Yan Yan - Chapter 53

In the early morning of the next day, the dark clouds receded, the golden light burst out, and the bustling city was full of vitality.

The inpatient building of Pok Oi Hospital is tall and grand, and the glass curtain wall covering the building reflects the dazzling sunlight like a shiny armor.

Blue curtains hung in the clean ward, softening and softening the strong sunlight, turning it into a bright blue.

Everything seems to be immersed in the sea.

The hospital gown is also blue.

Only the futon was white as snow.

Su Yan had not yet woken up, and was lying on the white hospital bed with shallow breathing, her face was pale and weak, her eyebrows were slightly furrowed, and even though she was in a drowsiness, her expression was still filled with anxiety and unease.

Bai Xingfan sat beside the hospital bed and watched over her day and night without rest.

There was still more than half of the transparent liquid in the drip bottle hanging high. With the passage of time, the liquid dripped one by one. When the bottle was about to become empty, Bai Xingfan got up from the stool and pressed down. The pager on the head of the bed.

The nurse in a pink uniform quickly came to the VIP single ward, skillfully pulled out the needle on Su Yan’s arm, whispered a few words to the family, and left with an empty hanging bottle. Room.

Bai Xingfan has been gently pressing the cotton ball on Su Yan’s arm to prevent blood from returning to the eye of the needle.

After a while, Su Yan slowly opened her eyes.

“Cub!” Bai Xingfan stood up from the stool at once, leaned over and leaned towards her, his expression revealing an undisguised panic and distress.

Su Yan just glanced at him lightly and lowered her eyes.

She felt as if she had slept for a long time, but she was still very tired, which was a double lack of spirit and sex.

The limbs and limbs seemed to be filled with lead, which was extremely heavy, but the depths of the body seemed to be hollowed out, missing a piece, and there was no feeling at all.

Her heart ached, she expected something, but didn’t dare to ask him.

Her eyes became sore, she clenched the sheet under her body tightly, trying her best to suppress the grief in her heart: “How is Xie Yu?”

Her voice was very hoarse, but her tone was icy cold and without warmth.

Bai Xingfan clearly felt her indifference and alienation towards him, and his heart became more and more flustered, and immediately replied: “He is fine.”

He finally let him go.

Su Yan fell silent again.

After a long time, she mustered up her courage and looked up at him, her pale lips trembling uncontrollably: “What about me, my, the child?”

Looking at her gradually reddened eyes, Bai Xingfan was stuck in his throat. He didn’t know how to answer this question. For the first time in his life, he felt a huge sense of powerlessness.

He didn’t want to make her sad and painful, but he couldn’t change anything.

“We,” he tried hard to make his tone firm, but his voice uncontrollably showed choking, and his eyes gradually turned red, “We will definitely have children again.”

Her child is gone…

She has just discovered her/his existence, she/he is gone.

The last glimmer of hope also collapsed. The huge sadness broke Su Yan’s inner defense line in an instant. She fell into a collapse in an instant, her tears burst, her spirit collapsed, and she cried uncontrollably.

The corners of Bai Xingfan’s eyes were red, and tears overflowed from his eyes.

He also cried.

That is also his child, how could he not feel distressed or sad?

He was also extremely regretful and remorseful.

He shouldn’t have gotten out of control yesterday, he should have listened to her words and brought her home early, otherwise she wouldn’t have an emotional breakdown and miscarried.

He killed their children.

“I’m sorry, cub, I’m sorry…” He also knew that she would never forgive him for a trivial apology, but at this moment, he was not qualified to say anything except “sorry”.

However, the three words “I’m sorry” are like the straw that broke the camel’s back.

Su Yan’s full of resentment was completely ignited, she suddenly became hysterical, grabbed his neckline with both hands, and roared at him piercingly:

“Can’t you let me go? I don’t want to be with a lunatic like you!”

“You killed my child!”

“I hate you! I hate you!”

Bai Xingfan was silent and looked sad.

The thing he was most worried about and most terrified of had happened—

She wants to leave him.

From the moment he learned of her miscarriage, he knew that she would never forgive him.

But he didn’t want to let her go.

When he locked her in the bird cage, he also locked himself in, and the key was hidden in his heart.

If she wanted to fly out, she had to cut open his heart to take out the key.

He loves her to the core, and unless he drains the marrow, he will never let her go.

However, Su Yan was completely desperate for him, she just wanted to stay away, and she didn’t want to have anything to do with him in her life.

She cried and trembled, her voice hoarse and sobbing: “Can you let me go? I beg you to let me go!”

Bai Xingfan closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

When he opened his eyes again, his eyes were extremely calm, and he reiterated in his tone: “We will definitely have children again.”

He won’t let her go.

Su Yan was startled for a moment, then cried and laughed: “It’s impossible, Bai Xingfan, I don’t want to have any more of your children in my life!”

Bai Xing Brahma did not change his color, and his angular facial features revealed a stubborn paranoia: “Then don’t want children, we can don’t have children.”

He will not change.

never.

He is paranoid in his bones, and no one can change him.

Tears blurred Su Yan’s vision again. She weakly loosened his collar and closed her eyes in exhaustion. She was desperate: “Go away, I don’t want to see you.”

The torrential rain last year covered his true face. She went home with him like a fool. Even though Xie Yu had revealed the truth to her, she still did not give up, and was still deceiving herself into believing that he would do it for her and her. Children change.

However, the rainstorm yesterday completely washed away his disguise, allowing her to see exactly what kind of person he was.

His bones are cold and will never be warmed, even with children.

She was so disappointed in him that she really didn’t want to see him again, not even a single glance.

Perhaps, she could never forgive him in her life.

But he was always by her side.

So she started not eating or drinking, forcing him to leave on a hunger strike.

He was helpless, so he had to pick up the fat aunt from home and take care of her on his behalf.

Half a month later, Su Yan was discharged from the hospital, but even when she returned home, her attitude towards him was the same.

She didn’t want to be in the same room with him, let alone share the bed with him, or even eat with him.

As long as he was at home, she locked herself in her room, and stayed out unless he left the manor.

Bai Xingfan tried to change this situation more than once, but she never gave him a chance. As soon as he approached, she would turn around and leave.

She not only blocked him, but also closed herself.

In the half month after she was discharged from the hospital, she did not step out of the manor again, not because she couldn’t, but because she didn’t want to.

She felt that the world seemed to be far away from her. Although everything in front of her was so beautiful, she couldn’t touch it. When she reached out, what she touched was not the sun and rain, but the cold transparent glass.

The lively world of elegance is outside the glass, and she is inside the glass.

She can’t get out.

She also tried to go to work, and often locked herself in the study, but couldn’t write a word, and sat in front of the computer with a blank expression for a whole day.

Inspiration and desire disappeared like a tide, and she sat on the closed dry beach, living her life in a daze every day.

If it wasn’t for the fat aunt calling her to eat on time every day, she would most likely not be able to eat rice and water all day.

But even when she went to the restaurant, she was full after just a few bites.

She also lost interest in food, eating just to survive.

The most terrifying thing is that when night comes, as soon as she closes her eyes, she will think of the mountaintop cemetery covered by torrential rain, of Bai Xingfan’s gloomy and gloomy face, and of her child.

She started to lose sleep all night long.

Later, she often stood on the balcony outside the bedroom day and night, staring at the vast Swan Lake in a daze.

On the azure waters, flocks of swans spread their wings and fly. She was fascinated by the sight. Every time she thought with envy, if she could become a swan too, she could spread her wings and fly out of this gorgeous place. bird cage.

She didn’t want to be a nightingale anymore.

The nightingale’s life is drying up.

One night, the fat aunt came to call her for dinner.

She went downstairs in a routine manner and sat down at the dining table.

Not long after, Bai Xingfan walked into the restaurant.

The moment she saw him, her heart clenched fiercely, and the memory of that rainy day immediately popped up in her mind—

Her child turned into a pool of blood.

He killed their children.

She didn’t want to see him again, so she got up from the stool and walked towards the door with a gloomy face.

“Cub!” Bai Xingfan eagerly stood in front of her, and put his hands on her shoulders, with all kinds of pleading in his lowered eyes, “Will you listen to me?”

Su Yan’s eyes were cold, and her tone was cold: “Don’t touch me.”

Bai Xingfan had to let go of her, and lowered his arms weakly, his tone was still cautious: “I just want to discuss something with you, listen to what I have to say? It won’t delay you for a long time.”

Su Yan lowered her eyes, her face was light, and she said nothing.

Bai Xingfan looked at her face cautiously, and said tentatively, “I made an appointment with a doctor, shall we go see him together tomorrow?”

He had already noticed that her mental state was extremely abnormal, and the fat aunt also reported this to him.

He was worried about her, so he immediately made an appointment with a psychiatrist for her.

Su Yan looked suspicious: “I’m not sick, why should I go to the doctor?”

Bai Xingfan thought about his words: “You have always looked tired recently.”

Su Yan noticed the difference: “Do you think I have a mental problem?”

“No, I’m worried about your health.” Bai Xingfan knew that she would definitely not agree to see a psychiatrist, so he had already figured out the reason for taking her to the hospital, “You need to go for a re-examination half a month after discharge.”

Su Yan not only lost hope in him, but also lost trust in him. She didn’t believe his words at all, let alone do what he asked: “I won’t go.” Her tone was extremely firm, “I’m fine.”

Bai Xingfan also expected this to be the case, and said patiently: “Your feeling should be correct, but it will be more reassuring after the doctor’s diagnosis.”

Su Yan’s eyes narrowed, and her expression was full of precaution: “Why do you have to let me go to the hospital?”

Bai Xingfan: “I don’t trust you.”

Su Yan’s emotions suddenly became agitated, and she was as frightened as a bird: “Are you trying to lock me up? You want to lock me in a smaller cage!”

“I don’t, I will never lock you up!” Bai Xingfan pressed his hands down, trying to guide her to control her emotions in this way, with a serious and sincere expression, “I’m just worried about you.”

Su Yan showed no mercy: “I don’t need you to worry.”

Bai Xingfan sighed helplessly: “You are my wife, how could I not worry about you?”

Su Yan looked at him intently, was silent for a long time, and said expressionlessly:

“Bai Xingfan, I don’t want to be your wife anymore.”

“Let’s get a divorce.”