wine. Xiao Qi told Li Shuo about her work troubles. Li Shuo enlightened him with rich experience and talked very speculatively.
Unconsciously, they chatted in the middle of the night, and the two climbed into bed with a drunken state, falling down and falling asleep.
The next day, Li Shuo woke up with a hangover, his head was still groggy, and he felt warm skin on hand, and he muttered habitually: “Jin Xin …”
As soon as these two words escaped, Li Shuo opened his eyes. He usually sat up with an electric shock and stared at the person next to the pillow.
Sleeping sweet, white and handsome face.
Not Zhao Jinxin.
At that moment, Li Shuo’s heart felt the weightlessness of a cliff-jumping, and the feeling of turning abruptly was creepy. He couldn’t tell whether he was fortunate or lost.
He sighed deeply, rubbing his disheveled hair, hesitating to get up or continue to sleep.
Suddenly, he heard the sound of the door lock turning from the living room. He was agitated and straightened his back.
The next second, the door was opened, and he turned out of bed and rushed towards the living room.
not……
He ran to the living room and collided with Zhao Jinxin, who was walking in with his things.
Both were stunned.
Li Shuo returned to God and looked at him with disbelief: “Who allowed you to come in?”
Zhao Jinxin didn’t answer. He looked around the living room. From a pile of broken coffee bottles and wine tables, he saw a few clothes lying casually on the carpet, and then the canvas shoes at the door. Finally, Li Shuochi was naked Kiss marks on the upper body and neck.
Zhao Jinxin’s eyes changed, becoming cold and gloomy. He threw away the things in his hand and strode towards the bedroom.
Li Shuo stepped up, shoved him away, and growled, “Get out!”
Zhao Jinxin looked at him with a vicious look: “Who? Who is in the room?”
“none of your business?”
“Wen Xiaohui?”
“No bullshit.”
Zhao Jinxin rushed to the bedroom, Li Shuo grabbed his collar, and said coldly, “Zhao Jinxin, let me say it again, get out and disappear completely from my house, from my eyes, from my life. ”
Zhao Jinxin glared at Li Shuo, with some bloodshot eyes, and said, “Who did you find?”
“Get off—” Li Shuo desperately pushed his chest back.
After Zhao Jinxin stepped back two steps, his footsteps were just as nailed, and he never moved a step. He grabbed Li Shuo’s hand, stared at his eyes, and then opened his fingers.
Li Shuo was pale and angry.
Zhao Jinxin finally opened his hands and flung it aside, then rushed into the bedroom without hesitation.
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