Yan Yan - Chapter 54

He can’t get a divorce.

I will never divorce her.

But the top priority now is to take her to see a doctor. Her health is more important, and he has to appease her emotions first, so he did not directly reject the proposal of divorce, but used the strategy of delaying the fight: “Body is important, we Go to the hospital for re-examination first, and talk about other things later.”

Su Yan resisted the hospital and doctors, and was afraid that they would label herself “mentally ill” and forcibly lock her in a small closed room with no sunlight.

Compared with the small cage, she would rather stay in the big cage without leaving home.

She was flustered and firmly reiterated: “I’m not going to the hospital, I’m not sick.”

Bai Xingfan had no choice but to step back and secondly, persuading in a gentle tone: “Okay, we can skip going to the hospital and let the doctor come to the house, okay?”

Su Yan was eager and helpless, looking at him incomprehensibly: “I’m not sick, why do you have to force me to see a doctor?”

Bai Xingfan had to explain again: “I didn’t force you to see a doctor, I just wanted them to give you a simple health check.”

Su Yan didn’t believe him at all, and asked with a sneer, “What to check? Where to check? What do you think is wrong with me? Is it because I don’t want to sleep with you?”

Bai Xingfan was helpless, sighed long, and had to confess to her: “There is something wrong with your mental state, and I am very worried about you.”

Sure enough, he wanted to turn her into a lunatic and put her in a smaller cage for that reason.

He was still so unscrupulous.

I won’t let you succeed again – Su Yan did not compromise at all, and said word by word: “I’ll tell you again, I’m not sick.”

Bai Xingfan felt powerless, his eyebrows frowned slightly, and his eyes were full of distress and helplessness.

He knew that her current mental state was at stake, like a fragile porcelain with cracks, and it might fall apart when touched.

He didn’t want to irritate her again, and he didn’t want to force her to do something she didn’t want to do, but she had to go to the doctor.

In order to get her to receive treatment, he had to use tough methods, and he ruthlessly restrained the helplessness and distress in his expression, and looked at her coldly: “Don’t you want to divorce? If you can’t adjust your mental state, the court will absolutely We are not going to be divorced.”

Su Yan panicked and immediately retorted: “I’m fine! My mental state is fine!”

Bai Xing Brahma did not change his expression: “Who can prove it? Only your husband.”

Su Yan was dumbfounded and speechless.

“Of course, monitoring at home is also possible.” Bai Xing’s Sanskrit tone was slow and calm, “How do you think lawyers and judges will judge your mental state after seeing the monitoring?”

Su Yan was helpless, desperate and helpless, and her eyes gradually turned red.

Her tears were rolling in her eyes, Bai Xingfan was so distressed, but in order for her to accept a psychiatrist, he had to do this: “If you don’t want to go to the hospital, we will treat you at home, and tomorrow morning I will ask the driver to pick up the doctor. Come here, you have to be obedient and cooperate with the doctor, understand?”

She can only answer “understand” or “don’t understand”.

You cannot answer “yes” or “no”.

He asked her to see a doctor, and she had to see a doctor, even if she wasn’t sick at all.

The feeling of grievance was like a huge wave, slapped straight into her chest, she couldn’t bear to cry, and kept whimpering and repeating: “I’m not sick, I don’t want to see a doctor, I’m not sick…”

She didn’t feel like she was in an abnormal state.

She felt she couldn’t be better now.

She doesn’t care whether she can touch the world, whether her inspiration for creation is exhausted, or whether she can’t sleep all night, she doesn’t care about anything.

She just wants to be alone, sitting quietly in a closed glass cover, drying up bit by bit until it turns into dust, and then it settles silently, no one disturbs, no one cares, Just let her disappear slowly by herself.

She burst into tears, desperate and helpless.

Bai Xingfan’s heart hurt like a knife, and he wanted to stretch out his arms to hug her, but he didn’t dare, because he was afraid that it would irritate her.

She now refuses and resists all his touches.

She sealed up her own world, and no longer allowed him to take a step into it.

He gritted his teeth, tried his best to suppress the choking in his throat, and swore to her: “I will never lock you up again.”

Su Yan looked at him with tears in her eyes, disappointed: “But you have locked me up.”

Bai Xingfan’s expression was eager and his tone was firm: “I will change!”

Su Yan shook her head vigorously: “You won’t, I can’t change you, the child can’t change you, you will never change.”

Bai Xingfan assured her again: “I will definitely change!”

As long as you don’t leave me, I can do anything.

Su Yan kept shaking her head.

She once believed in him, but the price was painful. She lost her child, which caused her to completely lose all hope and confidence in him.

In any case, she would not continue to believe him anymore.

“I don’t need you to change, I just want you to let me go.” Su Yan now has only one request left for him: “I beg you to divorce me? Let me go!”

There was a lot of pleading in her choked voice.

Every word was a bullet, shot right in the chest.

Among the three thousand things in the world, the only thing that “lost her” was beyond his power.

For the first time in this life, Bai Xingfan chose to be a coward and cowardly chose to escape from reality.

He lowered his eyes and stopped looking at her: “The company still has something to deal with, you should eat first and rest early in the evening.” After speaking, he turned and left the restaurant.

Looking at the back of him leaving, Su Yan cried and laughed, her smile so bitter that it was astringent.

The sweet love that used to be like an illusion, after being broken by reality, there is only one fragment left.

Bai Xingfan left the manor.

When night came again, Su Yan once again stood on the balcony outside the bedroom.

The temperature gradually turned cooler, she was wearing only a long beige sweater, her slender and slender legs were bare/exposed, and a pair of white slippers were on her feet.

The evening wind was blowing, and the chill was terrifying. It could penetrate the clothing sharply and attack the skin, but Su Yan could not feel the coldness at all.

She put her hands on the icy glass railing and looked at the Swan Lake not far away.

The night was bleak, the lake was dark and deep, and there was very little moonlight on it.

The figure of the swan merged into the dark night and turned into a deep blue; under the moonlight, above the earth, it spread its wings and flew freely.

The world is vast, and they can fly anywhere they want.

She couldn’t wait to become a swan, and never wanted to be a nightingale in a cage again.

She is also not sick and does not need to see a doctor.

She won’t let him get away with it.

She will turn into a swan tonight and fly out of this cage of roses.

As the night turned dark, the lights in the next room suddenly lit up. She knew that it was Bai Xingfan who had returned home—since she was discharged from the hospital, they had separated, and she had asked for it.

He moved to the next room, separated from her by an impenetrable wall.

She was very worried that he would detect her conspiracy, so she quickly ran back to the bedroom, gently closed the door to the balcony, and drew the curtains cautiously, but instead of going to bed, she stood quietly behind the curtains, Dormant patiently.

The room was dark, but her emotions gradually became excited, and there was a strange light in her expression.

After a long time, she carefully lifted the curtains and glanced at the next door, the light was off.

He fell asleep.

Like a child who triumphed in hide-and-seek, she raised the corners of her lips mischievously and happily, and left the bedroom silently.

Bai Xingfan turned off the lights in the bedroom, but did not sleep, but went to the small study, turned on the computer, and communicated with the psychiatrist.

Her condition may be much more serious than he imagined.

After explaining Su Yan’s current situation in detail to the doctor, he explained some of her inner sensitivities and taboos, lest the doctor accidentally stimulate her during the diagnosis and treatment process.

Finally, the appointment time for tomorrow was agreed, and Bai Xingfan turned off the computer.

After returning to the bedroom, he did not go to rest, but walked towards the balcony.

Recently, she often stood alone on the balcony late at night in a daze.

He didn’t know what she was thinking, but he didn’t dare to disturb her easily.

He also knew that she would not accept his company and care, because he was a sinner and committed an unforgivable crime, so he did not dare to ask her forgiveness, but only asked her not to leave and let him guard him silently.

Standing in front of the balcony door, he raised his hand, gently opened the curtain to a gap, and looked at the next door.

But the balcony was empty.

She’s not here tonight.

He thought that she finally wanted to open a little, so he breathed a sigh of relief, and when he was about to lower the curtains, the corner of his eye suddenly swept to the garden downstairs.

In the alternating seasons of autumn and winter, the grass and trees wither, the garden is no longer lush, the branches are dry, and everything in the garden becomes unobstructed.

Under the moonlight, a thin figure traversed the path in the garden and walked straight towards the back door of the garden.

There is a path outside the back door, leading directly to Swan Lake at the foot of the mountain.

Bai Xingfan realized something, his heart shrank suddenly, he suddenly opened the glass door, and rushed to the railing like crazy, shouting: “Yanyan!” His upper body was almost fully stretched out, looking very dangerous, and there was a head at any time. possibility of falling.

However, Su Yan didn’t seem to hear his cry.

Not only did she not stop, but she accelerated her speed.

Bai Xingfan was terrified, turned around and rushed out of the balcony, out of the bedroom, and out of the manor… He was racing against her against time.

Su Yan went down the mountain along the winding path and walked to the Swan Lake step by step.

The night wind by the lake was cold and biting, but she didn’t feel it.

The Swan Lake in front of her exudes great allure, like a magic mirror that deceives people. She hooked her lips and with a happy smile on her face, she walked into the icy lake without hesitation.

The further you go, the deeper the lake gets.

Gradually, the lake water in early winter mercilessly passed over her head.

She couldn’t swim, but she didn’t struggle, quietly closing her eyes and appointing the lake to submerge her.

The lake water poured into the nose, and the feeling of suffocation gradually became stronger.

Physically it is painful, it can be said to be tortured, but psychologically it is a treat.

She can finally become a swan, can fly out of the cage, and soar freely in the sun.

He couldn’t lock her anymore.

No matter what means you use, it can’t be locked.

Her consciousness gradually blurred, and her body continued to sink like a feather falling from the sky. Suddenly, a person swam beside her, and he wrapped her body around her body and led her upstream involuntarily.

She woke up instantly and started struggling.

Don’t go ashore, don’t continue to be a nightingale!

However, compared to him, her strength is really too small, no matter how hard she struggles, she can’t shake him in the slightest.

In the end, he rescued her.

After landing, Bai Xingfan hugged Su Yan tightly in his arms and burst into tears.

He almost lost her completely…

Su Yan also cried, her whole body trembling from crying, her forehead resting weakly on his chest, her cry full of pleading: “Can you let me go? I beg you to let me go!”

A hole was burned in his heart from her tears.

A few years ago, that nightingale, who was unwilling to be restrained, smashed to death on the pillar.

Blood spattered, and its corpse fell among the blooming rose bushes.

After choking for a long time, Bai Xingfan opened his lips with difficulty, and his voice was extremely hoarse: “Okay…”

He couldn’t bear her to become the second nightingale, so he cut open his heart, took out the blood-stained key, and opened the rose cage.

Three days later, he gave her a divorce settlement.

She flew out of the cage without any hesitation.

He was trapped in a cage forever.