Hellish Deep Love - Chapter 335

“He’s a little down in the dumps.”

Just by guessing, Liu Qingyu thought that the difference between Li Yan and me was a common contradiction between the couple. She wanted us to be well and was afraid that I would worry about it. She took a few words and said, “he also asked me to help buy some beer. He drank it alone. He may not drink very well. After drinking, he was almost drunk. He staggered and asked me to go first. I had no choice but to go first. At 9:10 the next day, I felt that even if he had a hangover, he was almost awake. I wanted to go up and clean up the wine cans. Unexpectedly, Li Yan had already cleaned up and he had already left. He left a note for me, saying that he was sorry that he had drunk too much and was not polite to me. He also left 5000 yuan for me to take my children to eat something delicious. ”

As she spoke, Liu Qingyu buried her face again and turned around from the bag. She took out a bunch of money wrapped with rubber bands, and the piece of paper was among them.

After handing these to me, Liu Qingyu said, “Li Yan has already given me money to help manage the house. It’s all for famous purposes. I don’t panic with it. But I’m sorry to take the money, even if you two don’t lack it. Chen Shi, take the money. ”

Just take out the note and I’ll push the money back to Liu Qingyu: “take it. Since Li Yan gave it to you, take it.”

The paper with Li Yan’s fresh handwriting was completely put in my hand, and I held a tiny hope: “sister Qing, can you help me remember, Li Yan came here this time, he talked with you, did he say where he was going next?”

Liu Qingyu’s voice was soft: “I remember that brother Li Yan was carrying a very big climbing bag. When I saw him, I asked him whether he was going to climb the mountain or not. He answered me that he was going to climb the mountain or wade in the water. I asked him if he was climbing in Kunming. He said that Kunming was not the place he was going to. Ah, I’m a pig brain. It’s only a few days before I think about it. It’s hard for me to think about it again. Let me think about it again. It seems that brother Li Yan drank too much later, and I wanted to help him clean up the wine jar. He didn’t let me. He especially tugged at the wine jar and said that he wanted to go back to the original place. What did he say that he couldn’t go back to the original place? But I can’t understand the original place and where it is. I’ve heard a lot of puzzling, but I’ve always been in awe of brother Li Yan psychologically. He didn’t take the initiative to say that I didn’t want to gossip with him. Later, I didn’t talk much. ”

The first place?

Wolf tower?

If there is a storm after whistling, shaking in my heart, I am more and more panic, but also more and more unable to support myself, I am afraid I will be in front of Liu Qingyu tears, I try to restrain the mood, said: “sister Qing, I did not rest these two days, tired, let’s go faster, I want to rest.”

As soon as I heard that I was tired, Liu Qingyu took three steps to get to the front of the house.

Liu Qingyu put the key in, and the jingle of the door came into my ears. I was in a trance.

There are some mottled walls, which have been covered by elegant wallpaper, and the floor tiles that have been thrown up have been deeply pressed down, but that kind of layout is so familiar that I am in a trance.

What’s new is a photo wall.

I went over and stopped, which was covered with all kinds of silhouettes left by me and nian’en in Kunming.

Some of the photos were taken in DINGHE’s packing warehouse. There were pictures of me holding Nian en to eat a milk bottle for him. There were pictures of me putting Nian en in a carton, pulling the sealing tape and making a funny face to make him laugh. There were pictures of my colleagues reluctant to give Nian EN such lovely bread to eat

There are also pictures of me looking dignified when negotiating with customers in Zhongli, pictures of me holding a cup of coffee in a daze for a long time, and pictures of me walking alone in the fine rain and not even bothering to take an umbrella There are so many things in my heart that I feel sad. I excuse Liu Qingyu not to go back and have a rest earlier. I am wandering in the space where Li Yan stayed not long ago.

When I came to the balcony, I saw a row of flowerpots that had been destroyed by time. They were dotted with peanut seedlings that were not in season, and scattered golden flowers withered in the night, half covering my face. I thought of the peanuts that I had pressed down in the middle of the night in the yard deep in the clouds. They were not even as bright as this one tenth.

Holding the note Li Yan wrote to Liu Qingyu again, I seem to find some illusions in those vigorous and powerful characters that are closely related to Li Yan. I had no sleep all night.

Anxiously, after 8:30, I dialed Wu Haian’s phone number.

However, there is no good news.

Her mouth was very sorry: “I’m sorry, Chen Shi, sister Meng and brother Hou. They did call Li Yan, but Li Yan didn’t say a word when he got through. He said that he was busy ending the call, and then sister Meng called again. Before sister Meng had time to finish the lines I arranged, Li Yan once again made an excuse that he was busy, and sister Meng came back empty handed again. Later, I felt that sister Meng and brother Hou were both straightforward and simple people. They couldn’t get used to this routine, so I called Li Yan instead. This time, he didn’t answer. About Li Yan has guessed that we are helping you to inquire about his whereabouts. He is extremely unworthy. Li Chun has repeatedly told me that I can’t let Mr. Li know about it, and I can’t find Mr. Li to call you Chen Shi, I’m so sorry. Otherwise, don’t worry, OK? I’ll try to contact Li Yan again in a few days, and I’ll say that I want to start my own business. I hope Li Yan can provide me with some early help. I’ll trick him back to Shenzhen, and you’ll stop him, and you’ll talk to him clearly. Do you think that’s ok? “”Coast, I can’t wait so many days. In fact, I can’t wait a second to say it from my heart. ”

My palms quickly began to sweat, and I held my voice: “I met an old friend in Kunming. She told me that she had seen Li Yan a few days ago. From the information she gave me, I speculated that Li Yan was going to the wolf tower, and I had to go this time to confirm whether he was really there. I don’t know how well he is physically. I have to race against the clock. I’m not familiar with ticketing. Can you help me buy the fastest, earliest and most convenient ticket from Kunming to Urumqi? No matter how much it costs, coast, can you help me? ”

“Buying tickets is a piece of cake.”

After ten seconds of silence, Wu Haian was slightly worried: “I’m not familiar with outdoor routes, but I’ve also heard that wolf tower is dangerous, and this solar term is bound to have heavy snow or something. How unsafe you are.”

My voice is more shallow: “don’t worry, I’m afraid of death now. I still have a child to take care of. My sister-in-law is going to have a baby in a few months. I haven’t seen Chen Yihe’s baby yet. Now I cherish my life very much. I will spend money to find some reliable guides to go into the mountain with me.”

Wu Haian said that she helped me deal with the ticket business immediately. About half an hour later, my mobile phone received the ticket issue notice.

With four hours to go before takeoff, I called Xiao Guo. My intention was to tell him that he didn’t have to wait for me and that he could arrange his own time to go back to Shenzhen first. Unexpectedly, Xiao Guo told me that he and Li Chun were already on the highway back to Shenzhen and they were having breakfast in the service area.

I gave another call to Liu Qingyu.

To be on the safe side, I implore her to come up to the house from time to time and have a look. Once Li Yan comes, please let me know immediately.

After explaining everything, I went to the outdoor goods store I used to patronize, and packed all the things needed by Wolf tower.

With a heavy burden of more than 30 kg, I ran all the way to the airport.

Thank goodness, this flight started smoothly. I landed at diwobao International Airport at about seven o’clock.

I didn’t expect that as soon as I left the terminal, I received a phone call from sister Meng. She asked me to wait at the exit for another three or five minutes, and they would arrive immediately.

After a while, I met the fully armed dream sister, Hou Ge, and thin monkey.

I was particularly surprised. Sister Meng explained that Wu Haian had not been able to help me. She was very worried that I would mess around. She was afraid that I would randomly find an outdoor line that Li Yan might take to try my luck. She gathered them at the airport early in the morning. She was going to come to Kunming with them to squat on me. When she knew that I was going to move to Urumqi, Wu Haian had a tear gland Once lost, my voice was choked: “Li Yan, you are really cruel enough. I really doubt whether your heart is made of stone or steel. How can you be so cruel to me! ”

Suddenly, Li Yan’s hand also stretched out to press on the zipper button. He used the great disparity between men and women’s strength to prevent me from braking the zipper. He even deadlocked with me and confronted me with silence.

At this moment, he is still like a winner who can always stand in an invincible position. I am a poor man who has lost thousands of times but is still willing to lose. I have no time to make room for the physical and mental torture I have suffered in recent days. I just want to attack Li Yan’s heart faster, more accurately and more ruthlessly, and capture him. I want to say goodbye to him Liang Kuan’s fortress, I have to take him back. I should seek medical treatment. If I still get the incurable result after seeking help from many doctors, I will accompany him to the end of his life.

Every minute.

Constantly sniffing, I tried my best, but I still wanted to play up the painful tears wantonly. I controlled my voice in a fairly stable degree: “Li Yan, you open the tent first, I have something to say to you face to face.”

“I have nothing to say to you.”

Finally breaking the silence, Li Yan said: “we have officially said goodbye, which shows that we recognize the fact that we are good at getting together and scattering. I don’t love you anymore, I think I’ve made it clear

“Li Yan, you fart! When you treat me like a fool in the dark, you are so at ease! I know all about it! I know what you divorced me for! Before I came here, I went to Kunming. I found your old nest. You pasted pictures of our family in the house I used to rent. Don’t tell me you have a double personality

Pulling the edge of the tent heavily, I shook like crazy: “Li Yan, I tell you, from the moment I enter the wolf tower, I have been psychologically prepared. If I can’t catch up with you this time, I will continue to go to Aotai, Wusun, XIATE ancient road, North and South Xinjiang, and I will go to any route you may go to, and I will meet you. Li Yan, I tell you, for you, I’m a must. You can’t find some stupid and lame excuses to push me away from you. ”

“I’m not very interested. You know what you mean. I don’t know why you are still imagining my divorce. I’m very clear. I don’t want to delay the rest of my life.”The tone is still indifferent and alienated. Li Yan said lightly: “the wolf tower is not mine. If you want to come, I can’t stop it. But you and I have nothing to do with each other. I hope you don’t affect my mood when I walk outdoors. Please leave

My heart is like a surging sea. I should have had a lot to say, but after several days and nights of long journey, coupled with emotional depression, at this moment my brain is like being poured into the paste. The more anxious I am, the more powerless I am. The more anxious I am, the more I can’t express myself. I can only make a big move.

After a hard quenching, I scolded: “I Pooh! Li Yan, let me tell you this. Before I came into the wolf tower, I had entrusted nian’en to Chen Yihe, Li Yan and a group of people from Dajin Xiaoxiao Wu coast. They are very reliable. I am sure that even without me, they will make nian’en grow up happily and healthily. I’ve made up my mind from the beginning. If I’m lucky enough to meet you and you don’t want to cooperate with me, you still insist on blocking me out of your world, then I won’t go out from the wolf tower. Just as it happens, the snow mountain in the distance of a tree camp is undoubtedly the soul of wolf tower. As long as Li Yan refuses to communicate with me normally after a while, you can wait and see, and you can collect the corpse for me! Anyway, you are not sick. You are so selfish that you only think about how to live happily. You have never thought about me and my children. You are not willing to accept medical treatment. You still toss yourself like this. Sooner or later, you will not survive. Even if you are a scum man who often makes me cry, I can’t put you down, I can’t watch you die, then I will die in front of you! Since you are so passive to escape from life, you don’t even give yourself a chance to try, then I will die in front of you! Because I can’t see you separated from me forever

After a pause, I held my breath and absorbed myself in carving Li Yan’s more and more heavy breathing sound into my ears. I loosened my hand holding the tent zipper, and then I laughed with awe inspiring smile: “I’m counting now, I’ll count to ten. If you can really do that, I’ll run to the direction of the snow mountain, and I’ll find the highest peak to jump down!”

Almost following the ending of my words, Li Yan hurriedly pulled the zipper open. Because he was too eager to pull, the sound of the zipper stretching out was like a huge sound like a landslide. I was delayed by the sound for a few seconds before I could react. I just like the shivering catkins of that year, I got into his tent, and I stretched out my hand to beat His shoulder beat his chest, I want to use this violent way to release the mental torture I have suffered in this period of time, but my hand is still hanging in the air, I suddenly think of Li Yan’s body living in the disease I still don’t know, I have to withdraw my hand, I turn all the strong emotions into the cold crystal in my eyes, I use the condensation of the hot line of sight “Li Yan, if I don’t come out for you this time, do you intend to keep your illness from me all the time? Are you planning not to tell me until you are critically ill? Do you think you are doing this for the sake of Nian en and me? But Li Yan, have you ever thought about it! For Nian en, you are his father, you are his dearest relatives, he can accept you from time to time to travel as an excuse to neglect contact with him, but this does not mean that one day you really can not afford, he can accept such a cruel fact! And Li Yan, have you thought about my feelings?! Do you think you’re doing this for me? Are you sure you’re doing this for me? You should know how much I love you, you know! For me, you are my favorite person, I can have the opportunity to face all the ups and downs with you, even if the final result is not satisfactory, I will leave more regrets than I do not know! I say a bad word, like you so negative to deal with the disease, one day you really fall, you let me face you have long grass grave, you feel that I was oppressed by regret, there will continue to live the courage! Li Yan, you are so conceited! You say goodbye to us in the way that you think is the best way to treat me and Nian en. In fact, this is the most cruel and heartless way! ”

Maybe I was too excited to scold, and my body moved a lot unconsciously. This succeeded in shaking my tears out of my eyes again. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t contain them this time. I simply let my emotions express, and I sobbed: “you don’t know how I’ve come these days. Wu Haian was worried that it was dangerous for me to walk alone in the wolf tower. She tried her best to make the dream sister Hou Ge thin monkey come in with me. I didn’t dare to express too pessimistic mood in front of them. When I was on my way during the day, I could only smile and get into the tent at night. As soon as I thought of your illness, I thought of Li Chun telling me that you might suddenly die at any time, so I couldn’t sleep . My imagination is very rich in my brain. I think about the picture of you falling down again and again. When I think about it, I am so scared that I can’t sit and lie down. The feeling like a thousand needles pierce my heart is really killing me. I also fell into a particularly contradictory psychology. I hope I can find you earlier, but I’m afraid I can find you. I don’t know how to persuade you to stop such selfish behavior and go back to see a doctor with me. What’s more contradictory is that I’m not sure whether it’s good for you to let it go or to take you to a doctor. I think of many examples I’ve heard around me. Some people get sick and don’t know how to continue to live an optimistic life. Later, they live to ninety-nine. Some people get sick and know that they want to fight it off by medical means, but it backfires. I am afraid I advise you to see a doctor, by medical intervention, this may not be for your good These contradictory thoughts almost broke me apart ．”The more I went back, the more I sobbed. Li Yan’s expression also changed in my emotional catharsis. His hand was hanging in the air. After all kinds of hesitation, he finally landed it on my shoulder and patted it: “Chen Shi, don’t get excited, don’t cry … ”

I shook his hand away:” don’t touch me, I don’t cry at this time, when I cry, my man may be dying, my child is going to have no father, so he agreed to share weal and woe, he didn’t take me with him, he had some physical problems and ran faster than a rabbit, he seemed to make me drink honey with him instead of suffering with him In that way, I feel half dead, I can’t cry?! If I want to cry, do I have to choose an auspicious day before I cry! Li Yan, you are really enough. You have to be so circuitous about such a simple thing! When we first got married, we all said that we should be honest and support each other in the future, but in fact, you didn’t do it from the beginning to the end! Before I had to deal with Zhao Jia and his party, you kept it from me. I understand that it’s not easy for you. I don’t want to worry about it with you any more. But now that you are sick, you keep it from me. I can’t bear it! Anyway, my words are all left here. If you push me out again, I don’t want to leave the wolf tower. I’ll leave me here! After all, I feel that I am a failure. I have spent almost ten years, but I can’t warm your heart, and I can’t let you tell me everything! I can’t let you see me as a community connected with your destiny! ”

The hand that I threw out slowly returned to my shoulder. This time, Li Yan imprisoned me with the strength that I couldn’t get rid of. He said, “Chen Shi, don’t get excited. Listen to me. I don’t know where Li Chun got the news, but he may have heard it wrong. I don’t have such serious problems ”

How dare I show my true feelings just now, which are wasted. Li Yan and I are still fighting stubbornly now?

I was so angry that I could hardly breathe in and out. All I felt was darkness. I was even more indignant: “Li Yan, you let me down so much. Good. You have to draw a line with me at this moment. Well, I finally understand that I’m a joke to you. ”

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